Nina P. O. V

"For how long have you been *foucking him?" I heard from behind me, I rolled my eyes. I swar I'm gonna hit him so hard he'll regret talking first place.

"You back at this again?"

"I never left it Nina, I know you did. You know what really hurts is that I genuinely thought you had a little bit of sanity and cared in the slightest way about me. My feelings!" He said, I didn't say anything. But I do care, I like myself around him. But why the hell does he keep shouting for!

"Okay even if I did that's none of your business! It was long before I even started liking you!"

"What the *fouck is that supposed to mean? You were going out with me while shagging another lad?"

"I wasn't shagging!" I gritted. "I even turned him down because I'd feel guilty"

"Yes were!"

"Fine at least he was a better shag at least he's not making a big deal of everything, and shout all the time!" I shouted, as soon as I realized what I just said Louis's eyes were looking down. I didn't mean it, omg it's like I just shot him twice in the heart.

"I'm sorry, this is over you can go back to him you don't have to feel guilty for me" Louis said tumbling, he shoved his hands deeper in his pockets.

"L... Louis" I tried.

"Don't" he said walking away.

***

When I came back I heard mom and dad in the bedroom, mom s' crying? I knocked on their semi opened door. Dad turned to look at me, his hands on mom's lap comforting her. What happened?

"Grandma was hospitalized" dad said, I frowned my mouth forming an O dad hugged me as I started crying. It suddenly become too much, no more Louis, no more special place, no more kisses, I miss him already. I tightened my grip on dad, "she'll make it don't worry tiger" dad said kissing my hair.

We had to leave later that day, mom always had a solid relationship with her parents so she was taking it really hard. Of course, I couldn't stay so I had to prepare a small bag and travel to be beside mom and Grandma immediately.
I didn't stop and truly take in my state until I was standing in front of Grandma's unconscious body. I rubbed mom's shoulders not knowing how to help take her pain away. It made me think will I be in this very position 30 years from now, with my own family? But I wouldn't want to lose my mom this way, I would want to die before my parents. I can't even imagine losing my parents, it must be horrible feeling losing a loved one. Especially when it comes suddenly. Grandma's eyes slowly fluttered open, mom kneeled closer and dad hovered above us.

"Grandma!" I spoke softly.

"That woman I told her not to call ambulance" Grandma huffed, Mrs Murphy called ambulance as soon as soon as Grandma fell.

"You were out for 5 minutes before she called for help" Dad reasoned.

"Well I just gave the floor a needy hug" and that was my 76 year old Grandma ladies and gentlemen.

I shook my head as mom let out happy tears. "Don't cry sweety, my time isn't over yet" Grandma said, flicking her daughter's tears away. Dad kissed mom's temple.

"You scared us Rose!" Dad said

"The things I would do to see my daughter and my granddaughter!" Grandma caught hold of me kissing the life out of me.

"Okay... Okay! Rose! Grandma! Your salivary glands are producing an overload on my face" I tried, making the 3 people in the room irrupt in laughter.

**
"So you're gonna tell me what's wrong?" Grandma asked, as I put my hair above my head in a messy bun ready to sleep.

"Nothing" I said pulling the covers and plotting in bed next to her. She didn't say anything titling her head slightly to look at me. "Don't look at me like that Rose, you just got out of the hospital! You should be asleep right now" I said. I huffed as she pulled the cover off of me thrice nudging me to talk. "Okay, fine! Its a boy" I said.

Grandma laughed, "I'm proud you over came your fear of the opposite sex"

"Ha ha!" I mocked, now I know why I never kept one. Grandma looked at me nudging me to speak enthusiasm obvious on her wrinkled features.
I breathed reciting the story from the beginning, I'm in for a long night ahead.

"You did wrong Nina"

"I know" I whispered.

"He's a good boy Nina, you know some boys are really fragile they need extra care. Why don't you call his sister, I'm sure she already left you a lot of messages"
I nodded, but I was too lazy to get up. We said goodnight and went to sleep.

***
Lottie indeed did leave me a lot of message, I quickly explained about my Grandma's condition and that I'd probably stay for a few days. It's a nice way to escape everything happened. I liked it here in the country side, it's quiet. I also texted the football group about my little getaway.

Now, it's time to put my phone down and relax.

***

You know when I thought of relaxing a week ago I didn't mean for Louis to haunt my dreams with his shadow hovering over everything, he's not even tall that guy!

It's been a week, my dad had already travelled back for his job so it was just me and mom. And to say the least I was enjoying my off school days, and hiking with my two cousins whom still lived in the territory. However, he was still always at the back of my head or let me rephrase that he, Louis; was always- always there in every movement I made in every voice I heard. Why? It's getting really disturbing; I found myself wanting to know where or what was he doing I wanted to do some stalking shit* We're not even togather, I know it's getting out of hand.

I kicked nice few balls around with my family, wasting time. And then went to play a game of chess with my grandma; she always hated the game but ever since grandpa's last days she sought to share everything with him including his love for the board game. Grandpa passed away when I was only 12 I remember alot about him, he was the one to drive me to my first game. My grandparents had always been a huge part of my life, I even considered quiting football after his death - I don't know where I got the image I hold from but I'm not a bad person I just hate being the weak one I hate being the one picked on and if that means I'm gonna be the one picking on others I'll do it.

"Did you call Louis" Grandma asked moving a step in the game, I smirked knowing I got her trapped.

" You're losing Rose" I said, making my move.

"Not so fast captain" Grandma said, taking my king out.
My jaw dropped what just happened, "karma is a bitch*"

"What? Ahgg come on!" I tried to chase down where I went wrong.

"Dinner is ready come on!" I heard mom, I got up with Grandma to the dinning table for a long series of intrigued interrogation.

"Can I just have my food down my throat peacefully." I snapped.

"I wasn't the one who asked, but one last question" grandma said, putting her hand up.

"What?" I asked.

"Why don't you text message Louis the sweet boy you know like with your phone like you kids do now a days" grandma said, flicking her thumbs thinking that's how I text. I don't do that! I narrowed my eyes taking my cup of water and plate getting up to my room.

Louis the sweet boy! Yeah that's what he's known for now, I shoved my spoon in my mouth glaring and burning holes in thin air. I took a breath calming down putting my plate down and plotting on my bed, screaming in my pillow.

Yeah, it wasn't a fun day.

***

I was missing out on way too much football practice and school days, and my parents of course picked up on the fact I was lazing around and in fact I was just being a girl. I'm a girl they are not happy, I'm a tom boy they're not happy too! What do I do!?

I sat on my chair waiting for Mr Jackson to have mercy on us and finally step in class, "hay Nina!" I heard from behind me.

"Oh hay Nigel" I waived uninterested.

"Lottie Tomlinson left the school did you know?"

Normally, that's nothing to bother me. But.. It doesn't just bother me, I'm hurt. Deeply,

How?

Why?

When?

I have to fix this, that's all I know.

Hallo beautiful readers, 12th December, 2016

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