Don't you dare to read it Taehyung, Just you remember, one day, just one day is left, for your marriage. You gathered all courage to ignore it, untill now don't spoil it.

It's twelve AM, and his nightmares are still knocking at his door. Taehyung is standing in front of the mirror with  redshot eyes, it's been days he got a hold of the diary but couldn't gathered a bit of courage to open up the pages and read it. Most importantly tomorrow is Jeongguk's trial date and the day after? His marriage. Yet, his broken self is engaging more with his inner thoughts rather then the reality.

What kind of person are you Taehyung? This is YOUR HYUNGIE'S diary, you have all the rights to read it. What if you find the reason of his betrayals?

Taehyung stop thinking too much. Just think about Eun, what would he feel, if he find out that you are still reminiscing your goody old days with your ex, reading his diary? Shit.. no..

Exactly Taehyung Eun, you know how powerful Eunwoo is. He never once failed in a court case. What if this time he makes your Hyungie go to jail for ever? DO SOMETHING TAEHYUNG. There must be something inside the book.

HE BETRAYED YOU!! DON'T LET HIM PLAY AGAIN. JUST FOCUS ON YOUR OWN GOD DAMN BUSINESS!!

"JEON JEONGGUK IS YOUR BUSINESS!!!"

"NOT ANYMORE-

STOP!!!!! STOP!!!!! ST-OP!!!!

Taehyung shouted looking through the mirror. His messed up hair with his red shot eyes are just screaming nothing but pain.

Taehyung suppressed all his emotions, all his curiosities to read that diary, since he hold it. It seems really odd to belive, for a person like him, who were all walking on streets to gather some reasons behind his betrayals back in years. But now? He seems lost, more like in guilty. Because he has his wedding one day later and he don't want to feel weak at this point. He just don't want to make his soon to be husband to go through the same pain he went through a few years back. He don't want to betray Eun this time.

But, Then again, he wants to read it. Yes!!! He wants to recall their moments while being a desperate fellow yet again. He wants to feel his Hyungie once again before he lose him forever.

With these thoughts the petite male has lost his happiness all over again. All he can see now is a huge mountain before him.

Taehyung's sniffs got interrupted by his phone call. Wiping his tears he receives it.

"Hellow."

📞"Chi-ku."

And the voice was enough to give him chill at this moment. He immediately glance at the phone screen, to confirm who can it be rather then Him.. it's a private number. Oh no...

"Hyu-ng.... ie...." Taehyung mumbled with a shocking face.

📞"Hii- umm.. were you sleeping?" Hesitancy was visible over Jeongguk's voice.

"No,.. yes.. I was sleeping. Where did you get my number?"

📞"Hobi Hyung gave me." Jeongguk mumbled. 📞"Did I disturb you at this moment?" Barely reached over the other's ear making him chukle.

"I don't think you care for me that much Hyungie!" Taehyung said with a bitter chukle, gaining a sigh from the otherside.

📞"I am sorry." Jeongguk mumbled. 📞"For everything. For making you go through such-

"Hyung, I don't think this is what your main motif to call me." Taehyung said with Gritted teeth. He just don't want to recall his past at this moment. That's it.

📞"I- I chi-ku, will you- umm are- umm ... I am happy you are getting married." Jeongguk completed his sentence within a breath.

And it would be a huge lie, if I tell you that, the words didn't hurt them both at the same time. With a sniff Taehyung looks towards his ceiling not letting his tears to fall. He slips down to the floor making a loud thud.

📞"Chiku-

"I hate you. I so so sooo hate you hyu-ng. I hate you" Taehyung chants.

📞"I know I am sorry.

"NO DON'T SAY THAT WORD YOU DIDN'T EVEN MEAN IT.

📞"Chi-ku....

"I hate you Hyu-ng. I HATE YOU. HATE YOU. HATE YOU... HATE YOU.... YOU ARE SO FUCKING DUMB HYUNG. YOU DESERVE TO BE IN A JAIL..
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I miss yo-u." With that Taehyung's inner voice mufled with constant sobs.

📞"Don't cr-y ba-by. Ple-ase don't...I miss you too.

"NO YOU DIDN'T MISS ME HYUNGIE, IF YOU WERE THEN, YOU WOULD ATLEAST ASK ME HOW AM I DOING NOT-

📞"How are you doing?" Jeongguk interrupted the other.

"Stop your fake concern now. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU THE MOST. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I HAD NO CHOICE RATHER THEN TO DIE! YES I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF !! WHERE WERE YOU THEN!!! AND NOW THAT I AM GOING TO FINALLY HAVE A FAMILY, YOU SHOWED UP?-

📞"I am sorry."

"Scoff*

📞"Chi-ku are you okay coming to my trial tomorrow. I am sorry if I asked too much-

"And what would I be doing there? Do-

📞"I have no on-e with m-e and

"And you want me to stand against my Fiancee? You know that right, Eun will be there with your snake bitch. How could you even think of making me witness your so called family drama-

📞Your time has up, Mr Jeon give us your phone.

Taehyung got interrupted hearing such voices behind Jeongguk making the other sigh.

"Where are you Hyungie? Who are they?" Taehyung asked concerned. "You are in your home right?"

📞"Sigh* Chi-ku I will meet you so-on okay! Very so-on."

"What's going on?" Taehyung's voice shakes. Why this seems like a good bye Hyungie say something. You can't leave me again.. please please...

📞"I am inside of the jail."

"Ja-il.-

📞"Chi-ku."

"Hyungie... No... Hyu-ng-ie.. don't tell me nothing.. no...d-

📞"Happy birthday Chi-ku. And- and I am so proud of you ba-

And the phone disconnects. Making the other startle.

"Hellow, Hyung... Hyu-ng-ie... Hyungie...

Taehyung redialed the number.

"Hyu-

"Hello, I am sorry but!! Mr. Jeon can not have any conversation Anymore right at this moment, you can leave a voice message Thankyou."

With that the phone call disconnects again. With Wobbling legs Taehyung stands up on his feet not leaving his eyes from the floor.

I- Hyu-ngie... Hyungie... Hyungie... Hyungie.... Hyungie.... Hyungie.... Hyungie.... My Hyu-ngie... Hyungie....

Taehyung chants with a blank face. To be honest Taehyung's mind is now surrounding with only guilty. God knows why, Taehyung is somewhere feeling a lot of pain. Which is making him to feel nothing. Nothing.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!" Taehyung jumped on his feet listening to the high pierced voice of his Fiancee. Who is standing there with a cake beside him there his mother.

"Happy Birthday my son." They both approached the stilled boy with a huge smile lingering on their face.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to my dear Deffodil... Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuu!!!!!!"

"I thought you were sleeping Tae, Anyway, please make a wish." Eunwoo said with a blush. Yes the boy has been blushing a lot these days, as the marriage date is reaching near.

"I-i- didn't mean to shout Eun." Taehyung said with tears making the both other person's smile to fall immediately.

"What's wrong?" Eunwoo asked passing the cake to mrs. Kim. Hell cake can go to hell Taehyung is much important. And by now The boy is shaking vibrantly.

"I -he- said- I am sorry- but I said bad words... He- feels ba-d... I didn't mean it.. trust me .. I don't hate h-im Eun." Taehyung mumbled nudging his face to the other.

Taehyung's mother thought to give the couple some privacy. So she leave them. Wheras, Eunwoo is not foreign with this scenario of Taehyung. The younger always do this after having a bad dream. So the elder concepts, it as a cycle. So he didn't ask further just reassures him with reassuring words.

"I-i need to read.. he - diary- Hyu-ngie

"Shhh... Shhhh... Tae baby... Shhh... Don't do this to yourself. Tae... Come out of your thoughts... Relax."

"No .... I need

"Tae- shhh breath... Take a deep breath..."

Taehyung did what the other said...

"Perfect... Now stop crying.. you look literally like an Annabelle while crying gross!!" Eunwoo mumbled in a teasing manner, making the other to look at him with a confuse face.

"Annabelle Tae.. a doll!!! Famous for its scaring features... Pffftttttt...ahahhahahaha." Eun laughs loudly making the other to pout.

"Awwwww my cute little Taehyung. I was just kidding... Anyway let's not think anything... You and me need to celebrate this day Taehyung. This is your BIRTHDAY!!! And my luckiest day!!!!!!" Eunwoo chirped out loud.

"O-h?" Taehyung asked confused rubbing his eyes with his small fists making it dry.

"Tae baby, I am thinking of leaving this job and getting settled with you In Italy after our marriage. And today is going to be my last court case, and I am willing to give my best to win this case, with my all willpower. And I meant it. This is why I think of this as my luckiest day."

And Taehyung's heart sanks listening to that. The grip he was holding with the other immediately loosened.

"I will show The Great Jeon Jeongguk, His real place, this time." Eunwoo mumbled, enough to giving the other goosebumps. Taehyung slips his body out of the grip.

"You should go." The younger said without looking at the lawyer.

"Oops, Baby, I was here-

"GO!!!" Taehyung snaps.

"Are you okay?"

"Go Eun GO... FUCKING GO!!! LEAVE ME ALONE-

"TAEHYUNG!!! What's wrong with you? Are you fucking okay? YOU ARE BEHAVING LIVE A MANIAC-

"I AM A MANIAC... NOW YOU CAN GO..."
Taehyung pushed the other.

"Sigh* Are you having your mood swings again? Should I again take you to a psychiatrist T-

"No. I am okay. Just go Eun." Taehyung mumbled without looking at him.

And it broke the other male as well. It's like whatever the elder does to the other, it never shines. it has been always him who is holding up their relationship but the other?

"Okay fine jeez . I am going.... But please at least try to share your thoughts with me sometimes.. I am your friend too. I am not marrying you to have your body, Taehyung. I want to see you happy ... Just Happy.... I don't even want to take your old lover's position... It's just... It would be okay for me, If you atleast give me that minimum respect, I deserve as a partner."

Eunwoo said with a tight smile. And Did Taehyung regret? YES!!! The younger snaps his body towards the male. It's been always like this. He admits that he only knows how to hurt the elder to his extreme level. And nothing.

"I am sorry."

"Scoff* Taehyung please tell me, are you happy with this marriage?" Eunwoo asked with a straight face. And almost about to tear up looking at Taehyung's hesitant face.

"Eun y-es of course I d."

"Happy Birthday Taehyung." The said male immediately left the room leaving a broken boy behind with a broken heart.

But this time, it was really needed to ease the mess for Taehyung he just created. And he chose not to be a dumb fellow anymore. Nomore...