Jungkook silently sniffles.

"I-I miss you all s-so much." he whimpers, liking to believe they could hear him. He knew they could hear him.

"I-It's been a year since the accident h-happened. And me and Y/n n-noona are barely holding up. W-We...feel so incomplete. There's n-no one to annoy us or t-tease us. N-No one to m-make us feel loved. No one to b-be there for us w-when we need them. N-No one to be our shoulder to cry on. We're both so-...so lost, hyungs. I f-feel like I'm a-about to j-just die in melancholy. I don't know what to do anymore." he sobs, crying into his hoodie,  Taehyung's hoodie.

"T-Taehyungie...I m-miss you the most. N-Noona can't cuddle me l-like you. No one g-gives me kisses and t-tucks me into bed anymore. N-No one m-makes l-love to me anymore. I've not done anything s-sexual every since you left. I-I c-can think of anything else b-but you. If only y-you could come back. I d-dont need s-sex. I w-want you cuddles, hyungie. Y-your kisses. Y-your love." he hiccups, and he stands up. "If o-only I c-could, I-I would've s-stopped you and t-the rest from g-going to g-get t-the...the..."

He gulps, tears falling down like waterfalls. "...t-the ring."

He wipes his tears, hugging himself. "I-I l-love you Taehyungie. I l-love all of you. I w-wish...I j-just wish I c-could've stopped you, or...or done s-something."

He leaves, telling Y/n she could go, and that he'd be in the car, like usual. When the two visited the graveyard, they'd always need time from each other to just be alone. They needed to let out all their emotions.

When he sits in the car, he remembers the night of the accident.

"Hyungie? Where are you and the boys going?" he asks, standing up as he sees the boys all wear their shoes. Taehyung puts his hand on the boy's cheeks, rubbing it before giving him a kiss.

"We're going to get something quickly. We'll be back by five. That's only about thirty minutes. I promise. Y/n will stay here with you." his deep voice says.

"Okay. Take care. I love you." he says, hugging him by his neck. The boy had put his hands on the younger's waist, giving him a long, sweet kiss.

Jungkook never realized that the kiss was their last before the accident.

He didn't hear about them for the next three hours. He and Y/n had called all their phones a million times. No one was answering. They were nervous, crying, confused. It wasn't until the TV played a flash news report of a drunk truck driver crashing the car of six boys, that the harsh reality had sunken in.

They immediately rushed to where the scene happened, ambulances and police tape everywhere. They were sobbing, already feeling something in them tell the brash facts.

They might not make it.

In the hospital, they were a mess.

"Jungkook, stop p-pacing. Please. Relax. They're f-fine. They're fine." Y/n says, standing up to grab the boy by his shoulders. He sobbed. "H-how do y-you know, n-noona? H-How do you k-know they'll b-be okay? How?" he asked in a fragile voice. Y/n hiccups, pulling him into her arms as she didn't answer.

"Shh. Don't t-think about it a-anymore."

"ANSWER ME, NOONA!"

"I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, JUNGKOOK! I DON'T KNOW, OKAY? THERE! THEY MIGHT FUCKING DIE THIS VERY MOMENT AND I DIDN'T EVEN SAY GOODBYE. I DIDN'T EVEN KISS NAMJOON GOODBYE. I DIDN'T TELL HIM I LOVED HIM. THERE!" she yells in aggravation. Jungkook shakes his head, hugging her close.

"J-Joonie and I-I...we w-were fighting at the time. W-We were on the brink of f-falling apart. T-Then...this happens. I f-fucking hate myself. The l-last words I t-told him were from y-yesterday, when we f-fought. I t-told him that h-he's g-gonna die unhappy if he k-keeps acting up like h-how he did. B-But I didn't w-want to say t-those words. I-I...love him so much. I-I can't live without him."

Jungkook tips his head back, tearing his hair with his fingers, hitting it against the window. He felt so sad, so depressed. He didn't want to remember the painful memory, but his mind wasn't being considerate. It plays it over and over like a tape.

"Are you Mr.Jeon and Ms.Kim?" the doctor asks. His gloved hands were bloody, as he was helping the patients.

The two stand up, hearts in their hands. "Y-Yes. That's u-us." Y/n said, hands wringing.

"I-I...I'm so sorry. There's nothing we can do. They're about to die."

Up until today, Jungkook remembers the way his world stopped. The way his heart shattered into a million pieces.

"As soon as they arrived at the hospital, they were going. They had lost so much blood, they weren't going to make it. We tried for so long. But they all requested for us to just stop. I had six nurses individually go around and write down their wills before they left. They said to give them all to you. They also said they wanted to see you." he said.

Never had Y/n and Jungkook ran to the emergency room as fast as they did. Jungkook ran to Jimin first, then to Yoongi, then Jin, Namjoon, and Hoseok. After they said their goodbyes, they 'kicked him out' playfully and painfully to say goodbye to their lovers. Jungkook to Taehyung and Y/n to Namjoon.

"H-Hyungie, p-please don't go...I c-can't live without y-you...please." he begged, one hand holding his, and his other caressing his cheeks that had scars everywhere. But he looked as beautiful as ever.

"Baby, I'm sorry. I-I wish I had a choice." he chuckles. "B-Because we w-won't move to the beach, a-adopt two kids and a l-little dog f-for Yeontan. I'm so s-sorry." he said, voice cracking.

"N-No, hyungie don't...don't say t-that. P-Please." he had sobbed into the older's chest, hugging him like his life depended on it.

"Koo, I love you so much. You know that right? N-No one for me b-but you baby. Come on, let me see you smile." he croaks, and Jungkook sadly and shyly smiles. Taehyung tucks a strand of stray hair behind his ear. "There it is. You look so beautiful like this, petal. My little strawberry. My world. You're perfect, so beautiful." his voice cracks as tears cascade down his eyes. Jungkook shakes his head.

"Taehyung. My Taehyungie. My world. The most perfect person ever. You made me feel so loved. There's no one I'd rather do it all with again. You're so special to me. P-Please stay. P-Please Taehyungie.." he sobs, hiccuping in between.

The older sadly presses their lips together, their mouths moving in sync for the last time. He had felt so soft against Jungkook, and they were perfect for each other. When they pull away, Taehyung gives one last smile, placed something in Jungkook's hands, before his eyes start closing. His heart rate gets faster, and it joins the high pitched beeping in the room.

They were all dying together.

Nurses and doctors rushed in, pushing Y/n and Jungkook to the side as they all went to the six boys, trying their best to recover them. Jungkook saw Taehyung smile one more time, eyes closed, before the beeping stopped and it was replaced with a loud and long sound.

They were gone.

That was when the two burst into tears. Even the nurses and some of the doctors cried with them. The scene was just so sad.

They left the two alone to look at the pale, lifeless bodies that laid there before they buried them.

Jungkook's sobs didn't stop.

Namjoon's smart and rhetorical comments would never be made again. Jin's windshield wiper laugh would never be heard again. Yoongi's stone cold expression that hid a beautiful man with a gummy smile would never be known. Hoseok's bright aura would never be the reason for them to smile anymore. Jimin's wierd but funny gay lingo would always be something that made everyone's day. And last of all,

Taehyung's love would never be felt again.

His lips, his tan skin, his brown eyes, his rough yet soft hands that held him so gently when he made love to him, the way he'd make stupid comments that made everyone laugh any day. It's all gone.

His friends, his everything.

They're all gone.

When he opened his palm to see what Taehyung had given him, he almost collapsed.

It was a deep velvet box, and inside it was a diamond studded ring, with  paper inside that said, "Will you marry me?"

Jungkook screams at the memory, looking at the ring on his finger. He punched the headboard of the car, staring sadly outside of the car, the rain falling like his tears. He saw Y/n standing under a tree, leaning against it as she too cried her heart out.

They both were so lost. Their everything, their happiness. Jungkook missed the way Namjoon would baby him, or the way Jin would treat him like his son, or the way Yoongi would be so soft for him, or how Hoseok would always stop whatever he was doing when the members were busy just to be with Jungkook if he needed it. Or the way Jimin would stay for weeks on end if Jungkook needed comfort.

They were his best friends. His everything. No one would ever take their places.

He sighed, leaning back against the chair, his tears all gone, heart all cried out.

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"I'm so sorry, Koo." Taehyung cried. Surrounding him were the five boys who became angels with him after their deaths to look after the two left behind. They sadly watch on as they emote, Y/n screaming and Jungkook just completely still, staring outside with the least emotion. Namjoon sadly went to stand beside Y/n. The rest were with Taehyung and Jungkook.

The older had his arms wrapped around the younger, completely invisible. The boys silently cried at the suffering the two were going through.

As Jungkook sighs, he feels a wave of calm wash over him.

No matter what, even though his heart would take infinity to heal, he knew one day that he'd join his hyungs. Suicide was out of the question. He knew they didn't want him or Y/n to hurt themselves. He was willing to wait a lifetime until he died from old age, just to be reunited with his friends and his Taehyungie.

And little did they know, they were already waiting for him.

•°'°•. + .•°'°•

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THIS WɑS THE SɑDDEST THING IVR EVER WRITTEN PLS FORGIVE ME

let me tell y'ɑll I don't cry eɑsily. Like it tɑkes everything in me to cry. I only cry if it's serious (like when iron mɑn died in end gɑme oop) but I legit cried (ONLY ɑ BIT I SWER) writing this & proofreɑding

like omf this wɑs so sɑd :( i hope u like it like i do im so in love with the story but i ɑlso hɑte myself

ive never written ɑ sɑd ending before, ɑnd it took evrything in me to not mɑke this just ɑ dreɑm of jungkooks LMFɑO

im so sorry most of my short stories ɑnd oneshots ɑre reɑlly drɑmɑtic so yeɑh

ɑlso the first chɑpter wɑs legit TRɑSH like it wɑs so poorly written bc i wɑnted to get to writing the juicy stuff

hoped u like it like i do :)

until next time, bye ilysm

- chel

(mɑy 17, 2019)