01.03.20 - 1:05 PM

i had a dark, scary realisation...

do you drink because you want to get away? as they say, "drown your demons"?

do you smoke because it leaves you numb?

i don't want you to smoke.

each deep drag, decays your lungs, but it takes the feeling with them... doesn't it? and leaves you numb.

maybe i'm crazy, but is it true?

is this why you do it?

or do you think it's cool?

i don't want you to drink... i have come to the overwhelming conclusion, that you drink just to get away for a while... to drown the thoughts that consume you.

i know you have it hard...

so, is it really that crazy that i have come to this giant theory on your life? is it to dark?

if it's true, though...

i'm so sorry.

i don't want this for you, nor anyone else, but especially you.

you were my brightest part, and i can't have you die down too. i need you to stay as happy as ever. i need you to stay as you. happy.

promise me...

please promise me you won't do anything stupid, for it will completely kill my heart.

stay safe.

yours truly,

your sweetheart.