(Disclaimer: 6.5k words, and littered with typos, because you can only write so much before your fingers give up.)

So, this is sort of an impromptu book review, and I read this and I think that as a book, as Y/A it's very problematic. And I'm going to talk about it.

The book in question is A Piece Of Heaven by Angel Lawson. The genre is Y/A reverse harem, or as the author calls it A Contemporary Reverse Harem Romance. So, for those of you who don't know, a reverse harem is basically a female character surrounded by multiple male love interests, and she simultaneously shags all of them... so yeah. 

Uhm, I don't really know how to deal with this book, because there's obviously a lot of problematic concepts that I want to talk about, but I don't actually know where to start... I mean, there's a lot to unpack, and apparently no one wants to unpack it. The reviews I saw on Goodreads, apart from a select few are mostly positive reviews and I don't understand why. Am I the only one who found this book to be very problematic in every sense of the term?

I've never read reverse harem before, which means that I'm not very well acquainted to it as I am with bad boy books, billionaire books and the other trashy bits in the romance genre. But I would feel like if there was a book that would soil the subgenre, it would be A Piece Of Heaven. 

So, the book starts off with Heaven doing a favour for her friend Justin, which entails pretending to have sex with him, because he's being shamed for being a virigin and he wants to get it off his back and make it seem like he's done it before. Which right off the bat raises a problem for me, that is found later on throughout the book. 

It's the amount of virign-shaming in this book, which I do find absolutely disgusting. If a guy or a girl haven't sex before, it's no one business, and they shouldn't be shamed for choosing not to. But this issue isn't really addressed. Maybe in the sense where Justin has to go the extra mile to make it seem like he isn't one, but that's not doing much either. Since the author isn't taking a stance on it, and it's just forgotten at the end of the day, it's not really talked about ever again.

That little incident, leads to a person taking a picture of her and Justin leaving the room... it was at a party, btw, and posting it online, on a finsta account, which they call a Fakestagram and no one actually says that but like fine. And the account is called "A piece of Heaven". Throughout the book, there are picture repeatedly posted on the account, and she doesn't go see the school principal or anyone for being bullied. That's like the premise of the book, and then after that it just moves on to being problematic... 

The list of problems goes like this:

- Virgin shaming

- Bad depiction of mental illness

-Slut-shaming (which I'm 50/50 on this, but still)

-The objectification of women

-The Faux-Feminism

-The bad depiction of cyber-bullying

-The depiction of harassment as flirting.

-The character Heaven

-Her relationship with the Allendale Four

And the list goes on. Like, this book is probably the definition of the word problematic in itself.

So, as I said before, Heaven, our main character, is being cyber-bullied, which leads to people, the very next day to start asking her do them a few favors. Eric, one of those people, asks her to pretend make-out with him, so he could hide the fact that he's gay from other people, because ding-ding-ding, he's being shamed for being a virgin. And then, some other guy asks her out because he wants to make some girl jealous, and then she's harassed by some dude called Spencer, and some dude called Mark asks her out, basically everyone wants to bone her now. 

This explained by: everyone wants her but she seemed untouchable and Justin broke the ice, so she's fair game now. 

What I didn't like about all this, and the portrayal of cyber-bullying is that it wasn't used to prove a point that cyber-bullying can genuinely and will genuinely ruin someone's life like some books have done before, but this was used as a basis for the romance between her and the Allendale Four: Hayden, Oliver, Jackson and Anderson. First of all: this was a very cheap way of making the plot move along. Secondly, it's honestly disgusting to use such a concept like cyber-bullying as means to set up a romance and then discard it as if it's nothing. 

The main reason why the end up together is because of the bullying, and that's the main reason why they stay together and eventually get pulled apart. It doesn't show how it can ruin reputations or the future of people, because nothing gets erased from the internet. Instead it teaches that if you get online bullied, you'll get the guy or in this case, the guys.

Is there something wrong to use bullying to build a romance off? Unless you're using it to make the girl fall in love with her bully, there's not actually a problem with that. The problems comes where you treat it exactly as just a plot tool and not delve into it deeper as more than that, because that's exactly what it is. It's more than a tool to build romance on.  If you're using bullying strictly for that, then you're doing something very very wrong and you should stop.

There's someone stalking her, taking pictures of her in very compromising positions with different people, mean comments about her online and in person, but it's okay?

And on with that, her response to being slut-shamed online, and bullied is to start dressing more provocatively, which is a decision that does little to nothing to help the situation, but she feels like she should just feed in to it. Now, the person that helps her make that decision is Oliver, and up to that point of the book, Oliver just feels like a nice person who's helping out a "friend". Now, Oliver becomes a love interest later on in the book, out of literally nowhere. One minute he's not a love interest, and the next he's suddenly head over heels for her. 

Reading, this and how it panned out, Oliver might've pushed her into putting herself out there, but I thought it was because she wanted to get Anderson's attention, who was by far the most decent guy in this whole book. I was under that impression, but then she kisses Oliver, kisses Jackson, kisses Hayden, and I got confused. 

Like for something that was supposed to be a reverse harem, there was so much time put in for showing her attraction and feelings towards Anderson, and then everything else felt really rushed. Like, she didn't care what everyone thought of her, she just wanted to know what Anderson thought of her, which is perfect... for a regular Y/A romance and I assume, not a reverse harem... but fine.

So she starts hanging out with these guys more, and she's caught in compromising positions with them, over and over again. And for someone who's being stalked by some sicko, she doesn't put any effort into not giving them any material to post online. Whereas, she becomes very frivolous instead of trying to stay on the down low. I don't think that was the correct response. 

Now, halfway through the book, or even before that, we learn that Heaven has anxiety and that she also self-harms. We see that because she tries to kill herself for some reason. Like I think they posted a picture of her and she was like: "Aight, Imma finish this shit." and her response was to kill herself.

Oliver catches her trying to do this, and we discover during the scene that she has scars from places she cut herself from, on her upper arm. I'm not going to talk about how the upper arm is a very odd place to cut, since the most simple place is your lower arm, so the part that's linked to your wrist... but you want to make me believe that Heaven, who's been wearing very revealing clothing self harms and no one, absolutely no one, not even the boys who've been hanging around her like flies, noticed that she cuts herself? Who am I? An idiot?

This leads me to saying that there are various moments where I felt I was missing something, because most of the things that happen in this book frankly do not add up. They don't. There's no logical succession of events, we're jumping from one thing to the other and most of the time there's no direct link between any of the things that happen. But I guess that's fine.

Apart from that, there's also the anxiety thing. Now, I am fully aware that this generation suffers from anxiety the most, and it's completely fine that Heaven has anxiety, a lot of teens have it, and it makes her more believable as a character, and slightly more human... even if she's the embodiment of Mary Sue. It definitely makes her feel much more real. But then, my problem is with the portrayal of anxiety.

Here, it's like, she has anxiety and the solution to that is Oliver and Jackson and Hayden and Anderson. That's basically it. She doesn't need medication, she doesn't need therapy, even when she gets apparently horrible panic attacks. Which is another thing, for someone who supposedly has anxiety, she doesn't have the symptoms... except for crying. I don't have anxiety, but I have stress issues, like really bad stress issues and I do admit that when you're anxious about something, crying is bound to happen, but it's not all there is to it. So, here are a few symptoms to anxiety: hypervigilance (which she isn't), irritability (which she isn't irritable), restlessness, lack of concentration, racing thoughts, unwanted thoughts, fatigue, sweating and the list goes on.

This book did not do the mental illness part of it any justice, especially since it just showed that it could be fixed by a boy or several boys. Now, books that did great jobs at portraying anxiety are By Your Side by Kasie West, the main character in here was actually on medication, her family kept a close eye on her, the main character tried her utmost best not to put her in situations that can make her have a panic attack, and Every Last Word (albeit this was OCD) but the main character was going through therapy, and she found the Poet's Corner which was an outlet for her compulsive thoughts.

With the photos of her online comes incessant slut-shaming. Now, this is a topic that I'm very on the fence on, because frankly, it's become popular lately, and I don't really know what to think about it. So what I'm going to comment about is not the fact that she's being slut shamed but it's her overall hypocrisy while looking at that.

Where she doesn't slut shame anyone, she doesn't act as if, when it's not directed towards her it's not something wrong. Basically, don't do it to me, but if you do it to other people, it's 200% fine. And I'm not down with that. There's this party scene, where Jackson actively slut shames every girl at the party except Heaven, and I mean, every single girl, and she doesn't even bat an eyelash. I'm not very feminist, or I don't identify as a feminist in even the slightest bit, but girls support girls. Women support women. That's how it works, so if someone was actively insulting a fellow girl, for making a decision that I'd deem poor, I'd still stand up for them because that's the decent thing to do.

Not sit down and agree, and then whine and moan about how every one is shaming you for something that didn't even happen. And, I do find that very hypocritical of our main character, and I don't support it even one bit, it's absolutely disgusting. Hypocrisy is absolutely disgusting.

During the same party scene, Heaven is harassed by Spencer, and then later on says it's harmless flirting... I think there's a very clear line drawn between flirting and harassment, and it ends when one party feels uncomfortable with another's advancements. Heaven was very clearly very uncomfortable but it's just called harmless flirting from her, and it's absolutely disgusting.

So, moral of that is: Girls, if a guy comes off strong and he's borderline making you uncomfortable, it's flirting not harassing you. So sit down and take it.

Which leads me to the fact that this book gives people the message to just sit down and take everything that gets thrown their way because there's absolutely no point in fighting back. Let other people make the decisions for you.

The whole reverse harem thing was something that the boys had talked about prior and without even knowing if she'd be okay with it. When they started doing it, they decided who would be her boyfriend in public. She didn't make one decision for herself, and yet we're lead to believe that she's empowered and apparently well versed in feminism now since she's being harassed online. Boo fucking hoo.

Which leads me to the objectification and faux-feminism in this book.

So, Heaven, or Hell, and I think Hell is a more valid name for her. Heaven is being objectified, by the Allendale Four, as much as they say they aren't, they are. We know this because one of them says: "You're all the porn we need." And I find that very disgusting. If someone actually told me that, I'd probably slap them across the face like six times. I suppose, what makes me more mad, is that she's treated like sex toy by almost everyone and she seems to revel in the attention, and not realise that it's not okay to be objectified by people.

Now, I do understand that she's not used to being in the limelight, and that deep down she wanted to be accepted or whatever type of bullshit the author tried to use to justify her horrible character's actions, but. this is where it gets blurry and wrong. Is that, Heaven preaches around the end of book about feminism and women sticking up for women, and dress code at school, and slut shaming and objectifying women and all other things that are certainly problematic. When 3/4ths of the book, when these things were actively happening to her, she was okay with that.

And it's just faux-feminism. I mean, there's no other way to actually put this, other than the fact that it just comes out of nowhere and is inherantly and absolutely hypocritcal of our main character.

Now, I'd understand if this was for character growth, but she's a pretty stagnant character, where she doesn't actually learn a lesson, and even when people around her are right, they're wrong and what she's doing is absolutely correct.

One of things that shocked me in this book was the fact that they bring up dress code at schools and how it's unfair and girls should dress however they want. Thing is, Heaven had been wearing up to that point, very revealing clothing that breaches dress code in several ways, and no one ever batted an eyelash, not even a teacher. So what shocked me was the fact that out of nowhere Allendale High suddenly had a dress code. When not even once, not even once, did Hell get called into the guidance counselor's office for her very provocative outfits. But I guess when it fits the feminism.

Plus, this whole dress code thing is justified in the case of this book. Because, you know how they always talk about bra straps showing and we all think its bull? Well, Anderson, once saw her bra strap and now he masturbates to that... so do with that what you will.

Now that that is out of the way, we can tackle the biggest problem of them all: The character Hell and her relationship with the Allendale Four.

Hell/Heaven, take your pick, is an absolute idiot. And I do understand that she wants to be accepted. But we have to call a pear a pear.

She gets pictures of her posted online, in compromising positions, and yet this human isn't actively trying to prove that it's not who she actually is. Instead, she feeds into this narrative by promoting the fact that that's how she is.

Justin, her friend, all but told her that if she's uncomfortable with the pictures of them being online, he can come clean and say that it was just a prank and that they didn't have sex, and he's indeed still a virgin... which is a pretty noble and sensible thing to do, when the truth doesn't ruin your reputation.

But Heaven discards this and thinks it's pretty stupid because she'd rather look out for Justin than herself... but she keeps reminding us throughout the book that if it weren't for Justin, she wouldn't be in this mess anyway? Which is true... but she was offered very early on, a way out of the mess, and for some reason, she decided to stay in the mess and not try to clear her name... because that's reasonable.
them fact that she kept blaming Justin about the situation, when he offered her a way out, and begged her to let him fix it is honestly flabbergasting. I don't understand it. The fact that she whined about something she could've actively stopped, and then started pointing fingers, talking about how she couldn't do anything about it is mind-shattering. The amount of "I'm a powerless victim” in this book shocked me, especially since the author somehow wanted us to think that she's an empowered woman because she's getting bullied. An empowered woman would've tried to stop it and would've put a stop to it. One way or another. 

Also, I want to touch on the fact that she actively refuses to listen to the voices of reason in this book, Justin and her mother, who are worried about her for clear reasons. After everything that happened, Justin her best friend, has the right to be worried that she's suddenly dating four guys at the same time when she was clearly in a vulnerable position and it would be easy for them to take advantage of her, which I'm convinced they are, by the way.

Justin does the reasonable thing, and let's the mother know because the daughter is honestly too caught up in the fact that her mother doesn't like her daughter wearing revealing clothing. And this is how we see that Justin has agency, and is actually a smart character, unlike everyone else in this book.

Yet, Justin is directly painted as the bad guy, who tried to come in between of her and her relationship, and she even goes as far as saying that Justin has to redeem himself for doing what she should've done. Especially because of the stalking thing... Because I daresay that her mother is a fucking police officer, and she never thought of telling the police that she's being stalked.

The mother responds like an adult and tells her daughter that she's being used by the Allendale four, which is something that I agree with and I'll elaborate on that later. She confiscates her phone, transfers her classes because she doesn't want the stress on her daughter, since she has anxiety and depression (a book 2 thing. I dnfed that at that point)  and she self harms. I mean, if I was a mum, I would've had the same reaction. Mum confronts the school and gets the page taken down and then goes to the police to get this. And once again, someone is painted as the bad guy for caring, and not letting a clearly irresponsible teen to handle something like this, because it's stalking.

I hated this aspect of the book. The fact that everyone wronged her even the people that are doing the right thing. I would've gone the extra mile as a parent and moved. Because let's be honest, it's her reputation on the line and she should know that. Nothing gets deleted from the internet. That's the reason I can still find my 2016, cringeworthy Facebook pictures, okay? Nothing gets deleted from the internet.

And she doesn't see the fact that her mum is actually helping her, removing her from a toxic relationship, and getting things solved the way they should've been done. Instead, her mum is punishing her and doing something unforgivable because she took her away from her “boyfriends”. Everyone seems to think like that in the end.

I mean, I'm sorry, but she dry humped Jackson on her mother's front porch I don't know who thought that was a good idea and wasn't going to get them grounded. It seems like an inherantly bad idea, the type of idea that gets someone grounded. And for someone who is getting stalked, it feels like something very reckless, like dry humping Oliver in his car, on the side of the road, where anyone could see... Smart. Smart. Smart. Smart.

And I could list the stupid, reckless things she does, and then she gets painted on as brave for just enduring everything when she had the power to stop it. But I guess bullying and stalking is fine if you're getting dick?

This is the message that this book is giving even when the author tries to make it seem like that isn't it. We all know the truth, that this book isn't giving a good message for anyone and shouldn't even have been published ever. I don't know who published this and thought it was fine, because it isn't. It's the furthest thing from fine.

I'm going to say this once, and once only... The Born in Blood series is much better. Still better but much better. At least that was bearable, and I didn't 3600 words and counting to talk about one book in the series, so that says a lot. We're nearing 4000 words and I'm nowhere near done. I still have a lot to cover. Like a lot to cover because that's this book. It doesn't end, there's more to unpack. There's always more. It's never the end of it.

So this is what we'll be talking about in the next paragraphs to come:

-the relationship she has with the Allendale Four and how they're taking advantage of her.

-the fact that she forced Anderson into the relationship.

-the fact that this books seems to take the readers for idiots with unbelievable things that even a five year old would know are wrong.

-the ending of the book which is mediocre at best.

As far as I know, those four things are going to take us forever, since all of them are a huge problem of their own, and have a lot to unpack in them, and I could try to fit it it all in 1k words, but it would be virtually impossible, because there's a lot, because this book just didn't stop with the problematic concepts.

After that, I'll wrap up as best as I can without losing the rest of my sanity, because I'll need it to get through quarantine.

So, I'm pretty sure that the Allendale Four manipulated her and took advantage of the state she was in. So what happened is that, basically, they had talked about this reverse harem thing way before she started to get bullied, which means that she would've possibly accepted it anyway, because apparently, she liked them all too, even when it only seemed like she had the hots for Anderson and no one else.

But these four boys decided to come to her with the idea of that when she was clearly at a low point of her life and that's just disgusting and taking advantage of her vulnerable state. And it's okay for her mother to say that, it's okay for Justin to say that. They come in as her night in shining armor and act as if they want to "save her" or something, when they're clearly not the hero.

In the words of Ventino: "They tried to be the hero but they never realized that to protect her they shouldn't have appeared in the first place." (Intentaste ser el héroe y no pudiste ver, que para protegerme no debiste aparecer).

And I found this aspect very disgusting, as if no one ever noticed this and thought it was good, but it really isn't. I find it disgusting that this was romanticised when it's pure manipulation and taking advantage of someone at their low point because they're horny teenagers, and I guess that's okay? And the fact that teens read this and think it's good is mind-shattering, because this isn't what we should be teaching teenagers.

And putting the vulnerability aside. These Allendale Four, don't actually try and help her solve the problem. Which would've been a much more noble cause, but they actually don't. Instead, they push her to put herself out there except of trying to put an end to the situation and letting her feed into this and give her stalker more leverage on her. I think that's not okay, and in no sense should they portray that as something healthy and show us that these boys actually about her more than wanting to get in her pants, because that's not true.

It's the furthest thing from true, because they're not doing anything that can help her, and being next to her isn't going to help her. And honestly, they're talking about how they want sickrotect her, but they're actually not. Helping her would entail being careful in their excursions, but she dry humps Jackson and Oliver in very open places and they act as if it's fine and even get shocked when those pictures are online... What the fuck did they expect?

All in all, as much as they want us to think that they're good for her, she actually isn't. And I'm not going to talk about how I think 17-18 is too young to be in a polyamorous relationship, because that's a thing of it's own, and like it's probably the least disturbing thing in this book.

Another thing I hate about their relationship, is that they seem to make every decision for her and they're not very good decisions to start with. But she doesn't like it when her mother makes decisions for her, albeit being the only one who actually should be able to do that. Her mother does it, it's wrong and an invasion of privacy, the boys do it, it's romantic.

It's not. It's controlling. They literally decide everything for her. What she does, who she dates and whatever. And she goes ahead with it, and then they tell us how brave and empowered she is when she can't pick anything for herself... fine. Fine. Fine. Let's all act as if that makes sense and as if that is an actual healthy relationship that's not going to end up more manipulating and abusive than it already is. Let's roll with that.

Let's also talk about how she all but forces Anderson to be in the relationship with her. Basically, out of the four boys, Anderson is the least on board with this at the first. He doesn't even seem like he wants to be around her, which is understandable. But she goes out of her way to make sure that he ends up with her because she wants dick. It's disgusting. She's somehow the victim of that because he doesn't pay her attention.

She's actually pushing herself onto him. And then after he kisses her and walks away because frankly I feel like he had every right to do that, she gets a panic attack, and then in the next chapter, Anderson accepts to be part of their fivesome. Which ew.

He basically accepted to be part of it out of guilt, but the author plays it off as he's always wanted her and he didn't want to admit it and put a ridge in his friendship with the boys because of a girl. BULLSHIT. He didn't like her and he entered the relationship because she guilted him into accepting and doing what she wanted him to do. Which is actually unbelievably disgusting that it would get played off as cute and romantic.

Like he bended to her will, probably out of fear that she wouldn't get another panic attack or something. It's not cute if you enter a relationship with someone out of guilt. And that's most probably what happened because I can't actually seem to see it another. Especially since she doesn't have another panic attack after that, but there's clearly a thousand different things that she could panic about. I'm not even shitting anyone, let's not forget that she's actually getting stalked by some sick pervert for whatever reason.

Moving on, because this is literally 5k words at this point and I don't see a way it couldn't actually end up leading to 6k words, because I have thoughts and it'll take me forever to actually talk about the ending and the fact that this book seems to think were stupid. Honestly, the ending is a problem of it's own, just because it makes absolutely no fucking sense. But that's not what we're going to talk about right.

This book thinks we're stupid, and I think I need to call it out on its bullshit.

There are notions in here that don't actually make a fractal of actual sense, like the whole hacking thing. The hacking thing, where because the school computers are all connected to a same server, you can access every computer from one of yours. I'm inclined to believe that because I don't do IT, and I have no interest in IT. But when you tell me that from a laptop with the screen down, you can record a video using the webcam... I'll say that you are taking us for idiots and don't know what you're talking about... This all felt like a way to whatever because she needed to add a sex tape... by the way Anderson and Heaven had sex somewhere towards the end of book, it was cringey and I wasn't here for it... moving on.

This is one of the instances where they took us for pure and unfiltered idiots, throughout the book.

Another moment was when suddenly, Amber, who slut-shamed Heaven for talking to her love interest, is suddenly Heaven's friend, and it's supposed to be believable. Like the girl appeared once in the book, and then another time she's completely new and improved and ready to kickass with Heaven, now that the girl has reached another low point in her life... yeah okay.

The dress code thing. As I've said, Heaven for a large amount of the book has been wearing skirts that barely cover her butt, tops that leave her boobs hanging out, and then out of nowhere, the author wants us to believe that the school has a dress code, when no teacher has batted an eyelash at what she wore for like 3/4ths of the book. I call pure and unhindered bullshit. I'm not five, nor am I an idiot to believe something as farfetched as that. But I guess when the author wants us to believe something we should just roll with it, and not realize that it's completely idiotic.

The whole Heaven fell out of the car thing. During a scene, Hell got smashed out of her ass, and ended up puking everywhere. One of those times was when they were driving her back home and she felt urge to the hurl and opened the door and fell out of the car...

1- She wants to tell me that she fell out of a moving car and she didn't even get a concussion? The least of things is a concussion, right? Because the car is fucking moving?

2- She wants to tell us that the only side effect was a headache Heaven got from a really bad hangover? That makes little to no actual sense at all. Someone has to say it.

3- The mother didn't notice the amount of bruises that her daughter is actually supposed to have from such a fall? No concussion, fine. But she had to get hurt somewhere, seeing as she barely covered anything and her outfit was very revealing, something somewhere had to have a wound or at least a bruise... Or a scratch. At least a fucking scratch.

No, we got absolutely none of those things and it made me feel like the author of the book thought no one would actually pick up on the fact that she was feeding us bullshit? Pure raw bullshit.

If there's one thing I hate about a book is when they take the reader for an idiot. I can look past bad characters, or bad writing, but I don't like it when a book takes me for an idiot.

Now it's time to talk about the dreaded ending of this book, which is actually really bad.

So, I don't know who thought this ending was actually good for this book, but it actually isn't. It's actually very mediocre, but I guess we can say that for the rest of the book, which isn't actually stellar. Proof is, I've talked about it for like 6k words now, and there's still things to say, and issues to talk about because it just never ends. It never ends, it just gets worse and worse and worse.

Like, After can't compare. Compared to this trainwreck, Anna Todd's book is actually a very good book. If we use A Piece Of Heaven as a basis for comparison for books. After wins by a longshot. That's how bad this book is.

So around the end, we discover that the stalkers are Mark and Spencer, partly because Spencer comes clean and because Amber's boyfriend managed to trace the account to a computer, which was Spencer's. I can't bring myself to believe that it's Spencer and Mark behind everything, mostly because there's not more idiotic than them, but fine, I guess, we roll with it.

So, Spencer and Mark are stepbrothers, and they threaten Heaven, telling her that if she does anything, they'll ruin her mum's life and hers subsequently. Which, finally we have a real consequence to something. So, this leads to them devising a plan...

They need Justin's help for this, which brings me to this bit:

I don't think Justin had anything to redeem himself for, or that he needed to apoligise for anything other than breaking her trust. I'll hand her that, he shouldn't have went behind her back.

But Justin helps them with the stellar plan: call out Spencer in front of everyone at the dance... because that's smart.

Even, I think the author thought that this was actually a smart plan, when it clearly was a bad one. Anyway, thank goodness this plan actually fails drastically, and whar ends up happening is Spencer almost assaulting Heaven outside because she just had to see her boyfriends... yeah okay.

And then Amber's boyfriend got all that and his confession on tape and now they use it against him, because they actually have proof. And if it wasn't for the almost assualted again part of this, this was actually a smart plan, but thing is, they never came up with it because none of them has more than two braincells.

This leads to Heaven being crowned Princess of the dance and the boys being the princes, to which she says: “Just call us the Allendale Five." As if Allendale Four wasn't already cringey enough.

And then this leads to Heaven making a big speech about how she's gone through a lot, when she literally had the choice not to go through it. And how everyone should be who they are, because Justin is gay now... And a big thing about acceptance and about slut-shaming and how she loves all four boys at the same time and how it's okay...

This was actually cringey, mostly because SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR HER TO DESERVE THE MONOLOGUE. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

What I hate about this, is basically how the mother has an epiphany and just accepts the polyamorous relationship, accepts that her daughter was right, when she clearly wasn't, and everything just gets thrown out the window... Like why?

They don't address her mental health, they don't address everything that could've been problematic. Her speech could've been summed up in: “I was right and you were wrong so eat shit losers.”

I think for the amount of shit we went through reading this book, we deserved a decent ending and not whatever we got.

In conclusion, I'm not sorry for spoiling this book, just save yourself the time and don't actually try picking it up, there are much better books you can read like Duty by Bethany Kris, I'll be talking about it later, and it's actually a very good book that isn't an absolute waste of time.

This book did many things wrong. A lot of them, and I don't think that people actually realised that, because it's very disturbing to read this, and getting through it is genuinely a chore because the author did such a poor job when it came to it.

There's a lot of problematic concepts and things that weren't handled correctly. Basically just a lack of finesse when it comes to the book. Everything is just rushed to get the romance and the reverse harem in there even when it makes absolutely no sense to have one in the book.

The characters are just horrible, manipulative pieces of shit that have a serious "holier than thou" complex that no one wants to acknowledge and when finally this book could've gone in a good direction, it actually didn't. There were no consequences to Heaven's actions in general, and even if there were, it didn't last long enough.

The ending is rushed, and is made out to be interesting when it's not.

In general, if you can avoid this book, please do. You need your sanity to get through quarantine and this book basically rids you of that sanity. So please, just dont read it. There's no reason this book should've been published and there's no reason you should be reading it if you love yourself.

But, I digress.