((This is going to be both adorable, and sad af.))
((This does contain depression and suicidal thoughts, if your not into that kind of thing... You might want to leave.))

Prussia was always the positive one, always smiling and laughing, who would have ever though that was just a disguise...

Just one cut right? That's all it takes...
She told herself staring down at the knife in hand. She had locked herself in her room, sent Monika over to stay with Netherlands for a day. She'd be home in an hour. She had to do this now.
She may not get this opportunity again!

Julia pressed the blade gently against her wrist. Her hands were shaking. Tears were flowing down her cheeks. She couldn't take it anymore, she wasn't strong enough.
She just needed someone, anyone to see through her mask!
In reality, Julia was scared.
These weren't the first time she had these thoughts. She didn't want to die, but it was the only way.

She couldn't stand the pain anymore.
"Please god... Send someone to stop me..." She whispered hoarsely. "I-I don't want to join you yet..."

She pressed down a little harder, just enough to draw a little bit of blood. It made her shiver.
Monika will be ok... I've already sent a suicide note to Netherlands... She'll take care of her... I'm sorry Monika, I'm sorry for all the times I had to leave to concur some stupid land. I'm sorry for all the times when I got mad, or when I went out drinking and left you alone...
I'm sorry for not being the awesome sister You deserve... You should have someone more awesome...

She heard the sound of the door opening downstairs.
That must be her... It's now or never. She told herself, she could hear someone running up the stairs, and a pounding on the door.

"Sister!" Monika yelled from the other side.
"I'm sorry Monika... But there's nothing that can be done..." Prussia stammered, she didn't want to do this but she didn't have any other option.
I'm nothing but a coward...

She saw the door burst open and a blond flash, the knife was knocked out of Prussia's hands. Instead, Monika was hugging her sister tightly, not letting go, she sobbed into her sister's chest.

"M-monika... Y-you're supposed to be at Netherland's."
Monika shook her head hugging her sister tighter.
"You dummkoph!" She said.
"W-why would you try and leave?!" She asked.
"I-I..."
"Your my big sister... I-if I lost you..."
Prussia stared down at her, fighting back tears, but that was inevitable. She hugged Monika tightly, tears streaming down her face.

"I-I couldn't take it anymore... I'm not awesome, I'm a coward." She whimpered. "I'm nothing. I'm a terrible sister!" She confessed, "I... I thought you were going to leave me..." She said even quieter.

Monika shook her head, wiping away Prussia's tears.
"Your more awesome then Netherlands. Your my big sister, the strongest most awesome empire ever."
Prussia hiccuped, pulling Monika closer. "Thank you Monika... But I know it's not true..."

"It is. You're my awesome big sister, if you weren't awesome then you'd be like Austria."
Prussia chuckled softly. "Thank you Monika..."
"P-promise me you won't try and leave again?"

"J-ja... I promise. I'll try and be more awesome from now on. God, this is so unawesome." She said, wiping away her tears.
"I shouldn't cry like this."

"Only awesome people can cry."
"Who told you that?" Prussia asked curiously. "You did."
"Oh yeah... I did." She chuckled, ruffling Monika's hair.
"Ich leibe dich." Julia said.
"Ich leibe dich auch."

((That was the cutest thing I've ever written... God I love these two... We never really get to see stuff of when Germany was a kid...))