Chan's POV

"I've been training for years and years. I still haven't debuted. Why? Am I not good enough?"

These thoughts used to fill my head during my trainee days. Honestly, they're still in my head but now I have my friends with me. 

During the survival show, I was so nervous. I could lose any of them at any moment. It's scary. 

When Felix was eliminated, I was sad. Everyone was but it seemed different for me... Almost like I was closer? It makes sense. I was the closest with him because I'm the only other one fluent in English. 

After he was kicked out, I worked harder with the group and I still taught him Korean. All the members did. We didn't want to lose him. 

Towards the end, we ended up losing two of our members. We lost two important members. We tried to figure out how to work without the two of them, but it just felt so... empty. 

Our songs slowly started to sound more and more off when we tried to fix them. I think JYP caught on to this and realized we need them. He gave our nine member group one more try and we all made it! I was so happy when I found that out! The very first one I went to hug was Felix. I felt like he tried the hardest to grow as fast as he can so he can catch up to us. 

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We just recently put out our debut album "Mixtape," consisting of seven heartfelt songs. They relate to our own experiences and our age groups experiences. 

Our debut was a huge hit! We did well! We all felt happy about that... We all worked so hard. 

But. We didn't want to stop working hard because we had one good hit. Me and the other 3RACHA boys started writing. We worked hard and we soon finished them. We even had the last "hidden" one written by every one of us! We haven't let the public know yet though. Since we write all of our songs we have to take a few extra steps into releasing them, but we're close! 

I walked in one day on Felix dancing to the new songs. He was trying so hard to get them right. You could see the seriousness on his face. It was obvious that he was there for most of the day. There was protein snack packages stacked in a pile with a few water bottles along with protein shakes. Felix's white shirt was covered in sweat and as he was dancing the sweat was falling to the floor. 

At this moment, I just watched. I was mesmerized how someone could look so beautiful while sweating that much. 

He turned around. "Oh, Channie-hyung! How long have you been there?" 

I just looked at him for a few more seconds. I could see his abs through his shirt and I felt a slight blush come onto my face. "A-ah, not for long. How long have you been here, Felix-ah?" 

Felix paused for a second, probably thinking about how to reply in Korean. "Seven hours."

"Felix-ah... How about I take you out for dinner?"

Felix looked down, "I'm on a diet hyung."

"Why?"

"Oh! It's just to help me gain more muscle weight."

"Looks like you don't need it," I laughed. 

Felix looked confused but accepted my offer eventually. 

At this little, innocent dinner turned my best friend into my first crush. 

(A/N: So this is the first chapter!! What do ya'll think? I'm sorry if it's a little messy. Next chapter will be out on the 1st of May!!)