07.01.20 - 10:47 PM

i've decided to lock my heart away...

if i let it flow through love again, and get lied to, hurt, or dumped... i don't think i'll be able to survive it.

i'm so sick of this shit.

i wish i could tick every box that you wanted... but i couldn't and i wouldn't, no matter what.

so... i think i've gotten my closure. but is closure supposed to make me let you go?

cause it didn't.

once again... i mean, it doesn't surprise me. i'm really fucked up, aren't i?

fuck sanity.

i don't care what others think... but i guess that differs, if you were here... but you're not.

and you won't be, ever.

why do i keep on having to repeat this?

i don't have closure do i?

...

do i?

i really need answers.

will you promise me that you'll answer me?

so, many questions are lost in this crazy mind of mine... so many memories, so much hate, so much hurt and death. is there anything right with me?

fuck it.

bye.

yours truly,

your sweetheart.