The timid me
Trying my best
To fit in the new environment
I smile, I greet
To each person, I meet

New place
Meaning that I need to make a new friend yet again
I try my best to be an open-minded person
To meet the one who will be with me until the end

Never do I know that I hate crowded places
Never do I know that I hate joining parties
Never do I know that I hate to have to talk to new people
Until I experience them myself

New place
New friends
I try my best to fit into
Nevertheless
I end up getting tired, exhausted
To keep the same pace with them
To have the same way of thinking as them
To pretend that I have the same interest as them
To feign happiness whenever I'm with them
In the end
I realize
That there will be no end to this kind of game
I realize
That I will never obtain the happiness I desire
Unless I be I
And stop with all the pretend-to-be-friend kind of games
Afterward,
I realized that I am more comfortable with my own company
As those fake relationship starts to hurt me deeply.