-you don't have to read this this is just something I need to get off my chest  -

In my community the black community our family's never really stick together

A family member could die and we don't know about it until days later

In my family I don't know many of the people there because they are so spreaded out

We all rather talk negative and keep the positive hidden not saying we don't have any good things to say but that's what it feels like

I feel like my family are all so aggressive at times when someone is being nice to them . it's nerve racking

I'm not like any of them I wasn't raised like they were most lived poorly and in bad areas so I wouldn't ever understand but I do understand that

I barely get to see my one of my siblings because her mom keeps her for my dad and is trying to ruin his life

I'm sick of it ....it hurts me when I have to be quite about it just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean I won't understand. I wanna speak up

I want to help but I feel chained down sometimes I hate it .....and I'm so sensitive that when ever there is arguing I cry or when I'm in a argument I cry

I try my best to not think of the negative but today it really kicked my ass ...so I just needed this off my chest

Once again sorry just needed this off my chest