Let this be a reminder...I am not scared to kill off characters.

Edit: May delete this chapter or at least I haven't edited this chapter to my liking yet but hope y'all still enjoy. 

Aphmau's POV

*Play Song*

The cool water gathers in the creases of my toes, so whenever my foot rises, the droplets from before drop like seeds being pulled down by gravity, as they melt into the large abundant swimming pool below.

I was sitting on the edge of the pool, my legs slowly swaying in the water.

I was observing Aaron and Lilith sprawling about in the water.

Aaron was trying to teach Lilith to swim, holding her up while she swung her arms in constant stroke.

Me, not being able to swim, was no help in this matter.

It was cute, seeing Lilith swim like a baby fish flapping its tiny fins for the first time.

Aaron eventually lets go of Lilth, though still keeping his hands underneath her just in case she sinks.

We both keep encouraging her, cheering her on like a cheer leading squad.

"C'mon Lilith, kick! Push the water past you!" Aaron exclaims, drawing his hands more down every single time.

Even though she was only 5, and had a serious brain tumor, she could still swim better than I could....

Probably because, yeah I can't swim.

She then finally reaches the other side of the pool, breathing heavily, her little goggles propped on her forehead.

"Great job Lilith!' Aaron and I both shout.

I smile, looking around at my beautiful family.

My adorable daughter....

My perfect boyfriend....

The sun shining brightly against my back, adding to the warmth being showed through our actions.

Though of course, when everything becomes perfect....

Something must go wrong....

That's just life apparently.....

Aaron then looks at me, a bit of concern in his eyes.

"Aph, you sure you don't want to come in?" He questions, gesturing to the cool calm water of the pool.

Aaron knows I couldn't swim as a kid, but now, I still can't swim.

Maybe he assumes I can swim now.

"Pft me? Haha nah, you guys have fun....I'm...GETTING my tan on...YEAH!" I make up, my mouth having no filter of what I was saying.

Tan on? Really?!

Aaron then walks over to me, him being tall enough to stand in the pool that was actually really deep.

Then for the first time in forever, he was the one looking up at me, titling his head up to meet my gaze.

It felt good, being at higher ground.

It made me feel powerful.

He stands so close to me that my dangling legs graze his muscular chest, my toes, softly stabbing him.

(I hope no one thinks of that the way I think of it........NOT IN A DIRTY WAY MIND YOU)

Then I can see in his eyes, a glint of mischievousness.

Oh no...

He quickly grabs me by the waist, pulling me into the pool so I free fall into the liquid below.

I splash in, my limbs flailing uncoordinated.

The water engulfs me as I flap my arms, bobbing my head above the water. Sadly, gravity becomes my worst enemy.

Aaron just stands there, probably not realizing I was struggling to survive in that very moment.

Every time I went under, it took me longer to come up, me looking like a fish out of water when I do.

This time I sink faster, the panic from drowning causing my heart to hammer against my ribs.

Am I really going to die now?

After everything that has happened...

After everything....I went through.....

Was I really going to die because of the words I didn't say....

Because of the secrets I kept to myself....

I could distantly see Aaron's expression, it starting to turn concerned.

Though it is too late, my lungs starting to collapse.

My brain, starting to become numbed by my deprivation of oxygen.

Then I finally stop trying, the cold water rushing in, all my illusions of surviving gone.....

I stop struggling.

Lilith.....

She will never understand why I am gone.....

And Aaron.....

He will forever think it is his fault that I had died....

That he sent me to my inevitable fate....

That he ended my life.....

Just because he was trying to let me join in on the fun....

This really goes to show that Life has its own agenda.....

Its own calendar that we cannot change.....

Soon my oxygen deprivation takes away my control....

My thoughts.....

My life.......

Aaron's POV

At first I thought she was just dramatizing.

Her flailing part of some big act to make me feel guilty for flinging her into the pool.

I have never....been so wrong.

I start to get concerned when she stops coming up, her eyes becoming still, her eyelids no longer blinking.

I see her stop struggling, her hair adrift in the clear blue water of the pool.

My eyes widen, diving in, seeing her now frozen in time floating around in the wavy movement of the water.

I scoop her up in my arms, her body still warm, but unusually pale.

What have I done?!

I knew she couldn't swim when she was younger......

But now...

Oh my Irene....

I'm such an idiot......

I place her down on the side of the pool, her body still limp and her eyes still frozen.

Her mouth was ajar, like she was trying to scream out that she was struggling.

Lilith comes to my side, looking horrified at Aphmau's pale body.

I lean my ear to her mouth, desperately searching for the slightest wheeze.

Nothing.....

The only puffs of air being the afternoon breeze of the sunny sky.

How it was so perfect....

Until I made the stupidest mistake ever....

Not giving up, I start doing CPR, pressing hard on her chest, making her lurch slightly.

"C'mon Aph....please don't do this...." My voice breaking.

Please Irene.....

The ultimate guilt and regret ringing throughout my body.

Her current state doesn't change, her eyes still staring out towards the sky, like it was fascinated on a certain part of it.

I pinch her nose, breathing into her mouth, transitioning back to pumping her chest.

Nothing......

Just nothing.....

I don't stop, pressing harder and harder as I went, knowing I was only doing more harm.

She can't be gone...

She was just right there....

Smiling...

Laughing.....

Squealing...

Living......

Being her.....

Lilith then does something quite unexpected.

She places her small chubby hand on my arm, giving me a soft reassuring squeeze.

I look at her, glancing into her electric blue eyes, also gathering with tears.

I stop the CPR, my real sobs coming on.

I fall onto Aphmau's abdomen, sobbing into her skin...

Her cold.......lifeless skin......

"No.....please.......Aphmau......no...." I wheeze, her warmth starting to disappear.

Lilith moves to Aphmau's head, bringing her hand across her head.

"Please don't go....mommy...." Tears ejecting from her eyes.

I bring Aphmau's body into my arms, trying to warm her, still trying to get her back.

Though in the back of my mind I know its useless.....

I know its for not....

She's gone...

Because of me...

Her never ending source of pain.....

She was always my medicine.....

And I was always her pain........

I cry into her hair, my arm wrapping around her, her neck on my arm, so her head was hanging.

I sob into her upper chest, her body becoming colder by the minute.

"I love you......I will always love you......I will love you even though you are gone......"

"I'm sorry.......I'm so sorry..."

"Live happily in heaven please.....live happily with Alex...."

Then there is silence, the only sound being Lilith and I's sobs.

I squeeze her tighter, my whole body enraged with grief.

Aphmau.....please....

".....Alex....says hi...." I hear raspy voice say between coughs.

What.....

Could it be?!

I pull away from our hug, seeing Aphmau, the color returning to her cheeks, coughing up water.

"Oh my Irene Aphmau!" I exclaim, I hug her again, this time, shocked with happiness.

"....Aaron...." She manages out, her lips shivering.

"Yeah?" I reply sniffling.

"By the way.......I can't swim......."She smiles, her face obviously pained, her breathing forced.

I smile a bit, pulling away from the hug, staring into her moving hazel eyes, brushing her now warm cheek with my thumb.

"Aph, I thought...I thought I lost you....I thought I...."

She shushes me, cupping my face in her hands.

"....I'm fine now Aaron okay? I'm.....here...." She says, though afterwards coughs.

"Let's get you to the hospital, just to make sure....oh god I'm so sorry Aph"

"I'm sorry too, its mostly my fault. I kept that a secret from you. Yeah, lets go to the hospital..."

***********************

After I send Aphmau to the ER, she is checked in by everyone except Katelyn, who sticks around with me in the waiting room, giving me a rather pissed off look.

"What......happened?" Her voice stern, her fists clenched.

Oh god great.

"Did you know.....Aphmau can't swim?" I ask, blankly.

"No.......she must've not told anyone.....did she almost drown?" She asks, her voice quiet.

"Yeah....and it was my fault....and when I realized that she was struggling it was too late.....she went limp Katelyn.....She didn't breathe......she didn't move.....she was lifeless.......everything I tried didn't work..........I even started praying.....then just somehow...she woke up...."

"Oh my Irene....." Katelyn says in awe, covering her mouth with her hand.

"I had never felt so guilty.....even when Alex died.....she actually died Katelyn......her body stopped working......she suffered so much....because of me..." I drop my head into my hands, rubbing my forehead.

"I'm sure it wasn't entirely your fault, and she's alive Aaron.....she's okay...." She assures.

I look up from my palms.

"Thanks Katelyn...."

"Your welcome.....she'll be out soon......you can see her then" She leaves.

I just sit there, trying to wrap my head around what's happened.

"She's alive....she's here......" I whisper to myself.

She's forgiven me.....

She's stuck with me....through everything...she always the one getting hurt.....

You'd think I'd realize this sooner...

But now I see it clearly....

Aphmau you will never be hurt ever again....

As long as I'm around....

Did I get ya guys again?

Huh huh did I?!

You must all be thinking how I explained the drowning in such detail..

I almost drowned....on multiple occasions....

That's that....

Anyway, so IK I do alot of near death experiences.......

But all I want you crystals to remembers is.....

I am not the least bit scared to kill off a main character.....

Not...in....the...slightest....

Have a nice day my crystals!