I have nothing against OC x Canon. This will be angsty btw (practicing angst atm)
Inspired by the song uptop.

Please don't be mad at me for writing this
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Naib's POV

"You liiikkkeee hiiiimmmmmm!" I tease at my bestfriend. "No I do not!" Esther squeals back, her cheeks sprayed with a faint blush.

I fake a chuckle and point at (Uhhh frick it eeny minnie miney mo) Norton who was playing with his magnets. "Oohh... look at how cute he is....~" I tease, puckering up my lips as her face lightens up with a light red. "Naib!" she growls.

I snicker and grab her, my face burning slightly as I hug her before throwing her to the prospector's direction. She looks at me with her big blue eyes as I return a fake smile and held a thumbs up "Go get him, tiger," I whisper. She glares at me "I'm only going there to make friends...." she grumbles and starts walking to him.

I snicker and turn away, hiding my hurt expression. "I'll be in my room!" I say with a fake tone. Damn, this hurts.

I heard faint chattering and faint cheerful laughter from the two. They're getting along just fine...

I smile and enter my room, closing it slowly. The faint happy sounds getting blocked off by my door, the silent noise ringing in my ear.

I smile as quietness engulf me "She's happy..... I should be too. I mean, I guess I was getting a bit uninteresting to her, huh," I say to myself, letting out a sad chuckle.

I didn't expect tears to fall down my face, leaving wet trails on my cheekbones. I felt myself become weak as I slid down the door. I hold back the tears, hugging my knees and legs as I cover my crying face with my arms.

It hurts... It hurts knowing.... she's happier with him...

I hit my forehead hard with my hand as I sob onto the sleeves of my clothes.

Using my energy, I stood up and sat on the floor next to my bed, carefully grabbing a picture underneath my pillow. I sat down on the floor and lean on the bed, scanning the photo in my hand.

It was a picture back at the army, where she would come and perform for us as entertainment. I had asked for a picture with her and there we started talking ... We looked so happy there. A little awkward, but both smiling. I was in a stiff pose with a smile while she had her hands behind her back, smiling shyly to the camera.

I chuckle at the memory and held it to my chest. Wish I could turn back time to the good old days.

I carefully return the picture to where it belongs and rest myself on my knees,letting some tears fall down the wooden carpeted floor.

"Looks like I lost, huh?" I ask myself. I smile and stare at my bandaged hands. "The worst part is I became a bridge when the truth is... I want to be the one she ends up with."

I sniffle and hug myself. "Atleast I'm sure now that she'll be happy... Even though I'm not the reason why she's smiling..." I reassure myself as I cry, curling my body and hiding my face between my knees.

I let out sobs and cries, I didn't even realize someone entered my room. A presence suddenly appeared next to me, their warmth touching my cold hard body.

Thin arms covered in long sleeves appeared, pulling me into a warm embrace, surprising me as well as I feel myself get tense.

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No One's POV

The musician wraps her arms around the crying form, her eyes closed and cheeks colored in red. "Please... don't cry. I hate seeing you cry...." she whimpers.

Yet you're the reason why I'm like this... Naib thoughts, not moving. He clears his throat "Essy? Why are you here? Aren't you and Norton having fun? Weren't you... enjoying his company?" he asks, hurt secretly lacing his tone.

The girl shook her head and hugged tighter. "I wanted to check on you... and.... I like being with you more..." she replies, lowering her voice on the last part.

Naib smiles sadly "Is that so? Don't worry, I'm fine. You can go back now," he responds, unaware of the last part. He felt the arms around him loosen "Why... are you pushing me away?" Esther whispers.

Naib displays a confused look as he looks at the girl. He saw that she was looking down, only seeing the top of her raven hair as her head leaned on his shoulder.

"I thought you like Norton?" he asks. The girl tenses up and let's her arms fall back to her sides. "You say that like you're oblivious about everything... I don't like him... because... I like... you..." she answers, almost inaudible.

Naib looks at her shock "Me? Don't play with me, Essy," he jokes, partnering it up with a small laugh. "Come on, me? Your best friend? Are you se—"

"I mean it..... and you being like that hurts me," she cuts him off. Stray tears fell to the floor under her. Naib stares as more water drops. "Esther, stop. This isn't fu—"

"i'm not joking!" she shouts and stands up, lifting her head. She revealed her glossy blue eyes, red cheeks, and a crying expression. "I like you, Naib Subedar!" she raise her voice, she clenches her fist on her side as she closes her eyes in attempt to stop the tears.

"Ever since we met! Since the day I first visited your stations!" Esther glares at the dude. Naib watches as the girl rages in front of him, speechless.

"And you know what?! It hurts knowing you'll never like me back!" She buckles her knees together, grabbing her chest as if her heart was in pain.

"I gave you hints, made you feel like you're not alone, and tried to be strong, just for you! But you repay me by hooking me up with someone I don't even like?! That's messed up, Naib!" she confessed.

"It feels like... you're trying to get rid of me?" she gives him a sad hurt look "How would you feel if someone you love tried to throw you away like garbage, huh?! Am I garbage to you?! Well you could have just said it Naib! Instead of going the much harder and painful way!" she wipes a tear away from her red tear stained cheeks.

"You hurt me... why didn't you just end it? I would have understand you know....." she lowers her voice and stared at Naib. "I would do anything just to make you happy Naib, even if it meant me leaving your side.... I'd do it. That's how much I love you,"she falls to the ground, her legs completely giving up.

Esther sobs into her hands, covering her face as Naib stares at her. The guy didn't know what to do. He was dumbstruck and stunned of what happened.

Esther raises her head, her eyes holding a teary eyed glare towards Naib. "I hope you're happy, a*shole," she says before standing up and running to the door.

The mercenary woke up from his trance and held out a hand "Esther wai—"

The door slammed shut, leaving the man inside the empty, memory filled room.

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I'm practicing angst since I noticed I suck at it.

/Edit Dec. 17. 19/

Wuz gonna delete this since I really don't like it anymore, but this thingy has more than 150 reads so it's staying lmao.