Sanskar p.ov. :
I was working on my new project on laptop. Then I thought to take a break. It's already time for dinner. I came back from office soon and then started working. I look at my watch it was already 8:45 p.m. and she was still not here. She usually come back by evening. Yeah, like every weekend she went to meet her dad but now she is not back. I hope she is fine.. no, it's not that I care.. it's just she is a responsibility for me atleast for these six months. Should I call her? I m damn sure no one would know about her whereabout in my family like I said earlier No one care. I was moving to and fro about my position thinking what to do, ok fine I m worried my mind answered my heart.
I finally decided to call her and search for her no. from my contact list pacing  here and there and suddenly I bump to something soft rather I bump to someone and before the person fall I caught hold on her but we both fall on bed with me on top of her. And in a second my nostril hit the exotic french fragrance. It's her. It took a moment for me to realize that my face was dugged in crook of her neck and my lips lingered on her soft skin. I could see she was breathing heavily and clutching my arm in her tight grip. Her eyes were closed. Few strands of hair falling on her face.. and next words that came in my mind, believe me I myself was shocked. BEAUTIFUL yet sexy.. . Damn you sanskar!! Get a grip on your thoughts!! I scold myself.

"Um.. m.. wi.. will u Pl.. please get up from me" I came out of my thoughts hearing her. She had opened her eyes and looking at me.

" Yes, yeah.. I m .. m sorry.." I said as I got up from her.
She also got up and adjusted her dupatta not looking at me.

" So , finally u r here huh!!" I said rudely getting back to my old self or was trying to.
Swara: huh!!( Confused)
Me: yeah, u finally got the time to come back.. have u seen the time?

Swara: u were waiting for me or worried for me? ( She said calmly)

Me: yeah I was actually doing both but in your dreams so come out from that to face the reality that I don't care. And secondly Why don't u live there only? All problems will be solved. and I wont have to see your face again and again.

I knew I was too rude trying to hide that I was actually worried and don't want to accept the truth.
Her lips curved up in a smile or may be sad smile and said.

Swara: Do u really hate my presence so much or making urself believe on that? Because all the time u say something to me and say that u hate me , sometimes it feels like u r making urself believe on your words rather than me"

My eyes turned in fury, and may be because something was hurt inside me that was ego. How can she say this but I knew she was right. I hold her arm and pinned her to wall. She try to go away instantly but I kept my hand on both side leaving no room for her to leave and go close to her.

Me: I don't need to do that understand!! Because I know very well that I hate u. Ur presence is just suffocating me.. I m just waiting for the day that my life will be free from this unwanted relation and u. I hate u.. just get that"

I shouted at the top of my voice.

And then only I could see tear sliding down her cheeks. I keep looking at her but wasn't able to say anything further.

Swara: Thanks and just keep hating me always " she said slowly.

I don't know what i was feeling when I heard her. I left her and took few step back. What was changing inside me that is making me so frustrated. I threw bass that was on table in anger. It break into pieces. She flinched in fear.

" Just get the hell out of my life swara. Just go away" I said sternly and go out of room.

Amazing!! I told her to go away from my life and I myself come out from my room!Oh god!! I will get mad. There is definitely something wrong with me. I didn't overcome from her last sentence what she told before two weeks and now new one..
" Thanks and just keep hating me always " What the hell she is trying to do.
I will definitely have double personality syndrome if I will be around her. One side my anger on her and other side care. And anger side to tell her that I don't care!!

Swara p.o.v:

Oh god!! It's really late today. I generally go back by evening but today I m late and now this stupid traffic.

I was cursing traffic mumbling to myself. Finally after half an hour traffic was clear. There was some accident as my driver told but thank God, no one was hurt. I finally reach mm at 8:45 p.m. I come inside and find everyone sitting in hall accept sanskar. He is not back from office yet? May be in room.
I made my way toward room and as I go inside I bump with something hard and I was about to fall but before that I was hold but my foot slip and I fall on bed with him on top. But that was nothing in comparable to what I was feeling after that. I wished I would have fallen on floor instead of falling in this situation. I clutched his arm in tight grip and my eyes get closed.. as i felt his lips on my neck and his hot breathe fanning my skin. No...no no..!! I tried to calm my heavy breathe but I knew it's not gonna happen. Stupid!! When his mere presence make ur heart beat fast and breathe uneven , do u think u can control ur heavy breathe when he is too close? My heart questioned my mind. Well, that was so true. He has that affect on me but I don't want him to know.

I opened my eyes slowly and find him looking at me. Is he lost somewhere?

I cleared my throat to get his attention.. but no use? Is he here?

"Sanskar..." I called him.
But again no response.
I tried a bit louder not too much just clear for him to hear me.

" Um.. m.. wi.. will u Pl.. please get up from me"
Why I m stammering? But thank God he heard me and get up from the me mumbling sorry.
I also got up and adjusted my dupatta.. then he again back to his form and asked me finally I m here? I was confused first but then he told me have I checked the time. I knew I was late.. but but but... Was he waiting for me? Or worried? I didn't took a minute and asked him.. only to add fuel in the fire and another session of his anger started.
He said why don't I live there only atleast he can be in peace but I cross questioned does my presence really bother him or he want to believe that it does.
Really sometime I feel like that.
But again his answer hurt me.
He don't like my presence. It's suffocating him and he want to get rid of me. He said he hate me.

I just smiled sadly and said thanks and keep hating me. That's good for him.. but I will always love him.

His grip loosen and move away from me but he get angry and smash the bass harshly on the floor and go out of room in frustration not before adding..
"Just get the hell out of my life swara. Just go away"

I closed my eyes and take a deep sigh. I wipe my tear and go to washroom taking my nightgown. After sometime I came out. The glass pieces were cleaned and maid took it to put in bin. I go to couch and try to sleep.

Two months later...

Swara p.o.v:

" It's been more than three months now Swara. Please stop it. You wanted to marry him. I got u married to him. It was ur wish na.. I fulfilled it now please listen to your dad" dad said. He say it Everytime I come to meet him.

I just smiled.
" Dad, I m fine.."

" No, u r not, You're already suffering and everyone there is so cold with you. No one want u. His family don't mingle up with u. He don't love you.. then? What's the point of loving there swara? Please leave all this and..." He was saying but u interrupted.

" I do have time dad, just three month is left and after that in anyway I will have to leave him.. HE IS MY LAST WISH DAD and u fulfilled it for your princess. I just wanted to live some part of my life with him. " I said.

Dad: he don't love u swara? He don't want u in his life? In simple words, he hate u and ur presence.. then what's the meaning to torchure urself with a pain everyday.

Me: I know he don't love me and I don't even want it. Because if he develop feelings for me.. He won't be able to live when I will leave this world. I know how much u loved mom and how much difficult it was for u to live without her. I don't want to see him going through that pain..
And about pain what I bear so let me tell u dad, it doesn't hurt more than I go through Everytime thinking that I won't be able to see live my whole life with him. I get scared thinking that I will be not there with him always. I get scared of death. I don't want to die dad. I wanna live.

Dad: Shut up !! Nothing will happen to u.. ur treatment is going on already and after two months, we will go for further process.. I won't let anything happen to my princess" dad interuppted angrily.

Me: But that's the reality dad. It's good only that his family didn't got attach to me other wise they will also feel bad. Sanskar said the very first day of marriage that he hate me and will divorce me after six month.. but he don't know he can get rid of me without divorce.. " I smiled sadly saying that.

"Nothing will happen to you. I know that. U r my strong princess. U can't give up easily. U won't go leaving ur dad? Otherwise how will live. And sanskar will never get rid of u. just don't give up okay?" Dad said.

" I won't give up, I promise dad" I said assuring him. I also don't wanna give. I will try to live.

"Princess for now u have hide it from him, his family but they will come to know one day na?" Dad said.

Me: I don't want him to know about it ever dad. May be when he will know I won't be in this world. " I chuckled.

I continue: but dad u will never tell him anything.. just tell him that I have gone away from him giving his freedom ,his life back.

Before it makes us more emotional dad started to another topic.

" Okay, now tell me ? Are u taking medicines on time and..." He started to ask about my health and once he starts no one can stop so I interuppt before he even start.

" Yes dad and don't worry I went for my check ups.. from there only I came here" i interuppted him saying this.

Then we small chitchat.

"Okay now come, I will make something for you to eat " he said.

I nod with smile and go with him to help him. We cooked together having our small family time and eat together. We have servants but whenever we get time ,we cook and eat. After spending quality time ,I say him bye and left to mm.

It's my life which I don't know till when I will be able to live. Like every simple girl, I also had dreams, I had studied business and wanted to help dad in his business. Dad also wanted the same but before that dad wanted me to live life the way I want.. roaming, chilling out like other youngsters do. I just go on India's tour, well our country have a lot to see if u take a tour. After along break I was finally ready to join dad in business. I joined office. In all this I saw sanskar in dad office for the first time and fell for him. I didn't told it to dad ,and just waiting for right time Everything was perfect in our life.. just me and dad, our small happy family. And one day I got faint in office. Dad took me hospital. He was so worried for me. After reports come out, my dad was totally broken . I asked him no. of times but he didn't said anything. He choose to be silent and try to smile sometime but I knew he was hiding something. I gave him my swear and he finally told me that I was suffering from cancer. If I will say I tried to be strong that time.. I must be lying because I was totally broken.. I cried a lot hugging my dad because I wanted to live.. for my dad, for my dreams, for my love. Dad tried to console me a lot that I will be fine I cried my heart out but after that day I didn't cry over my disease.

After I came back to home, I thought to live the remaining life without fear. If I waste it with fear then I will regret it even after death. I made list of my wishes. My treatment was started ,surgery was going to start after some months. I didn't know if I will be live or die but I wanted to fulfil my wishes. And did everything.. dad help me to fulfill my dreams. Firstly he got angry that I was talking about last wishes but I convinced him and he helped me. But my last wish was still incomplete. MY LAST WISH- SANSKAR, I lost hope that it will fulfil.

I was holding my wish list when my dad walk in my room and I swiftly hide wishlist behind me but dad have already seen it. He told me to show that. I knew I can't win over him so I took my hand in front and he take that list page from me. He saw it.
To my surprise he was smiling.. Do you really love him? He asked.

I confessed that I love sanskar and wanted to marry him. I wanted to become his wife. I don't want to die without it.
" If that's what my princess want then how can I deny?" Dad said it and I jumped in happiness. I hugged him.
Since the day dad comes to know about my disease, he always remain worried for me.. after all I m his princess. He didn't wanted to lose his daughter after his wife. I tried to cheer him up but we both knew the reality.
dad agreed for.marriage. I told him not to share about my disease to Sanskar. I didn't wanted his sympathy. And after some day our marriage happened. I knew no one will love me here. When I came to know that dad forced sanskar, literally blackmailed him. I asked dad when I came that weekend and he told everything truthfully. I just hugged my dad ,just because of my happiness he did all that.. he had to disgrace his image in front of sanskar and maheshwaris. Dad was always polite and soft spoken person but because of me.. he had to blackmail sanskar. But after marriage, dad immediately gave them back everything, even their land that too without any cost. His only aim is to see my happy.
Since the time I got married, I go every week to my dad, not really.. most of the time I have to go to hospital for my check ups and treatment process, that I m going through. I m glad that no one ask and no one knows about it in sanskar family. I m happy that sanskar don't love me and he hate me because it's better for him. He can easily move on as he love someone. I wish he get everything in his life. I will always love him. I love you sanskar.

But since last two month, he is behaving weirdly. He don't shout on me like he generally used to do since the day we got married. He is rude and arrogant toward me but choose to ignore me most of the time. What's going in his mind? And last week was really unbelievable as he supported me in front of his family when Mom was taunting me. Well, he wasn't directly supporting me but yeah he helped and calmed sujatha mom who was angry on me. I hope he don't develop any kind of feelings for me.. I don't want to make it more complicated.

To be continued.....