Kim Taehyung

Sighing, I walked over the dark grey asphalt with slow steps and listened to some music again to distract me. Meanwhile, it was Monday and my long, almost boring classes had to be solved again. Therefore, I hadn't heard anything from Jeongguk and Kihyun yet.

I had neither received a message nor a phone call. After I had told the raven-haired cousin that I needed some distance from Jeongguk after his slap and that I didn't want to forgive him so quickly, I went home again. Since then, there was silence between me and the two cousins.

Inside, I felt bad that I had refused Kihyun's plea. However, I hadn't earned a slap from Jeongguk in any way, although I had hit a weak spot with my questions. I understood that he didn't want to talk about what happened 3 years ago, but he could have told me instead of slapping my poor cheek.

Actually, I endured a lot of pain but when I was beaten, I didn't just accept it. And my first love just slapped my out of nowhere...

"Taehyung!", Jimin suddenly called out behind me and placed his arm around my shoulder, whereupon I jerked in shock and then looked stubborn at my best friend. After all, I had told him so many times that I was very, very jumpy and didn't like it when he and Yoongi scared me from behind.

"Well, how was your week with Jeongguk?", he asked with a big grin, but didn't know that my poor heart suddenly got a painful stab right through the middle immediately. However, I managed to hide everything behind a perfectly applied smile.

As I know Yoongi and Jimin, they would certainly go to Jeongguk and confront him with the whole situation. Most likely, bad swear words would also be said and everything would end in a big argument. But I had absolutely no nerve for that.

I was already tired because of this shitty argument with Jeongguk and just wanted to have my peace. That's why I pretended to be okay, even though my poor heart was bleeding and asking for the man who had inflicted this mental pain on me.

While I was drowning in my frustration and didn't want to see Jeongguk's beautiful face again, he probably didn't even think about me...

✧*:.｡.

Panting, I sat down on the bench in the cafeteria and placed the tablet with my food, I just had bought, in front of me. To be honest, I was absolutely not hungry, although I had left out breakfast this morning.

But it was unhealthy not to eat anything, so I would just gulp this little sandwich down to have something in my stomach at least. Jimin wrote an exam today and Yoongi was sick, so I would eat alone today. But that didn't bother me at all.

I didn't want to talk to anyone, nor to be interrupted by anyone. And the fact that I would sit in the same class with Jeongguk today, listening to Chaerin for almost a hour, made my urge to go home again and hide under my blanket grow.

I just wanted to have a big pack of ice cream -even though I wasn't hungry as I said, but ice cream always was an good option for me- and watch many kitschy love series in front of the TV. But as I estimate my luck, my wish would not be fulfilled.

I unpacked the sandwich and held it silently in my slim, small hands for a few seconds before biting into it. I didn't chew on the bread covered with sausage and tomato, but swallowed it down immediately. It was just desperate, nothing more...

As much as I just wanted to lie in Jeongguk's arms and be gently stroked by him, he had hurt me and didn't even apologized. Neither personally, nor in a message at WhatsApp. He ignored me and I ignored him. We both didn't want to see each other, though we were so inseparable.

I briefly took a sip of my apple juice and choked down the rest of this tasteless sandwich before letting my gaze wander through the cafeteria. A stupid mistake, as a few seconds turned out.

Because when I recognized a few couples who were either laughing or kissing each other lovingly, I felt this unpleasant, painful stab in my chest again. That's what I wanted to have with Jeongguk... But apparently, he doesn't want me anymore...

Suddenly my eyes met Jeongguk, who was sitting at an empty table away from the others and also stared in my direction. My lower lip began to tremble and I felt the sandwich come up again, as his emotionless eyes looked deep into my soul.

The way he looked at me, he had looked like that at every single student at the beginning of the school year. Full of rejection and disinterest. That he looked at me like that, after all I had accepted for him, gave me the last stab in the back, so my broken heart crumbled into it's smallest pieces.

He doesn't love me anymore...

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Author's note: Oof, there are 8 chapters left until this books finally ends 😟🥺😣
I'm so sad, you cant believe it... 😭💕
Thank you so much for your nice support, I'm so glad that you love this book! ♥️✨
Btw, what do you think about Taekook? Will they have an happy end or not?

And stop begging for Kitae, there is someone planned for Kihyun in the next chapters :)
Who do you think that person is? 😏♥️

~ ggukstaee 🌺