I'm the most confident I have ever been. Look at me taking risks. First with my book's publishing meeting and now I'm going to tell Toby that I am ready to wait until I'm eighteen to be joined in holy matrimony. How did I reach such a conclusion? I'm so glad you asked. No I'm not. It's really not a big deal. When Toby was away to attend his sister's wedding I realized that I longed for his company. All the words he said to assure me of his love got me thinking of my own revelation. It was time I really stepped out of my comfort zone and train myself to be ready for the unseen at any time. If he was invested in this as much as I was about to be maybe, just maybe we both might work something out. Which is why I'm going to his house to meet him and say hi and hear what happened with him and his parents.

"Willy have you seen my ring?" I have been looking for it for exactly five minutes. I usually keep it in my left drawer but somehow it's not here anymore. Maybe Willy is right about me being more clean and tidier.

"Here," Willy came into the room carrying it and handed it over to her little sister. She was so proud of Olivia. She most confident that Toby is a great guy and will keep her happy.

"Now go so you come back before it's dark."

I am happy with my decision. It feels right. Toby is my home and I do love him. He is funny, no not funny but he is very charming. He took care of me in my worst, made me grow in ways I would never have alone and adores Willy and Carrie just the same. I would be lucky to have him as mine and he is blessed to have me. Right? No negative thoughts right now. I'm putting myself out there for Toby to have me and allow myself to unravel before him. I am going to blossom like a flower by the side of a lake.

In four minutes I will be there. The taxi driver keeps smiling because I am so nervous and I keep telling him that. I have been asking him if I look alright more than enough times. He told me about him and his wife just to ease my nerves. Their story was almost similar to ours. He explained happily saying,

"See when I met Eliza (his wife) it was about eleven years ago," smiles in gladness. I wished I would have an opportunity one day to narrate my story many years later with the same confidence and glow as this man had. He continued saying, "I was working my normal shifts that day but suddenly I was famished. I had eaten not long ago but I was really ravenous. So I went to the nearest diner not far from work to grab a takeaway to eat. When I first laid my eyes on her, I knew I had found what I had been searching for my entire life. When you know, you know. Ever since our first meeting, date and wedding, I have fought to have her by my side. It wasn't easy but it is worth it." He concluded assuring me that with whatever that was going to take place today, I should never lose sight of what might keep me happy for the rest of my life.

"You're here madam."

"Thank you sir, for telling me your story. May the Lord bless you and your wife," I said getting out of the car. It was nearing sunset. This house was really far away from the city and made me pay double on my fee. 

I fixed my third navy-blue long sleeve loose fit solid maxi dress dress and my hair and clicked on the gate's access control that Carrie answered to. The gate opened noisily and I walked into the mansion a short while after. The whole family was watching TV without Toby. I did not know whether he was around until I sat down with all of them questioning about my visit with their eyes. Finally Carrie broke the silence commending my hairstyle and fixed her eyes back to the TV screen.

"I hear you took well care of my children in our absence," Gerald spoke with utter most gratitude also taking in account that I had been his entrepreneurial fan for years.

"Yes sir. They were also a huge help in my search for my father."

"So what brings you here?" asked Mary turning to me.

"I am present to discuss matters with Toby. Is he around?"

"Unfortunately my dear you just missed him. He was here not more than two hours ago." The ease at which Aunt Mary portrayed frightened both Gerald and Carrie for they knew what was happening behind the closed curtains.

"Oh! Then I must take your leave. Truly I am thankful for the kindness you showed me when you gave me the job and my salary. I am capable of seeing the kind gestures you showed. No one that works as a babysitter and receives that much of a wage. I am really thankful. Goodbye." I was a bit disappointed but you know what they say. "You may never get it right the first time."

"I will have the driver take you home my dear. And you are welcome." Gerald did not hesitate to take the call and invite the driver in. He liked her.

"Thanks again sir," I said closing the door behind me. As I turned around to face the car already waiting for me in the drive-way. Its her! The girl he hid the other day when she was entering the car. She is beautiful. Definitely not familiar with my eyes.

"What are you doing here?" asked Toby who had his hand around the girl's waist. They were very intoxicated.

I wanted to shout 'fuck you' in his face but said,

"Who is she?"

"None of your business Olivia!" He never called me that. You asshole and liar!

"You've been with her this whole time?" I tried to stop my tears and beg them not to let me down but they did.

"My name is Amanda and don't you dare talk to my man like that!"

Toby was failing to find balance on his own. The driver was watching us with an eager eye. I did not understand what the fuck was going on. I looked down on my feet and up at Amanda and came across a ring on her left hand. Same design and style.

"Where did you get that?" I asked pointing at the ring. She grinned proudly saying, "Honey-bun gave it to me last month. Isn't it cute?"

"Fuck this I'm out!"

"Wait Olivia it's not what you think!"

"What the fuck is it then! You are a liar and a cheat! I can't believe I believed you wanted to be with me!" holds my hand "fuck you Toby! Don't you dare touch me!"

"Olivia please listen to me!" He pleaded clenching his fists and tightening his grip on the pants he had on. His eyebrows slanted inwardly and his eyes were a bit lowered but awakened from his drunken state.

"Drive sir!"