{Speak Your Heart Out Dear}

I haven't really been feeling good lately physically I'm fine

Mentally not so much not anymore

Normally I don't do this kind of thing but I've been holding this in for too many years now

My family doesn't understand that its hard for me to speak up ....I need to find the words before I speak what I have to say....

But they always every single one of them force me to talk when I'm not ready

That hurts me .....so when I am upset I draw listen to music ....it doesn't help much because I wanna talk to someone about this

The more I hold it in the more I'm hurting myself

I'm being held together pretty much held by nothing the fear

And then again when I talk when I'm ready they judge they tell me the devil is messing with my head and I'm letting evil in .....

And they tell me I shouldn't feel this way and they turn me down

So know I'm pretty much just like well what's the point if your not really gonna help me

So yeah ....I'm not okay right now

I have a lot on my chest I can't let go of