A/n: I'm sorry! I got this idea from a certain friend. Warning: Slight language use- Wait, scratch that, very very much language use! Reader discretion is advised (P.S sorry if you don't use or steer clear of this type of language, it just felt right for the structure of this long one-shot). Warning, da feels are ahead! ;~; Now on with our story!
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Song: Airplanes (pt. 1)
College declines:

Reading the paper in front of me, my tears kept flowing. Everything happened in slow motion, time itself slowly coming to a stop. My (h/l) (h/c) hair stuck to my face as I stayed curled up in my little ball for hours. I was a mess at the moment.

My aching depression just wouldn't leave. The thoughts in my head and the content of the paper all spiralled together, forming my tiny ball of solemn shown depression.

"(Y/n)!" The familiar voice of a certain boy filled my ears, my sobs slightly silencing. As soon as my name was shouted, I felt his arms around me, a slight safety feeling starting to surround me.

"I am such a failure! A huge fuck-up! I couldn't even make it into one damn school, and now most of my chances are out the window! Every fucking thing's coming up (Y/n)!" The beginning of my venting started, the shouting of frustration already making it's way from my mouth, every single swear in the known dimensions exiting from the cavern.

"It's not that bad! It's only the third school stupid enough to let you go. Trust me, you'll get into the perfect one" Yuya's words soothed me slightly, a silent sigh escaping my lips before another round of distaste left my mouth.

"My third most fucking recommended school doesn't even want me! All the choices I actually wanted on this shit of a list are off! And I still haven't heard from the other 5 damn schools contacted! What am I going to do?" The tears in my eyes were threatening to fall all over again, until the singing of my lover silenced me.

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?~ I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now.~ Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?~ I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now~" Yuya stopped, expecting me to jump in as usual. After letting a sigh escape from my lips, I joined in, attempting to perfect the rap.

"Yeah, I could use a dream, a genie or a wish, to go back to a time much simpler than this. 'Cause after all the partyin', the smashin', the crashin', and all the glitz and the glam and the fashion and all the pandemonium and all the madness, there comes a time where you fade to the blackness. And when you starin' at that phone in your lap, and you hopin', but them people never call you back" I looked up at the tomato beside me, a smile on his face, while his bangs covered his eyes. Gently, he picked me up, taking me to our shared room and laying me on the bed.

"I'll be back with some pocky" he whispered to me, kissing my forehead before leaving.

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Song: Just A Dream (Sam Tsui and Christina Grimmie) / Happy Hurts (Icon For Hire)
It Just Wasn't Meant to be:

It was wrong. Wrong to feel the way I did. Wrong to know the truth about it. Wrong to know he would be upset. Wrong to try and fix this mess. Wrong to ruin his happiness.

It's for his own good
It's not like she really likes him
It's to bring back his happiness'

I always said this to myself, trying to make the situation better. Maybe if I weren't standing on the side listening it wouldn't be as bad. Or maybe if it wasn't about to snow... Guess there's no turning back now. A slight sigh escapes my lips as the train wreck starts.

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh oh

As the smile on my face grew, I could only wonder how bad of a person I was at this point, but all of it went away as I noticed his eyes watering. Damn all the good thoughts in my head. I really was a terrible person.

I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

"It's just not there anymore... I'm sorry..." finished the girl before walking off, leaving Yuya alone.

'T-This isn't right...is it?'

I was thinking 'bout you,
Thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout us,
What we gon' be
Open my eyes
It was only just a dream

His bangs covered his eyes, his face unreadable. I hesitated, breathing out misty air I didn't know I was holding. The walk towards him was nothing compared to the tension of being in front of him. I didn't know what to say, or how to react. Instead of saying anything, I grabbed his hand.

Travel back down that road
Will you come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream

His head raised slightly, but his goggles fell over his eyes. Yuya removed his hand from mine, my heart aching at the action. His eyes darted back to the ground, probably trying to fight back tears.

This on again, off again temperamental affection
For my darling depression is making me go mad
I hear there's a fine line between crazy and sad
But I can't tell the difference up close

"You really did like her..." I felt a build up in my chest, my eyes threatening to let tears fall, "She wasn't good enough for you..."

I was at the top and now it's like I'm in a basement
Number one spot
Now you found you a replacement
I swear now that I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Reaching up, I grabbed his cheek, cupping it lightly, "She didn't deserve you..." My hand went higher, my other following close behind. I grabbed the rims of his goggles, lifting them lightly and placing them back on his head where they belong.

There's a lot of us you know ill and undiagnosed
But I don't need a piece of paper to tell me what I already know
I'm not alright, for tonight, can we let that be alright
Pick up the battle again in the morning light

The buildup in them fell down, a waterfall of tears falling from his eyes and into the snow on the ground from the night before. I wiped them away, giving him a light smile, words of encouragement coming with it, "It's okay"

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cause I can still feel it in the air
See your pretty face
Run my fingers through your hair

I caressed his right cheek, my right hand ruffling his hair. My soothing actions were stopped when he pulled me into a warm hug, a tight embrace I couldn't escape.

And I'm fighting so hard to come out of the dark
Trying to turn off the night, finally let in the light
Trying to make my misery just a piece of my history
A little less victim, a little more victory

His tears landed on my shoulder, his constant sobs sounding loud in my ear. We had been in this same exact position a couple of months ago, back when he came to me about everything. I remember why it had stopped, the memory giving me another reason to hate his ex.

My lover
My life
My baby
My wife
You left me, I'm tied
Cause I know that it just ain't right

'It's emotionally cheating' That statement alone scared Yuya, leaving him in submission. It was to a point where he couldn't do anything without her, and it pissed me off. I couldn't even talk to him without her having a stick up her ass! It wasn't jealousy, far from it actually. She thought she practically owned him, using him as a way of attention. 'My boyfriend is Yuya Sakaki, one of the best dueltainers at our school!'

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh oh
I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

Was it wrong to want them to break up? My only problem was the giant possibility of Yuya getting hurt. I heard everything she said to her friends, every terrible thing she said, but I couldn't do anything, or so I thought...

I was thinking about you
Thinking about me
Thinking about us
What we gonna be
Open my eyes...
It was only just a dream

I confronted her. I told her off with every fiber in my body. Problem was, she thought she still had an upper-hand. Unfortunately for her, we're now in our current predicament because she underestimated me.

Today I feel okay, guess it was all just in my head
I just need to try harder, I guess
Yeah, everyone else in the world seems to be doing alright
Yeah, I'm alright for tonight
Can we let the pain and the happy mix
Can the two coexist? The beauty next to the mess
Because I swear I have them both already beating in my chest
If that makes me crazy, the numbers don't lie
But I don't call it crazy, I call it being alive

"She didn't DESERVE YOU!" I was practically yelling now, tears coming to form in my eyes. My tears were on his shoulder, his tears on my shoulder. The perfect mess...

So I travel back down that road
Will you come back?
No one knows
I realize, it was only just a dream

"It's okay..." Was it really? Pushing back a bit, I look up into his eyes. A beautiful shade of crimson. Those same eyes haunted me. They were everywhere, but made everything beautiful.

And I'm fighting so hard to come out of the dark
Trying to turn off the night, finally let in the light
Trying to make my misery just a piece of my history
A little less victim, please

We were the victims, trying so hard to let in the light. She destroyed everything. We were both a mess, not knowing how to pick ourselves back up. She did this t-

Riding I swear
I see your face at every turn
I'm trying to get my Usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope you know that you're the only one I yearn for
No wonder I'll be missing when I learn

"I'm sorry..." The words came out in a whisper. It was only audible to the two of us with the low tone he used. My eyes only widened at the unneeded apology, the confusion being something I couldn't hide.

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh oh
I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

"Why the HELL are you sorry?!" I ask, pushing him back a bit from the hug. It caught him by surprise, his eyes widening slightly. The shock left as soon as it came, his eyes diverting to the side to avoid eye contact.

Didn't give you all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now I'm in the club thinking all about you, baby

"(Y/n)..." My name sounded from his lips, smoother than ever. It was hushed, almost silent. His hands tightly gripped mine while his eyes avoided any confrontation with mine. This was it. His true feelings on this whole ordeal would drop and cause shambles of broken feelings around the current field.

If I had to choose between the way that I am,
And the way that everybody else seems to pretend
I wouldn't consider it, not for even a second
Between psycho and sanity, it's not even a question
My favorites parts of myself seem to make the least sense
All the cracks in my skin, they just let the light in
My favorite parts of myself, make the least sense
All the cracks in my skin, let the light in...

"Yuya, I can't do this anymore..." I manage to pull myself away before leaving him alone in the snow to understand the remaining pieces.

A/n: Ayyyye, guess who updated after a year? Meeeeee! Yeah, I ain't worth shit to just drop angst on y'all like that! This has been in the works for about 2-3 years now and I'm sorry that it took me so long to finally post it. You can probably see all the sudden writing changes... My bad! Hope you enjoyed and I may or may not have another oneshot coming up soon...

Anyway, MCI Out, Peace 😜