Hello my lovelies! Hope you lovely readers are well. I have been away for really long, thanks to the arrival of my baby. Motherhood is time consuming and difficult!

Anyway, here I am! I am going to try and finish this story as I don't like leaving things midway. In case anyone is still interested, please read it. And I hope you like it. I haven't had the time to sit down and proofread it, so please ignore the mistakes.

Vaishali: Rohit, you are back? That was real quick! Has Ashwin signed it already?

She eyed the file in his hand.

R: Nope! I did not go in. The love birds are having a tiff.

Vaishali: Konja neram minnadi than konjitu irunthaanga?
(They were all lovey dovey just a few minutes ago?)

R: Aama, aana antha loosu Tarun vanthu koluthi potutu poitaanla.
(But Tarun was here to ruin the peace)

V: Ayyayo! Thirumbavavum ah?
(Oh no! Not again!)

R: Yeah!

Rohit pretended to be theatrically disappointed at the turn of events.

V: Dai, ava thaniya iruka da avan kuda, athuvum ippo ellam sema kovathulaye irukaan. Poi kaapathu da avala.
(Dude, she is in there, all alone with a furious Ashwin. Go help her.)

R: Yethu? Nee poi help pannu ma! Naan than eppovume maataren avan kita.
(What? Why don't you go help her? Why do I always have to become the scapegoat?)

V: You are the closest friend to the two of them, not me!

R: Oye, kedi nee! Anyway, His royal pain in the ass is her problem and not mine. She brought this on herself, didn't she? I am sure she signed up for this knowing how to deal with her man child when he throws a tantrum.

V: How rude! I am going to wait for another ten minutes and if she doesn't come out, we are going in.

R: But..

V: No buts! I am going to help her, and you have no choice but to come with me.

Rohit sulked like a child as he walked into his cabin. He turned around as he heard Vaishali call him out.

V: Dai Rohit, neeye oru man child. Nee avan ah solara. Poda!
(You are a man child yourself so don't call him one!)

Vaishali whispered in a voice that was audible only to herself.

V: And I damn wish that you are my problem to deal with!

Rohit looked at her intently and raised his eyebrows, trying to understand what she must have whispered but Vaishali shook her head and walked away with a sad smile on her face. Rohit clearly was clueless about her feelings for him.

Ashwin held his head between his hands, trying to deal with the fury and the frustration in his mind. Sivaangi was truly scared to see his unsettling demeanour at the moment.

Sivaangi was holding onto Ashwin's hands like her entire life depended on it while he remained intransigent as he sat through the fifteen minute long discussion with Tarun and it truly felt like an eternity for her. She knew the inner turmoil Ashwin must have suffered after listening to Tarun talk about the house they had bought together to make a perfect home after the wedding.

Ashwin was quiet for minutes after Tarun had left. Sivaangi building some courage touched his hair making him swat her hand away.

A: DON'T!

She was alarmed at the sudden animosity. In the last few days, he had warmed up to her and in fact, they had started having a really good time together. Another ghastly mix-up over her past was the last thing she wanted in their relationship.

S: Listen Ashwin, it's in the past and you know that I wasn't..

A: Exactly, he was your past and I can't digest that. Just think about it. Had I not kissed you in Bangalore, you wouldn't have broken up with him. You would have been happy with him now. All that I have right now would be his. Your time, your care, your love, your kisses, all of you! You had wholeheartedly planned a home and a happy life with him, you had no qualms about becoming another man's wife! I was clearly not in your thoughts, right? And here I was, a complete fool to have been dreaming about you day and night while you were happily playing family with another man. How could you?

S: I don't deny any of these accusations but are you saying that you can never let go of this? How are we supposed to live happily if you keep bringing this up at every given chance?

Ashwin threw his hands out in the air feeling totally clueless and exasperated about their situation.

A: Honestly, I don't know. I do try! Really hard! More than you know. But something or the other keeps reminding me that you had prepared yourself for a content life without me being part of it. I just can't erase it! It just keeps replaying in my head time repeatedly.

Ashwin was pulling at his hair making Sivaangi kneel in front of him and she took his face between her hands. She could feel his temple twitch in tension as he clenched his jaws.

S: Ashwin?

..

S: Babe! Look at me. Please!

He shook his head and refused to look at her face. She begged him until he gave up and looked up at her. His bloodshot eyes revealed the rage and angst in his heart. It hurt her to see the emotional unrest in those empty eyes.

S: Baby please! We both deserve to be happy in life, don't we? And to be happy, we have to move on. I accept that I was wrong but how do we move forward if you cannot forgive me?

A: I have forgiven you.

S: But you clearly haven't forgotten anything.

A: No, I haven't forgotten a single thing. I have a vivid memory of everything.

Sivaangi felt the tears threatening to spill out of her eyes. She wanted to deal with the problem in hand in a very sensible way but she was really struggling to fight his dark emotions.

S: Please Ashwin, naan kenji kekaren. Ennaku yenna panarathunu therila.
(Please Ashwin, I beg of you. I don't know what to do)

A: Neither do I!

S: I am not this person who remembers unwanted things that happened in the past. I am not a vengeful person and I don't think you are one either. I believe that it is just a mental block. I know what happened earlier must have triggered it. If you could tell me all the things that could possibly set off this insecurity, we could avoid it in the future..

Ashwin glared at her making her wonder what was wrong with what she said.

A: Are you fucking serious? Do I look like a psycho to you?

S: What?? Noo! That's not what I meant..

A: OUT!

Sivaangi was seething in anger but she stood her ground.

S: Stop acting like a 7 year old!

A: Another accusation! You called me a lunatic and now, I am an impudent child, is it?

S: I did no such thing and I did not call you a child! You know what, I can't make a civil conversation with you now, I will deal with you when you are calmer.

A: Okay great, thanks! Out of my sight now.

S: I am not going anywhere. We have a lot of pending work to finish. I will start doing it and you can join me when you are done having a meltdown.

Vaishali and Rohit entered to find him standing there gaping at Sivaangi who looked totally calm and collected.  Rohit snorted a chuckle earning a kick in his shins from Vaishali. Ashwin's eyes darted towards the door and watched the amusement on his friend's face.

A: Do you want to keep your job?

R: I have been threatened atleast fifty times in the last few weeks about losing my job. I honestly don't care anymore.

A: Do I look like a clown to you two?

V: Me? What did I do?

Ashwin ignored her and started a staring contest with his best friend.

R: Dai, ava bayapadulannu yenna bayapadutha vanthutaya? Naan un friend da. Ithellam enkitayum nadakaathu thambi.
(Hey, you couldn't scare her away so you decided to try to scare me away instead? I am your friend, I am immune to your tantrums)

A: WT..

S: Stop it you two. Ashwin, come on now. There is so much work to do!

Ashwin was holding Rohit by his collar and Sivaangi pulled them apart.

S: Can you proofread this? I need to send it across in an hour.

A: Proofreading isn't my job.

S: I know. But can you please help me? It is very important and I don't feel happy with what your assistant has done.

She thrust the file forward waiting for him to take it.

S: This is for the free education scheme that we are going to provide, it  is important to you right? Our petty arguments can be put on hold. I am going nowhere, you can fight with me after going home. All night!

Ashwin glared at her sarcasm when Vaishali tried to change the atmosphere in the room by reinforcing the need to finish it before the strict deadlines and for once, Ashwin let go of it and got himself immersed into work. Sivaangi silently thanked Vaishali as she left the room.

They reached home at 7 pm and Ashwin walked into the bedroom without sparing Sivaangi another look. She ordered a takeout, for she was in no mood to cook as she felt mentally exhausted with the day's events. She wished she could go back in time and change everything that happened since morning. She wanted the caring Ashwin she woke up next to this morning. She then wished that she could actually go back in time and erase Tarun from her life. Back to the time when she was in love with Ashwin and had a chance to change the ways she pursued the love of her life so that Ashwin wouldn't be feeling this bruised right now.

Lost in thoughts, she walked into their room and found him freshly showered. Standing in front of the mirror with the towel wrapped dangerously low on his waist and the water droplets on his back made him look extra hot. On any other day, she would have loved to hug him and tease him but she knew that he was going to hurt her ego today. She quietly walked into the shower and closed her eyes as she was engulfed in thick steam. She inhaled the scent of his shower gel and wished for more than his scent. She craved to be in his arms feeling the warmth of his love. She stood under the shower for the next half hour, letting the hot water wash away the sorrow and letting her mind reminisce about all the sweet memories with him.

By the time she went downstairs, the food had arrived and was lying on the table untouched. She looked at the man responsible for her highly tumultuous life seated on the couch, leaning back with his long muscular legs crossed at his ankles and his fingers furiously punching on the buttons of his gaming console.

She stared at him for a few minutes waiting for him to acknowledge her presence. But when he refused to look her way, she took the food parcel transferring it to a bowl and took it to the table and called her hopeless loved one, who was still focussing on his game.

S: Ashwin, come let's have dinner.

A: I am not hungry.

Or pretending to focus on his game.

She placed the bowl with a loud thud making him look up.

A: What now?

S: I can't believe that you are such a hypocrite.

A: Me? What's the hypocrisy now?

S: You have told me not to dwell in the past or worry about our future because it will ruin our present. But what are you doing to yourself? To us? Two days of happiness and then you go back to living in the past. And do you practically think that it will change anything in our lives? Can we find ways to make this situation better?

A: Honestly, I am done with how you are constantly accusing me of being a lot of things!

Sivaangi sighed.

S: Ashwin, I am tired. And hungry. I haven't had anything since breakfast.

A: Alright, why don't you go eat? No one is stopping you.

S: You have always told me not to express my anger by skipping my meals but I have literally been forcing the food down your throat whenever you are upset. Please, don't make me beg. Come now. I will eat only if you do.

Ashwin let out a deep breath and got up from the couch. He walked to the table and pushed her into her seat and sat opposite to her. He ate the food in silence while she did the same to avoid any further arguments at dinner time.

Warning 18+ : Mature content ahead!

When Sivaangi walked into their bedroom after her call with her dad, Ashwin was lounging on the bed, assiduously typing something on his phone. She really wanted to change the feel in the bedroom, after the particularly long day. Keeping that in mind, she changed into a sexy black cami top and a pair of red PJ shorts that looked more like hot pants.

She climbed onto the bed, snatched his phone and switched it off without paying heed to his vocal disapproval of her actions. When he tried to argue, she placed her index finger against his lips and sat on his lap with her legs on either side of his upper thighs. He maintained the stern look even as she rubbed herself against him that caused a stirring in his loins.

S: This invisible wall between us needs to come down. For the sake of our mental and emotional well being.

A: And what do you suggest I do to tear it down?

S: Well, we will see what can be done.

He watched her intently while she held his face up and traced his facial features with a finger.

S: Let's take it slowly.

A: Really?

S:Yes!

His fingers moved under cami and held her waist, while teasing her with his husky tone.

A: How slowly?

She answered his question by her actions, her mouth left tender kisses along his sharp jawline and moved to nip his earlobe earning a low growl from him. She smiled and whispered into his ears.

S: I love you Ashwin. Trust me! I love you more than you know.

Ashwin closed his eyes and let her words sink in. She tilted his chin with her index finger and looked at his serene face. She parted her lips and teased him as she let her tongue trace the tiny smile on his lips. But he refused to give in to her.

S: Knock it off baby. I need you. Kiss me back.

She then bent down to take his lips in a kiss while she let her hands roam over his hot bod, all prepared to seduce him and secretly hoping to take their relationship to the next level, although her mind voice mocked her unrealistic expectations.

You wish!

Ignoring the crazy mind voice, she ran her hands over the soft material of his tshirt, feeling the heat of his skin and she took his lower lip between her teeth and sucked on it gently. She was grinding against him as she moved her hips against his male hardness and pulled at his tee's neckline trying to tear it. She wasn't entirely unaware of the fluttering in his stomach that her actions seems to be causing to his body.

When she pulled back from the kiss, he nudged his face into the curve of her neck and her sexy cleavage was right in front of his face and one look at her naughty smile made him decide to play along. He pulled her closer and she couldn't stop herself from holding him prisoner between the valleys of her breasts as he rubbed his day old stubble on her smooth skin there, causing a redness on her skin. He forcefully grabbed her face with one hand and his other hand moved to her cami. He pushed his tongue inside her mouth as she gasped at how easily his other hand ripped her flimsy top in one go. She broke the kiss and looked at him, shock written all over her face while he smirked at her reaction.

S: Ashwinn!

She tried to cover herself with her hands but he pushed her hands aside.

A: You started this, my love. I wonder why you look horrified now.

His hand pulled the cup of her bra down and she squirmed when felt the cold air hit her skin. Her lips quivered as his eyes admired the view.

A: Sivaangi? Do you want me to stop?

She closed her eyes and shook her head while his fingers toyed with her exposed bud.

She threw her head back and moaned his name as she felt his big hand kneading her naked bosom, her own hand bunching his tee in her small fist. The sensation of that the first ever intimate touch in their relationship left her smooth skin covered in goose bumps. She wanted it but she was truly not sure about it. He had always stopped before things got too heated, so she was surprised that his simple caresses got bold and there he was, having a delicious feel of her bare chest. He licked his lips and watched her erratic breathing as he cupped her breast with one hot palm and gave it a hard squeeze which made her groan in pleasure. He wasn't sure if he should make the next move as he was sure that he wouldn't be able to stop after a point.

But as she moved forward and opened her eyes to meet his, the wild desire got the better of his senses and he continued assaulting her senses. She placed her hand over his, silently pleading with her eyes that indicated that she did not want him to stop. He held her by her cheeks and pulled her to place his lips on her neck, nipping at a sensitive spot earning an approving moan. He then let go off her face and palmed her chest with both his hands as she rolled her head in the air with her mouth open and whispered the most unintelligent things he has ever heard from her mouth.

S: Oh, Ashwinnn.. Ahhh.. Baybyy.. That feels.. Ahhh! Pleaseee.. Moreee.. Ahh.. I.. wa..youu.. ohh.. godd.. Ash..win.. ahh.. I love.. you.. don'ttt stopp.. please..need.. moreee.. Ahhh..

A: You need what?

S: You.. youuuu, I need you.

A: You can have me. However you want.

His eyes was sinfully dark with desire and arousal as he heard these incoherent moans of ecstasy from her. He held her by her waist and lifted her off his lap, placing her flat on the bed and he got off the bed. Her face reflected the disappointment on losing his touch making him chuckle lightly.

As he pulled his tshirt over his head in style and threw it away, Sivaangi watched his slick hair fall on his forehead sticking to the tiny sweat beads formed on his skin. Her eyes travelled down the sexiest jawline she has ever seen on a man. She had almost seen him in his birth suit once before when she was in the bath with him but right now, his masculinity made her yearn for him more than usual. She watched his muscles ripple and flex when his hands worked on the button fly to get his trousers off.  Her hungry eyes kept staring at him as he stripped to his boxers. His exposed neck proudly showcased the big, black mole near his Adam's apple which moved as he swallowed, all the while his dark, brown eyes not leaving her face. She noticed how his muscles were bunched around his shoulders and his smooth chest ended at his flat abs and it made her insides yearn with the sweetest ache for him. The strong biceps, the visible veins down his arm, the firm torso and the visible V line made her press her thighs together. She wanted to sip and savour the long planes of his body. The mattress dipped as he kneeled beside her with his knee touching the side of her bare hip and his brown orbs reflected pure need. She leaned forward to touch his skin with her hand.

Michelangelo's David was the only comparison she could draw as her fingers touched his chiselled chest. This magnificently beautiful man!

S: You are magnificent. You make me completely breathless, all the time!

A: Isn't that my line, my love?

She ignored him and moved  closer to circle his waist and placed a kiss below his navel. His fingers caressed her cheeks and then moved to hold her by her hair as she nipped on her his skin above the boxer. He hissed and looked at her soothing the spot with her tongue.

A: You are beautiful too, my love.. Incredibly beautiful!

The hunger in her eyes tried to convey what she felt for him. Beyond the beauty and the power of this man, she felt something very raw and emotional every time she looked into his eyes.

A: Oh god, what are you doing to me!?

Her hands trailed down further over his boxer and wrapped her hand over the length of his arousal. He growled and pulled her hands away and pushed her down onto the mattress again.

She looked totally taken by him and he was equally smitten and did not want to talk right now, he wanted more action. His body needed hers and with that in mind he moved down for their lips to meet. She closed her eyes drinking in the picture of the fiercely desirable man and readying herself for a night of passion.

His hands worked on taking her shorts off her and he continued kissing her with a fierce passion that made her dizzy. As he pushed down on her, he felt the heat radiating from her skin as his hard, chiselled chest pressed against her soft, supple one and it made her rub the smooth skin of her thighs against the material of his boxers. He held her thigh tightly and then moved his knee between her legs to touch her hot centre which was separated from his skin by the thin layer of the only piece of clothing left on her body. She automatically shut her eyes and bit her lower lips as her toes curled at how she felt the ache in the lower part of her body.

As he reluctantly pushed himself up on his elbows to admire her skin flushed with arousal, Sivaangi tried to reach out for him again. He brought his big hands back to her heaving chest making her whimper in passion and burning desire.

She kept screaming his name again and again as she raked her hands through his hair pulling him closer to her body as his lips closed on her perky chest. Minutes passed with her feeling totally woozy and she felt like her body was incapable of taking anymore of his assault when she felt his knee rubbing her hot centre yet again. Her heart was racing as she ran her hands up his arms and on the ripped muscles on his back desperately trying to take control of the situation but her brain knew that she was entirely at his mercy at the moment. He choose the moment to peel the final piece of clothing and replace the knee at her crotch with the long digits of his hand. She felt herself close to completion and bucked her hips up as she felt the pressure increase as his finger worked on her pleasure and for what felt like the hundredth time, she felt his sharp teeth sink into the soft flesh of her bosom. His finger slid deep into her and Sivaangi was in real heaven by then.

A: How do you feel?

She shook her head, unable to even say a word. His body was desperate with desire and raw need as he saw her chest glistening from his licking and sucking but he slowed down making her hand move over his, protesting him against stopping when she was close. He teased her with the tip of his long finger making her writhe under him.

A: I want to know. Tell me!

The depth of  the husky voice was enough to make her gulp and she closed her eyes, too overcome to speak anything.

A: I know you love it but I want to listen to you tell me what you feel. What all this makes you feel!

His intimate whispering was only making her stomach do a flip.

S: It feels wonderful and...

A: Mmm. And?

She tilted her pelvis up into his palm and cried out as she writhed in the throes of passion.

S: Ahhh... Anndd.. and I finally get to experience what I have imagined in my head every time I pleasure myself. Every time I had wished it was not my fingers but yours.

Ashwin was elated to hear it that he rewarded her by adding another finger. Tonight, he decided, was all about fulfilling her desires.

Seconds later, she bucked her hips  and called out his name one last time before collapsing onto the bed having reached her big O.

S: ASHWINNN!!

She shivered and clutched his arms as she finally understood why it was named le petite mort. It was so intense, nothing like ever before and she felt completely weak, and passed out in seconds.

Ashwin gazed at her beautiful body glistenin as he his fingers traced her curves for the final time that night before covering her with a blanket. He pecked her lips and whispered 'I love you' before getting off the bed. He walked into the bathroom after one more look at her peaceful face to take care of his arousal so he could get some sleep too.

Ashwin woke up the next morning to the feel of her ample breasts on his chest and her leg wound around his waist. He looked down at her hand on one side of his chest where his heart was thumping against her palm. He sighed contentedly at how perfect the morning felt today. He did not consider it as lusting her, he loved her and he loved her body too. He had to take an early morning work call so he took his mobile from the bedside and slipped out of bed unwillingly, all the while careful not to wake her.

An hour later, Sivaangi stood in front of the mirror in the brightly lit bathroom and counted the love bites on her body. There were sixteen in total and three of them felt very intimate and she felt shy to look at her own self. She felt different, he made her love her own body when she realised that she could make him long for her. After a nice, warm shower, she dressed in her formals and walked to the study to face the man responsible for her state of mind.

He was still on a call when he noticed her enter the study in her work clothes, all ready to leave. He signalled for her to come closer and when she did, he pulled her onto his lap and undid the buttons on her blouse. She tried to swat his hand away from doing that but he pushed her hand off and moved her clothes to check on her hickeys. He muted the call as she hissed at his touch. He immediately became really concerned.

A: Does it hurt?

His fingers touched her aroused bud and he noticed that she had her eyes cast down, feeling shy about his intimate touches. Her voice was barely a whisper when she replied.

S: Not really, but it's sensitive from all the biting and pinching.

A: Oh!

A pause as he continued touching her with the tip of his finger pad.

A: I am sorry love.

S: Don't be. I loved every minute of last night. It's good pain.

A: Well, let's call it pleasure then?

She darted her eyes to the floor again and nodded while he smiled and brought his head down to kiss the hickeys. Right then ,he gave in to his temptations and his tongue twirled around her pearled bud making her hold his head against her chest.

A: Mmmm. You taste good.

She yelped in response as he started suckling ardently, sending shivers down her body.

R: Ashwin? Are you still on the call?

Ashwin tried to switch the phone off without taking his mouth off her body but she reluctantly dragged his head away from her chest and stood up. He tried to pull her back onto his lap but she moved back and buttoned her top.

S: Stop it. We have to go to work today. It's an important day for our project!

He smiled and let her go after telling her that he will join her downstairs in a few minutes. Sivaangi smiled and gave him a quick kiss before leaving the room. But as she shut the door, she closed her eyes and rested her back on the door.

Please God! I hope I don't do anything that will ruin this moment. I want this to last, I want peace in our lives.

End of mature content.

She failed to acknowledge that she was feeling on edge around him. The delusional lover in her was miserable failing to see the red flags in their relationship. Ashwin on the other hand refused to see her emotions or her perspective and he did not know that she was going to have a breaking point. She was close to losing her sanity but he wasn't paying attention.

Did they tear down the wall? Definitely not. Are the foundations of their love strong? Not really. The problems in their love, the issues with his father, the insecurities about Tarun was all building in Ashwin's mind. He loved her too much and that made him hurt her. He wanted to be happy and make her happy, but he just did not know how. Sivaangi was expected to prove that their relationship was strong enough to survive this insanity.

I know this chapter is too steamy but its purely a fanfiction and not based on anyone's life. So take it light

Also, I have updated part two of my OS too. Feel free to check that out too xx