Felix's POV

Is what I'm doing really the right path for me? Am I growing stronger or weaker the more I walk along this lonely path?

Are my emotions fooling me? Do I really love the people around me? This industry? Our music? Him?

Are we becoming to popular too quick? What if someone starts stalking us? Should I ask Channie to ask JYP to strengthen security? 

Don't give in. This will pass...

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"Felix-ah! Felix-ah!!" I can hear Chan's voice, yelling at me from somewhere, but I can't locate it. All I can locate is my chest thumping against my rib cage. 

My lungs won't take in air. I feel like I'm drowning...

I know what this is, it's a anxiety attack. You would think I would have gotten used to it by now, but I still... Just can't. 

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"Felix-ah!" I can hear his foot steps, is he close? 

Channie-hyung... Will you hold me? Will you tell me I'll be okay? Or will you turn away and leave me behind? 

"Felix-ah! Feli-" I hear foot steps running towards me. Who's are they? I need to run away, but my feet won't move. I can't see anything but blurs. Why must I be crying when someone's around? 

Wait. Is this Channie-hyung? 

"Felix-ah, are you okay? Felix. Oi, Felix, are you okay?" This is definitely Channie... My body relaxes and I start to slow my breathing. 

"Felix, are you okay? Do I need to call an ambulance?" It seems like Chan was rambling, a small habit he has when he's nervous. 

"Y-yeah, just an anxiety attack... I'll be fine..." I choke out in a small mutter. 

I made Channie-hyung scared, didn't I?

"Sor-" I begin to say "sorry" but I was quickly cut of by Chan. 

"Don't be... Why didn't you tell one of us about your anxiety?" He said as he began to sit me and himself down on the practice room floor. 

"I-I never really found a time or a place to tell you all... nor did I want you all to worry." I muffle the last part with my arm as I wipe my eyes. 

"But still... this is some important information to know, you know? I thought you were having a heart attack or something!" He chuckles a little and so do I. 

We sit in comfortable silence for a little bit. 

"Are you feeling better now?"

"Yeah,  thanks. Channie-hyung, you always know how to cheer everyone up when they need it! How do you do it?" I smile and make him laugh to show him that everything is alright. 

"Well, good. Now, the reason I was trying to find you was to see if you, uh, wanted to go out to eat with me?" He seems a little unsure, and he looks like he's been wanting to ask for a while somehow. 

"Sure, but by "me" do you mean everyone or just me." I ask immediately face palming myself in my brain. Why would he want to ask just me? Maybe, he just wants to talk to me about something I'm doing wrong and he didn't want to bring it up in front of the others. 

"Uh, no, just me and you this time." He laughs a little. Is that a little bit of blush I see? I return the laugh and begin to blush a little too. 

"Then it's a date." I laugh and Chan follows my laugh with an awkward one. 

But why does he want to just take me?

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After math of the last thing Felix said:

"Oh my god!! Why did I say it like that!?!? What is wrong with me!?!?" Felix screams into his pillow, rolling back and forth on his bed, with his ears and cheeks blushed out. 

"WAIT! I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GETTING READY!!"

(AN: I know I said I may need another day, but I finished this so... I may still need time for the side story thingy unless I work hard all night. I'll try that! See you again when I finish that!!)