As we near the end of this story;
My story;
I'll tell you what I learned along the way.

1) Sometimes it takes the worst breakdown to form the best relationship.

2) Life will /hurt/, but what doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

3) For me, trust is an achievement; a trophy of a strong bond.

4) As we head to the next chapter in life, try to only take the things you need with you.

5) What we think we want to be when we grow up may just be because of the past we don't want to let go of.

I learned things about myself during the writing of this book that I admire more than anything. So, here's how writing this book changed me.

I used to be that standard girl,

Didn't know the first thing about honesty or integrity,

But then I had my first heartbreak.

Not with a boy, but with my mother.

Call me a child, 

Call me weak,

But my mother is the most important person to me on Earth.

She raised me to be whoever I wanted to be.

Well I discovered who I wanted to be around thanksgiving of 2016.

I wanted to have the kind of relationship where I could talk to her about anything.

I could come to her and admit a mistake out of integrity and remorse,

Not because I had to or I got caught.

And I am that person now.

Sure I get nervous when I do something wrong,

But I rarely do anything wrong anymore.

I don't see the point in it anymore.

I'm happy about everything that happened.

All of it.

You know, I'll just say it.

I messed around with a boy once, nothing went too far.

But it was amazing.

And I'm glad it happened,

Because afterwards when I got caught for it, 

I became the best person I've been in a long time.

There's other things of course,

That I can't explain them though...

They are my sacred secrets.

But I wanted to thank everyone who hurt me,

Who supported me,

Who had a negative thought about me and now is my friend,

Who used me,

Who crumbled me,

Who broke my heart,

And who's been there from the beginning.

     So now that you've reached the end of this book I've written-- Hang on. Let me explain one more thing. I wrote this. I opened my laptop during the happiest moments of my life, and through the most painful, heart breaking, and gut-wrenching moments, writing poems to help my sanity. Help myself understand everything that changed. You read this. Through every emotion I felt, you read about it. I never liked to talk about things with people because I hated talking about myself. But every person who took a minute of precious time to read this had supported me. Every person reading this book since chapter one, has gone through everything with me. Because if you read carefully enough, you'll see how much of me is really in these poems.

     So, now that you've reached the end of this book, I want to thank you all and explain something I didn't understand until I began writing. This is someone's creation. They don't write it because they want to be famous on Wattpad. You know how many people I know that actually know what Wattpad is? Not very many. Authors on here write to pour out their head. Every chapter is a glass of water from every pitcher that is a story. They write to clear their head. To spill everything they know and everything they imagine into a story, which is shared in a place where it can be loved and appreciated by someone other than it's creator. 

     That's what is a creator, a maker, an Author.

     And now I get to join them, as you've reached the end of this book. You Only See "Me." Now that it's over, I don't give a crap who you think I am, because I can be whoever the hell I want to be.

-RK