angsty Florida birthday oneshot

11:59:50

He pulls his knees to his chest, hiding his face in his arms, he's getting older.

11:59:51

He knows a few seconds won't make any major changes, but he still feels anxious about it.

11:59:52

Getting older wouldn't bring back his mother, wouldn't fix his relationship with his siblings or father, nothing would change. 

11:59:53

He's crying, he realizes as the numbers on the clock get blurrier, he's crying. 

11:59:54

There was no point in crying, so why was he crying? He wasn't sad, he wasn't anxious or afraid, was he?

11:59:55

Yes, he was, he's horrified. He's been around so long, seen so much, and now he's getting older. 

He's getting older.

11:59:56

What's another year? Compared to how long he's been around, nothing. Why was he so anxious?

11:59:57

Age wouldn't kill him, he knows this.

11:59:58

He's panicking now, he thought he was doing better. 

11:59:59

He wishes he'd said something, anything else to his mother, he wishes he had a better relationship with his father, he wishes he could still talk to his siblings. 

He wishes he were good enough for his partners. 

12:00:00

He's older now, nothing's changed.

Ik it's not his birthday yet but I would forget by the time it is so :P