"I've never been able to tell people how i feel, I've always kept it inside. Most often its the intensely negative & destructive emotions I bottled up ... Most often to the point where they begin to quietly destroy me from the inside out. Everyone seems obsessed with happiness & positivity. We live in a society where everyone has smiling photos & happy lives and I don't know how to relate because i don't feel like smiling ... I don't have a particular happy life. I make my profile photos like Everyone else's, I smile & talk about weather like everyone else ... But what i'm presenting isn't real a lot of time.
     Sometimes I wonder - what if nobody's really that happy? What if everyone else is looking at everyone else & pretending to be happy because it's what they think is "Normal".
What if we're all liar pretending to be something we're not, when really, feeling sad or discontent is normal & if only one person just stood up & admitted it, we'd all start to realize what a farce it really is ...
     But then i think ... Perhaps it is just me, & telling people would just bring them down. Perhaps it's better to keep the negativity inside so it doesn't hurt other people & make them sad. Because that's the last thing in the world i'd ever want ...
To be the cause of someone else feeling what i feel ...
Everyday ...

>>> Ranata Suzuki.

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