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Alex's P.O.V.

"Okay Alex I just want you to know that I'm not here to pressure you into saying anything to me. We'll only talk about what makes you comfortable" The therapist said as I sat facing her. It was my first session and I had gone without fight. I hadn't talked to Kyle, Logan or anyone else in the Blake family even though Kyle was the one who drove me to the phsyciatrist's office.

I nodded without answering and she tried again "Why didn't you want to come here Alex?"

"Because I don't want to" I answered simply "I'm not some gimme pig you can experiment on to see how it responds"

"No one said you were" She said "But it's been proved that a traumatic experience needs counseling or else you won't be the same again"

I laughed humorlessly "I'm already not the same as I was"

"We can change that" she said "You can get your old personality back if you want to. of course it won't be easy you'll have to open up."

"What if I don't want to?" I snapped at her

"Then you let the people who did you wrong win" she shrugged "They changed you, affected you just like they wanted to" she stood up and walked to her desk putting her papers on it "I can see you don't want any help, I'm sorry for that but I'll tell the Susan that you don't need counseling. I hope everything works out for you"

I sat there silently, was I really letting them win? Can therapy really help me? But what if it doesn't? Can I really stay the way I am? Scared of people touching me and coming too close.

"I can't get too close to any guy without flinching" I said looking down at my hands "Even the guys I know wouldn't hurt me. I just can't. I have nightmares" I felt my eyes start to water "Almost every night  it's like a repeat of what's happening and I can't make them stop, it's like the same thing is happening to me over and over again."

"These nightmares are constant?" 

"Yes, almost every night except..." I trailed on realizing something for the first time.

"Exept what?"

"When Kyle is sleeping beside me" I said in shock "A fw times Kyle has slept beside me and I don't have any nightmares then"

The psyciatrist didn't seem surprised and just nodded "And you and Kyle are close?"

"We used to be before I moved. And when I came back, even though we didn't get along at first, we got close again but...not now"

"Why?"

"Because he didn't give me a choice and forced me to come here" I said "I got so mad, I begged him not to let me do this but he wouldn't budge."

"Did you think maybe he was doing it for your own good?"

"I know he is" I said "But he could've faced me in a different way, talked to me rationally like you just did. he could've used a different way. He shouldn't have taken the choice away from me like...like" I loked down again "Like what they did"

"have you told him that?" She asked and I shook my head 

"No I haven't talked to him since" I said and she nodded

"Okay Alex, Our hour is almost over so I'm going to tell you what we're going to be working on. We'll only discuss daily happenings for now, how your experience is affecting you. And when you feel comfortable we'll discuss what happened that night"

"I don't think I'll ever be comfortable talking about that infront of anyone" I said Except Kyle I thought. 

"It's okay, take as long as you want" A small bell rang and she smiled "That' our hour Alex, see you next time" I nodded and got up and left.

"So how was it?" Kyle asked as soon as I was in the car. I looked at him for a while, would he understand why I was so mad at him? I missed him these few weeks

"Fine" I said and turned to look out the window

"Alex" he said with a sigh "When are you going to talk to me well?"

I didn't answer and he sighed as he continued driving. Once we got home I got out and went in the house only to freeze at the sight in front of me. Logan and El were in a very heated make out session on the couch,

"Oh my god" I said feeling ecstatic. I knew they could end up together they were perfect for each other.

They broke away as soon as the wor4ds came out of my mouth and El stood up "I can explain Al"

"When did this happen?" I asked trying to keep the smile from my face and act serious. "And why didn't you tell me"

They both stayed silent and I felt my happiness diminish "Why didn't you tell me?" Again no one answered and I felt Kyle behind me 

"We didn't want to add anything on you knowing how you were...feeling"

"So much for not treating me different" I said and ran up to my room, locking the door behind me. i heard Kyle knocking on the door but I told him to go away. I sent a messege to Cole to meet me at the park and snuck out of my bedroom window and went to the park.

"Miss me already?" I heard Cole's familiar voice behind me and turned "I just saw you three days ago"

I grinned "Don't get too full of yourself Cole" I said "How's the pack?"

"They're good" he said "I swear sometimes I love being alpha but other times I hate it" 

"I can imagine" I said "A lot of lives depending on you if anything happens"

"My dad screwed things up bad" he said running a hand through his hair as we walked "We don't have a lot of money saved anymore and he made a lot of enemies."

"What did he do?" I asked, it was the first time Cole talked about his dad

"He spent almost all of the pack's savings and then he started kidnapping important people and asking ransome from the packs to return them." he sighed "but when the pack rebelled on him when another pack attacked us for the kidnapping he turned Rogue and made this huge army."

"What happened to him?" I asked and I felt him stiffen, a far away look in his eyes

"He kidnapped another girl again, a really important person to 2 of the strongest packs and threatened to kill her if they didn't give up their territory to him." he stayed silent for a whil and then added "Turns out the girl he kidnapped wasn't the damsel in distress kind, somehow she informed her pack of where she is and they attacked, my father died that night"

"I'm sorry Cole" I said and he shrugged, trying to seem nonchalant but I knew better.

"He deserved it but he was still my dad you know?But after mom died he changed" he glanced at me for a bit before adding "I'm not like him Alex, please don't think that"

"I dont'" I said "He was your dad, but that doesn't mean you're like him"

"Thanks Al" he said "So now it's your turn. What's wrong. And don't say nothing I know better"

"Remember when I said no one treats me the same?" I said and he nodded "Yeah that's mainly what's wrong today"

"I'm guessing it involves the thing you're not telling me about" he said and I nodded, Cole had noticed there was something UI wasn't telling him and he didn't mind, he said that when I was comfortable I would say what's on my mind

 "Maybe I'm overreacting" I sighed "But I just...I just want things to be normal again is that too much to ask?"

"No I guess its not" he said and then grinned "But they do care about you, you know"

"Yeah I know" I said as we stopped beside a willow tree.

"You're beautiful Al" he said and I snorted in a very unlady-like manner "You are"

"Right" I said with a roll of my eyes and noticed him leaning his head "What are you doing?"

"I..." he said with a shake of his head "I don't know"

and then before I had time to register what was happening, he kissed me. I could feel my heart beating faster as his lips took over,just like theirs did

I took hold of his shirt to push him away but he must have misunderstood and deepened the kiss. I felt tears gathering in my eyes before I started hitting him on the chest. He pulled away

"I'm so sorry Alex, it's just I've wanted to do this since...what's wrong"

I was hyperventilating, my whole body shaking. Please no I thought Please don't let me freak out now But I knew I was, I just couldn't stop the flashbacks, the pain stabbing in my chest.

"Alex" he said stepping near me

"j-just...stay away f-from me" I said shakily.

"Alex I'm sorry...are you okay?"

"I-I.." words didn't seem to be coming out of my mouth "N-no...I"

"Alex" he looked panicked "Alex what the hell's wrong"

I slipped to the floor, leaning my back against the tree just willing myself to calm down. i didn't want to freak out butits like I lost control of my body and I didn't know what to do.

Kyle's P.O.V.

I sat on the couch in the living room after finally finishing all the paperwork i had to do. My head was in my hands and I couldn't stop thinking of Alex. We haven't been talking like we used to she's as distant now as she was when she fist came back and it was my fault. But I knew she wouldn't listen to me and go to therapy but I also knew it would help her.

I saw my phone ring and looked at the caller ID to see that its Alex, but why would she be calling me from her room?

"Alex?" I answered immediately

"It's Cole" Cole said and I immediately growled, what was that bastard doing with her phone "look calm down. I'm with Alex and I don't know what's happening"

"Where are you?" I snarled into the phone angrily 

"The park" before he even continued I slammed the phone shut and ran out the door. I didn't even think about using my car I would be faster running anyway.

As soon as I was in the park I followed my mate's scent and spotted her on the ground hugging her legs with her head on her knees.

"What did you do to her?" I snarled looking at Cole who just looked panicked

"I..I kissed her" he said and I growled feeling my eyes turning black at the thought of someone kissing my mate. but Alex's sobs stopped me from doing anything as I immediately ranb to her

"You fucking idiot" I said knowing how freaked out she would be. I knelt next to Alex and forced myself to calm down before taling to her gently

"Alex, baby. It's Kyle"

"She looked up and immediately wrapped her arms around my neck and brought herself closer to me "I'm sorry" she sobbed "I'm sorry I'm such a mess"

"Shh, it's okay baby. Everything will be alright I'm here". I lifted her and sat on the floor, putting her on my lap "You're going to be okay"

"I'm sorry" she kept on repeating as I sootherd her and sent a glare over her shoulder to Cole who looked confused.

"you'll stay away from her" I said and Alex pulled her head back sniffing back tears.

"K-Kyle it's not his f-fault. I s-shouldn't have freaked out. please he's my f-friend" I nodded at her, not wanting her to cry more but the idea of Cole being with her made me mad as hell

"Come on Al" I said carrying her "Let's take you home"