27.01.20 - 8.41 PM

i don't know what's wrong with me.

i want to do terrible things to the people i am supposed to love. but they push me and push me to the edge, and i just can't help but explode.

i've gone crazy for sure. i just can't seem to love them anymore.

i don't want to go crazy and break the law... not only the law of the government, but the law of my family.

i can't believe it has come to this.

am i that naive to think that my family could love me?

care about me?

i'm so sorry for rambling, who else can i tell?

you are the only one that will listen.

the only one who won't give up or be annoyed.

i hate that it's true, but it has always been you.

but like we know... it can't be.

remember?

because i didn't... and look where it got me.

yours truly,

your sweetheart.