• babybabe 🖤 •

Today ; 10:00 PM

linnie?

oh, wow haha
you're on the dot

hmmm
i guess di ka pa tapos?

no haha
far from it
kakatapos lang kasi nung kay jeric
we have another fantasy right now
it's what i've been working on lately

ah okay

?
what kind of response is that HAHA
are you annoyed i'm not yet done?
we can talk here naman

hmm okay
sige
saan ka mas comfortable?
chat or tawag???

chat is fine
kaya ko naman
i can manage

lagi naman haha
okay sige
pero ngayon pa lang
can you promise you won't leave me on read?
or delivered?
kasi kahit "delivered" nakalagay
alam ko naman na nababasa mo sa notif

okay (?)
why are you suddenly so serious HAHA
you were being all smiley the whole day

okay
uh
please don't get pissed
pero hmm
alam kong naka-quarantine sina mama luz
di si lana nagsabi sakin ha?

oh, please
kanino mo pa ba malalaman?

teka nga
di naman yun yung issue
and i'm not mad at anyone
but i am asking this
bakit di mo sinabi sakin?

because lana told me not to worry
and you would worry
anyway, precaution lang naman daw
so i said okay, i'm not going to tell you
para di ka na rin mag-alala haha

babe, para lang malinaw ha
i'm not mad
di ako naiinis
so baby, please?

please what?

wag ka sanang defensive?
kasi di naman kita inaatake eh
besides, why would i do that hehe
kakampi mo naman ako
baby, i'm always on your side

okay
if you're not mad or pissed
what's the problem?

nagtataka lang talaga ako
kung bakit di mo sinabi sakin
anak na rin turing sakin ni mama mo
her words
siya mismo nagsabi nun hehe

well
precaution lang eh
it's trivial
it's procedure
ayun yung normal na ginagawa
kapag na-expose sa virus
we all know that
so i didn't want you to worry
ayun lang yun, teo

linnie
normal din namang mag-alala
you also know that, right?

yes, of course
pero alam ko ring wala akong oras lol
i'm in charge of a project
may upcoming pang dalawa

hay linnie

what?

sasabihin ko sanang di ko hinihiling
na i-prioritize mo yung emotions mo
over your work
then na-realize ko
na ayun mismo hinihiling ko haha

teo, i really appreciate this
but i told you already
wala akong oras para tumigil

ah HAHA
dyan ka nagkakamali, babe
we're talking right now
subukan natin?

are you seriously forcing me into a therapy session?

hala HAHA
therapy session agad?
pag-uusapan lang naman natin feelings mo
come on, babe
try lang natin, yeah?

fine

sige hmm
ako muna
kinabahan ako nung nalaman ko
from lana

so it is lana who told you

ay shit
di niya kasalanan
i asked and she answered
yun lang
pero wait
please don't interrupt me muna?

right, sorry
go on
you were saying you were nervous

oo syempre
i know what you're thinking hehe
precaution lang naman
yeah, i know that
pero may possibility pa rin kasi na mag-positive sila
and sakali ngang mag-positive
alam ko namang may hope pa rin
na di magiging malala condition nila
but i can't help it ):
we see the number of cases everyday
kahit sabihin natin na maayos healthcare dun
ewan
di ko mapigilang matakot

am i supposed to say something?
sorry
uhm
gusto mo bang may sabihin ako?

yung totoo?
sana haha
ayokong sarilinin mo yan eh

okay uh
i am scared, too
i haven't seen them in years
so yeah
this is overwhelming
this is too much for me

ang alin?

worrying about them

hmm okay
edi akin na muna yung iba?

i just keep thinking of the possibility
that they could die there
in a foreign land
miles away from me and lana
i mean
lagi namin silang kausap sa call
so maybe ayun
maybe because of the video calls
it didn't feel like they're miles away
but now that we're in this pandemic
i don't knwo
it just feels weird
and i know i keep saying
na precaution lang
walang point kung mag-aalala ako
or if i lose sleep worrying about them
because hey?
they're adults for god's sake
and they can handle themselves
and maybe i am feeling a bit guilty
for being nonchalant whenever they call
maybe there is no point in worrying
because maybe they'll be okay
but i am scared
right now
natatakot ako ngayon
natatakot ako, teo

alam ko
ako rin
sobra
you know on my 20th birthday
and they called us to greet me
alam mo ba sabi sakin ni mama luz

hmm?

alagaan ko raw sarili ko
lagi niyang sinasabi na ikaw alagaan ko
doon ako sanay eh
so when she told me that
nakakahiya pero naiyak ako haha
i don't know why
but yeah
naluha ako

that's funny

na naiyak ako?
HAHAHA

no haha
your dad told me the same thing
he told me to take care of myself

ha?
when was this???

when you introduced me to them
i found that advice weird
kasi nga ikaw anak niya haha
napansin niya yata na nagtataka ako lol
so he explained why
apparently, in case of accidents in airplanes
parents are advised to wear their masks first
before they worry about their children
did you know that?

yeah
nakakalimutan ko minsan
but it's okay (:
wala namang tama agad una pa lang

what?

wala po hehe
so hmm
i guess
for now, all we could do is hope
that they're prioritizing themselves
pero uy

hmm?

di ibig sabihin nun
na kailangan stop na rin tayo sa pag-aalala
kaya naman natin pagsabayin, di ba?

pagsabayin ang?

hope and worry hehe
nakakaya ko nga sayo eh

???
what's that supoposed to mean HAHA

okay sige
pagbibigyan kita hehe
nasabi ko na ba sayo

what?

that i admire you
pero at the same time
natatakot din ako sayo
nasasaktan din

nasasaktan ka sakin?
nasasaktan kita?
is that it???

no, babe HAHA
i mean
hmm
let me explain
i just don't like how you've become
an expert in hiding your emotions
kasi ibig sabihin nun
sanay ka na

i am haha
kailangan eh
i can't react on impulse
i have a younger sister lol

exactly
ayun na nga
ibig sabihin nun
ilang beses na naulit
yung reason kung bakit feeling mo
kailangan mong magkimkim
kaya sanay na sanay ka na

i don't know what to say

you don't have to say anything naman
gusto ko lang malaman mo na
nandito ako
di mo na kailangang magkimkim
sorry, i mean uh

hmm?

kung pwede lang sana
ibigay mo naman sakin yung iba
please, baby?
para saan pa abs ko kung
di kita matutulungang magbuhat, di ba?

haha sure (?)

di naman laging kailangan na may gawin eh
we don't always have to come up with
solutions to our problems
magaan din naman sa pakiramdam yung ganito

i actually just chuckled
so yep
i do feel lighter

oh di ba HAHA
sometimes, this is okay
yung ganito na pag-uusapan lang natin
i hope you know that, linnie

i do now
thanks, teo
really
i mean it

alam kong marami ka pang gagawin
so di kita kukulitin hehe
but if you want
i'm outside
nagbalat ako ng oranges
magluluto rin ako ng fries

what for?

manonood ako fleabag hehe
maganda raw sabi ni eli eh

hmm
i have a better proposal

okay?
sige HAHAHA

wala pa nga?
haha but uhm
you can watch while eating
i'll work and eat

deal 👉🏼👈🏼

by the way
thanks for not taking advantage of the situation
and mentioning pau's birthday
naiinis ka na siguro lol

hindi ah HAHA
sinabi ko naman na sayo
it's your call
pag gusto mo nang pag-usapan
tapikin mo lang ako, yeah?

okay haha
stay put
i'll cook the fries ☺️
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