Shehnaaz

I said it, I finally said it. I don't believe it. Honestly, I haven't planned anything. Confessing was not even on my mind for a second but it just happened. When I said it for the first time, he was not expecting so he didn't realize that I said it and when he asked again, I was again in thinking mode to repeat or not but I instantly shut my brain and decided to go with it. Whatever I said was directly from my heart. I said whatever I felt. Right now we are in the bed hugging each other close. He hasn't said a word since then, just kissed me. I can understand this all is too overwhelming. But I said it, I told him how much I love him. I...This feeling is so surreal. I hugged him tighter thinking this.

"You know, I still can't believe my ears. You actually said that you love me." He whispered breaking the silence and hugged me tighter.

"I too can't believe I said it," I said giggling. I got up a little and climbed over him partially, keeping my hands and chin on his chest.

"This feels good and light," I whispered looking at him.

"I know, I feel it too. Accha vaise who is Maria and John? You said their names earlier. And where did you went yesterday?" He asked sitting up such that he had his back supported to the headrest. I laid down keeping my head in his lap.

"Maria aunty and John uncle, they own a cafe Maria de'cafe and yesterday I went there only. That is my happy-to-go place, my I am confused place, my I want to cry place, in short, my peace. When initially I started to take therapies, I needed money as nobody knew I couldn't take it from anyone else. So after college, I used to go there and work part-time. They used to pay me a hundred rupees daily whenever I went to work. I was like a daily wage worker there. But more than a worker, they treated me like their daughter. Yesterday also John uncle made me understood that I need to show if I can't say." I told him remembering the good and sweet moments I spent with them.

"Yeah, I remember Dr. Shikha told me something about this cafe, that how you managed her fees. I am so proud of you baby. You are so strong." He cooed and kissed my forehead. I smiled looking at him.

"If I knew earlier that being in love with someone feels like this, I would not have taken so long. I was so stupid." I said chuckling.

"Yes, that you were. By the way are you now not worried or afraid about you know..." He asked.

"Um...I am, honestly but I don't want to ruin my now time thinking about what would happen in the future. Vaise bhi agar tune mujhse door jane ki baat ki to mai tujhe kidnap karva ke apne pas rakh lungi. I am not letting g you go, not now, not ever." I said and it's true. He is everything to me now.

"Okay..." He chuckled and again pecked my forehead and then my lips. I just smiled. Sahi kehete hai log, kuch logo ke sath samaye bitane se hi sab theek ho jata hai.

"Oh I forgot to tell you, mom, dad, and Sanvi are coming tomorrow. They said they wanted to talk about something important." He said.

"Hmm..." I said pulling him down to lay down beside me. I am tired today. Cajole him is tougher than running a hundred miles, so now all I want is to sleep.

"Vaise I want to know how come you managed to do all the things you did in office. I am pretty sure that you haven't told anyone about us." He said closing his eyes. I know he is also tired.

"Yes, I didn't, and right now sleep. I am too tired to talk more. Good night love." I said smiling. I can feel this positive change in me.

"I like the sound of that. Say it again." He said, also smiling.

"What? I am too tired to talk..." I teased suppressing my laugh.

"No, what you said after that." He said impatiently.

"Good night?" I teased pressing my lips to prevent myself from laughing.

"Noo, what you called me?" He whined making me chuckle. He is such a baby sometimes.

" I said good night mi amor." I whispered looking up at him.

"Mi what..?" He asked confused.

"Mi amor, my love in Spanish," I tell him smiling at him. A smile broke through his lips too. I had an urge to kiss him, so I did.

We kissed slowly, lovingly, soothingly portraying all our love in that kiss. After that, we both slept hugging each other.

*

It's Saturday morning. I love the weekend because I get to spend the entire day with him but today is more special because I'll get to spend time with his family, which is mine now too. So I am super happy. Right now I am preparing for lunch of course with the staff, I don't know how to cook. I want everything to be perfect.

"This is giving me wifey vibes." He said hugging me from behind. I blushed hearing that. I too felt like that.

"Hayee tera ye sharmana." He sang making me go red even more.

"Any idea, what is the important thing they want to talk about?" I asked changing the topic.

"Trying to change the topic, are we. Anyways, no I have no idea." He said leaving me and stood beside me having his back supported with the kitchen slab.

"When will they reach?" I asked glaring at him as his hands found their way to the dry fruits I was cutting for the sweet. He is like a naughty child.

"In another couple of hours, I guess." He answered still eyeing the dry fruits. I shook my head at him and passed the box of dry fruits to him. He grinned like an excited child making me chuckle. He is such a baby.

"I love you," I said kissing him on his cheek.

"Ilobeyuto," he said with his mouth full. I shook my head at him.

Maa, papa, and Sanvi came a couple of hours later. It's always fun with them. We all greeted each other. Sanvi was different today. Apart from the excitement she had to know what happened between me and Sidharth, she was a little shy too and nervous also, I guess. But why?

"Are we missing something Sanvi? You seem different." I asked her. She blushed and looked down. Now I am definitely sure it's related to love.

"Oh my! You are in love." I shouted making everyone look at me. Sanvi looked at me with wide eyes and red cheeks. Sidharth looked so shocked and...Angry? Why angry? Maa and papa were looking at me amused. I looked down embarrassed.

"What is she saying Sanvi? Who is the boy? When did all this start and you hid this from us? I want to meet him, today only. Do you understand? And what does he do and what about his family? And why do you have a boyfriend even? Is this the age to have one?" He asked a series of questions making us look at him like he is an alien. Age, really? Doesn't he know my age? I am even younger than her.

"Oye KBC ke Amitab Bachchan, dheere dheere." Papa taunted him making all of us chuckle.

"Haan aur vahi baat karne aye hai hum yahan. Actually, Sanvi wants to get married." Maa said taking us in shock.

"What...?" We both shouted together. Of course, she is still young. She just completed her graduation.

"Haan bhai vo..." Sidharth interrupted her in between.

"What vo? Tu pagal ho gayi hai kya baccha? You are just 23. You still have your MBA to do and then a job. You have your whole life ahead. Shadi vagera khel thodi hai. First, form a career and then think about marriage, Understood?" He said and left from there. Maa and papa went behind him. I decided to first console and talk to Sanvi.

"Sanu tu baat kar na please. Unhone to meri baat bhi nhi suni. Pehele hi mom dad doubtful the, ab to vo bhi nhi manenge." She said sobbing. She is really in love but I agree with Sidharth too. She has a life to go.

"I...I understand Sanvi but he is also not wrong. What if you regret your decision? What if he is not the one for you? Jaldbazi mein lie gaye faisle kayi baar galat hote hai. Marriage is not a joke right. Are you...Are you seriously ready to take that responsibility? What about your dreams?" I tried to make her understand.

"Nahi Sanu I know that he is the one for me. I know him Sanu, please talk to them na." She cried.

"Accha accha, first stop crying. Tell me one thing, if you are so sure about him then why are you in such a hurry? Wait for another two years, complete your masters, get a good job, or if you want to work with your brother and then get married." I said hoping now she would understand.

"No Sanu, he is going to London in three months. Unhone apna business setup kiya hai vahan. He wants to settle down there only. He proposed to me a week back. Hum ek dusre se alag nhi rehena chahte. And we are together for the past five years Sanu, don't you think that I would know him. He is a very good man Sanu. Even his family is, I have met them all. He is mature and sensible. He is four years older than me. He knows about the world better than I do. Please Sanu," She said now much calmer. I sighed listening to her. Five years means since she was 19. This can be an amateur love, teenage love.

"Please bhabhs baat karo na bhai se. Please Sanu." She requested. I am confused, whether to support her or not.

"Okay, I can't promise but I will try to talk to him. You know your brother. He is very stubborn." I said sighing.

After that we all had lunch and this topic was kept aside. Sanvi was quiet, we tried to get her in the conversation but she just smiled or answered in one word. After lunch maa and papa went to take some rest. They were tired of the journey. Sanvi went to her room. Now only we both were left. I am still thinking about how to talk to him.

"Sidharth I..." He interrupted me in middle and got up.

"If you want to talk about Sanvi and her stupid demand then I don't want to." He said and went to the room upstairs. Sighing I went upstairs too. Well, I have a plan (evil smirk).

I went to the room and started to pack my stuff, ignoring his confused gaze.

"Wh...What are you doing?" He asked totally confused.

"Packing..." I replied curtly.

"But why? Where are you going?" He asked a little panicked I guess.

"Because it's not right that I stay here with you. In fact, this relationship is also not right. We shouldn't have started this at all. I understood this today, it's better that you understand this as well." I said still packing.

"What? What the fuck are you talking about? Yesterday only you said you love me aur ajj yeh...What happened baby? Did I do something or did someone else said something to you? Please tell me. We'll figure it out I promise." He said holding my hands to stop me from packing.

"Aisa nhi hai, in fact, ajj to mujhe realise hua ki I should not be in a relationship at all," I said pressing on at all.

"Shehnaaz, kya hua hai baby kuch bol na. Tu aisa kyun bol rahi hai. Thore time pehele tak to sab theek tha. Achanak se kya hua." He requested me to say.

"Achanak se yeh hua ki mujhe realize hua that I am too young to be in a relationship," I said thinking this might click something in his head.

"What? Yeh...Yeh achanak se matlab...I don't understand." He said all confused. He is so dumb sometimes. I hit his head annoyed.

"Accha abhi jo neeche kaha vo itni jaldi bhool gaya ya vo sirf teri behen pe apply hota hai." I asked raising my eyebrows.

"Kya kaha?" He asked trying to remember what he said, ughhh...Dumbo.

"Why do have a boyfriend even? Is this the age to have one? Didn't you ask this to Sanvi, when she told you about her is having a boyfriend?" I asked raising my eyebrows.

"So, she is young to have a boyfriend. She is my baby sister." He said in defense. Seriously, he has this in his defense.

"Firstly, your baby sister is no more a baby. Secondly, she is not that young and 23 is a normal age in India for marriage and thirdly, I am 21 and two years younger than her. According to your logic, I am doing a mistake being in this relationship. So we should break up." I said angrily because I am angry because of his stupid logic.

"No no no, please, please. Listen to me, um...I...No you...You are right. Um..." He stammered. Of course, he doesn't have anything to say in defense of his stupid logic.

"Rehenede you don't have anything to say. Listen, I understand where you coming from. It's okay to be protective of your sister. But you can't control her life right. Look I am not telling you to blindly accept her wishes but at least talk to her, try to understand her. See, from whatever she told me, I can sense that they both are pretty sure about each other. She loves her Sidharth. At least talk to her, let her know that you are with her. You know...the worst problem with my family was that they tried to control me and gave it the name of protectiveness and when things didn't happen according to them, everything fell apart. So please, protect her by being with her, by guiding her, don't order her." I tried to make him understand.

"But...But what if this is a mistake? What if this boy is not good for her? What if they get married and after that didn't get happy? What if he breaks my sister's heart?" He asked. All this is his protectiveness. He is such an amazing brother.

"But what if this is not a mistake? What if the boy is best for her? What if this marriage brings only happiness in their life? What if this is the best decision of your sister's life? We gotta think both ways. Every good thing comes with certain negativities. What we have to do is to hold the positive side and walk through. Tell me one thing, how sure are you that if she waits for another few years, completes her master's and finds a good job, and then gets married, she'll be happy. You can't predict the future Sidharth. You have to go with the flow." I made him understand and by the look on his face, I know he did understand.

"I'll talk to her at night." He said smiling.

"Good," I said pecking his lips and got back to my packing.

"Why are you packing now? This is over right? You made your point and I agreed? What's the problem now?" He asked annoyed.

"Nothing, but I don't wanna stay here anymore. I am going back to my house." I said taking him in shock.

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