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Shehnaaz

I have no idea what's going on in his mind. In the morning when he went for the meeting I had thought of every possible way to cajole him but I didn't find any, so the only option left is google baba and I swear, google gives even the worst ideas. Kaise overly sweet and cheesy ideas the google pe. But anyway I didn't have any option so I tried a few but I got no positive result.

Well, Google said to be sweet, polite, and romantic. It didn't said you to warn him to forgive you. And anyway who the hell sends a warning cum demand to forgive through a doll. This is my ever so witty conscience.

Okay, fine, I too wanted to be sweet but main itna kuch kar rahi thi aur vo, bhao tak nhi diya. Mujhe gussa aa gaya to kya karu. I was sulking because of another failure when my phone rang. It's Sanvi.

"Main na bata rahi hoon, main tere bhai ko jaan se maar dalungi. Itna bhao kon khata hai." I whined. Okay, I forgot to tell you guys, I took Sanvi's help to send him balloons.

Well, of course, you can't even say I love you to the person you love, dunia ko batana to bohot door ki baat hai. Here comes my conscience.

Just shut up...

"Matlab nahi maane bhai? Accha batao kya kya try kar lia abhi tak." She asked and. I narrated each and everything. She burst laughing when I told her about my outburst through the doll.

"Yar sachme app na one and only piece ho bhabhs. I mean who does that..." I twisted my lips on her mocking.

"Yaar...Kya karu main. Tera bhai itna ziddi kyun hai? Ab ho gayi galti, hoon main bevakuf, ab aur kya karu? Bat karke solve karna tha but vo bat karne to razi hoo." I cribbed. I swear mujhe nhi laga tha yeh itna ziddi hoga. Ab to naraz karne se pehele das bar sochna padega.

"Accha ek kam karo, ek baar direct jakar bat karke dekho. Lunch time mein chale jana. Ho sakta hai sakt launda kuch pighal gaya ho." She adviced.

"Theek hai, ye bhi try kar leti hoon. But I don't think it will work and more importantly, I don't want to create any scene in the office. Already itna kuch hua subha se ki sab tarah tarah ki gossips kar rahe hai." I said

"Hmm, I can understand," she said and hung up the call.  It's still half an hour for lunch, till then I should prepare myself. Vaise bhi ajj mere pass koi kaam nhi hai. Mrs. Briganza mere lie proxy jo kar rahi hai. Anyways, lagja kaam pe beta nhi to iska mooh phoola hi rahega.

After half an hour I went to his cabin with the tiffin. I locked the door after keeping it on the table. He gave me a WHAT-ARE-YOU-UP TO-NOW look, but I royally ignored it and sat on the couch, serving a plate for him. After finishing I looked at him and he has buried himself in the laptop as if I didn't know that his whole attention was on me. I sighed and took the plate to him. Ab yeh mahashay to uthne ka kasht karenge nhi.

I closed his laptop and kept it aside. He opened his mouth to protest but closed it immediately as I gave him a NOT-EVEN-A-WORD look. I slightly pushed his chair behind and sat at the table directly in front of him, having his plate in my hand now.

"Have your lunch," I said forwarding the plate.

"Mujhe nhi..."

"Not even a word now Mr. Khane ke mamle mein koi bhi nakhre nahi. Ladai badme kar lio mujhse. Abhi chup chap kha nhi to jabardasti muh mein thoos dungi." I warned cutting him in between and making a bite.

"Are aise kaise..." I silenced him by shoving the bite in his mouth. After that, I didn't let him say a word till his plate is empty. After finishing the food I got down from the table and went to wash my hands. After that, I packed the tiffin back and took the plate, and was about to leave when his voice stopped me.

"Your lunch?" He asked.

"Mujhe bhook nhi hai." I said and turned again to leave but he stopped me again.

"Abhi tune hi kaha, khane ke mamle mein koi nakhre nahi. Gussa khane pe mat nikal." He said.

"Main aisa kuch nhi kar rahi. Mujhe sachme bhook nhi. Abhi thori der pehele hi khaya hai. Vaise bhi uske alawa ajj kam hi kya hai mere pas." I murmured the last line to myself but I guess he heard as his expressions changed to confusion.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Vo kya hai na, mera jo boss hai vo bohot khadus hai aur problem yeh hai ki vo hi mera boyfriend bhi hai. Ab aisa hai ki mera boyfriend mujhe naraz hai. Gussa to jaise nak pe reheta hai uske. Jab dekho volcano jaise phoot jata hai. Anyways main kehe rahi thi ki, ab jo mera boyfriend hai vo mujhse naraz hai, vo mujhse baat nahi kar raha to uske sath sath mera jo boss hai vo aur bhi akdu aur khadoos ban gaya hai. Subha se ek kam tak nhi diya hai. Sara kaam to bechari Mrs. Briganza se karva raha hai. Vo bechari ek emplyoee ki salary mein do do ka kaam kar rahi hai. Gusse mein na mere boyfriend cum boss ka bheja fry ho jata hai. Girlfriend pe to baat na karke atyachar kar hi raha hai but secretary ko poora din khali, macchar marne ke lie baitha kar uspe bhi torture aur to aur vo bechari Mrs. Briganza, khuch kheti nhi to unpe bhi atyachar. Ghor kalyug hai. Yeh to kuch bhi nhi hai, matlab auro ki girlfriend galti karke sorry bhi nhi bolti aur main yahan phool, patti, gudde, gudia sab se dia, balloons bhi diye par nahi bhao to aise khane hai jaise maine kisika murder kar dia ho. Aur fir mujhe bolta hai lunch karlo. Subha se do samose, chaar cup coffee, ek burger kha chuki hoon. Neend bhagane ke lie google pe jitni information hai apne boyfriend ho kaise manae, sab chan mar chuki hoon. Main na bata rahi hoon kasam se agar mera ek kilo vajan bhi bada hoga na to maine murder kar dena hai tera." I ranted and stormed out of the cabin, leaving him shocked.

Reaching my cubicle, I took deep breaths to calm myself down, and as soon as I calmed down, I realized what blunder I had done.

Manane gayi thi, baat ko suljhane, jhasi ki rani banke ladne nahi. Kya kiya yaar Sana. I facepalmed myself. Ab pata nhi kya hoga.

Sidharth

What was that? I am confused, shocked? I don't know. Pehele to mujhe laga that she is being sarcastic, then I thought she is frustrated of sitting idle and okay, actually I didn't let her do any work today. All the files and presentation work was given to Mrs. Briganza. Then I felt that she was worried about her weight but now I am totally confused. But before I go and clear the things with her, the break got over and now I have a meeting that might last for another couple of hours.

For the rest of the day, we didn't get a chance to talk. Now I was also waiting to talk to her. Maan to main kafi pehele hi gaya tha but I still wanted her to make more efforts. It's good to have someone's sole attention towards you.

It's seven and I raped up my work for today. It's enough for the day. Now I want some good food and hugs and kisses and good cuddling. Now I want everything to be back to normal. I went out of my cabin to look for her but she wasn't there. I asked Mrs. Briganza about her but she said that she had already left.

Why did she leave without me? Is she angry now? I went to the parking lot trying to call her but she didn't pick up. Don't tell me she is again going to do what she did yesterday. Sighing I drove out of the building but stopped as I saw her standing at the corner of the road. I drove towards her and blew the horn to gain her attention and she did look at me.

"Get in the car," I said gesturing her to sit. She looked at me for some moments and then sat down.

"Jab roz sath jate hai to ajj kya problem thi?" I asked her. I know I have decided to end this but I want her to talk this out this time si I still acted distanced.

"I thought you wouldn't want to go with me, so I decided to go by taxi." She said and looked away. The rest of the drive was silent. I didn't know what was going on in her mind and I was keeping quiet because I wanted her to talk. Anyways if she doesn't, then I'll do that at night before sleeping.

We reached home, still silent. Got freshened up and had dinner in silence. I had few calls to make before going to sleep so I decided to get done with that. I went to the balcony of the room to do so. After doing the calls I went inside as I wanted to talk but she was in the shower I guess. I can hear the water running. So I went back to the balcony and sat there with the laptop in my hand. My work has increased a lot nowadays. After some time she came out and settled beside me on the couch. I was in the middle of checking a presentation so I decided to talk once this is done. But I think she was in the mood to talk or cajole me I guess because she looked, no stared at my face for some time, and then started to poke my cheek.

"Kya hai Shehnaaz?" I asked getting irritated by her poking.

"Tera face phool gaya hai, ekdum balloon jaise." She said with the utmost innocence. I looked at her with an irritated expression on my face. She, again and again, poked me as I didn't reply.

"Kya hai...?" I asked closing my laptop as I know she isn't in the mood to let me work.

"Gussa hai?" She asked. Yeh ladki poori tarah se pagal ho gayi hai.

"Meri shakal dekhke nhi pata chal raha ki gussa hoon ki nahi." I hissed at her stupid question.

"Haan to tujhe nahi dikh raha kabse manane ki koshish kar rahi hoon." She whined but I looked away. I know, I know I decided to end this but kya karu yeh itni cute lag rahi hai manate hue. But when I didn't reply, she again started to poke my cheek.

"Kya hai? Kyun irritate kar rahi hai?" I asked acting annoyed but the truth is I am loving all this ruthna manana.

"Is phoole hue gubbare ko phodne ki koshish taki tera sara gussa phusss..Karke udd jaye." She said and made a cute puppy face.

"Yeh zada cute banne ki jaroorat nahi hai, samajh aya. I...I don't like you." I said and looked away.

"But I love you." She whispered coming close to my face.

"Yeah whatever..." I said but wait a second did she just said that she loved me?

"Ek second, what did you just say...?" I asked turning towards her.

"What..?" She asked acting innocent.

"Don't act okay. Repeat what you said." I demanded to which she chuckled. She got up and moved towards the railing and stood facing her back towards me.

"When I came to you this morning, I have had this decided that I will be clear with you, about my fears and insecurities. I wanted to tell you all what was in my mind because my mind was winning over my heart and making me do such stupid things of running away..." She turned back and faced me and continued. I didn't interrupt as I knew she was opening up like I always wanted.

"I wanted this power of controlling me to be taken away by my mind so I decided to let you have that power. Aisa nahi hai ki ajj se pehele nhi thi, your words had always soothed me but somehow my mind always had an upper hand. Therefore I wanted to tell you everything that my mind says so that you can put some sense in me...." She wasn't looking at me. It looked as if she was in a daze, just speaking her heart out like I always wanted.

"I...I didn't like seeing you all restless and insecure. But yeah jealous, you are hot. I have noticed it quite a few times..." She chuckled looking at me. I looked away embarrassed but looked at her again as she sighed and started to speak again.

"I have always had this fear in me that you will leave me when you know, my past will come out, and then I will be all broken. So I didn't want you to know what I felt about you, thinking that if I didn't tell you then I would have myself and my feelings in control. But today I realized that I have already lost this control. It won't make a difference whether you leave before me confessing or after. I would be shattered. This...This is a new life for me Sidharth. I have got everything. I have found my family in yours, your two best friends are like big brothers to me, I have two very very special people in my life, Maria aunty and John uncle, I have my best friend, Anushka who is with me every thick and thin and most importantly, you. I...I needed support to lean on because I was too broken to rise again and you gave me that. I can't thank you enough...."

"You don't have to th..." She cut me in between.

"Please let me finish..." She said and I nodded indicating her to go on.

"I don't have that strength in me to tell you about my past by myself. And trust me it's not that I don't trust or something like that. It's just too much to even remember that. I am still afraid of getting there again. If anytime my past will come out, then it will be because of the situation. I won't be able to tell you things without breaking down...again. and I am not ready for that. Ajj jab subha baat karne ayi thi to man banake ayi thi ki jab tak sach na bata du, feelings ke bare mein nhi bataungi but I will show you, make you feel how important and special you are by my actions. But now I have realized that I am too deep into this. I don't want to ruin things thinking about the future anymore..." She closed her eyes and sighed deeply. I had tears in my eyes at this point in time.

"So Mr. Sidharth Shukla, here I am standing in front of you with my everything. I wanna you to know that you are the most most most precious and important and special person in my life. And I want you to know that,

"Whatever happens tomorrow, or for the rest of my life, I am happy now. You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love you, I love you so so much. I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you. I love you the way a drowning man loves air. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on. I..." I got up and kissed before she could say more. I pulled her the closest to me, to not even let the air pass through.

I am so overwhelmed right now. I don't know what to say. I am so numb with the emotions rushing through me.

She loves me and she said that.

It all was so perfect.

She is so perfect.

We are so perfect.

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