Shehnaaz

I blinked my eyes open slowly and looked around. Where am I? Okay, yeah I am at Sidharth's place. I looked through the window, it's still dark and then I looked at the wall clock, it's half past midnight. Wonder, a late riser like me got up in the middle of the night when my stomach grumbled. Okay, I am hungry that's why. Sighing I tried to move but I can't. Something's holding me, I looked down towards my waist and then looked up. I am half lying on Sidharth with his arms around me and man, his grip is damn too tight, and it became tighter as I tried to move like I'll run away if he loosens his grip. Sighing, I stopped trying and looked up at him. He is sleeping with a slightly open mouth and is looking so adorable. I moved my hand towards his face and caressed his face with my thumb. He is no doubt the most handsome man I have ever met. And he is also a good-hearted, gentle, humble, caring, smart, intelligent...Okay, every adjective fits him. I moved my hand below his chin and closed his slightly open mouth. He again opened his mouth. I did it, again and again, he opened it. I giggled at how cute he is.

He shifted a little and slowly opened his eyes. My giggles woke him up I guess.

"Hi beautiful," he said in his sexy deep sleepy voice that did something to me. I felt butterflies in my stomach. He craned his neck a little and pecked my lips.

Okay, this is a new feeling and a good feeling. I won't mind mornings like this.

"Kahan khoi hai baby?" He asked moving a little so that we are lying side to side, facing each other, with his arms still wrapped around me.

I shook my head indicating nowhere. I am still getting over this jittery feeling I got because of his husky sleepy voice.

My stomach grumbled again and I hid my face in his chest in embarrassment. It must be the third time this happened. I can feel his gaze at me and then he let out a chuckle.

"Bhook lagi hai mere baby ko," he said so softly and lovingly that I can't help but blush. Blushing I nodded my head in yes.

"Umm...Okay, I'll make khichdi quickly." He said but I pouted.

"What?" He asked confused with my expressions.

"Khichdi nahi khani." I said pouting.

"To aur kya khana hai madam apko?" He raised his brows.

"Noddles..." I said sitting up and dreamily, licking my lips.

"Noodles...Seriously, do you realize that we ate all the unhealthy food throughout the day and you want noodles?" He hissed as soon as I spoke. I pouted at him. I know what he is saying is right but I still want noodles. Khichdi kon khata hai yaar.

"You need to take care of your health. I am making khichdi and no arguments in that." He said with finality but I frowned. Ek din kya hi ho jayega yaar.

"Apne lie bana le, mujhe bhook nahi hai." I said laying back on the bed and covered myself with the quilt Turing away from him.

Okay, I know I might be a little unreasonable but I want noodles.

I felt some movent in the bed. Umm, I think now he is going to cajole me. I waited but no, why isn't he trying to cajole me. I turned to look at him and what the hell!

Chala gaya, like literally. Chala gaya, manaya bhi nahi. Khichdi khane ke lie hi sahi manana to chahiye tha na.

I sat back there wondering what to do. I know he is right but I want noodles. But he was so stern when he said I am making khichdi, no arguments and by the smell coming from the kitchen, I know he is making khichdi only.

But why am I being so cranky? Noddle's ki hi to bat hai, vo to main kabhi bhi kha sakti hoon. But meko abhi chahiye, and with this, my eyes welled up. What the hell is happening to my mood?

One second...What's the date today....shit! I think I am on my period. How come I haven't realized it when I woke up. No doubt I was craving delicious food the whole day and was being a little irritated and cranky. I was PMSing and now I am down.

I stood up to go to the washroom but a sudden pain occurred in my lower tummy. Damn, these cramps. I sat back on the bed holding my stomach, my eyes moist.

After few minutes he came back to the room with the tray in his hand. He placed it in front of me and looked at me with a stern expression, lips formed in a line and eyes serious. I looked at the khichdi and then at him with moist eyes and his expressions changed suddenly.

"Shehnaaz, ro kyun rahi hai meri jaan. Main to teri health ke lie hi bol raha hoon na. Accha kal pakka I'll cook noodles for you. Abhi yeh khale, please. Noodles khake sona is not good na meri jaan." He said cupping my face. I closed my eyes tight so a lone tear made its way down my cheek as another cramp occurred in my lower abdomen.

Pehele to antidepressants used to work to decrease the cramps, abhi kya hua. Shit man, how can I forget dr. Shikha changed the pills this time. These pills are not effective and I being addicted to pills, feeling more pain.

Sighing deeply I wiped my tears and looked at him. He was looking at me with concerned and confused expressions. I smiled weakly at him.

"I am fine and you are right. I was just being irrational. I'll just come using the washroom, till then you start." I said going to the washroom. I need some time to come to terms with this pain because there's nothing I can do and also with this crankiness and mood swings.

Sidharth

Though she tried to sound convincing I know she was far from okay, even her smile was a forced one. But why was she crying? It could certainly be not because I denied to cook her noodles. In fact her behavior today the entire time was different. She was sometimes annoyed, sometimes blushing and shying and all and for food, it felt like she was craving for food. she was having mood swings I guess...Wait a minute...Oh damn...Obviously, it's her time of the month. How come I didn't get it before.

I know at this time women become moody and love to eat their favorite food. My sister shouts at everyone when it's her time of the month. My mom, she used to give her hot pad...Yeah and sweets, she eats chocolates and other chocolatey things.

I hope this would work for Shehnaaz also to reduce pain. I got back to the kitchen but there were no chocolates or anything like that there. I ordered one of my staff to get all the required things. I went back to the room with the heat pad and put it to charge. I was about to go back to the kitchen to make her some noodles as she wanted that when she came out of the washroom.

Her eyes were little red and a little swollen and I know she cried in there. She was holding her stomach and went back to bed.

"Sidharth, what are you doing there? Come here and why haven't you started to eat yet. I told you to start." She said in a hoarse voice, obviously because of crying and pain.

"Yeah, I was just about to go to the kitchen...To cook some noodles for you. You don't have to eat this khichdi." I said and went towards the bed to pick up the tray. She looked at me with furrowed eyes, obviously, she would be confused by my sudden change in behavior.

"But maine kahan na it's okay. I'll have noodles some other time. This is good for now. Come and sit here." She said. Her voice was low and weak. She was pressing her stomach continuously, she was too much in pain. But still, she was smiling. Sometimes this girl amazes me. The kind of strength she has. As much I know her, I know that the thing she has still hidden from me is something really big. But she stood up like a stone in front of every problem of her. Now I want her all happy and back to life.

"Sidharth...Where are you lost? Come on, I am hungry." She whined when I made no move. I went towards the charge point, where I kept the heat pad. I took and move towards here.

"Here, keep this on your lower abdomen. You feel good in sometimes. It will reduce some pain." I said giving her the pad, no actually I almost kept it there, she just adjusted it, looking at me stunned. I covered her with the duvet and sat in front of her.

"I will make some herbal tea for you. It's anti-inflammatory. It will help reduce the pain. And about this, you wanted to have noodles right, then I'll get you noodles. Just tell me there's anything else you need." I said caressing her cheek with my thumb as I have cupped her face. After finishing I kissed her forehead. She looked at me almost shocked.

"What...How...I mean..." She stammered making me chuckle.

"I know you are down and that's the main cause of your mood swings and craving tongue. I have a mother and a sister and I have grown up seeing them. In fact, they openly talk about it. My family is open-minded and modern people. So I know almost everything about it." I told her to caress her hair. She looked down making me frown. Is she embarrassed...About this, something that is pure nature and she has nothing to do with it.

"Hey, what happened?" I asked cupping her face and made her look at me. Her eyes were red with tears in them. Her tears always break my heart.

"Nothing..." She whispered sniffling.

"Okay, I'll just come." I was about to get up but she held my hand and made me sit on the bed again.

"This is okay. I don't need noddles." She said softly and took the plate of khichdi and held a spoon full of khichdi in front of me to eat. I was about to take the bite but she pulled it back and ate it giggling.

Hmmm...She looks so pretty when laughing and giggling.

We did our late dinner like this only. Sometimes laughing, sometimes talking nonsense, and sometimes with her naughtiness. But whatever she does, I love to see her like this, lively and happy. Please god always keep her happy like this only.

Later, after freshening up we both layed on the bed, snuggling in each other such that her back is in touch with my front and my one arm is under her head and the other on her lower abdomen pressing it a little in a circular motion. I have heard, it helps reduce pain. And seeing how her breath is a little fast and her body is a little stiff, I know my touch is affecting her.

"Tell me if you are uncomfortable, I'll stop my movements. I just wanted to help not make you uncomfortable." I whispered close to her ears.

"No, I am okay." She whispered back.

"Then why your breathing is fast and body stiff...Relax." I stopped my movements over her abdomen but rubbed her hand up and down to make her comfortable with my touch. She relaxed a bit taking a deep breath.

"It's... it's just that nobody has ever done this for me before. I am a little overwhelmed." She whispered so lowly but was enough for me to hear. Her sadness and pain were reflected in her voice.

"Abhi to main hoon na karne ke lie and I promise main hamesha rahunga. Accha yeh bata what you like to eat the most during this time and also what mood swings you get...As in do you get irritated early, like that? I just wanna make sure I'll not do any such things that you don't like. I wanna pamper you." I said. I just hope this diverts her mind.

"Nothing..." She said but her voice is the horse as if she is about to cry. Wait, she is crying. I can hear her sniffles.

"Shehnaaz, baby kya hua? Kyun ro rahi hai, bol na." I asked concerned. I tried to make her look at me but she didn't.

"Aise hi reh please." She requested and now she is completely sobbing.

"Kya hua bola na, please." I requested again. I just can't see her like this. She took a deep breath and wiped her tears.

"Pehele mujhe itna dard nahi hota tha but stress ki wajah se hormones pe bohot affect padta hai aur ghar ka environment almost aisa reheta tha ki stress permanent sa ho gaya tha. Dhere dhere pain cramps mein change ho gaya."

"Shuruwat mein bolti thi main Mrs. Gill ko ki pain ho raha hai but vo bas yehi bolti thi ki pain killer le le, isse zada kuch nahi kar sakte. Heat pad and all, sab kuch kudh hi net pe se search mar kar karti thi. Kabhi zada dard karta tha aur bed se uthne ka man nahi karta tha aur kuch chahiye hota tha to unhe bolti thi, to vo yeh bolte the ki khud lele bed pe hi to padi hui hai. Sirf periods hi nahi, agar bukhar vagera bhi hai to maximum kam mujhe khud hi karna padta tha."

"Aur rahi bat cravings ki to, pata nahi. Vahan bolti to poori hoti nahi, isiliye cravings ho ya fir mood swings bhi, sab apne andar hi rakhti thi. Ab to adat ho gayi hai. Pain antidepressants ki vajah se nahi fell hota tha, especially last one jo thi but ab tablets change kar di dr. Shikha na aur yeh vali itni effective nahi hai so zada ho raha hai." She was completely crying as she finished telling me about her past. She didn't let me turn her so I hugged her tightly. My heart is aching right now. My mother, in fact, my father also pamper my sister so much during these days but she. She has never got this pampering.

Her cries stopped after some time. She turned around and looked at me. Her eyes were puffed, nose and cheeks were red. She cupped my face and wiped the unshed tears from the corner of my eyes. She smiled a little and pecked my lips multiple times. I just closed my eyes and was feeling this amazing feeling of her being so close to me and showering her love through these kisses. Though she had not yet confessed verbally, of course, it's just two days since we have been together, but I know and I can feel her love through her actions.

She moved back after few minutes. I opened my eyes to look at her. Tears are still there in her eyes.

"Don't cry, I don't like tears in your eyes," I said wiping her tears. I kissed both her eyes and smiled at her. She also returned me a small smile.

"Thank you so much, Sidharth, for being there for me. I know I don't deserve you and you deserve a much better person than me. Someone who is normal, at least not messed up like me..." I shushed her by keeping my finger on her lips.

"Don't say that. I don't want anybody other than you." I said. She took my hand that was kept on her face.

"Lemme say please... You are a very good guy. Sweet, caring, of course, smart and handsome and you deserve someone who can give you love, in return for the love you give. And I knew this from the start but this time I want to be selfish. I want you to be with me. I know it might take me a lot of time to be yours completely, to vocalize my feelings, to give you what you deserve but I still want you to be with me. And I am trying hard. Trying hard to let go of my fears and insecurities, to be open, and to be myself. I repeat your words again and again in my head in order to do so. I promise you that I'll try my best to give you all that care that you deserve. I might not be perfect but I will give you my best. I promise you I will not hide things from you and Sidharth...I trust you. I really do. I..." I kissed her before she can say any further. I am so overwhelmed with whatever she has said right now. These words are more than enough for me right now. If I had even one percent of insecurity in my heart, that just vanished.

We broke the kiss when we were out of breath. We joined our foreheads, catching our breaths. I so want to tell her how much I love her but I promised her that I won't.

No words were spoken after that. We just cuddled and slept, hoping for a much more beautiful morning.

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Okay, so here we go. again a long update...3021 words and Umm...I haven't planed to write an emotional chapter but it just happened inflow. I hope you guys liked it.

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