The plan was going smoothly.

Matsuda was appearing on Sakura TV, about to expose Higuchi for being Kira. Of course he was in a panic, driving all over trying to get Matsuda's real name in order to kill him before he revealed that he is in fact, Kira.

Wedy placed cameras and wiretaps in the bastards car so the task force had a front row seat to witness his meltdown.

Mogi and Aiber waited at Yoshida productions which is the agency Misa was a part of, considering Matsuda was Misa's manager, they would have records of his real name.

Once Higuchi arrived he got his name and wrote it down but of course the name was a fake. Seeing he didn't die he had a hissy fit in his car.

"Did writing his name all he had to do to kill him?" Light asked.

Y/n nodded, "Seems so." knowing exactly that's how it worked, "L, maybe we should move in."

The crouched man shook his head, eyes not leaving the monitor.

Misa groaned, "What are you waiting for then?"

L ignored the blonde as he usually does.

"Rem." Higuchi called, "I want to make the deal."

Light's head jerked back, "Rem? Who's Rem?" he scratched his head, "What deal is he talking about?"

Higuchi laughed creepily over the monitor and started driving. It would only make sense if he would head over to Sakura TV to see Matsuda.

With the eyes now he was invincible.

"Rem is his shinigami."

"Are you serious y/n?" Light scoffed, "You're telling me those exist?"

"Yes, how else would you explain everything that happened?"

He considered it for a moment, slowly realizing she may be right.

Higuichi got pulled over by a traffic cop, immediately writing his name in his book, killing him instantly.

"L! He's too dangerous, we need to move in!" Y/n grew angry seeing him just sitting there, just watching.

He looked at her, seeing her rage building up.

Exhaling deeply, he picked up a mic, calling all units involved, "Move in now." he stood up looking at the h/c haired girl and the neatly groomed killer next to her, "let's join the fun shall we?"

Ryuzaki pulled out a pair of handcuffs, restraining Misa to a chair.

"Damn Y/n, you're in trouble if he likes restraining people." Misa winked.

Everyone could tell L was holding back a much needed smile,

"Lets's go." he ordered.

"GO? YOU'RE LEAVING ME HERE?" Misa yelled as the three walked out.

"Sorry!"

The detective led the two to a helicopter at the roof of the building.

"Who's flying this thing?"

"I am."

Y/n eyes widened, "Pardon?"

L gave her hand a reassuring squeeze, "I wouldn't let any unprofessional fly if you were on board."

L took her hand and helped her on the backseat whilst Light took the passengers. L distributed the headphones as Watari approached, hopping in next to Y/n wearing all back holding a sniper.

"I'll give you $20 to snipe me out." Y/n sighed, gripping the seat as they lifted into the sky.

Y/n watched the back of L's seat and avoided looking down at all cost. She saw watari hold his sniper like he was ready to shoot.

Looking down, she saw the familiar car she was in the day before. Higuchi's car.

The only thing that scared her was accidentally falling off this flying nightmare.

Police flooded the road Higuchi was on while they landed behind him, leaving him no where to go.

The police weren't supposed to be there, seeing a familiar face among them made y/n realize who had got them involved.

Aizawa.

Desperate to escape, Higuichi revved up the engine so Watari took his first shot, straight onto his front tire.

Y/n eyes widen, "Badass! Could you teach me that?"

The old man chuckled, "Yes of course,"

Having this skill would be useless but it would be impressive.

Higuichi pulled out a small pistol and held it to his head, "Don't come closer or I'll shoot! I'll fucking do it!"

"Y/n." watari called. He gestured her to come closer, handing her the sniper rifle.

"Are you crazy?" Y/n whisper shouted.

She took it anyway, sitting in Watari's spot whilst he went to hers.

L looked back to see him fixing her shoulders and hand placement on the weapon.

"Um, Watari?" L called, "What are you doing?"

"If Ms. Y/n wants to try, I'll allow her."

Y/n held the gun tightly and focused, trying not to think too much on her shaking hands.

"Ms. Y/n, breathe, relax then aim. It's that simple. Don't overthink."

The last thing she wanted to do was screw up as this was very important, not to mention she could end up shooting him somewhere that could kill him.

She did as she was instructed.

Breathe

Relax

Then aim.

Y/n pulled the trigger, aiming for his hand on the gun pointed to his head. Y/n jerked back from the recoil but Watari ensured she didn't fall.

Higuchi cried in pain.

"I didn't kill him did I?" Y/n panicked, dropping the sniper rifle.

"You got his hand! Nice Y/n!" Light laughed.

"Fuck yeah! I did that shit!" she laughed.

"I'm very proud of you Meine geliebte."

Watari was impressed she got that on her first shot, "Easy wasn't it."

Y/n hugged Watari instantly, she hadn't had a male father figure this caring since her dad. It meant a lot he believed in her.

"Thank you."

"After some practice you'll be a professional."

He got out of the helicopter to assist Mr. Yagami and the others with Higuichi.

"You're looking for a notebook." L instructed for the people near the car to follow. They blindfolded Higuchi immediately and began searching

Mr. Yagami snatched the notebook from his brief case and screamed immediately, dropping the book.

"He's seeing Rem isn't he." Y/n whispered to the black haired man.

"Definitely."

Some chatter went around then Matsuda and Aizawa touched it, having the same reaction more or less.

Y/n pressed her lips into a thin line, as she does "Can you please bring the book?"

Matsuda brought it

"Let me see it." Light held his hand out for L to give him the book.'

"I'm afraid not." L said bluntly, "It'd be best if you didn't lay a finger on this book."

"Uh, Y/n?"

"Yes Mr. Yagami?"

"I think you should see this."

Furrowing her eyebrows, she slip down from the helicopter and walked to Watari, Mr. Yagami and Matsuda

Once there, she audibly gasped at what she saw. This caught her boyfriends attention who heard her due to the headphones they wore.

L gave the book to Matsuda.

He stepped out, telling Light to stay behind and stood next to her. What he saw shocked him too.

In folders there were photos of Y/n , every time she was outside headquarters he was there, taking pictures of her and zooming in into places he shouldn't.

There was one where one of his friend took a photo of him with his hands in his pants looking at her talk to a friend outside a cafe.

"Hey! Psst! Matsuda!" Light called over the young male, "Can I see the book to run it through data analysis?"

"Sure Light." with the book in his hands, the one thing the two tried to prevent happened. He got his memories back, writing Higuchi's name in a piece of the death note hidden in his watch. After, giving the book back to Matsuda like nothing ever happened

"You're going to regret doing this, I'll be sure of it." L clenched his jaw looking at the inappropriate photos he took of his one and only.

"Get this man away from me." Y/n face twisted in disgust.

Mr. Yagami and Matsuda were taking him away when he collapsed, gasping for breath.

A heart attack.

"Dad ! You can't let him die!" Light yelled from the helicopter but it was to late.

L frantically looked through the book to the last page, looking to see if Higuchi name was written in there but it wasn't

Back at Headquarters the task force examined the book, two rules were at the back of the book that stomped everyone.

If the person using this Death Note fails to consecutively write names of people to be killed within 13 days of each other, then the user will die.

If this Death Note is made unusable by tearing it up or burning it, all the humans who have touched the Death Note till then will die.

Y/n had no idea if those were real of not considering she didn't make it that far into reading it. They kept it in box and asked Rem a bunch of questions

She secretly told the young girl that the rules were fake but proving they were fake was another thing.

You can't arrest someone let alone present before a court with nothing to show for.

Worst part they think Light is clear because of the 13 day rule.

Only Y/n and L knew the truth.

The task force were so stubborn and so quick to jump in front of Light, defending him from any accusation which made it 10 times harder.

Speaking of Light, Y/n noticed he had been moving differently, more smug to say the least.

He was acting like how he did before he went into confinement.

Y/n pulled Matsuda aside, "Did Light touch the book?"

"Um yeah, he wanted to match the names of those in the book with the deceased."

Y/n sighed, filling L in.

"He definitely got his memories back." L said biting on his thumb

Misa had to go somewhere 3 hours from the task force head quarters for a couple months for a modeling thing and the one and only other female had to go with her.

Mogi would accompany the ladies too but he would stay somewhere else

"I'll miss you." she said in a whisper to the detective.

"I'll make arrangements for you two visit every weekend okay?" he lift her chin up and looked at her sad face which made him feel sad as well, "Don't do that."

Y/n tilted her head, "Do what?"

"Stop being sad, I don't like it."

Y/n smiled slightly at the deja vu.

L interlocked his fingers with hers, pressing foreheads together, "I love you Y/n, there's no one else I rather be dependent on."

She giggled, feeling warm as that was the first time ever said the 'L' word, "I should hope so." he leaned in, pressing his lips against hers, "I love you too." she whispered in his ear making L wear a tiny smile.

"Come on Y/n we're gonna be late!" Misa yelled.

She unwillingly let go of L, looking at him before she decided to leave,

"Goodbye Meine geliebte."

"Still not gonna tell me what it means, you bastard?"

L shook his head and watched her leave with Misa. It was hard since this is the first time in almost 2 years they have been apart.

Time really does fly.

Y/n and Misa stayed at a fancy flat with three bedrooms, two bathroom, a living room, dining room, kitchen and a wine cellular was in the basement for what ever reason.

It was entirely spacious and neat.

After almost two weeks or so of living there, visiting the task force every weekend, she got to talk to L for about 10 minutes before she left every time.

They both treasure those 10 minutes, not leaving each other eye sight nor taking their hands off each other.

It was torture.

Y/n felt a presence in the flat. It was familiar though.

Like she had been around it before.

Going into Misa's room to ask her about it she stopped immediately when she saw the one and only.

"Hey Y/n! You need something?" Misa put her phone call on hold to address Y/n. Her room was very black and gothy, a lot of posters, plushies and chains.

Y/n though quickly. "I just came to borrow nail polish,"

"Knock yourself out!" she pointed to a clear bag that had many bottles of what she asked for.

She went back on the phone, clueless to what Y/n was doing.

She gestured the shinigami Ryuk to follow her.

Going into the bathroom again, he just walked through the door, literally.

"Is this were we have our meetings now?" he laughed.

"What are you doing here?" Y/n whisper shouted at the childish God of death.

"I'm doing my job." he gave her that annoying laugh, "That's all I'm going to tell you."

Then left again.

He seems to just dismiss himself huh?

The ringtone of her cell startled her, answering she placed the phone to her ear.

"Hello?"

"Meine geliebte."

A smile instantly grew on her face," Hi my love."

"How are you?"

"Good, I ran into a old friend."

"Really? Who would that be?"

"Ryuk."

The other end went quiet, she knew he was processing what she said.

"Ryuk is there?"

"Yes, which only means one thing. Misa is the one killing criminals again whilst Light just sits back and relaxes like he's on vacation."

"I had planned to have a criminal write in the book and see if he lived beyond 13 days, if so the whole case would be solved, we are executing that plan in a bit,"

The sudden realization hit Y/n like a train

"Wait no, you can't." her breathing getting heavier, "This is Light's plan."

"What? Y/n I'm not following."

"It's the fuckers plan L. If you test that theory it will point to Misa, the day she left killings started. Don't you see? Rem will kill me if Misa is arrested. Light knows that shinigami would do anything for Misa."

It fell silent again.

"He's using that to his advantage."

"Exactly!" she whisper shouted.

"I promise you that you won't die. Rem won't lay a hand on you."

"She literally said she-" then it clicked, he did send her away that day, leaving the two alone, " What did you do?"

Y/n heard the detective clear his throat over the line, "You told her to kill you instead, didn't you?"

He was silent, "Answer me L!" she cried.

"Yes."

Her heart dropped immediately, her knees grew weak and not in a good way either.

"The criminal is ready Y/n, I have to go."

"L she'll fucking kill you! Don't you dare do it."

Y/n ran for her car keys and hopped in not sparing a milli second.

"We need proof and this is the only way."

She started the car and sped out the driveway, leaving a confused Misa by the doorway. Y/n burned a lot of rubber that's for sure.

"L please, we'll think of something else, we always do!" She felt the tears making it's way down already.

"There is no time, this will put the Kira case to close. We can't pass up an opportunity like this."

The detective heard the sniffling on Y/n's end, making this 10 times harder for him.

"Lawliet please." Y/n full on sobbed at this point, "Don't do it."

She sped through the streets, running red lights as hot tears ran down her face.

"I can die at peace after hearing your voice and knowing you were mine." The detective paused, "I love you Meine geliebte."

Instantly he hung up making her scream, "Lawliet you asshole!" She hit the steering wheel with full force, letting out her frustration.

She dialed again only to be met with his answering machine.

Again again and again she tried

Voice mail.

She called Mogi and demanded Misa be watched 24/7.

Y/n couldn't stop thinking.

She thought about the way he looked at her, the way he held her, the way he kissed her, the way he comforted her.

She cried in heartache at the possibility of there being no more

It was surprising how she didn't get into any accidents of get pulled over for speeding

Soon enough the task force building came into view. Her heart dropped at the sight of two ambulances parked outside.

All the task force members were outside looking rough but Y/n looked the worse and she hadn't even been filled in yet.

Slamming the car door she walked to the group, "Where is he!"

The task force members heart broke when they saw the distressed girl. Being the eldest, Mr. Yagami stepped forward.

"Y/n, I'm sorry."

"No."

"L's gone, he had an heart attack."

That was it, she fell of the floor, on her knees. Y/n felt her heart physically break into many tiny pieces.

Like the world had stopped or time had froze. Her breath caught in her throat.

Y/n had to accept the harsh reality but she hadn't thought that this would've happened, she thought for once he would've listened when she said it was a bad idea.

That's what caring about people got her.

Crying, pathetic and desperate for them to come back, when every little thing brought back memories and sob at the inanimate object or song, or food, or clothing that had brought it all back to begin with but it's the price to pay for joy.

In order to avoid all that pain and trauma, the griever had to have not meet them in the first place. So the question is..is that any better?

Matsuda stepped down and hugged her.

"Where's Watari?" she asked in a whisper almost, her voice breaking.

"He's gone too Y/n, I'm sorry."

She sobbed more into the young man's shoulder.

She felt weak and her chest pained her, like someone reached into her chest and pulled out her heart.

The girl wanted to scream at everything, yell nonsense to get it out of her system.

Wiping her face, Y/n got up, "I want to see them!"

"You can't." said Aizawa.

"What do you mean I can't?"

"They said no one can see them."

Y/n marched over to the paramedics, the men following behind her, "Where is he?"

A old male looked at her, "I'm sorry ma'am but you can't see them."

"Why the fuck not? I can and I will see them!" she stepped to walk closer but the paramedic held her shoulder, she pushed him off him violently causing Mr. Yagami and Aizawa to drag her away.

"I know this is hard but you have to calm down."

She wasn't taking Aizawa's dumb advice.

Mr. Yagami pulled this piece of paper out of his pockets, "He said to give you this about 5 minutes before he died." Yagami handed it to her.

Y/n looked at the small bit of paper, it was something printed off the internet.

Meine geliebte (German)-noun- means my beloved /my love/sweetheart

If it was possible, her heart shattered even more, her vision got blurry with the amount of tears forming.

Sadness turned into grief then grief turned into anger.

"Where's Light?" Y/n clenched her jaw.

"At home, why?"

"I want to see if he's okay, Mr. Yagami."

"That's nice of you." the father of the boy mentioned smiled at the concern

She headed to the car she came with and headed to the Yagami residence.

She thought of what she'd do but she wasn't sure until Y/n saw Light's face.

Pulling up in front of the familiar house, she slammed the car door and hopped out.

She opened the door, conveniently it was already opened and by the looks of it the two females of the household were out.

Y/n kicked the young boy's door open, he got immediately off the chair by his desk, relaxing once seeing it was y/n

"Y/n, Jesus. I heard what happened I'm so sor-"

Y/n whipped out a gun she snagged from Matsuda's holster, aiming at his forehead.

"Y/n please, you're making a mistake."

She was known for making irrational decisions when she was mad.

This was one of them.

"Since you like to play games Yagami, I have one for you." she gripped on the handle tighter, "We're playing dare or dare and I dare you to give me one reason I shouldn't kill you right now."

Light gulped harshly, "You'll regret it, this is not what you want. You're angry and I get it."

Y/n laughed rather creepily, "I don't think so." she breathing got really uneven the more she looked at Light, "You fucking killed him! You killed them both!"

She waved the gun around like a mad man, truth was she had nothing to lose anymore.

"I didn't Y/n I swear."

This got her more riled up, "Do you ever stop lying Light! Oh my fucking God!" she groaned loudly.

Y/n tapped the barrel of the gun on the side of her head in frustration before aiming it at the scared guy again

The h/c haired girl neared closer, making him step back. Light had never seen her like this and it was terrifying

She possessed this crazy look in her eyes, thirst for revenge. Y/n didn't care about the aftermath of her actions.

"Y/n I know you loved him but killing me isn't going to bring him back." Light lowered his hand he held in defense, seeing she had calm down more and he knew he made a valid point.

Tears started streaming down her face again, "You killed the man I loved, the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with."

Y/n shamelessly cocked the gun, the action made Light eyes widen.

"Y-Y/n please. Please don't."

"What am I supposed to do now Light? Huh? Move on? Now I have no one you fucking asshole!"

Y/n pressed the cold barrel against his forehead as she continued, "He was the only one that mattered to me. Two people I care about in this world and you killed them both."

"Y/n, If he was here he would tell you to put the gun down." Light chose his words carefully.

"Is this your idea of justice, you son of a bitch?" Y/n screamed crazily at the brown haired boy.

Light was visibly trembling but kept his composure, shutting his eyes tightly.

He knew Y/n wouldn't kill anyone if they looked frightened and preparing for her to pull the trigger as he did then.

The burning rage and dreadful quench for revenge along with her rough state was enough to scare a man straight, her holding a gun made her even more fearful.

Light thought y/n had actually lost it.

Y/n longed to pull the trigger, she longed to avenge the man she loved right there and then but yet she couldn't

She wasn't a murderer. This wouldn't make y/n any better than Kira.

She turned on the safety lock on the gun and threw it out Light's window.

Y/n looked into his eyes and saw no remorse in them which made her furious.

Though Light did feel a bit sorry for her.

Y/n sniffled, "I hope you're happy now." she voice broke once again as she trudged out the room heading for her car.

Light pulled out a piece of the death note that was hidden in his watch and wrote.

Y/n Kitamura- suicide