For those of you who don't know yet.
Jonghyun, lead singer of SHINee, died today (December 18th 2017).

He was only 27 years old.

My heart hurts, I cried a lot finding this out.
Jonghyun and SHINee really mean a lot to me.

And to think that this was suicide of all things.

He's been suffering for who knows how long and it kills me.

I wish he would have told someone how he was feeling or tried to reach out to someone close to him.

I understand it's sometimes hard to do that, I myself am depressed and have been since the 5th grade.
Its something I dont talk about a lot, I usually tend to keep my feelings balled up.
Thats not necessarily a good thing though.

If anyone reading this is ever feeling suicidal or having any suicidal thoughts please talk to someone about it,
or if your to scared to talk to someone face to face then dont ever be afraid to call the suicide hotline (1-800-273-8255).

At school today I couldnt stop thinking about him,
I literally moared all day.
When I got home from school I finally got the chance to sit down and have some peace.

So I sat on my bedroom floor and listened to this ⬇

Yes I cried a lot more listening to it,
but it somewhat made me feel a little better.

PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU ARE EVER FEELING DOWN YOU CAN ALWAYS TALK TO SOMEONE.
My PMs are always open, though I may not respond immediately I will still be there and I will answer.

Again here is the suicide hotline number 1-800-273-8255

Sorry for this authors note,
this is just really important to me and I had to say something.

Another chapter will be published sometime this week dont worry.