Swara p.o.v:

Yesterday, I was told that I had to come on today for some check ups. I generally go on Sunday but when I had some tests I had to come on Saturday also. Well, it's not very tough for me to come out of mm because no one care to know. It really hurt but what can I do. I also don't want to go close to them. People say every relationship can be mended if we want but what about those relationship which we don't want to mend. I know they hate me but hatred can be turned to love if we try but don't want them to close to me. Sometimes I do crave for family love when I see them together and spending quality time but I m forced to stay away from them. I don't want their attachment cause it will hurt them. It's very hurtful when we loose someone we love, we got attached. And secondly if they will come to know that I m suffering then they will definitely feel pity which I don't want. Sympathy and love both are different. It's better to live with hate. Anyway now only 3 months left and then I will go away from them or may be this world.

" Ma'am, we have reached" driver said.
I came out of my thoughts and see that we are in front of hospital.

Me: yeah ,I m going.

I go inside to meet my doctor. I informed at reception about my arrival and she told me to go in.

I knocked on the cabin door and go inside after hearing his " come in swara"
" So tell me Dr. Samar ,what so serious that u could not wait for one more day" I asked in not so serious tone.

Well Samar is my doctor and my only best friend too.

Samar: A very good morning to you too Mrs. Swara maheshwari..

Oh no, he is serious. But I m not late then what's the matter.

Me: good morning.
Samar: now if u r okay then lets go for your check up.
Me: yeah, sure Dr. Samar.

Then we go for my check. It really took so long for my check ups and test.

After that we were sitting in his cabin. He was checking something but he was disturbed. I don't know what he got in check up but It doesn't matter cause I already know what's going to happen.

Me: Samar, what happened?
Samar tried to fake smile but I can easily guess it: nothing, u don't worry..

Me: Samar just say what happened. Don't lie , I can know it.

Samar: ( sadly) it's not good ( I sighed closing my eyes) but.. but u don't worry the test report is yet to come. It will be good I m sure and...

Me: are u free now , I mean it's ur lunch time na ( I asked out of nowhere)

Samar nods unbelievably. I always do it.
Samar: u r..
Me: crazy, I know now let's go

Samar: wait, atleast let me.remove my doctor coat.
He removed his doctor coat and took his phone then we both go out. The mall was nearby so we thought to go there only. I tried to cheer him up. I call waiter and ordered my favorite to eat but Samar glared at me..

" Fine, get me a simple sandwich and coffee ,happy Dr. Samar?"

" Whatever" he said annoyingly.
"Give ur order also" I said.

Samar gave his order.

" Chill na Samar, see whatever is going to happen. We can't change right?"

Samar look away.

" Samar, will u promise me something?" I asked.

Samar: what?

Me: just promise me that u will see my dad after me whenever u get time.

Samar: just shut up! u can take care of ur dad urself because nothing going to happen so just stop this stupid talk.

Me: I know but I just feel like saying it.

Samar:Why do u still live there? U know uncle always remain so worried about u.

Me: I m fine and it's only for sometime, u know that. I know dad is so sensitive for me but it's just I wanted to do.

Samar:No one cares for u, don't u feel bad. Just living there and face their anger. And worst part is that.. ur husband sanskar. What does he think of himself?

Me: Samar...
Samar: fine, I m not saying anything.

Me: I do feel bad Samar but it's better than their love. I can do whatever I want. They don't even ask where I go? What I do. Sometimes it bothers too much but sometimes I feels it's better for them ,for me.. for both.

Samar: No wonder they don't know about ur situation

Me:Well ,praise me for that Dr. Samar because once sanskar told me I m a very good actress, I hide it so perfectly

I chuckled saying it.

He nods unbelievably and I laughed.

Samar:You can't take anything seriously? Can u?

Me: If I start living my remaining life also seriously then Everytime this fear will kill me that I will....

I didn't complete and take a sigh. He look at me with concern.

Me: ahmm, Now leave all that , tell me about your new girlfriend Sonia.

I said lightening environment.

Samar: What new? I broke up with her last week only. She is so annoying yrr.. but her friend is better I think. I should try for her.
He said too casually.

I look at him like what..

Me: but u said last time that she is different.
Samar: exactly, she is different in her annoying way. I will tell u, u know she called me at 2:00 a.m. and saying that " baby , my bozo is not getting sleep.. please do something"

Me: bozo?
Samar: yeah her dog name is that and if her dog is not sleeping then what should I do. I m a cancer specialist doctor and what she supposed me to do, should I sing lullaby for her dog?

I heard him and burst out laughing.
and he kept blabbering about his so called annoying ex girlfriend . we were laughing.
The order came, we have it. We were pulling each other's leg.

Me: if u keep doing like this then no girl will stick to u.

Samar: that can never happen, it's my charm.
He is just unbelievable and gave a nice smack on his arm.

Samar: Ouch!! It's hurt swara..

He yelled dramatically, and I m sure everyone might be looking at us.

He rubbed his arm pouting his face.
He is such a drama king . I again give a smack on his arm. He look at me with fake angry face and took fork and and pointed toward me smirkingly. I laugh at him and then I also took another fork and butter knife. I smirked and started fighting with fork and knife. I was enjoying it. But suddenly Samar get hurt mistakenly, and he winced.

Me: Oh god Samar! I m so sorry!!

I look around to see any waiter and call him to bring water and ice. It will relieve him from pain.

Me: Can't u be careful, idiot. I told u. Always behave like kid " I scold him holding his palm which was hurt a bit.

Samar: if u want to hold my hand, u can directly hold it .. why did you hurt me?

Me: Shut up Samar!

I said him glaring angrily.

Samar: I know, girls die to come close to me
He said faking attitude of his handsome face.

Me: Yeah sure, after all u r so handsome.... Just like...
I took a paused thinking to say something and then I said..
Me: just like monkey..

Samar: what? What did u say ? Monkey? This handsome face.look like monkey to u huh! Oh ,no.. u broke my heart.

Swara: not again u drama king.
Then we finished our food and go out.

He went back to hospital as lunch time was finished and I went to meet dad. I spend time with him. I came.to know he had to leave to Mumbai for some meeting otherwise he will face loss. He didn't wanted to go as I came to meet him and I spend my Sunday with him but I forced him to go. I can't see him facing loss. Unwillingly he agreed to go. He had flight at night so I left around 7:15 p.m.

I reached mm around 8:00 p.m. I see everyone at dinner table. I had already had my dinner with Dad so I directly went to room. As I reach near my room I heard voice of keypad like someone is using all forces to break them. Is he inside? Yeah, may be because he was not on dinner table.

I opened the door and entered inside but I shuddered as I heard him

" GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!"

I flinched in fear. I was scared to death. What happened to him suddenly. Still I managed to ask him as if I heard something wrong.

" What?" I asked in whispering voice.

He looked up from laptop and I could see he was boiling in anger with those red eyes. Is there something wrong? What happened to him? I was asking myself when I see him keeping his laptop aside and get up from bed. I was still standing there with those fearful expression on my face. I couldn't able to move a bit.

" Where were u?" He asked in calmed voice but couldn't able to hifmde that authoritive tone.

Wait , why he is asking that? I was confused. He never cared where I go, what I do. Then?

" What?" I asked confusingly.

I saw him taking a deep sigh to control his anger and walked toward me. I was shivering in fear, what should I do and he stands close to me. I took a step back and hit the wall but it didn't affected him as he also took that step and stand so close to me. He put his both hand on either side. Such that I could feel his breathe on my face as he bring his face closer.

Sanskar: can't u hear me at once or u don't want to understand what I m asking?

I shivered but didn't answer as I was shocked. I was trying to understand what's going on.

Me: I asked. Where. Were. U MRS. SWARA SANSKAR MAHESHWARI?( He asked in dangerous tone this time)

Now that was something never expected.. " Mrs. Swara sanskar Maheshwari" he never gave me right to called as his wife. My lips dried as I felt a sudden need of water to digest what is going on here. I tried to compose myself and managed to answer him in stammering voice.

Me: I.. I.. wa.. was wi. Wi.. with my .. my dad.. dad.

Sanskar: really?

His tone was so different. Still I noded not knowing what he was talking. And then I heard something which made me numb.

Sanskar: well, I had a misconception that that ur dad name is shekhar gadodia.. not some SAMAR!! ( He said sarcastically)

My face turned pale and my eyes got wide open in shock. I look at him only to find him with red anger filled eyes like he was ready to burn everything.
How did he know about Samar, did he saw me with him? I was battling with my questions when I heard mom voice.

" Sanskar, are u coming for dinner? I know ur work may be important but atleast have ur dinner..." Mom said knocking on the door.

" Coming mom, u go ,I will join u " he said still looking at me then removed his hand from wall and took his steps away from her but his eyes were still on me. He gave a sharp glare at her before leaving room.

I was shaken to the core. What should I do? How did he come to know and what else he know? What if he come to know about my disease? No, this can not be happen. I won't let that happen. My hands were shivering and I made grip of palm to control myself. And sit down on the floor not knowing what to do. In these days he was calmed and ignored me but today he was back to angry mood.. but it wasn't anger for marriage.. it's something else. He caught that I lied well not actually lied I was with Dad too. What's going on in his mind. His questions were more sound like a typical possessive husband but when he doesn't think me as wife then why would he do that? why this sudden anger? I have to be careful from next time.. Don't know what else is left to face.

To be continued.....