Another Story... This one will at most be 10 chapters long... hope you guys enjoy... Sorry for all the sad stories... I'm just better at sad stories than happy stories =P... and I have a lot of sad story ideas and... ya this is going to be sad (will possibly make Hanna-nii cry)

Don't know when I'll update... I have so much stuff to do and you guys giving me around 50 emails a day isn't helping =.=

Rated PG-13 cuz ummm well there are obvious hints of stuff .-. uhhh shuddap... and then there is like uh the subject of death... BELIEVE IT OR NOT~!!!

Dedication to the one and only Mao-chan or @INFINITE_WARRIOR (subject to change) HAPPY BIRTHDAY... I DEDICATE THIS TO YOU!!! Hope you enjoys ^o^... btws I wrote this on like 1/11/2014 so ya =P

ENJOY!

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Shock:

When you first get devastating news of your own terminal illness, the terminal illness or death of a loved one, or a life-impacting event such as a divorce or natural disaster, your first reaction is shock. You don't want to believe it. You don't know how to react. You become confused and disoriented.

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Describe shock.

Well shock could be a sudden and violent blow or impact also known as a collision.

Shock could also be a sudden or violent disturbance or commotion.

In other's minds it's the cause of a disturbance.

And to those doctors, it was a collapse of circulatory function, causing severe injury, blood loss, or disease, and characterized by pallor, sweating, weak pulse, and very low blood pressure.

For me, Natsu Dragneel, it was all of them adding a sudden or violent disturbance of the mind, emotions, or sensibilities.

This wasn't supposed to happen, we were supposed to get married, have kids, and basically have a happily ever after.

Never would I have thought that the day I proposed to her would be the day of her death.

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It was a normal day, the sky painted the soft pastel colors of pink, orange, red, purple, and yellow.

I looked at the time and decided, today was the day. July 7.

To think it was but a mere few years ago that I had lost my foster father Igneel in that car crash. July 7th was supposed to mark a sad day, but I was long over the 6 stages.

Today, instead of grieving, it would be known as the anniversary of the day I proposed to Lucy Heartfilia. It would be the birth of a whole new meaning for July 7th.

It would be a day of happiness and joy, a day of remembering the good and the bad. This day would signify more than the disappearance of my foster father.

Today was the day that I would celebrate rebirth and renewal. I could be happy and surely make amends with my horrible path... just as long as Luce was there.

Luce was the absolute picture of perfect in my eyes. She had long golden locks that she would put up in various hairstyles fitting how she wanted to feel. She also had big brown eyes that reminded me of warm melting chocolate. There was always a fire in her eyes whenever something made her mad or determined. There were also her round, full lips, and her flushed cheeks.

I have to say the thing that was most mesmorizing about her was her sweet voice. It was a soft melody that had to be combined with the perfect harmony to present such a satisfying tune.

All in all, she was perfect. There is not another word I could describe her with besides Lucy Heartfilia... or Lucy Dragneel.

(A.N.: I died I'm sorry Q.Q)

And after that it was just the matter of whether or not I really had to the guts to tell her how I felt. It was a common known fact that I really didn't like the subject of love or any mushy stuff that almost all men in the guild talked about.

It wasn't that I didn't understand it, I just refused to talk about it because it simply led to other topics that weren't of my liking.

It was an obscure thing.

I started my walk towards Lucy's house. It had been almost 3 months that we had been together, but ignoring the obvious dissaproval of getting married before even dating half a year, I was convinced that we were going to be together forever.

"Yo Flamebrain, what's with the boquet of roses and the small package?" Gray asked obviously suprised that I wasn't up in the mountains or by the beach training and/ or moping.

As he neared, he shocked expression turned into a stare until he was obviously wide eyed and completely flabberghasted.

"TODAY!!! YOU ARE PROPOSING TO HER TODAYYYYY?!?!" He practically screamed.

"Quiet down Ice Princess. I don't need you telling all of Magnolia" I quickly shushed Gray.

"ahgqliearuhgeiruhwerwliehglieurghqeriugqhreuhrilugqherigquehiluqerghirghqr!???" Gray asked again

"Shut up Popsicle stick! Don't go getting your panties in a knot" I rolled his eyes, why couldn't I go one morning without seeing him? Especially this morning?

"Ohhhhh you wanna go at it?" Gray challenged.

I was obviously tempted. I didn't want him thinking he won, yet I really didn't want to miss out on Luce.

"Tommorrow... I'm going to go see Lucy. Go get hooked up with Juvia or something" I brushed passed him, with a smirk on my face. I handled that well.

"Oi...oi... TEME!" Gray shouted, yet it was too late, I had rounded the corner chuckling at my remark.

Making it to Lucy's house I jumped up on to her window sill and found that the window was cracked open.

A nice smell of pancakes wavered through the small crack.

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that smelled so much better than the pancakes that I tried to make this morning.

(A.N.: *shivers*)

The window squeaked just a little informing Lucy of my arrival.

"Natsu?" she peeked around the corner to see if it was me.

"Heyo Luce" I smiled, being careful to hide the bouquet and the ring.

"Oh thank goodness you came. I made pancakes for you, but wasn't sure if you were going to come over because......."

An awkward silence came over us as she realized what she was about to say.

I smiled, "well thanks for making me pancakes Luce."

"Ahhhh.. my pleasure"

We sat down at the table and then I gave her the roses.

"Thank you so much for the roses. They're so beautiful" she exclaimed, smelling the white roses I had gotten her.

"Think of it as a thank you present for the pancakes"

"Itadakimasu"

"Itadakimasu"

And with that we ate our pancakes while talking about the guild.

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When we finished, we went to the beach and went up on a high cliff.

"I bet I can beat you to that ledge" I pointed at a ledge not too far down from where we were standing.

"You're on"

We raced towards the ledge, being the gentleman I was I gave her a slight head start. As we neared the edge she was ahead of me and I saw that she was going to win.

I tugged on her leg...

She lost her balance.

And she fell.

She screamed and held her hand out towards me as I called her name and lunged towards her.

I managed to get a secure hold on the platform below but she fell...

Down

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Down.

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Down

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Down the cliff.

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 and dissappeared, under the foamy white tide of the sea.

And once again, everything was peaceful.

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At first I just stared. Had that really happened. Had she really just fallen and dissappeared?

I thought for sure in a matter of seconds she would've burst through the surface of the water and yelled at me in a playful tone to get down here.

And yet I stood, staring down from upon the platform, utterly paralyzed.

What the hell just happened....?

After a few minutes I started doubting she would come. And staring for an hour, I finally realized that I maybe should go down there.

Slowly climbing down the steep cliff, I went down.

The water was deep, almost two times my height, but ignoring the stinging of the salt water to my eyes I dived down to the bottom.

She was there... lifeless and obviously already gone.

And I just stared. Even with my lungs begging me to get some air, I stared.

Then all emotions burst through me as I desperately swam over to her and pulled her to the surface.

She had no pulse, yet that didn't matter... I did everything I could ever try to do.

She didn't wake up.

And only then and there did I realized...

that she never would.

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I'm dead... I'm sorry... I love you... don't kill me... wait I'm dead... never mind... *dies again*

okie idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk ;-; whatever I'm confused about what I just wrote .-.~AWH >^.^<