Swara's pov

Having a family who don't have any care for you and mostly no trust in you is the worst anyone could feel... They are the pitiest ones... Here, I am the pitiest one...

I, Swara Gadodia but I would prefer Swara Bose more... That was my birth name came from my biological father... And Gadodia is the name came after my mother married to the Gadodia... I shouldn't call her as my mother as she is the worst mother in this world who don't have any trust in her own blood, own upbringing, Her Own Daughter...

I regret for being in her womb for ten months and born as her daughter in this world... I had a small belief in my heart, thinking that after my so called sister's marriage, she would care for me and love me but I am the biggest Stupid for thinking like that...

I feel a heavy ache in my heart thinking everything happened... Still my body is shivering, my hands are trembling and my eyes are tearing... I feel a deep sorrow swallowing me, making me breathless...

Though I have sorrow in my heart, I also feel a deep warmth oozing from it making my pain less...

Sanskar.!!! The name itself bringing so many feelings inside me, making me feel a faint happiness... The thing which he has done today for me is really a great and incomparable one, I had never thought that he would go against his family for me... He trusted me aside his brother, he spoke for me against his family, he protected me from my own family...

That made a great admiration and respect for him in my heart which is smiling still realising his care and support... I realised that his feeling is not just a mere attraction. If at all he is just attracted towards me, he would not have taken a stand for me against his family... And I also know that my heart is having a kind of feeling for him... I didn't thought for a mere second before surrendering myself to him, that shows my heart trusted him... I trusted that he won't doubt me or crush me like others...

He consoled me gently like if I am any precious thing and handled me with care... With him stood beside me, I felt comfort, peace and secured like no one could hurt me anymore and he wouldn't let that happen...

What made me bewildered was when he took sindoor in his hand... When he asked if I trust him, I knew in my heart I did... When I stared at him, I found his eyes was filled with tenderness, care and concern... He was looking at me with hope that I would respond positively... At that time, I had no other feeling than to see him smile and happy... And When I nodded my head, his eyes lit up with ecstasy which made my heart skip a beat... But I haven't thought he would put Sindoor on my forehead which made me astonished...

At that moment, I couldn't get what was even happening in my life... I stood there numb and rooted... Everything and everyone around me were disappeared, I just felt his gaze which was holding mine... I just stared at his brown orbs without blinking, which was having a kind of pleasure and passion... In that moment, I wondered What is happening in my life? Who is this man? Where did he come from? Why he is doing this much for me?

But I had no answer for that... I don't know what feeling he has for me, but I knew it is a kind of strong and intense one...

Putting Sindoor on maang is equal to a marriage... Am I married? Did he do that to make me his wife? Am I his wife now? But he didn't tie a mangalsutra which is important in a marriage na?

But this is not a time to think this... I am so messed up and my life is messed up... I still can't figure out what is happening...

When I raised my hand to wipe my tears, I winced in pain as my fingers touched my cheek... I pressed my lips controlling my sob as the memory of Ragini and my father slapping me came rushing in my mind... Again my heart is filling with sorrow... I could never ever forget this in my life, what Laksh has done made a big impact in me, this day has become a nightmare as I realised no one in my family trusted me...

More tears fell from my eyes... After dragging me from there, my mother gave me disgusting look which made my already wounded heart broke into pieces... She still had believed that I am the one behind Laksh and want to destroy my sister's life, adding to that she was thinking I am playing double by tracking Sanskar too... She scolded me for a good ten minutes badly and then dragged me to the washroom... When she brought me near the washbasin, fear engulfed me knowing what she was gonna do... I don't know why but I didn't want the Sindoor to be gone from my head which has Sanskar name...

I protested but my Mom forcefully washed all the Sindoor from my maang which made me cry bitterly... Water was dipping from my head and also from my eyes... I fell on my knees and cried while my Mom just stared at me angrily without any single humanity... She then again dragged me to my room where my father stood with stern look... I couldn't stand, felt so weak and worn out... They together clearly told me that my intentions are never gonna happen... They told me that they would never let me near Sanskar or Maheshwari family... They felt so ashamed of me, regret for me being in their family...

I didn't know what had I done to make this much hatred in them for me... I never spoke against them or go against them, I always obeyed them and loved them with all my heart though they didn't reciprocate it... They couldn't see that, they just bend on hating me for trying to ruin their daughter's life which is totally not my motive... I would never do that, even in my dream... I would never wish bad for them as I care for them as my family... They couldn't see my innocent care and love for them which made my heart ache...

I fell on the floor crying while they warned me not to go anywhere without their knowledge and even locked me in my room... I didn't want to be alone, I was still afraid from the moment when Laksh tried to molest me... I shrieked and ran to the door, knocking it with my fists, shouting for them to open... I felt someone is gonna come to make me afraid, I turned and looked around the room fearfully while my fists were been knocking on the door... But no one heard me... I slid to the floor and lied there crying fearfully...

It has been two hours while I am still weeping on the floor...

I don't want this, I don't want this life... I have no one in this world to comfort me...

But my heart shouted at me that I have Sanskar to care for me... I cried more, I know my parents would never let him come anywhere near me...
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I didn't know when I had slept until that nightmare appeared...

I was standing alone in the dark which I feared a lot... I was fearing and running, searching for light... I am calling My Papa to help me and crying in darkness... Suddenly I was dashed into someone and staggered back... My teary eyes lit up with hope thinking someone has came to help me...

I smiled as a light ray fell upon us... But my breath stopped when I looked at the person's face... That is the Dirty man, Laksh... He is standing infront of me with his evil smirk... I got afraid and stepped back... My heart raced up and my hands trembled while he laughed aloud seeing my fear... He stepped forward but I turned to run...

I ran, ran and ran while he kept on chasing me...

My heart jolted when he caught my dress from back... He tore my dress from it's top making me shout... I quickly turned to him, inorder to hide my back... I cried and moved back fast while he let out a evil laugh and caught me in his arms...

I shouted, screamed, cried and even tried to scratch his face but nothing happened... I started breathing heavily while I felt all drakness surrounding us... I saw him smirking and coming near to my face...

"Noooooooo....!!!! Please, leave meeee... No... Please.."

I felt his breath on my face while my eyes bulged up fearing...

I jolted up and opened my eyes wide while breathing badly... I realised it's a dream, indeed a bad one... Tears welled up remembering the nightmare while my heart is thudding in fear and my body is sweating... I looked around my room and got anxious as realising it is still dark out there...

At that time, I heard sounds from my balcony... My fear picked up and I quickly got up from the floor... I attached my back to the door and eyed the balcony with teary eyes... I saw a shadow of a person from the side... I clutched my chest and tried to move back more, really wanting the door to open... When the person appeared on the balcony door, my breath stopped...

Without realising, my legs begin running fast... I threw my arms around the person and hugged him close to me... I broke down in his arms, clutching his shirt at the back in my fists...

The embrace where I would always feel secure, comfort and peace... His arms went around me, hugging me tightly...

"Jaan, stop crying please..!"

I heard his ever soft tone being whispered in my ears... His one hand caressing my hairs while his other hand was holding me firmly... I felt the sudden warmth and relief surrounding me...

"Sans.. Sanskar... I am afraid, I don't wanna be here. Ple.ase.. take me..out of here... Please... Please..."

I cried against his chest... His grip tightened around me...

"Shhh... Jaan.. I am here na, Don't be afraid, Sweetheart... Look at me once"

He tried to see my face, cupping my left cheek with his hand but I shook my head and hid my crying face in his shirt... I felt his suffering sigh when his chest moved against my face... His hands again went around me and softly rubbed my back in a comforting manner... My breath gets steadied while my tensed features relaxed with his gesture, but still I don't wanna leave him... I am afraid to be alone and need someone to hold onto me, to ensure me that I am safe... I need Him, I need Him to be with me..!!!

After what like an eternity, he held my shoulders and break me apart from him which made my heart shrink... I fisted his shirt against his chest in my palms, fearing he would leave me... He looked at me while I looked back at him with my teary eyes... His eyes filled with tenderness, looking at me with so much care... I feel my heart racing in some kind of energy while shivers ran down me...

Circling his one arm around my lower back, he brings his other hand to wipe my tears, still looking at me... I just stared at him with all my admiration for him... As he wiped my tears one side, I hissed when his fingers touched my other cheek... His fingers abruptly stopped while I opened my eyes which I had closed before when hissing... I gazed at him but his eyes are focused on my cheek where now I sure had a red mark...

His eyebrows narrowed together while I sensed his anger with his firm grip...

"Who did this to you?", His voice deep and firm, while I unknowingly gulped a little... My mind went to back to my father and sister... Without even thinking, they just slapped me... What he will do if I tell him?

I looked at him as he shook me little...

"Who slapped you, Jaan?"

"Sanskar... It's..", I stammered...

"Jaan, don't test my patience... I am already standing on edge"

I sensed a warning in his tone... I bowed my head and looked at his feet...

"It's Ragini and Dad..", I said in a very low tone which isn't even hearing to my own ears but he heard it, I know... Coz I felt his muscles tensing up, his free hand clenched in a fist, I saw his eyes darkened which is totally opposite to what it looked before...

"Those filthy people.."

He muttered angrily while my eyes teared up...

"Don't your mother stop them?", He grunted having hatred in his eyes... If only he knew, what all had happened.!!

I shook my head negatively, "They blamed me and slapped me, I thought atleast my mother would believe me and stop them... But her words.."

I stopped while crying, as my eyes closed in pain reminiscing the moment... I felt his hand on my head and caressing it...

"Sanskar, she don't have any trust in me, in her own daughter... She just told I was wrong and I shouldn't have thought to ruin my sister's life... I told her, Sanskar... I told her that I wouldn't marry Laksh even if he is the last man, but she also didn't trust me or stop anyone from badmouthing me... She just stood there eyeing me with disgust... Why Sanskar? Why it is happening to me only? Why they are not believing me? If not your family, atleast mine could trust me na? They know me well and I am one of them, but why they are eyeing me like I am a piece of sh!t? Am I really that bad? Am I really that disgusting? Why they are not treating me like their daughter? What wrong I had ever done to them? Why my own mother is caring for her step daughter more than her own? If not loving me atleast she could trust me na? I would never ever think of destroying anyone's life and I wouldn't stake my dignity for that... Then how could they say like that? How!!!"

I cried my heart out while clutching his collar... He looked at me painfully and shook his head, cupping my cheek... I hugged him again, crying all the remaining tears left in my eyes while his arms held me in his warm embrace...

"No Jaan, you are not anything like they think... You are very precious, you are so kind, you are so pure and beautiful... They just couldn't see your value with their filthy eyes... They wouldn't know how much good you are, as they are the disgusted mind people... They don't deserve you, Jaan... You shouldn't cry for them, stop crying Jaan... Just stop shedding tears for the people who don't deserve for it... You deserve happiness, not this sufferings... So stop it, Sweetheart"

He said while rubbing my back gently... His words made my heart flutter in a different way, Am I really precious?

His care and affection is making me feel light in my heart, making me want to forget all my sufferings and surrender myself to him... I just want my life to stop this instance, I don't have any other thing to live for... This is the perfect and best moment in my life... There is really someone who wanted my existence, who don't want my tears, who don't hurt me, who wants my happiness, who is caring for me and most the one who trust me...

The Man who is holding me in his arms is the someone I wanted all these years... I just wanted this moment to freeze, I don't want to face anything or any others...

Sanskar softly cupped my jaws and made me look at him... He wiped my tears looking at me deeply and then placed a soft kiss on my slapped cheek which made my pain flew away leaving electric vibes there... My stomach felt the tingles while I just stared at him blinking my eyes...

He then pecked my forehead while his lips lingered there for more than few seconds made me close my own eyes, feeling all cherished... His lips separated from my forehead making me release a content sigh...

"Where is your Sindoor? Have you washed it?"

I opened my eyes on hearing his low tone... I looked up at him while his face is devoid of emotions... I felt hurted thinking how my mother forcefully washed my sindoor... He might have thought that I am the one who washed it... I shook my head negatively and gulps little to get rid of my dry throat...

He watched me while I pressed my lips tightly thinking how to say it to him... What if he really don't want that in my head? What if he put Sindoor for proving his family that I am his girlfriend? What if he don't want all this?

My mind confused me while my heart felt a pang thinking the possibilities... I know he is having feelings for me but if he really did that to make me his wife? I should not claim it, may be he has done that to prove... I might have thought it wrongly...

But what if he really wants to make me his wife? Is that even possible? But I know that wouldn't happen as my parents won't let that happen ever... I felt the sad feelings emerging me...

While I am busy in thinking, he keeps on staring me... Suddenly, he held my hand and walked towards my bed... I got perplexed! Oh No, he is going to say that he didn't have any intention to fill my maang and it was all for proving his family and ask me to forget it and sleep... Am I be able to sleep? Sure not after my heart is having so much pain...

I bite my lower lip and blinked my eyes several times, not wanting to sob... He held my shoulders and made me sit on the edge of the bed, kneeling himself infront of me... I looked at him while clenching my both fists tightly leaving it on my lap to control my overflowing emotions... His eyes are staring me like he is reading me carefully...

"Jaan, listen to me carefully... Will you?"

He looked at me gently while the lost tenderness again coming back in his deep brown orbs... I really wanna lost myself in those eyes which had never failed to comfort me... I nodded my head slowly... His hands reached my fists, I shivered inward on the contact... On releasing my tight hold, he held my soft palms in his ones... I kept on looking at our interwined hands and wondered if they are really that fitting!

"Jaan, look at me"

I looked at him instantly on hearing his gentle tone...

"I came here to explain myself... I know you might be sad and worrying about what happened today... I am really Sorry Jaan for not being with you when you needed me the most... I am so stupid to leave you alone here with that bastard... Please forgive me, If I was here I wouldn't have let it happened... I should have been with you today... If only I had been here, I wouldn't have let those filthy people to hurt you... I am really Sorry Jaan"

His eyes filled with utmost sincerity, regret and guilt... Karan Bhai has told me that he wouldn't say Sorry to anyone, in any situation... But now, the man who is number one businessman and respected by many people is asking me forgiveness for the thing to which he is not even responsible... He is not responsible for what has happened to me, he is not my guard that he is feeling guilt for not able to protect me... The man who should be guilty for failing to protect me should be my father who is every girl's guard... But he didn't even care about that, let alone he protect me...

His face becomes blurry as my tears appeared, blinking it away I looked at him with greatness...

"You shouldn't be Sorry, Sanskar... It's not even your responsibility or fault... It's my fate that has played with me... It doesn't have any wish to leave me in peace"

I said bitterly thinking about my life and destiny... He is about to say something but I stopped him...

"I should be the one saying Sorry to you... I am sorry that you have to stand against your family and elders... They would have felt hurt on seeing their son speaking against them... But Indeed, I am so thankful to you for supporting me and took a stand for me... I really don't know what would have happened to me if you haven't reached at that time... I would have died hearing their talks---"

"Stop it Swara", He said sharply cutting my crying tone... I looked at him with teary eyes...

"Just stop talking all bull shit... And the people you are saying my family is not my family... You understand? And you shouldn't speak like that ever again"

He said firmly... I lowered my eyeshades looking at his chest as I don't have power to look into his blazing eyes which are having so much angry and care...

"But... But it's.. true, Sanskar... I felt like dying when I saw everyone's disgusting and blaming gaze on me"

I whispered while tears escaped my eyes... Holding my hands in his one fist, he cupped my other cheek and made me look at him...

"Look here, Jaan... You shouldn't cry for a thing which you haven't even done... You are not at mistake that you are crying for it, those people are disgusting for not understanding your innocence value, Not you Jaan"

He said caressing my cheek with his thumb softly... I felt overwhelmed and put my head on his shoulder, he left my hands and slides his arm around me while I surrounded mine around him...

"Thank You, Sanskar for being there for me"

I don't want to hide it in myself, really I am grateful for him, for my whole life...

"Will always be, am with you"

He said in my ear making me feel more pleasant...

"Jaan, I couldn't bear it when I saw you in that state... I really hate it that they made you cry... I can't take that, Jaan... I can't see your tears, I really wanna see your face having that smile which gives me peace and pleasure... And the thing which I had done today is.."

I straightened myself while his arms still around me and looked at him as my heart begins thudding inside... He looked at me directly...

"I hadn't filled your forehead for proving everyone that you are my girlfriend... I put Sindoor on your head to show you how much you means to me, to show my feelings are not just an attraction, to show you I really want you as my life partner, to show you deserve to be my WIFE... I don't believe in love and all, but I really want you... You became My Everything, Jaan... So that, I did it to make you MINE"

I became numb and speechless... I looked at him without blinking my eyes, feeling everything stopped just like that... My heart is racing in an impossible speed, like it is gonna stop... Did he really want me as His wife?

"I don't believe putting Sindoor makes you my wife but you believe it, right? So I did it... I want you to believe that you deserve to my Wife... But you have washed it to--"

"I didn't wash it"

I heard my voice saying it, before I could think... He has done so much for me, I should let him know that I am not the one who have washed it...

He looked at me frowned...

"It's My.. Mom... I protested Sanskar, but she washed it anyway"

I whispered while his face hardened hearing the truth... He closed his eyes, taking in a deep breath like controlling himself not to burst out...

"Sanskar, I am.."

He opened his eyes...

"It's Ok Jaan... Washing it away doesn't mean that you aren't my wife... The moment I put Sindoor on your head, you became My Wife... You are my wife and will always be..!!! No can change it and not even you"

He said tightening his grip around me, making shivers ran down my spine... Sensing his possessiveness, I felt all the died down butterflies arising in my stomach leaving a different feeling...

"You are Mrs. SM, Mrs. Swara Sanskar Maheshwari... And I will soon make you my official wife"

He said cupping my cheek... I don't know what to reply him, I sat with my mouth closed... But I felt my heart is dancing inside in happiness and so my mind... Not only my bad mind who always speak supporting him but also my good mind who always protested against him... My name with his one behind, sounded so... nice... It left a kind of warmth in my heart... I kept silent, staring at him...

"You don't have to answer now, Jaan... I know in which state you are in... Take your time to accept it, but keep in mind that You are My Wife... Don't think about any others, they can't do anything, so don't worry"

He said softly... Caressing my hairs, he stood up...

"You have to take rest, Jaan... So sleep for sometime to make you better... Come"

He took my hand while my mind drifted to the nightmare... I felt shivers and afraid...

"No Sanskar, I don't want to sleep please"

I said in a breaking tone, fearfully clutching his shirt... He sighed...

"Jaan, I am here... Don't be afraid"

"No Please", I hugged his stomach... He responded me and rubbed my back soothingly...

"Jaan, You sleep... I won't go anywhere, I will be with you... Come now"

He said pecking on the top of my head... He breaks the hug while I let it unwillingly... He made me lye on the bed and sat beside me on the bed... I kept looking at him while clutching his shirt in my fist tightly, fearing he might leave after I slept... He held my other hand with his, and stroked my hairs with his free hand...

After sometime staring, I felt my eyelids are drifting off... I felt his lips on my forehead which gave me belief that he won't leave me, never ever in my life... He is so great to my deservedness... Do I really deserve his caring? Am I that much lucky to get him in my life?
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To be continued...

Precap: Sanskar to prove Swara's innocence

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