**/**/****

📖Time flies. I've read it somehwere, yet never had the very urgency to feel it. But guess what, Three years, Eleven months, twelve days, thirteen hours and twenty six minutes had passed away. And you never came.

Oh, You are probably still waiting for me hoping that, I would ever come to you, give you a reason to get back to me right Chiku?

I am dying. I don't want to leave you yet live too. It's just too much.

Living in a place where you don't belong is really what feels like a hell to me. Moreover when you are not around.

Chiku I saw you last night, I saw you giggling hard, holding my hand while jumping around near me. You were looking so damn happy. It really felt nice. I am glad you came to me. Oh and you were wearing the same sweater I bought for you with my first salary. And trust me pink sweets you more.

How I am desperate to feel the warmth of my own place. I miss everyone. I hope Appa is not aware of my current situation. Otherwise the core reason of his pride, would be shattered. Lol.

No one is here to help me out. The only best thing happened to me all these days, more like years that I got to keep my diary. I hope it would get to his owner which is you, even if I've to leave my life away. I just hope you read my words some day, when I will not be around you Chiku.

Taehyung chocked on his saliva completing the lines. He is having a very hard time breathing. His chest is rising up and down. Panick is what rising inside. He had been all these years spending his days only by cursing the person, who never desreved even.

"I never deserved you. I never did Hyu-ngie. Never. This is all because of me.. if I never insist you to leave our village then you and me would have live a different life now. But look, I messed up right? I've been always messing your life up Hyungie, I never gave you enough reason to Love me, yet you?"

Taehyung cried out loud slapping his own chest for throbbing too much. He wants to feel any physical pain at this moment, not the emotional one..

**/**/****

📖I am so sorry!!! For not getting enough time to write you all these months Chiku. Anygay I've a great news for you.
I FUCKING GOT FIVE YEARS OF PENALTY REDUCED.
That's because of my well behaviour. They have asked me to bring a lawyer as soon as possible to have my real justice. Lol. All this years I've learnt only one thing Chiku, no one is there to help you out when you are at the bottom of your vulnerable situation. That is why I've decided.

I will defend and fight my own case. I will let Lili to meet her own karma by myself!!!
Till then, let's meet you for now. I am craving for you more then my own justice. Trust me. And guess what? I am coming to you Chiku and this time no More secrets. No more. Yyyesss here I come!!!

Reading the lines Taehyung knitted his brows.

Hyu-ngie came to me? Hyu-ngie came to me?

With shaky hand, he scroll open the next page, But what he read next crushed his entire existence down.

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"Eo-eomma?"

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📖So Italy Huh? Well can I be happier more? Nah I guess not. I am the happiest person on earth right now to know that, you are doing great in your life.

Oh your Eomma told me about this. Yes I met her today. She looks more elegant now. Not that grumpy old lady. Lol.

But, somewhere, I can feel her irony over her words, a̶n̶d̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶d̶o̶u̶b̶l̶e̶d̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶p̶a̶i̶n̶ ̶w̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶s̶h̶e̶ ̶p̶r̶a̶c̶t̶i̶c̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶a̶c̶c̶u̶s̶e̶d̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶f̶o̶r̶ ̶h̶u̶r̶t̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶

Well it's not that, I can defend myself by saying that I never hurt you, when the truth is far far away. She is indeed right. I never desreved you in the first place. I was- just - you know- I miss you. I fucking miss you. Why you had to leave me? Why?

I heard about Your Appa. Oh no you have gone through a lot Chiku, And I was not there for you. I am the worst right? Maybe somewhere she is right, I never deserved you. If you are happy there, I am happy too. Just don't hurt yourself and come back to me soon. I am not following you there don't worry.

Anygay, I will be waiting here. Just like you did to me. Don't make me wait too long. I like I did. Pout*

**/**/****

📖Wow!!!! Chiku I was almost in the verge of loosing my hopes to see you again baby. And here you are!!! I just went over a social media account and everywhere is your arrival news. That's great!!! I can't wait to meet you. But where can I find you? Will you come to me? Oh and I live in a rented house now. Our home is still being void there without US!!!

📖I am glad you found someone

Taehyung couldn't read more. He immediately shut the diary up, griiting his teeth.

"EOMMA!!!!!"

Taehyung burged outside with a not so normal aura holding the diary. It is already eight in the morning. The woman were busy making breakfast.

Listening to his shout, she looks towards her son curiously, with a frown lingering upon her wrinkled face, who is now coming more like running towards her, having red shot eyes, Dirk circles around it. Messy hair, messed up attire.

"T-ae? Why are you crying? What's wr-ong-

"How was it?" Taehyung asked gritting his teeth.

"What's wrong?"

"HOW FUCKING DARE YOU TO PLAY WITH MY LIFE. YOU FUCKING HID A HUGE TR-

"TAEHYUNG!!! WHAT'S WITH YOUR WORDS HAH? DON'T MAKE ME SCOLD YOU ON YOU BIRTHDAY!!!" Mrs. Kim shouted back.

"SHUT UP!!!" Taehyung shouted even more throwing away the nearby vase to the ground making a loud shuttering sound. Taehyung lost it. He lost the very last amount of self control at this moment.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU TAEHYUNG?"

"YOU!!! I HATE YOU EOMMA!!! YOU HEARD IT RIGHT? I FUCKING HATE YOU!! YOU KNEW!!! ALL THESE YEARS YOU KNEW THAT HYUNGIE CAME. MY HYU-NGIE Ca-me to me."

Mrs.kim gasps listening to her son's words.

"H-he came to me TO MY VILLAGE... HE NEVER BETRAYED ME..HE...HE CAME... HE WAS THERE FOR ME. BUT YOU!!!WAE EOMMA!! WAEEE!!!!

"Y-you met him?" The woman asked with terror in her eyes. She is feeling like she is about to pass out. No not that, she was planning any bad for the boys. But looking at her son's hardships with Jeongguk, it really made her belive that The boy would never deserve a second chance with her son. This is why she was persistent to tie Taehyung up with the lawyer.

"Scoff* THE AUDACITY!!! wait- Ahhhh"

Taehyung bursted out laughing holding his stomach looking at his mother's terrible state.

"Now everything is making sense around me. SO ALL THESE DAYS THIS WAS YOU WHO WERE PRACTICALLY FORCED ME MARRY A PERSON WHO I ONLY RESPECT IN A HURRY. BECAUSE YOU FUCKING SCAR-ED. YOU GOT PANICKED BY THINKING OF ITS POSSIBLE SCENERIOS IF I GET TO MEET MY HYU-NGIE BEFORE THE MERRIAGE RIGHT?"

"YES!!! I AGREE. I DON'T WANT YOU TO END UP WITH THAT BOY, WHEN EUNWOO IS MORE ESTABLISHED IN HIS LIFE. THAT BOY IS MATURE AND-

"My whole life Eomma. I HAVE SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE WITH THAT PERSON WHO IS NOT WITH ME NOW! AND YOU SAY SOMEONE OTHER DESERVES ME MORE?*

"YES! AND THAT OTHER IS EUNWOO. I WOULD SAY IT MORE AND MORE IF NEEDED. BECAUSE THAT BOY GAVE YOU HIS COMPANY WHEN YOU WERE IN NEEDED, NOT LIKE YOUR HYUNGIE, WHO PRACTICALLY LEFT YOU AT YOUR WORST."

"TRUTH IS THAT, I LEFT HIM AT HIS WORST. YOU HEARD ME? LISTEN CAREFULLY EOMMA. I NEVER. I REPEAT. I AM THE ONE WHO NEVER DESERVED HIM. IT WAS ME WHO LEFT HIM. HE WAS BEGGING ME TO STAY. BUT ME? I ne-ver stopped-

Taehyung stopped on his track not finding any words to threw at his mother at this moment.

"I think, not anymore." The boy mumbled.

"Ta- where are you going?" Mrs. Kim asked to the boy who is practically running towards their front door, following him.

"Oh you care?" Taehyung smirked wiping his tears.

"Taehyung, don't mess up the situation?" The woman threatened.

" YOUR MERRIAGE IS TOMORROW."

"AND MY HYUNGIE IS GOING TO JAIL FOREVER TODAY. TODAY IS HIS LAST TRIAL. AND DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS MY FUCKING FATE? IT'S EUN, WHO IS STANDING AGAINST HIM. YES, IT IS EUN. AND HE PROMISED HIMSELF TO WIN THIS CASE AT ANY COST. AND I WOULD RATHER CHOOSE TO DIE INSTEAD OF BEING THE REASON OF MY HYUNGIE's MISERY THAT I ALREADY AM EOMMA.

"AND WHAT WILL YOU DO?"

"If needed, I won't hesitate to give my life away."

"Taehyung-

"DON'T!
Don't you dare to stop me anymore Eomma. You've lost me already, just do yourself a favour and hold back from shedding tears over my dead body."

With that the boy walks away with a heavy heart leaving a broken woman behind.