PERRIE P.O.V

The big day had came. Today we are performing at Victoria Secret Fashion Show. It is the first time. I will be standing on the same stage with the girlfriend of my ex boyfriend. And not to forget he will be sitting in the audience to watch his beautiful girlfriend in lingerie or should I say his soon to be wife.

On sunday I will be peforming at their wedding. They had kept it as a secret. They dont want the world to know about them getting married yet. Only the close ones are invited.

I had not slept the whole night yesterday and not even eaten a single grain of food from the morning. I think I had lost some pounds even girls had pointed it out.

They all are worried about me. Because they know about what happened between me and Alex. They all are trying to takecare of me but I am just pushing them away.

I dont need anyone at the moment I want to be left alone. I am here just because of the girls. They need me for this big event. The outfit were good.

But I know I will look nothing infront of Gigi. I just dont want to face her. As their will be two performance as always we have to change into two different outfits and she will walk on ramp with in two different lingerie.

I am thankful that our makeup room is away from the models. I dont want to bump into her or something like that before even getting to perform.

They asked us to sing Private show than No more sad songs.

First we have to do the little ramp walk and then we have to start our performance and the models will work their magic.

I was already feeling dizzy but I ignored that uneasiness.

I dont know how I will face Zayn after knowing the truth about what happened years ago. But I think it doesnt matter. He is moved on and will be married in next two days. So their is no way I can go back to him.

"Lets go now its our turn to lit the stage on fire." Anne grinned. Soon we were on the stage.

Anne was the first to walk then Jesy was after her. Jade pulled me infront of her so I was behind Jesy and than Jade behind me. We made our way music playing.

My eyes caught his. He smiled at me my heart ache the side of him. If only I had listened to him once. I smiled back at him as we took our places.

Jesy give start to the song
You got my adrenaline, pumping when you stand so close, mhm
I can't help imagining all the things we'd do, with no clothes on

Anne was the next to sing. I was just staring at the models who were the meaning of perfection.
We're touching, we're teasing
We don't need a reason
And I've got a feeling, that soon we'll be leaving
Right from the get go, you had me at hello
Can't wait so let's go, 'cause you're the only one that's taking me home

We all sang this part together.
Can't wait to get in my zone
Who said we got to go slow
Turn down the lights, and watch my private show
You got a ticket front row
To get high, we got to get low
Cause this is your private show
Zayn caught my eye and waved at me. I just smiled. That too a sad one.

Put your kisses on my lips,
We ain't here for playing these games, oh no (hey)
It's loving with a little twist,
Get you hooked with just one taste (hey)
As Jade finished her lines. Gigi made her entry. I started singing my part but I was too busy in staring at her and how gorgeous she was looking in that lingerie.

We're touching, we're teasing
We don't need a reason
I got a feeling, that soon we'll be leaving
Right from the get go, you had me at hello
Can't wait so let's go, 'cause you're the only one that's taking me home
She was walking confidently unlike me who dont even know how to have a proper conversation with someone.
I glanced at Zayn and he was staring at me. He didnt even saw her. I think Gigi had noticed it so she just glared at me as she walked back.

Can't wait to get in my zone
Who said we got to go slow
Turn down the lights, and watch my private show
You got a ticket front row
To get high, we got to get low
Cause this is your private show
I was relieved when she left and I started to enjoy the song. I saw Zayn mouth was hung open. He was looking at me so intently.

Under the sheets, let me love you so good
If you want to touch it then baby you should
You got my permission to do what you like
Cause you're the only one that's taking me home
I saw Zayn laughed at Jesy part. Blowing a kiss at Jesy as she winked at him.

Can't wait to get in my zone
Who said we got to go slow
Turn down the lights, and watch my private show
You got a ticket front row
To get high, we got to get low
Because this is your private show
The song was ended as we walked on the ramp and made our way out.
It was not that hard.

NEXT PERFORMANCE

I was feeling not well at all but I didnt let the girls know about it because they will not let me perform.

Our outfits were less revealing this time. Which I was thankful for.

"Zayn is so into you Pezz" Jesy said out of no where.

"I agree on that Jess." Jade said and Anne nodded her head.

"What do you mean..??" I knew what they all are talking about. But he is getting married to her.

"He was looking at you the whole time and not only that. He had not even glance at Gigi when she was on ramp." I did noticed that but I will not be getting my hopes up.

"Its nothing. You girls are just assuming things." I tried to shrug them off but I knew they were right.

"Deny all you want. But remember one day you will be giving birth to his kids." Jade said and the thing shocked me was they didnt even laughed.

"Whatever. Just remember we have to perform at their wedding on Sunday." I said sarcastically. They ended that topic.

I love Victoria Secret Shows. They are letting us wear beautiful outfits. We went out again doing the same thing. But this time my head was spinning.

"Are you ok..??" I think Jade realized.

"Yeah i am good." I assured her.

I saw Zayn talking to some Man sitting beside him. He was looking so handsome I just want to stare at his face.

I had started to sing getting his attention back to me. I smiled in satisfaction.

I keep trying, nothing's working
I still wanna know, if you're alone
I keep trying to put this behind me
I still wanna know who's taking you home
This song is something I had written for Zayn [A/N I dont know who had written that song. Just assume its written by Perrie.]

For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play
Anne had done some sexy moves as she sang. The models were so sweet. Kendall was also their she had blown me a kiss as she went by us.

No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play no more sad songs
We took our mic as we started to move around with models. Gigi had not came yet.

Dancing with danger, talking to strangers
Don't care where I go, just can't be alone
They'll never know me, like you used to know me, no
Jesy sang her part as she pulled some unknown guy from the audience. As she started dancing with him.

Jade did the samething. Bold move girls.
For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play

Two boys came up on their own one made his way toward me.
Oh no..!!
I saw Zayn from the corner of my eyes he had already balled his fist with his jaw clenched. So someone is jealous..?? I smiled inwardly.
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs (No, no more sad songs)
No more sad songs
No more sad songs (No, no more sad songs)
No more sad songs (Oh)
Jade and I had sang that part.

My smile was soon faded when Gigi made her way on the stage. Jesy and I had started the next part.
Going home, take the long way round
Lights pass, sit back with the windows down
Still got you on my mind
Starting to realise
No matter what I do
I will only hurt myself, tryna hurt you
And if I turn the music loud, just to drown you out
I'm beggin', please don't play
Zayn was busy glaring the guy with me who was having a bold dance with me.

Ha! Take that Gigi butterfly.

He is still MINE..!!

All of a sudden I started to enjoy the song
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
No more! (Sad songs)
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs (No, no more sad songs)
No more sad songs
No more sad songs (No, no more sad songs)
No more sad songs (Oh)
No more sad songs

Jade and I ended the song. I felt my world spin as I was about to fall down on the stage but the guy who was dancing with me held me in his arms before I fell down. People gasped.

"PERRIE..!!" I heard Zayn scream as he made his way toward the stage. He was by myside as he took me from that guy.

"I am ok.. I can stand up by myself Zayn." I whispered. He helped me to stand straight. Soon Gigi was clunged to his arm.

"Oh My God you should be careful Perrie. And Zayn go down and sit" I saw her smirk but she covered it up immediately.

"Are you sure you are ok..??" Zayn asked me ignoring Gigi.

"Yeah I guess." I smiled at him. As I walked backstage. I was hoping to see him again but he was nowhere to be seen.