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Moran and baaki sab living room mein big screen par os padrahe

An os by our very amazing writer love_is_moran..

[Aasaan Kiston Mein Tu Pyaar Kar]

3rd june 2016,

Finally I'm going on my first solo trip that too to my ever favorite destination, Manali. Yes I somehow convinced Dad to let me go there and I'm finally going. It'll be a 7 day 6 night tour and I'm hell excited for this. Maine toh excitement mein "Yeh Jawani Hai Deewani" repeat mein bhi dekh liya and I'm finally going to live that too. Just imagining myself as Naina would work I guess. So whatever happens this diary will be my journal for the next 7 days capturing the beautiful memories of my first solo trip

4th June, 2016

And finally my trip begins. Though me being the clumsy me was late in the first day almost missing my train but somehow made it to get into the train. For a fact it wasn't because of my clumsiness it was out of fear. As I always get scared of interacting with people or making friends I was scared about this trip as well. Most of the people here was either in pair or in group and there I was, all alone. But ek insaan ki baat agar mention na karu toh thodi nainsaafi ho jayegi, areh wahi woh khadoos sa banda. Pehle toh mujhe train pakadne mein help ki for which I'm really grateful but on the second moment mujhe Rani Sahiba bulake saara mood barbaad kar diya.

Flashback

Monami has reached on the station just on time but because of her introverted nature she was still thinking whether she should go or not and in that thought process she missed to realise the train had already started leaving. She had already settled her luggage in the train and that was the same time a boy of her age only saw her. Actually didn't see her rather he helped her finding her seat which was beside him only. When he saw her still standing on the platform even after the train left he himself came down of the train to call her

Boy: Oh hello Rani Sahiba aapki train chhut rahi hai kripya chalne ka kasht karengi

Monami looked at the boy once then just nodded as a slight reply. The boy ran and got in the train then forwarded his hand for Monami to hold and pulled her up in the train at the right time.

Monami: Thank you

The boy: Agli baar se apni khabon ke riyasat ke daure pe waqt aur halath dekhke nikliyega

He said and walked back to his seat.

Flashback ends

And that's how he got his name khadoos later I got to know his name was actually Karan Shergill which should be changed as "Khadoos Shergill" for a precise description of his nature. Khadoos insaan maine thank you bola aur meko hi chaar baatein sunake chala gaya. Thodi dar rahi thi na main uss mein kya ho gaya! Chal chhor na Monu usey thodi pata tha tu kya aur kaisi hai. But baad mein toh sahi se hi behave kiya tab shayad thoda gussa ho gaya tha par koi baat nahi. Hota hai kabhi kabhi. Right now I'm just hell excited as well as nervous for tomorrow as the real trek is starting from tomorrow onwards. I just hope yeh trip mujhe kuch acchi yaadein de de saath le jaane ke liye.

5th june, 2016

My first day in Manali was so good! Yaha ka culture at the same time normal Indian jaisa aur ussey bilkul alag dono hai. But it's fun here. I met with our whole group and got an official intro of everyone and gave mine too. And after the intro another good or bad thing was I wasn't the only person here who came without a partner or friend. That Khadoos Shergill too had the same situation. Waise bhi iss khadoos se dosti karega bhi kaun! But as we too were the only people not having partners before the guide made us team mates. Aafat hai yaar yeh akele bhi toh enjoy kar sakte thhey na aur group mein hi enjoy karna hota toh akele kyu aate? But ignoring all these thoughts I tried to focus on the team task the guide had given us. As there were teams he decided to do a "friendly" race till the mountain hills. Matlab race aur friendly word ka koi connection hai? They stand for absolute opposite meanings. Upar se reward bhi tha yeh kaisa friendly race tha yaar? Chalo iss race mein do acchi baatein hui pehli baat ham first aaye toh reward mila aur dusri baat I and Karan are in talking terms now. Ohh God main uski tarah bolne bhi lagi hu Do baatein and all! Urrgh!

Flashback

Moran were climbing the hill together but Karan's pace was actually faster than Monami's because of which she was getting a hard time match his steps.

Monami: *breathing heavily* Karan.....Karan ek minute ruko please main itni jaldi nahi chal sakti......tum bohot tez chal rahe ho

She said sitting over a rock and huffing. Karan realised that she could obviously not match his speed and he should've kept this in mind. He went back to her and sat beside her on the rock.

Karan: I'm sorry actually mujhe aadat hai aise treks ki toh mujhe dhyaan dena chahiye tha

Monami: You should be sorry for a lot of things but iske liye it's okay

Karan: What do you mean by a lot of things Rani Sahiba?

Monami: Pehle toh mujhe Rani Sahiba bolke taunt karne ke liye hi sorry bolna chahiye

Karan: Aur woh main kyu karu? Kal pata hai tumhe train pe se kitni baar bulaya tha maine? Tumne suna nahi isiliye utarke jaana padha.....tumhari wajah se meri train miss ho jaati toh?

Monami: I'm sorry for that par tumhe aise kisiko judge karke naam nahi dena chahiye. I had my reasons of being zoned out

Karan: Woh kya tha?

Monami: Kyuki main.......*sighing* Leave it! Yeh trip ek week ka hai aur ham team mates hai can we please behave a bit more politely to each other?

Karan: *raised eyebrows* Maine kab battameezi ki tumhare saath?

Monami: Not in sense of battameezi par yeh taunt na marke normally bhi baat kar sakte hai na? *forwarding her hand* Friends??

Karan: *thinking for a moment then* Friends. Par main tumhe phir bhi Rani Sahiba hi bulaunga this suits you

Monami: *sighing* Okay fine! Let's go warna first se last ho jayenge par iss baar thoda dheere chalna

Karan nodded and they both started walking ahead in the hill while talking about something or other in between.

Flashback ends

Pehle toh mujhe hi yakeen nahi ho raha tha maine kisiko khudse friend banaya but he seemed to be genuinely a nice guy so possibly yeah! I got a new or actually first ever friend in form of Karan. Aur judge karke naam nahi dena chahiye? Seriously tune jo uska naam rakha hai na Monu jisdin usko pata chalega isko leke bhi taunt marega yeh banda. Woh judge at first sight ho gaya mujhse.....but it's okay ab utna khadoos nahi lagta I mean better than before at least.

6th June, 2016

Second say of the trek kal raat mein ham yahi tent karke soye thhey and main subeh ka hilltop view dekhne ke chakkar mein kuch zyada hi jaldi uth gayi thi. Well my first view after coming out from my tent in the morning wasn't really expected. Main jab bahar gayi tent se the first thing I saw was Karan doing push ups in a normal tee that too he was sweating in it. I looked at him once then at myself, he was sweating even after wearing just a normal tee in this snowy hill and here I was shivering in cold even after wearing sweater and then a overcoat. "Kitni gandi immunity hai meri" I thought. But then happened the most embarrassing thing HE CAUGHT ME STARING AT HIM. Shit! Areh yaar koi chullu bhar paani dedo mujhe uss mein dubke marna hai.

Flashback

Karan came to Monami when he found her looking at him and here Monami was trying to dig out her own snow grave there. But to her surprise Karan normally wished her good morning

Karan: Good morning. Aaj itni subah uth gayi?

Monami: *looking here and there* Aa.....ba.....woh sunrise dekhna tha mujhe toh.......tum itni jaldi kyu uth gaye?

Karan: Main toh roz hi iss time pe uthta hu

Monami: *checking time* Subah ke 5 baje?

Karan: Wrong 4 baje

Monami: *wide eyed* Itni subah uthke kya karte ho?

Karan: Morning exercise

Monami: Maine 4 baje logoko sote jaate dekha hai par uthte....pehli baar dekh rahi hu. Morning exercise toh tum 6 baje uthke bhi kar sakte ho

Karan: Chalte chalte baat kare warna tumhara sunrise miss ho jayega

Monami nodded and they started walking around the hilltop with Karan just wearing a jacket over his tee.

Monami: Ab batao

Karan: Mere liye yeh aadat normal hai *Monami looked at him confused* Actually mujhe army join karni hai college toh khatam abhi NDA ke liye preparation le raha hu aur yeh 4 baje uthna bas uska hi hissa hai

Monami: Wow! That's so impressive! Army personnel ko dekhke hi na ek alag sa pride feel hota hai you're so lucky tum woh pride har roz jee paoge

Karan: That's true. Tumhara kya plan hai?

Monami: Mera? Tum jaise commandos jab missions se injured hoke aaoge toh unhe treat karna hai

Karan: Doctor?

Monami nodded and they talked for some more time until they reached to the peak of hilltop witnessing the most alluring view of nature the sunrise.

Flashback ends

Aaj na Karan ke liye respect thoda aur badh gaya. Pehle bhi tha....sadly I have to admit that he's actually a gentleman jisko maine bekar mein Khadoos Shergill bana diya. I mean woh accha hai par manne mein takleef hoti hai. But koi na aaj manti hu thoda khadoos hai par banda accha hai.

7th June, 2016

3rd day of the trek and.........

Flashback

Monami was writing this journal while rest all were busy enjoying bonfire and partying in their own zone when suddenly Karan came to her out of nowhere making her startled and close the diary.

Karan: Oye sab waha party kar rahe hai tum yaha akeli kyu baithi ho? Chalo let's enjoy

Monami: Tum jao Karan mujhe nahi aana

Karan: Kyu? Dekho toh sahi sab waha kitna maza kar rahe hai let's go na

Monami: Tum jao mujhe yeh party varties bilkul nahi pasand

Karan: *sitting beside her* Aisa kyu? Pehle din se dekh raha hu tum logose zyada ghulti milti nahi ho, apne mein hi rehti ho, shayad mujhse bhi majboori mein hi baat karti ho aisa kyu?

Monami: Tumse majboori mein baat nahi karti honestly admitting pehle majboori mein hi baat karti thi par ab......ab normally hi baat karti hu....dost bola hai toh dosti toh nibhani padegi na.....

Karan: Toh dost keh raha hai chalo na....sach mein you'll have fun

Monami: Nahi Karan yeh sab social gatherings....party varty....yeh sab......yeh sab meri baas ki baat nahi hai.....main bani hi nahi hu aisi chizon ke liye.....

Karan: *confused* Matlab?

Monami: *leaving a deep sigh* Kaise samjhau.......uuhhh...... tumhe complain thi na meri wajah se uss din tumhari train miss hone wali thi kyuki main zoned off ho gayi thi.....main zoned off nahi thi mujhe dar lag raha tha.....yeh communicative duniya, socialisation, yeh sab.....these are not my things......*slightly lost* I was in 5th jab mere Mumma papa got divorced....unki love marriage thi par phir bhi Mumma ne Papa ko dump kar diya kisi aur ke liye. Main kiske paas rahungi yeh leke dono court mein ladhne lage main bas waha audience banke sab dekhti thi bina kuch samjhe. Court ka judgement bhi tab samajh nahi aaya tha bas itna samajh aaya tha ki mumma Papa ab alag alag rahenge aur mujhe weakly rotation mein dono ke paas rehna hoga. Na kabhi Papa pura milenge na Mumma. Uske baad school mein yeh baat phail gayi toh jinhe dost samajhti thi woh mazak udhane lage......waise bhi I was a nerd toh kuch khas dost thhey nahi jo thhey woh bhi iski wajah se kho gaye. Kuch saal aise rotation pe chali phir Mumma ki dusri family start ho gayi toh unhone meri custody Papa ko de diya. Papa Mumma se bohot pyaar karte thhey unka aise jaana unhe bardast nahi hua toh divorce ke baad kaam ke bahane khudko busy rakhne lage. Jab Mumma ne meri puri custody Papa ko de diya tabtak unhone kaam ko hi apni zindagi bana li thi. Mumma toh mili hi nahi aur Papa milke bhi nahi mile. Unke separation ne pyaar se bharosa utha diya aur aise apne matlab ke liye rishte toot'te dekh rishto pe se bharosa uth gaya. Logose milne mein, bonds create karne mein, attachments se sab kuch se dar lagne laga ki at the end yeh toh chale jayenge bas woh tooti bikhri yaadein reh jayegi zindagi bhar chubne ke liye.

Monami suddenly turned to other side wiping off the tear drop that just rolled down her eyes then turned to Karan.

Monami: Logose dar lagta hai mujhe iss trip pe isi dar ka samna karne aayi thi par yaha aake pata chala main toh inn jaisi kabhi ban hi sakti. Yeh kisiko dekhte hi dost bana lena, masti-mazak karna yeh sab mujhse nahi hoga.....main nahi hu inki jaisi aur na shayad kabhi ban paungi

Karan: Tumhe inke jaisa banna bhi nahi hai Monami.... *Monami looked at him confused but Karan came forward and cupped her face* Tum jaisi ho waisi hi bohot acchi ho tumhe inke ya mere rang mein khudko raangne ki zaroorat nahi hai. Tumhara inn sabse alag hona tunhe inn sabse khas banati hai. Apne darse ladho par khudko mat badlo aur yeh so called social standards mein fit hona hai uske liye toh khudko bilkul mat badlo. Tum jaisi ho waise hi bohot khas ho aur jo tumhe pyaar karega woh tumhe aise hi pyaar karega

Monami: *averting her gaze* Main pyaar vyaar mein nahi manti

Karan: *leaving her face* Accha ji? Bag mein "It Ends With Us" ki book leke pyaar mein nahi manti?

Monami: *wide eyed* Hawwww! Tumhe kaise pata mere bag mein yeh book hai

Karan: Baat woh nahi hai baat yeh hai ki tum manti ho pyaar hota hai aur dekh lena jisdin tumhe pyaar hoga na sabse pehle mujhe hi batane aaogi

Monami: Woh toh aana hi padega kyuki aur koi hai bhi nahi jisey bata saku. Ek hi toh dost hai mera

Karan: Iss dost pe bharosa hai? *Monami nodded* Toh chalo aaj tumhare dar ko darate hai.....party karte hai

Monami: Karan nahi na please.....

Karan: Monami haan na please......aur zyada dar lage toh mera haath pakad lena *assuringly* main hu tumhare saath.......chahe koi ho ya na ho........ab chalo

He pulled her with him in their group which was busy partying. Monami was still feeling awkward in first few minutes thus she was holding Karan's hand tightly. But after some time she too started enjoying with everyone else smiling contentedly making Karan even smile wider than Monami herself. They danced and had fun with everyone but in the whole time Monami didn't left his hand for even a moment neither Karan tried to make her leave his hand. They were enjoying like that only, with everyone still with each other.

Flashback ends

8th June, 2016

Kal wala journal likhna hi nahi hua. But it's okay I guess! Journal bas memories ke liye likh rahi thi and yesternight I got the best memory of life jo waise bhi main kabhi nahi bhulungi to be precise main agar chahungi bhi toh bhi kabhi nahi bhul paungi. This was the best moment of my life bilkul befikar aisa pehle kabhi feel nahi hua mujhe pehle kabhi kisise yeh saari baatein bhi toh nahi ki thi maine. Kyu nahi ki ya kal Karan se yeh saari baatein kyu ki no idea...... koi pressure nahi tha kuch nahi tha bas pata nahi kaise bas bol diya and surprisingly uske aankhon mein mere liye koi sympathy nahi thi. Friends nahi thhey mere kabhi par relatives ko aksar dekha hai woh sympathetic looks dete huye and that used to make me feel like it's all because of me only. Bina kisi crime ke ek criminal jaisa feel karati hai woh looks but Karan ke aankhon mein aisa kuch nahi tha. He heard everything without even judging me once and that gave me the peace I was searching all around. Laga tha anjaan logose milungi toh inn sabse overcome kar lungi par socha nahi tha itne saare logo mein bas ek insaan mera itna apna ban jayega ke bina bole meri baatein samajhne lag jayega. Aaj finally iss trek ki akhiri raat hai kal ham sab wapas Mumbai ke liye nikal jayenge phir sab apni apni life mein busy ho jayenge bakiose waise kuch lenadena nahi hai mujhe par iss Khadoos Shergill se contact chhut jayega iss baat se bura lag raha hai. Jab yaha aayi thi tab naye logose milne se dar lag raha tha ab jaane ka time aa gaya hai toh Karan ko chhorke jaane se dar lag raha hai. Pata nahi ajeeb sa lag raha hai mann nahi kar raha yeh trip khatam ho, thode aur din nahi ruk sakte kya ham yaha? Ya shayad yu kahu ki thode aur din nahi ruk sakti kya main Karan ke saath? Pata nahi kyu ya kaise par accha sa lagne laga hai yeh Khadoos Shergill......

Flashback

Monami closed her diary after writing this while a small yet serene smile occupied her lips looking at Karan who was talking something to their guide. Monami carefully kept back her diary hiding it from the to be commando's eyes. Karan came back to her after completing his talk with the guide and bumped his shoulder with Monami's breaking her trance.

Karan: Aise kya dekh rahi ho?

Monami: Kuch nahi. Kya baat karke aaye guide se?

Karan: Aage jaane ka raasta puchhke aaya

Monami: *confused* Aage matlab? Yeh toh hamara highest trek point hai na?

Karan: Tum logoka hai main upar tak jaa raha hu. Bhuta parbat pe

Monami: Pa...par woh.....woh jagah toh haunted hai na? Locals kehte hai waha bhairav ka mandir tha jo kaha hai kisiko nahi pata par waha ki manyata hai waha jo kuch bhi pray karo woh pura hota hai. Isiliye uss mandir ko dhoondne bohot log gaye thhey par koi wapas nahi aaya aur ab har purnima ke raat ko yahq unn logoki aatmaye aati hai....

Karan: *dramatically leaning to her* Aur aaj purnima ki raat hai

Monami: *clutching his jacket in fear* Toh tum kyu jaa rahe ho? Kisi bhoot ne pakad liya toh?

Karan: *moving back* Isiliye toh jaa raha hu bhooto se milne. Tum chalogi saath mein?

Monami: Na....nahi....mujhe apni jaan bohot pyaari hai.....bhoot dekhke mujhe heart attack aa gaya toh? Yaha treatment bhi nahi ho payegi aur main upar nikal lungi

Karan: Toh raho niche main chala

Monami: Chala matlab? Kyu chala? Tumhe bhi nahi jaana chahiye....mat jao na kuch ho gaya toh?

Karan: *looking at her intensely* Meri jaan ki itni fikar hai aapko Rani Sahiba?

Monami: *fumbling* Toh hogi hi na tum dost ho na mere

Karan: Bas dost?

Monami: *looking here and there* Toh....toh aur kya?

Karan: Bas dost toh aapko aur mil jayenge filhaal toh main chala abhi nahi nikla toh kal bus nikalne se pehle niche nahi aa paunga. *getting up* Chalo ab bus mein mile toh mile aur na mile toh Alvida Rani Sahiba

He said and picked up his his bag while Monami was just looking at him in her own trance. Karan walked a bit ahead when Monami suddenly went running to him and due to that bumped into him making both of them fall on the snow with Monami over Karan. Composing themselves they both looked at each other suddenly a different feeling gripping their hearts as their eyes locked with each other. They stared intently in each other's eyes but Karan came back to his senses first and broke the eyelock.

Karan: Kya hai? Aise achanak se kaun hamla karta hai?

Monami: Woh.....woh.....mujhe bhi jaana hai tumhare saath

Karan: Kaha?

Monami: Bhoota pe

Karan: Abhi toh dar rahi thi abhi kya hua?

Monami: *holding his hand* Dar laga toh tumhara haath pakad lungi.

Karan: *raised eyebrows* Madam aap kuch zyada hi haq nahi jaata rahi mujhpe?

Monami stared at him for sometime but then her grip on his hand slowly started loosening. Feeling that, he held her hand tightly and wrapped his arm around her back.

Karan: Oye main mazak kar raha tha tum serious ho gayi?

Monami: *looking here and there* Nahi....aisa....kuch.....nahi..

Karan: Nahi hi hona chahiye. Hoga bhi kyu, right?

Monami: *nodding* Chale ab?

Karan: You sure? Sach mein heart attack aa gaya toh main nahi bachane wala tumhe

Monami: Mat bachana chalo ab

Karan: Pehle mujhpe se toh utho ya aise hi tumhe goud pe uthake le jau main?

Monami: *getting up* Shut up! Pehle thik se baat nahi karte thhey ab flirt karne lage ho

Karan: *standing up* FYI main flirt nahi kar raha tha waise bhi tum jaiso se kaun flirt kare

Monami: *scrunching her eyebrows* What do you mean by meri jaiso se?

Karan: *walking ahead* Tum jaiso se matlab tum jaiso se

Monami: *running behind him* Mujh jaisi matlab?

Karan: *stopping* Tum jaisi matlab......*looking at her* tumhari tarah ladkiyan flirt karne ke liye nahi pyaar karne ke liye bani hai. Ab tum toh pyaar vyaar pe manti nahi toh flirt karna bhi bekar hi hai na

Monami: *in trance* Aur agar pyaar pe manti toh?

Karan: Uthake le jaata aur shadi kar leta tumse

He said straight looking into her eyes but Monami's heartbeat raised feeling his gaze darting into her soul through her eyes. Monami lowered her gaze feeling the intensity of his gaze.

Monami: Cha....chalo warna late ho jayega

Karan nodded and they started walking towards the Bhoota with Karan walking ahead and Monami following him like an obedient kid. They walked in total silence but that wasn't awkward for any of them rather they were liking the soothing silence between them. Monami's mind was still ringing with Karan's words making her cheeks heat up and glow with a pink hue. After climbing almost half of the way till Bhoota Monami broke the silence.

Monami: Karan thodi der baith jaate hai.....main thak gayi hu

Karan nodded and they both settled down on a rock nearby. The temperature has decreased noticeably making Monami feel cold and rub her hands together. Karan saw this and took her hand, his hands were warmer than Monami's so he started rubbing her hands with his.

Karan: Ab bhi aage jaana hai? Thand bardast nahi ho rahi toh wapas chali jao

Monami: *shaking her head in no* Agar waha maangi gaayi duayein sach mein puri hoti hai toh mujhe bhi kuch mangna hai

Karan: Aisa kya mangna hai jo apni zindagi risk mein dalne ke liye taiyaar ho

Monami: *looking at him* Apni zindagi.....

Karan: *confused* Hein? Matlab?

Monami: Wishes kisiko batate nahi hai warna pure nahi hote

Karan: Ajeeb insaan ho!

Monami: Accha woh chhoro yeh batao body heat karne layak kuch hai kya tumhare paas?

Karan stared at her for sometime then took a small glass bottle passing it to her. Monami took it and looked at it wide eyed.

Monami: Tum drink karte ho?

Karan: Rarely par yeh basic hota hai aisi jagah jaha temperature kam ho waha yeh sab carry karna padhta hai. Warna pata chala drink nahi karte iss chakkar mein drink karne layak hi na bache

Monami: Haha very funny. Iska main kya karu?

Karan: Peeyo tumhe hi body heat karni thi na

Monami: Maine kabhi drink ki nahi hai charh gayi toh aage kaise jaungi?

Karan: Yeh charhti nahi hai bas body ko heat karegi

Monami looked at the bottle once then at Karan who gestured her to go ahead then took a few sips of the alcohol. After that she gave the bottle back to him while making faces.

Monami: Kadwi hai

Karan: *chuckling* Aapke liye nahi bani na Rani Sahiba. Ab chale?

Monami nodded and they both again started for the Bhoota parbat. It was almost dusk when they were climbing the last part of bhoota and until they reached there it was already time for sunrise. They reached till the top while panting for breath as they walked for too long and it was freezing cold there. But still their faces had a peaceful smile maybe because finally reaching to the peak of the mountain. Moran looked at each other then at the calm view of sunrise with still trying to stabilise their heavy breathes then shouted at the top of their lungs

Moran: Woahhhhhhhhhh!

After that they both looked at each other with a wide smile. Moran smiled looking at the sunrise ahead then closed their eyes taking a deep breath in the fresh air.

Monami: (in mind) Shayad Naina ne sahi kaha tha iss pahad ke hawa mein kuch toh khas hai......shayad woh ishq ka hi ehsaas hai......yeh toh nahi pata yeh ishq hai ya nahi par *opening her eyes and looking at Karan whose eyes were still closed* agar yeh ishq hai toh...mujhe ishq ho gaya hai..... Karan se........I'm in love with my Khadoos Shergill

She just blushingly smiled seeing that small yet peaceful smile on Karan's face. Feeling a constant gaze on himself Karan too opened his eyes and found Monami already looking at him dreamily. He snapped his fingers in front of her breaking her trance.

Karan: Aise kya dekh rahi hai Rani Sahiba?

Monami: Kuch nahi.......bas aise hi

She said and again looked ahead closing her eyes again.

Monami: Yaha mangi gayi har dua puri hoti hai yeh baat kitna sach hai nahi janti par agar sach hai toh bas ek hi dua mangungi......Karan.....

She opened her eyes listening Karan's voice.

Karan: Monami niche chale ya rukna hai thodi der?

Monami: Thodi der baithe? Kya pata yeh mauka dubara mile na mile

She said sitting on the snow there. Karan too followed her and sat beside her.

Karan: Itni senti baatein kyu kar rahi ho? Kahi jaa rahi ho?

Monami: *shaking her head in no* Bas aise hi

Karan just nodded slightly still being confused. But anyway the calm environment there made him forget everything and just feel the serenity. After a while Monami broke the silence.

Monami: Karan suno......

Karan: Sun raha hu Rani Sahiba boliye

Monami: *fumbling* Woh....woh....tum...tumse.....ku....kuch... keh.....kehna.....hai...

Karan: *opening his eyes* Kya kehna hai? Itna fumble kyu kar rahi ho?

Monami: Aa.....woh.....main.....muj.....mujhe...kehna.....hai.... ki.......ki......

Karan: *raised eyebrows* Ki ke aage?

Monami: Ki....woh.....woh.....woh....main......haath do apna

Karan: Huh? *giving his hand* Yeh bolne ke liye aise fumble kar rahi thi?

Monami: *tightly holding his hand* Nahi.....mujhe.....yeh kehna tha ki......ki.....I love you Karan pata nahi kab kyu kaise par tumse pyaar ho gaya hai....yaha se jaane ke baad dubara yeh kehne ka mauka mile na mile pata nahi aur yeh regret nahi rakhna chahti ki main bata sakti thi par bataya nahi tumhara jo decision hoga I'll accept it bas ek request hai dosti mat todna I promise meri feelings kabhi hamare dosti ki bich nahi aayegi

She said everything in one breath with her eyes closed as tightly as she could. Karan looked at her wide eyed for a few moments but then ultimately a smile broke out on his lips as well. But he made up a stern face and said

Karan: Tumhari feelings already hamare dosti ke bich aa gayi hai Monami

Monami opened her eyes with a jolt listening his stern tone and looked at him. His face was showing neither he was prepared for the sudden confession nor maybe he wanted it.

Monami: Mat....matlab?

Karan: Tumhari feelings hamare dosti ke bich aa chuki hai

Monami looked down at verge of crying but to her surprise Karan pulled her to himself by the hand she was holding leaving almost no gap between them and caged her in his arms then replied in a whispering tone

Karan: And this feeling is mutual. Mujhe bhi nahi pata kab kaise kyu par tumhe Rani Sahiba bulate bulate ab sach mein Rani Sahiba banane ka mann ban gaya hai sirf meri Rani Sahiba woh bhi permanently for lifetime. I love you Monami I really really really do!

Monami looked up at him teary eyes listening this but still trying to confirm that she didn't listen anything wrong.

Monami: Yo....you....do?

Karan: *cupping her face and nodding* I do

That's it Monami leapt from her place taking him in a bone crushing hug due to her sudden action Karan got disbalanced and both of them fell on the snow. But Monami was least bothered about it she was just hugging him tight which he too reciprocated with equal happiness and excitement. He closed his eyes holding her as close to him as he could.

Karan: Maine kaha tha na aap mein mujhse bhi zyada himmat hai aapne at least bola toh sahi warna mere bharose rehte toh shayad yeh hug kabhi nahi hota

Monami: Toh bola kyu nahi pehle?

Karan: Agar aap dosti tod dete toh?

Monami: Jeeti kaise dosti todke

Karan: Mujhe kya pata tha aap kyu feel karte ho

Monami: *backing off and looking at him* Matlab woh shadi wali baat mazak mein nahi kahi thi?

Karan: Nahi yaha sach mein mandir hota toh le jaata abhi uthake

Monami: Pehle dhang se girlfriend banne ke liye toh propose karo aaye bade shadi karne wale

She said getting up and walking ahead but suddenly stopped feeling a hold on her hand. Monami turned back and was happily surprised seeing Karan on his knee.

Karan: I really really really love you Miss. Monami Mahajan will you be my Rani Sahiba for lifetime?

This time Monami actually ended up crying out of happiness seeing him doing this. She too knelt down in front of him with happy tears flowing down her eyes. He wiped off her tears shaking his head in no gesturing her not to cry.

Karan: Jawab?

Monami: YES! YES! YES! YES! A THOUSAND TIMES YES!

Karan smiled and pulled her in a tight hug and caressed her hair as she weeped a bit on his shoulder.

Monami: I love you

Karan: I love you too

Monami: Mujhe nahi pata tha yeh trip mujhe life ki itni badi khushi de degi

Karan: Maine kaunsa socha tha par *tightening his grip around her* some unplanned things are the best

Monami: Indeed.....

They smile contentedly and broke the hug after a few moments.

Flashback ends

I did it I did it I did it! Maine finally usey confess kar diya and you know what? He loves me too! My love loves me back! The ending of this trip couldn't be better neither I could be happier than this. Thank you Bhagwanji itni jaldi meri wish puri kar dene ke liye!

And finally the diary closedown. Itni der jo sab padh rahe thhey woh meri journal diary thi. 7 saal purani diary. Haanji main hi hu Monami jiski love story itni der padha. Still can't believe 7 saal ho gaya hai uss trip ko and this still feels it was yesterday. And the whole journey feels so good. Wait wait wait journey khatam nahi hui hai bas ek phase khatam ho raha hai dusra abhi bhi.......

Karan: Rani Sahiba......

Yeh lo aa gaye janaab. Abhi aake chillamchilli karega kab aayi ho tum ready hone abhi tak ready nahi hui late ho jayega blah blah blah.

Karan: *coming in the room* Rani Sahiba......aap ready nahi hui? Yaad hai na registrar ne 11 baje ka time diya tha 10 already baj rahe hai

Monami: Areh ready hu baba. Yeh nahi ki thodi tareef kar du aate hi apne commando form mein punctuality ki baatein leke baith gaye

Karan: *slightly smiling* Aapko kya keh sakta hu aap toh ho hi Rani Sahiba koi aam ladki kaise lag sakte ho. *kissing her forehead* Bohot zyada pyaari lag rahi ho

Monami: *smilingly* Tum bhi bohot acche lag rahe ho

Karan: Ab hone wali biwi ke samne uske layak bhi toh lagna padega na

Monami: Bakwas! Kitni baar bola hai tumhe yeh layak wayak ki baatein toh tab aayegi na jab tumhara koi competition hoga mere liye mere Khadoos Shergill se better koi ho hi nahi sakta

Karan: Gustakhi maaf Rani Sahiba. Ab chale? Faizi aur Koel wait kar rahe hai niche aur baki sab court mein hi milenge

I nodded and took my bag keeping the journal diary in it.

Karan: Tum diary bhi leke chalogi?

Monami: Of course! Iss ne hamari puri love story dekhi hai toh final destination dekhna toh haq banta hai na iska

Karan: Thik hai baba chalo

We came downstairs only to get some congratulation wishes from Faizi and Koel. Faizi is Karan's childhood best friend and Koel is Faizi's wife. After that we settled in the car leaving for the registrar office. Finally hamara pyaar aaj uske akhiri destination tak pohoch raha hai. Karan ke parents uske bachpan mein hi shaheed ho gaye thhey and do saal pehle Papa ki bhi cardiac arrest mein death ho gayi, Mumma ka toh kuch pata nahi so dono ki families ke naam pe bas hamare kuch common friends hai mostly Karan ke friend and I just know them through him and coworkers hai. Inn saat saalo ka safar kabhi easy nahi tha, mere saath aaj jo mera haath pakadke yeh insaan baitha hai pata nahi mere kitne pagalpan jhele hai isne par kabhi mujhpe give up nahi kiya. Pehle paanch saal uski army training aur meri MBBS ke chalte long distance relationship mein thhey uske baad woh apne batch ka best commando banke nikla aur main apne batch ki best doctor. Professionally dono bohot acche thhey toh kuch hi dino mein posting bhi mil gayi par desh ke dono opposite side ke do shehro mein. Jaha pehle laga tha career mein settle ho jayenge toh distance thoda kam ho jayega waha hua ulta distance aur barh gaya. Phir bhi we handled both of our personal and professional lives quite well. At least hamari first posting ke first day ham saath mein toh thhey kyuki uske pehle din hi hamari engagement thi. Papa ko manane ke liye thodi mehnat karni padhi par ultimately maan gaye toh bas kuch close friends and family ke presence mein we got engaged. Phir agle din woh apni posting ke liye chala gaya aur main apne posting ke liye chali gayi. Sab bohot sahi chal raha tha par Papa ki death se sab phir bikhar gaya specifically kahu toh main wapas bikhar gayi. Karan Papa ke death se kuch dino pehle hi ek mission ke liye nikla tha toh tab ussey bhi baat nahi ho paayi akele sab manage karna padha which effected me like anything. Karan jab wapas aaya even he was injured, mission mein goli lagi thi yeh sunke main aur zyada toot gayi. Why it has to be me every time! Mere apno ke saath hi aisa kyu hota hai? For some unknown reason bachpan ke sympathetic looks hi sahi lagne laga tha it was because of me....jo bhi mere kareebi hoga that person needs to face problems. Usey discharge ke baad jab bataya papa ke bare mein usne hi sab handle kiya, mujhe, mere bikhre hisso ko, mere bewajah ke gusse ko sab kuch usne hi sambhala. Par din ba din baat bas bigadti gayi. At a point I even thought to call off our engagement.

Flashback

"Sir apne milne Monami ma'am aayi hai. Reception pe wait kar rahi hai " A guard informed Karan as he was in the drill area instructing their routined drills. He immediately went to Reception side as Monami usually never comes to academy in his on duty time. He found Monami waiting for him in the Reception but her state worried him. She was looking weak and pale. Without talking about anything in the reception he took her to his room which he shares with Faizi but obviously he wasn't there as it was drills time. He made her sit on the bed and himself sat on a chair in front of her.

Karan: Kya hua Rani Sahiba? Tabiyat thik hai? Itni kamzor kyu lag rahe ho?

He asked being concerned but Monami was still continuously looking down playing with her fingers without replying anything. Karan cupped her face to make her look at him but instantly he felt her whole face wet.....by tears! He got more worried seeing her crying silently. He knew her mental state so her condition was making him more worried with each passing second.

Karan: *assuringly* Kya hua Rani Sahiba? I know kuch important hoga warna aap iss waqt yaha nahi aate par ro kyu rahe ho?

Monami: Kar...Karan I think we....we should....end this......

Karan: End what?

Monami: Ham....hama....hamari.....en..ga...ge..... engagement.....

Karan: What!? Monami tumhe khudko sunai de raha hai tum kya keh rahi ho?

He said being utterly perplexed about the revelation she just made. She loved him till no extent and he very well knew this so why was she saying something like this.

Monami: Su....sun.....rahi.....hu.....samajh bhi rahi hu......aur..... isiliye keh rahi hu......we...should.....end....this.... kya.....kya fayda aise rishte ka Karan? Har dusre din we end up fighting on something or other......main kisi bhi rishte ke liye bani hi nahi hu jo bhi mere kareebi hota hai unke life mein bas problems se zyada aur kuch nahi de sakti main......aur iss rishte ko continue karne se tumhe bhi khushi se zyada dukh aur problem milegi.....mere life ki problems tum deserve nahi karte Karan

So this was why she was behaving so frustratedly she was thinking she was being a problem in his life but who the hell had put all this rubbish in her mind! She was still crying looking down when he came out of his trance and looked to her.

Karan: *making her look at him* Rani Sahiba.....Monami suno yeh sab jo bhi tumhare dimag mein chal raha hai yeh sab bas ek bakwas hai aur kuch nahi. Tum mere life ki problem nahi ho problem solver ho. I can understand tum kya feel rahi ho pehle Papa ki death phir mera injured hona I can understand tumhare dimag mein bohot saare thoughts aa rahe hai par aisa kuch bhi nahi hai Death toh ek inevitable truth hai na iss mein tum kya kar sakti ho aur rahi baat mere injuries ki toh ussey tumhara mere life mein hone na hone se koi connection nahi hai. Commando hu Monami missions pe jaunga toh chot toh lagegi na, desh ka hoke desh ke dushmano se ladhta hu they won't go easy on me, right? *Monami didn't reply anything* Accha suno tumhe waqt aur space chahiye tum lo but remember there's nothing such as tumhari life ki problem it's US Monami tumhare problems mere bhi problem hai and I can't let you handle all these problems all alone jabtak main hu tumhe kabhi koi problem akele face nahi karna padega.....problems hai toh saath mein solve kar lenge na

Monami: Ka....ran.....ai...sa....nahi....hota.....

Karan: Aisa kya nahi hota Monami? Abtak sab problem hamne saath mein solve kiya hai na? *Monami again kept silence* Okay.....thik hai.....woh sab side mein rakhte hai....bas ek baat ka jawab do mujhe..... Kya aaj bhi pyaar hai hamare bich? Aaj bhi mujhse pyaar karti ho? *Monami didn't reply anything just looked down* Bas iss baat ka jawab dedo Monami agar pyaar nahi hai toh I promise dubara kabhi tumhare samne bhi nahi aaunga par agar sirf inn thode bohot overthinking thoughts ki wajah se tum hamara rishta todna chahti ho then I'm sorry mere liye hamara rishta itna sasta nahi hai......iss liye tumhara haath nahi pakda tha ki thoda kuch hard phase aaya aur dono apne apne raste chal de. Tumhara pata nahi but I still love you a lot apna iawab do PYAAR HAI YA KHATAM HO GAYA?

Monami: Stop it Karan.......Pyaar hai aaj bhi utna hi pyaar hai tumse par

Karan: Par ke baad jo bhi hai usey rehne dete hai Rani Sahiba. Rishta hai Monami problems aayengi jayengi yahi normal hai par rishte mein ham donoko nahi ladhna na ham donoko milke problem se ladhna hai. Aur yeh sab bas tumhare dimag mein hai ki tumse rishta nahi sambhlega ya jo bhi tumhare kareeb aata hai uske life mein problems aa jaati hai. Papa ke death se pehle bhi ham paanch saal thhey na relationship mein? Tab toh aisa kuch nahi hua issey pehle missions pe gaya hu na tab bhi kuch nahi hua toh iss baar tumhari galti kaise hui?

Monami: *crying* Please....yeh....sab....aur.....mushkil....mat... banao....mere....liye.....Karan.....

Karan: Mushkil hai toh mat karo na socho tumhare liye jitna mushkil hai mere liye bhi toh utna hi mushkil hoga na aur main tumhe bas ek dar ki wajah se nahi kho sakta Monami. Tum mere liye bohot special ho meri puri duniya ho mere liye tumhe khona possible nahi hai

Monami: Aur main yeh rishta sambhal nahi paayi toh?

Karan: Toh.....filhaal ke liye main hamara rishta sambhal leta hu future mein aap sambhal lena

Monami: Yeh mazak ka waqt nahi hai Karan. Main nahi sambhal paungi

Karan: Main mazak kar bhi nahi raha Rani Sahiba. Aapse judi koi bhi baat mere liye mazak nahi hai

Monami: Shadi ke baad saath nahi reh paaye toh divorce lene se abhi back out kar jaana zyada better hai

Karan: Stop it Monami main kya samjhane ki koshish kar rahi hu tum kya bole jaa rahi ho? Itna hi irritating lagne laga hu kya ke hamare rishte ko ek mauka tak nahi dena chahti tum?

He said somewhat angrily getting up making Monami flinch for a moment. He wasn't really angry but he was hurt that falling for those overthinking thoughts she wanna take a decision she'll regret for her whole life, they both will regret for their whole life. Karan just turned back fisting his fingers to calm himself down a bit. But after a few moments he felt a pair of arms snaking through his chest taking him in a back hug.

Monami: *sobbing* Main nahi khona chahti tumhe par if this doesn't work out main tumhari aankhon mein apne liye nafrat nahi dekh paungi. You're all that I have tumhari narazgi bardast nahi kar sakti nafrat dekhungi toh shayad jee hi nahi paungi main

Karan: *softly* Aur mujhe khoke jee paoge?

Monami: Toh kya karu Karan?

Karan: *thinking something* I've an idea. Tumhe itna dar lag raha hai toh let's test it

Monami: Mat....lab? Kai...se?

Karan: *turning to her* If you're comfortable with this toh we can shift in together

Monami: Live-in?

Karan: Main toh bas move in ke bare mein keh raha tha *teasingly leaning to her* aapko live-in mein rehna hai toh mujhe koi problem nahi.....

Monami: *smacking his shoulder* Karan......

Karan: Dekho shadi ke baad saath hi rehna hai na agar abhi nahi reh paye toh tab bhi nahi reh payenge. Try karke dekh lo issey aapka dar bhi kam ho jayega aur shayad hamara rishta bhi bach jaaye. Aapko sochna hai toh soch lo phir aapka decision bata dena aur agar tumhara decision tab bhi na badle toh.....

Monami: Toh?

Karan: Toh live-in mein hi shift ho jayenge

Monami: *whining* Karan......*tightly hugging him* Thank you

Karan: Kyu?

Monami: Mujhe bachane le liye......tumhare aur iss rishte ke alawa aur kuch nahi hai mere paas isey kho dungi toh mar......

Karan: Shh.....already bohot bakwas kar chuke ho itni der se kuch nahi kaha ab yeh sab baatein leke baithi pakka kuch kar dunga tumhe

Monami: *lightly chuckling* Tumhari jaan basti hai mujh mein mujhe kaise kuch karoge........I love you Khadoos Shergill

Karan: *hiding her in his arms* Abhi toh aap engagement todne ki baat kar rahe thhey

Monami: Haan toh galti karna mera department hai na? Aur sambhalna tumhara

Karan: Aap saath ho toh kuch bhi sambhal lunga bas dubara yeh rishta todne wodne ke bare mein baat mat karna please

Monami: Nahi karungi pakka

Flashback ends

My trance broke feeling a ever known touch wiping off the tears that just rolled down my cheeks. He asked me if everything was okay and how can something be not okay with him being by my side. I just smilingly nodded and hugged his arm keeping my head on his shoulder while he too securely wrapped his arms around me. I closed my eyes feeling the security of his arms. I can spend my whole life here! We moved in together that day but it was actually just moving in, we shared the same house the same room but he never crossed his line neither he ever tried to come close to me without my consent. That much he loves me and almost dedh saal saath rehne ke baad I only proposed him kyuki Karan ne toh mujhe time dene ke chakkar shadi ka topic uthana hi bandh kar diya tha. Even when I proposed him usne jawab mein khudka jawab nahi diya pehle mujhse puccha ki main apni marzi se kar rahi hu ya pressure mein kar rahi hu jo ki maine sach bata diya apni marzi se kar rahi thi aur aaj finally woh din aa hi gaya. Hamari shadi ka din! My thoughts got a halt as Faizi said we reached to the registrar office. Just on time. We met Sid and Sanju who were Karan's team mates then Mr and Mrs Batra, the only guardian figure we had in our lives. They all congratulated us again then we went inside the office. We got our turn and finishing the formalities the registrar gave us the register to sign. When I took the register for signing our whole journey ran in front of my eyes like a film roll making me stop for a moment when I heard Karan whispering to me

Karan: Koi confusion ya doubt hai toh mat karo

Monami: Confusion nahi hai doubt bhi nahi hai yakeen hai *looking at Karan* Puri duniya mein koi bhi mujhpe give up kar sakti hai par mera Khadoos Shergill nahi toh usko leke koi confusion mein kaise rahu

Karan smiled listening this making me smile as well. I signed the register whispering an "I love you" to him while he signed back whispering an "I love you too" to me. Then the witnesses too signed on the register and after the garland exchanges, filling my hairline with a pinch of vermilion and him tying the nuptial chain around my neck, WE were officially husband-wife from now onwards.

Registrar: Congratulations aaj se aap dono legally aur socially dusre ke pati-patni huye.

We looked at each other smiling widely that despite of everything finally our love won. I was getting emotional again and seeing this Karan pulled me in a side hug dropping a soulful kiss on my forehead joining his forehead with mine together making me feel blessed getting a husband like him.

[And the screen freezes on their smiling faces]

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