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What if...

    In the quiet darkness of their bedroom, Shehnaaz lay cuddled up to Sidharth, her head nestled against his chest. But despite the warmth of his embrace, she couldn't shake the nagging feeling of unease that had settled in the pit of her stomach. As the minutes ticked by, Shehnaaz tossed and turned restlessly, unable to find solace in sleep. In the stillness of the night, hushed voices seemed to whisper tauntingly in her mind again, their words echoing like a haunting melody that refused to be silenced

Sidharth stirred beside her, his eyes fluttering open as he registered the distress in her. With a gentle hand, he brushed away the stray strands of hair that had fallen across her face, his touch soothing against her skin

"What's wrong Shehnaaz?" he whispered, pulling her close and wrapping his arms around her protectively. She stayed silent and buried her face against his chest, seeking solace in the warmth of his embrace but it's not giving her peace. He head hurts and from the constant pressure

"Shehnaaz?"

"Meri jaan look at me right now." He demanded pulling her head to meet their eyes. She's crying and her silent cries turned into loud sobs making him restless. He immediately sit up on bed while pulling her up as well

"You will tell me everything right now."

She yet again kept her mouth shut just looks at him with teary eyes. He noticed how her grip was hard on his hand something is hurting her. He cupped her face gently

"Shehnaaz please tell me." He begged caressing her hair gently. She just can't bring herself to tell him that she's going insane. That will just make him more worried. She doesn't wanna tell him, because she already know it's lost case, he held her hand and gave gentle kiss on her palms

"When you come home tomorrow I want to see doctor, i don't think I'm alright."

"What happened? We should go now-"

"It's not that serious Sidharth this is why I didn't want to tell you. Kal chalege na." She hugs him tightly

"I'm not sure."

"I am, don't pressure me." He sighed hugging her back with kiss on her head

"Do you need something now?" He asked rubbing her head. She nodded

"Water."

"Wait here I'll get it."

   He pulls back softly and gets off bed. As he leaves room, she moved to open drawer of nightstand and takes out her pills. Taking them instantly before shoving them back in drawers. He can back with glass of water and make her drink instead of giving her glass. He lays down pulling her with him and held her close to him. She also snuggled more closer to him

    As Shehnaaz lay curled up in Sidharth's arms, her gentle breathing a rhythmic in the stillness of the night, Sidharth couldn't shake the worry that gnawed at his heart. With each passing moment, his concern for her health grew, a heavy weight pressing down on his chest as he watched over her sleeping form. Despite his best efforts to find solace in sleep, Sidharth remained wide awake, his mind consumed by thoughts of Shehnaaz's well-being. He couldn't bear the thought of her suffering

   Gently shifting his position, Sidharth brushed a stray lock of hair from Shehnaaz's forehead, his touch tender and loving as he traced the outline of her face with his fingertips

   As the night wore on, Sidharth's exhaustion gave way to a restless vigil, his eyes never straying from Shehnaaz's peaceful expression. She seems sleeping well He listened intently to the soft cadence of her breathing, a comforting reassurance that she was still there, still with him, despite the darkness that threatened to consume them both

   With each passing hour, Sidharth's worry deepened, his heart heavy with the weight of his love for her. He would give anything to take away her pain, as the first light of dawn began to filter through the curtains, Sidharth knew that his love alone could not heal her. All he could do was hold her close, whisper words of comfort and reassurance, and pray that she would find the strength to overcome the darkness

    He closed his eyes and didn't realise when sleep took him, it just felt like few seconds when his phone started to ring. He opens his eyes. Shehnaaz wasn't sleeping beside him but he heard sink running. He turned to grabs his phone from nightstand which kept on ringing. Seeing Zain's caller Id. He was sure it must be something important if he's calling this early in morning

"No I can't go, you attend it."

"Bhai it's international if you aren't there, they would think of it as disrespect."

"I don't give fuck." His raspy voice came out

"It will just add more risk to your life, you even have a wife now." Sidharth understood what Zain was trying to say here and he wasn't wrong

"For 10 mins."

"That will work."

    He ended call as Shehnaaz comes out of washroom. She was still dressed in her white silk robe from last night. She offered smile and morning greetings to her husband as she makes way towards dressing table. He walk towards her and messes her hair on his way to restless, she gave him pout making him smile

   After doing her morning routine, she makes her way outside towards kitchen to make breakfast for both of them. They both aren't picky eaters so simple breakfast always work

"I'll have to deal with something it will only take 15 mins until than you get ready for appointment. You take 20 mins in shower anyways." He teased getting in dinning chair. He was dressed in another grey suit, hair wet from shower

"Ohkay." She smiled sliding beside him after passing him his plate "I take 30 mins in shower actually." She says looking at him with shine in her eyes instead of eating her breakfast

"That's why you smell so good." He hummed taking bite from omelette she has made, she chuckled looking away for second

"Bring me flowers on your way back."

"Is that demand?" He rise an eyebrow

"Yes." She bobbed her head cute

"Alright janam, anything else you want?" He asked, she shook her head "Then I'll be leaving," he kissed on her head while standing up. He smiled when she suddenly embraced him

"I love you."

"I love you more." More that he does

"You better come out of shower when I get home." He tells her breaking hug, she nodded with smile and waved him goodbye

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     Sidharth lift his wrist to check time, before shifting his bored and gold gaze on foreigners sitting in front of him. Another day and another people who wants to have percent in gold instead of money. He gets their point but what they don't know is nobody will get that he signal armaan to come closer and whispered something in his ear before standing up. His promised time is complete now

"Bhai you are leaving already? Can't you please wait for while i don't think I can handle them alone." Zain spoke nervously. He has always been one who feels hesitant and low without his brother by his side. Sidharth's presence has always given him confidence and strength

"I have to take Shehnaaz to see doctor, you will do just fine." Sidharth assured him, without uttering any other words, Sidharth makes his way out of room leaving them behind with armaan and Zain. He saw Aryaan outside leaning against his bike with natural frown

"See you bhai." He waved and blush when Sidharth messed his hair with smirk

   Putting cigarettes between his lips, he set down in car. He remembers flowers for his wife as she rarely demands anything from him. He asked his driver to stop by florist. He normally would want to buy enough flowers to cover whole apartment but today he went for just single rosé bouquets. She didn't tell him what flowers but everyone loves roses right? She does he knows as he brings her these often and smile spreads across her lips. She keeps them secure in vase and stare at them whole day

Getting inside building with roses in his hand. He walked towards elevator, next he entered his apartment. He noticed something while taking off his shoes. Her untouched plate of breakfast from earlier why hasn't she ate?

"Shehnaaz." He called and no respond came. He sighed walking inside room. Keeping flowers on table with eyes on restroom door

"Shehnaaz?"

"Shehnaaz?"

"Shehnaaz janam hurry up" He walked near door and knocked on it slightly. He really doesn't care if they are late, he just need reason to annoy her. She didn't answer nor water was running inside what is she even doing? He frown twisting knob and it wasn't locked. Without thinking twice he opened door and get inside

"Sidharth!"

  She gasped holding onto towel against her chest as he walked inside. He rolled his eyes she still hasn't taken bath. He was absolutely right when he said she takes hella time in bath

"Our appointment sweetheart?" He reminds her "What I told you about coming out of bath when I get home?"

"Mein jaldi ready hojaugi side hate." She says pushing him aside to get. Giggle left her mouth when he wrapped arms around her waist and pulled her closer him

"Doctor surely won't mind waiting for 5 more mins but I absolutely can't wait even for another second now." He whispered in her ear

   He picked Shehnaaz up and placed her on the bathroom counter, spreading her legs wide making her gasp. He made her wrap her legs around his waist, pulling her even more closer. Sidharth worked on his pant's zipper and ground his hips against hers, causing her to gasp with pleasure

   Without breaking eye contact, Sidharth reached down and pulled Shehnaaz's towel away, revealing her slick folds. He rubbed her clit gently, causing her to moan even louder. Shehnaaz could feel herself growing wetter with every stroke. She grabbed his bicep slowly moving towards her back

   Sidharth couldn't wait any longer. He pushed inside of Shehnaaz hard, causing her to cry out with pleasure. He began to thrust in and out of her roughly, Shehnaaz dug her nails into Sidharth's back, urging him on. He grabbed her jawline with hard grip and made her look into his eyes. Just intense eye-contact no words were exchanged as he pounds into her in exchange of her sweet moans and extreme pleasure

"I hate when you disobey me like spoiled brat." He whispered brushing his lips against hers with harsh thrust making her eyes roll back

"W-when-"

"I told you be ready when I get here you listen?" She shook her head she did not clearly she actually intentionally took time just to annoy him. He hummed quickly lifts her off the counter and onto wobbly legs before spinning her around to now face the sink

  His hand is rough between her shoulder blades, shoving her down to bend over for him. She gasped softly while he groans, before he shoves it upwards again. His fingers digging her flesh of her hips. She shake with anticipation. She looks ahead their  reflection on the mirror. She can just barely make out the way he bites his lip as he thrust

"I don't think it will be just five minutes." He confessed she knew it!

   He doesn't give her a chance to answer. He stretches her blissfully well, making her  both sob out in shock and pleasure. You clench around him, pulling moan from him. She tried to move which made him hold her still at place

"Be nice Shehnaaz," he grunts. She look up, and meet his gaze once more in the reflection and he was giving her threatening glare this man is bipolar and she knew  it from start yet she fell in love harder than she imagine she wants to live with him forever and have his babies

—

"You will be fine as you long you take your meds we are sure there will be some good news about it." Doctor assured with smile hope so

"What about nightmares?" Sidharth inquired further leaning forward being extra attentive

"She can take sleeping pills for now."

"Prescribe them."

    Shehnaaz watches as he seems more worried than she was and she feels guilty for making him worried what if she never recovers? Thoughts surrounded her mind and suddenly they whisk away when Sidharth's hand landed on hers, holding it tight as he speaks with doctor. Like he's telling her that he's always there for her. Her heart flutters and tears filled in her eyes she loves him so much

"Can you arrange team of doctors. Only best around world and don't worry about budget." He requested he never request but for her he would do anything and everything

"Off course.

     They bid farewells to doctor. Sidharth stepped out she goes back in to collect her purse she left inside meanwhile he waited outside. She was taking her purse when something came to her mind. She looked  at doctor

"I want to ask something."

"Yes mrs chaudhary?"

"Can I have kids?" She asked hesitantly. Doctor looked at her and smiled

"Yes you can." She can have kids! They can have kids! That's enough for her to fight this battle. That's enough for her to keep surviving in hopes of having her very own family. She walked outside with smile on her face. He was speaking with armaan and when he saw her he dismissed him and came to lock his arm around her neck to pull her against him

"Never hide anything from me Shehnaaz you are my everything and if something happens you I'm coming right after you." He promised

"Don't speak nonsense." She murmured taking out her phone "Photos len?" She smiled showing his phone and opens camera

  He looked himself in front camera and styled his hair with  smirk "I'm damn handsome. Never seen someone as handsome as me." He said making her chuckle

"Our future son will be more handsome."

"That's because he will have my handsome genes meri jaan baap per jayega." He said smugly and takes phone from her to take selfies since she's short even in those 5 inches heels. She lifts herself to place kiss on his cheeks as he takes photo

"Perfect!"

—

"Rasheedi keep your son away from my daughter before k throw him in sea." Sidharth warned pulling his 3 year old daughter Gina chaudhary away from 10 year old zorawer who himself was trying to push baby away but she won't leave his side

"Looks like your daughter is in love." Mrs rasheedi snort earning glare from him

"Love and your good for nothing son? No fucking way." He scoffed

"Your kids are good for nothing spoiled rotten! My son is perfectly fine you asshole!" She shouted pushing her son away to stand in front of him to glare at him how dare he insults her son

"My kids are best in whole world and they aren't spoiled but privileged. Go and correct how you address things." He faked his smile

"Go to hell."

"No thanks because that's where you live and I have no interest in staying at same place as you." He return her glares

"You asshole."

"You bit-"

"Stop daddy muma is glaring at you." His son 5 year old Zafar tugged on his pants. Fuck he lift his gaze to look at Shehnaaz who was standing with hands on her hips was ready to ball they were at cricket weekend where he was suppose to do fielding instead of here arguing with rasheedi. She was wearing pink tracksuit, hair pulled in messy high ponytail

"What are you doing! Agar hum apki wajha se har gaye I'm not speaking to you ever again!" She shouted for him to hear

"She disturbed me!" He pointed at rasheedi who gasped in shock liar! "Take you sister inside alright?" He messed hair of zafar who blushed with nodded and drags Gina inside who wants to spend more time with zorawer

"I like how you are afraid of her and it's almost funny because you are literally gang leader." Zain laughed making Mrs rasheedi snicker

"Go fuck yourself."

"Actually...I have wife now soo." He smiled waving at maham who was in opposite team. She waved back at him with smile Everyone is literally married at this point look at Aryaan being blushy with his wife amna. Zorawer gabool and his wife alizey marriage in air

He ignored his wife's glares and walked towards her grabbing ball from her. She looked at him with frown

"Dekho I'm hard and we need to end this game soon so I can fuck you. Give me just one over and I'll balled out them all just wait and watch." He whisper in her ear when he's not hard! She shakes her head as he gently pushes her aside and heard groans from others

She went towards her kids who were watching match through glass wall with zorawer gabool and his wife. Alizey was playing with Gina meanwhile Zafar was just looking at his daddy with admiration in his eyes

"Hi muma." Gina giggles making her smile. Hey baby She said taking Gina in her arms and turn to look at match huh already finished! She can see defeated faces of opposite teams and her husband rushing towards them

"Good match daddy!" Zafar gives him thumbs up. Sidharth crouched down to his level and places kiss on his cheek

"Thank you." And that witch says his kids are spoiled Zafar busy him with few more of his random questions as they move towards their apartment. Question like why birds fly? Why can't we fly Sidharth has learn to have some patience. Old him would have gotten so annoyed but father him answers all questions with smile

"You bought these roses for me?" Shehnaaz smiled looking at red roses banquet on dining table as they gets inside home. She was still forgetful with few things but it doesn't effect them much but she has managed to have healthily life by taking meds and treatments on time

"Who else will?" Off course she wrapped arms around him and place kiss on his lips

"Shower?" He whispers

"Yes shower." She nodded

"Yeah I also want shower!" Gina shouted with giggle making them laugh. She's quite energetic and loves cat just like her muma

"Gina stop shouting." Zafar said. Like father like son he's opposite of Gina but unlike his father he has good manners

This was family they dreamed of together and build. Shehnaaz fight for survival just to be with them her kids her husband and she succeeded. Only because her husband helped her through this. He was always there for her. He might be villain and cruel for many but for her. He's her saviour and protector

THE END