This is risky but I have to take my chances.

And this is stupid...

But one more time...

Let me see with my own eyes that Lucas is still mine. I want to give him one more chance to prove to me that he really didn't want to cheat on me. That he did not choose Silvia over me just to get away from all of this madness.

The feeling inside me is kicking me back and make a step back and think. This voice inside my head is telling me that this is going to be a bad idea. The idea is stupid but yes call me everything hurtful. But I still couldn't leave without seeing him and know his reasons. If these are all jokes and we are being played around by my Dad again then I am ready to hide with him forever. I am not going back to my family because he is the one.

We still start a family together. We will leave everything around us.

But life will never be easy like that. I couldn't let fate run in my palm and how everything must end.

Life is not a fairytale.

Reality sucks and it is a big slap in the face. That day, I got out of the hotel without grabbing any attention from everyone. But thank God for this bittersweet escape. I walk out of the hotel with my head down and calmly called a cab to drive to the station where I will ride a train on the way to Gaffan. It is a long ride so I assume that I might arrive there it's already midnight.

Once I sat my ass down in the train, I looked up to the sunset and something poured inside. Orange and dull sky. No birds flying around and so blank to watch. I always lived sunset and these kinds of scenery. These are the best thing to pain down because they can be expressed in so many colors and symbols. I turned my back to painting and arts when I married Lucas.

Come to think of it, I lost so many part of my life that I loved when I chose him. I lost my chance to be a famous painter, I forgot my love for arts, and I even gave up my life for him. I sacrificed so much for the sake of this so called love with the this man. Yes, I never regretted it. Never in this life that I will regret meeting a Lucas Salvador. The man of my life. Meeting him gave me a new colour. Relating it to a painting, he was my easel. The one who always have my back and the one who can lift me up.

But what else can I do?

I am just a woman who fell deeply for him. Someone who is ready to sacrifice everything for the sake of love.

And thag love brought me down.

He is my sunset.

Once there but will soon leave at the end of the day...at the end of everything.

But here I am, walking back to him.

This mad love.

The whole train ride was long because I didn't slept a wink. My heart is pounding too wild to even relax. I got down from the train station and walked my way towards Logan's house.

I'm assuming that Lucas is still here though because where else would he go?

At Silvia's? Running back to her sugar mommy again?

I was walking quietly in the streets of Gaffan. Quiet and dark but I do not care. I not plan to staying long but let fate take on from there.

But I was just a few meters away from Logan's, my eyes can finally reach it when I noticed a white car parked in front.

That is surely not Logan's...and obviously not from Lucas too.

Shit. I am just ending up to one person.

Silvia

I quickly hide behind a post, pulled my hoddie over my head and watched them from a distance.

Silvia was leaning at the hood of the car laughing with Lucas. They look so happy and they do not seem to care that it's already near midnight. Meaning, the place is too quiet and you can hear their laughs. Those cheeky disgusting laugh.

Not too long, Lucas went inside the house and came out to hand a bottle of beer to Silvia. She was flirtatiously flipping her hair back to Lucas as they look too fond of the conversation. They are all smiling and seems to be getting along.

It's a stab in my back.

The pain is running emin every part of my nerves and blood as it fills back to my heart.

I thought you're waiting for me, Lucas.

I was standing there the whole time, just watching them converse. Silvia was giggling and momentarily slap Lucas's arm or punch his chest. As if she is acting that she's his girlfriend.

Well, she is.

That's what she said to her Father.

When they finished their beer, Silvia finally says her goodbye.

My blood boils even more when I see her place a quick kiss on Lucas and that caught him by surprise. Yes, it was obvious that he didn't expect the kiss but I also didn't expect that he would laugh after the kiss. A married man would not react that way. And she hugged him too tight as if this will be the last time that they will see each other.

Jeez, how romantic.

Pain and anger ravished my whole system. I do not care anymore if I kill this woman.

A whore like this deserves a taste of her own medicine.

Lucas even opened the door for her and she gets in. The two men went inside ahead before she can drive off. But she was facing this way and I don't care anymore about patience.

She was not driving fast so it was easy for me to stand on her way and she stopped once I appeared in front of her.

Her eyes went wide upon seeing me as if she was looking at a dead woman.

I pulled off my hoodie as she gets out of the car with moutb agape.

"Talia...?" she was stupidly shock to see me. Well, after pulling that performance, she should me. Because I am here to kill her. Tsk, the sarcasm is toxic. She didn't know if she was going to walk closer or apologise or explain. She stood there frozen. "W-what you saw...that was the last–"

"Shut the fuck up, whore." I raged. "You have a lot of nerves coming here and kiss my husband."

"We are not a couple, Talia. I was just helping you guys out. I want to help Lucas and he agreed helping me too–"

"Oh, so what are those kisses? Don't tell me you just faked those up?" I spat, walking closer to her. My head is boiling up in anger. I am so close in pulling her hair.

"Those are just an act, Talia. Grow up and open your eyes. Your husband loves you more than life himself.  You are such a lucky woman to have a man love you like that. He will move heaven and earth just to give you a wonderful marriage. He agreed to date me because he needs money and I need a boyfriend to show my parents. He accepted it and acted as my lover."

I scoffed and bit my lower lip. It's not enough.

"Lucas...he is a good man, Talia." her eyes were begging.

"Then why did you kissed him earlier?"

Silvia breathes in air before answering me straight in the eyes. "I love him."

My eyes widen as my ears were throbbing due to the long silence that passed by.

"He was kind and sweet. He helped me a lot. Not just as my fake boyfriend, but he helped me become a better person than I was before." She replied, dreamingly with a smile. "And these past few days, I thought...I assume that he is going to leave you for me."

My eyesbrows furrowed and smiled wickedly. "And what makes you assume something like that?"

Silvia gulped before opening her mouth to speak. "He said that...if he just met me before you. He will marry me. He took care of me for months, pretended and after as my lover. Don't you think, there was no feelings developed there"

H-he said that?

Tears starts to form in my eyes as those words crushed me to the core.

Stupid.

I'm so stupid.

He fell for her?

"Fuck you, snake." I clenched my teeth and slapped him hard on the cheek. "You fucking seduced my husband."

But there was a evil smile formed from those red lips. "It's not my fault if he let himself be seduced, Talia. He loved the temptation."

I couldn't hold myself anymore, I slapped him so hard on the cheek. A loud smack enveloped the whole quiet street as he remained frozen on her spot.

"I deserved that." Silvia murmured while letting out a small chuckle. "He will be mine soon, Talia. Lucas will be mine."

I let out a bitter scoff as my hand was tingling in the pain of my slap on her thick face. Then I gave one more bitch slap on the other direction. "No need, he's yours." I spat before walking away in heavy stomps.

She didn't bother following me and that was my chance to cry. Tears rolling down as I quicken my pace.

I don't want this anymore.

Coming here is a huge bump in the head. Something that woke me back to reality and I never want to see that man's face ever again.

He fell for her as well.

That's the painful truth.

Lucas fell for her.

How can I fucking accept that? I think it would be easier to accept if they only had a relationship in bed but with feelings involved? I don't think so. That was the most painful truth to swallow. It is ripping me apart.

I find myself walking back to the ststion and hopped on the last midnight train back to the city. No more tuning back because the painful past is calling there. How can I ease this pain?

Can I die?

I cant accept the fact that Lucas is falling for her.

How can this happen?

He promised to love me forever and he gave me his word that he will never leave me.

It is too painful to handle. I can't breath properly because all I see is red. I want to kill them both.

I hate this.

I fucking hate them all.

My parents are right.

He can't be trusted.

It took me almost four years in my own personal zone when I noticed that I am about to reach the city. Just a few minutes away and I'm back to world. A world that is also filled with pain and so many complications.

I honestly didn't know where to fit myself anymore.

Every where I go, pain and sadness is following me. Am I even cursed? The only good thing happened to me is actually my  baby and I will so everything in my power to raise her better. This child will be loved and cherish by me. No more Lucas in our life. He is nothing from now on.

Lucas and Silvia, I hope you are happy.

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"You haven't stayed that long yet and now you're leaving once again." Bill gave me a kiss on top of my head while maintaining his cool posture. "Take care of yourself, sweetheart."

"You too, Bill." It is sad to say goodbye to him again. He always had the father figure towards me and I will miss him so much. He is getting old and he needs to retire soon but the devotion he has to serve this hotel is his life.

I already said my goodbyes to my parents as well in Dad's office. Mom is out of town to handle some other business related things but she promised to visit me in Paris next week. So less dramatic because she will go crying again just like the last time I traveled to Paris to study.

I was in the elevator with Nate to reach the ground floor but as the door opens up, there is a commotion going on and it is like someone is trying to fight through the security in front. Is there a robbery? Nate quickly steps in to check who it is but I heard a familiar voice roaring causing my feet to automatically move out. Once I can finally take a glance to see if I'm right, my eyes widen and froze in my spot.

Lucas was fighting the security to get inside the hotel. "I want to see my wife, douchbags. Let me fucking go!"

He came after me.

Nate quickly took action as he steps near them. "What the hell are you doing causing such scene in our hotel?" He spoke with such authority.

The colour in Lucas's eyes disappeared as they were replaced with despair. "Please, Sir. I want to talk to my wife. She is in there and I know they are trying to keep her away from me."

"We are protecting her from you, Mr. Salvador. If you continue giving trouble to my staff then I don't have a choice but to call the cops and have you arrested." Nate said, the seriousness in his voice I kinda scary and that is something that he got from Dad. They are both terrifying when it has to be.

" What –No, don't!" I have never seen Lucas this desperate for something. Jesus, what should I do now. "I beg you, please let me see her. I need her and I love her. Torture me, hate me, humiliate me, I don't give a damn! All I want is her. Please, just her. I want to see my wife and I want her to stay beside me!"

I fought back my tears again and looked up to hold them there. This is no time to show such weakness to the man who broke me. It is hard to choose this path because that means I will discard everything that we started. He is no longer my Lucas and he lost me the day he starts to like Silvia.

I start to come out from the shadows, where he can finally notice me. His eyes quickly changes into sadness and I have never seen such horror in him when he saw me all dressed up and men carrying my luggage bags.

"Talia, kitten! Please give me a chance! Let's leave this place and I will spend my lifetime only loving you! Just come back to me and give me another chance. Please!"

It was so hard for me to listen to his beggings. It's a torture to hear him do this and making an eye contact will just lure me back to his arms and forget everything.

I felt a warm hand behind my back and it was Brian who is staring down at me." It's time to go, dear." He uttered before helping me walk towards the entrance door which caused Lucas to misbehave more.

"You have to step back, sir. This is our last warning." one of the security told him but he continues to wiggle out of their stance.

It was so hard to act as if I wasn't hearing anything, especially his plea.

But before I could even get to the door, Lucas manages to jump off the security and rush to me. He tumble but he didn't care as long as he reaches me. He held both of my shoulders and made me look at him and I was too surprise that he was able to escape such muscular men. "Listen to me, Talia. Silvia was a mistake. My decision to be her boyfriend is an act and none of them were true! Believe me, I will never leave you."

The men was about to take him but Brian held his hand up to stop them as if they are letting me make the decision myself. Nate stood there with cautious as well as the security.

"You can't leave me because you are still married to me, right? You only choose me because we are fucking tied, Lucas. But if we weren't, you would go for her and marry her instead. You told her that!"

His eyes widen in shock. "H-how...?"

"How did I know? Well, I will let you guess that." I push his hands away but he remained still. "Let me go, Lucas."

"No!" He begged and pulled me into a bone crashing hug. "I take all of the things I told her back. Call me an asshole but let me be, but I am the asshole that can still be a man and beg you to be mine again. I admit and I will never do it again. I never loved her, Talia."

"And then what is it? Lust? You liked her and you can't admit it to me because that is the key for me to leave you." I continued to fight him off of me. "But hear this, Lucas. I don't need a man that can easily be tempted like you. You still cheated on me and you are aware of it. And yet, you still continued to serve her. You are so pathetic."

The tears are finally coming down his eyes and I have never seen him shed a tear even before.

"You're right." He admitted in defeat then slowly, held my hand and that made me lose more tears. "But please...stay with me. I love you...And I will never leave you. Let's make a family together as we always planned."

Shit. I can't do this anymore. I will be judged in my actions forever but I have to save myself. "Take him away from me."

"W-wait, what!?" Lucas was immediately dragged away by four huge men and held him out of reach  "Get your hands off me!"

"Don't come near my sister again, asshole." Nate muttered before they take me out of the scene and out of the hotel. In a distance, I hear him being carried away and screaming for me but I can't turn back anymore. It doesn't have to be like this. He could have just let me go and accept the fact that, if he cheats on me, he can never have me back.

Our life is just too different. Everything is such a pain.

A car was waiting to drive us to the airport where our private jet is. And once I stepped on that, there is no more turning back. No more going back to his arms because I already chose a path.

A path where I must leave everything behind. No more Lucas. Just me and my little baby.

"You ready?" Nate asked, calmly as he takes his seat behind me.

I remained silent and just turned my face to the window. Not in the mood to talk with anyone since I will be leaving this place for good.

Leaving everything behind me and I will become better.

I closed my eyes tightly and think back and let myself contemplate for a while.

Goodbye, Lucas.

I said inside my mind and held my hands together.

I hope this trip to Paris will give me a better life.

A better life and finally stop being shitty. I placed a hand on my slight bump and smiled.

"I am brave because of you, little angel. You give me strength and just sit tight in there. Mommy won't let anything happen to you. I love you." I whispered to myself while rubbing it.

I told my parents and Nate the baby news the other day and their reaction was nothing that I had planned. They were too happy to have a grandchild. Nothing came out from them that they Gaye it because it is a bastard's child as how they describe him.

From now on, the name Lucas won't be mention again.

I forbid it.

I will start a new life now and I need a good start.

To be continued...

Don't hate us for what I came up with. Hehehe. But please, I need you to comment your reaction and let me know what you guys have in your mind.

Did she made the right decision?

I actually based Lucas in a real situation here that I personally encountered. A friend of mine had this six years relationship where they started both as 18 year old but he kinda cheated on her when he met this woman who has the same hobbies and interests. They matched up and I feel sorry for the girlfriend. Young love can really be a struggle to pursue so this part of the story is basically real life.

I just changed some to make it appropriate for our characters. So, what are your thoughts? Comment down and tell me everything you realize and think. Vote as well. Help me make this story a success. Thank you!