17.12.19 - 8:34 PM

i'm really scared.

i'm so scared of not being able to ever forget you, and being miserable and lonely for the rest of my life.

i feel like you were the only one for me.

i have tried to distract myself so much... acting so obsessed with boys, but it's just an act because i know that me being so infatuated with you is becoming a burden to my best friend.

i know that i can't talk to her about it anymore and i want her to see that i can still like someone else.

i want to talk about you all the time... i want to talk about all of our good times together, but also the heartbreak that i have endured.

i need to vent to my friends but i can't. no one will listen... and when they actually might, i'm afraid that they'll think i'm stupid for still loving you, or think that i'm just looking for attention.

what i'm trying to say is that i can't stand life without you.

i can't stand myself without you.

i am nothing without you.

please come back.

yours truly,

your sweetheart.