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tl;dr: happy birthday, i love you ☺️

i've been drafting this message for weeks now. until now that your birthday is about to end, ni outline, wala pa rin akong final HAHAHAHA i guess this is another proof that you overwhelm me so much that it makes me want to write you a perfect birthday greeting? (meron bang ganun HAHA)

anyway, since your birthday's about to end, here's what i have so far:

with you, everything's just easy.

nabaliw nga ako nang konti dahil dun HAHAHA ang dami ko nang naka-date but with you, it's just so easy? ang daya nga kasi pagdating sayo, parang di ako nag-effort? parang di ko kinailangang mag-effort at all???

it's as if you just happened. it's as if we just happened to happen.

parang nagkataon lang lahat eh. siguro dahil dun, kaya ako nakakaramdam ng urge na gawing perfect tong birthday greeting mo, na maging perfect girlfriend for you pero at the same time. . . alam ko rin namang di mo kailangan ng perfect eh. alam kong mamahalin mo pa rin ako kahit mag-fail ako dun sa perfection na gusto kong maabot para sayo.

yun din yung reason kung bakit sinubukan kitang layuan, kung bakit sinubukan kong i-deny yung nararamdaman ko for you. i know this would sound so cliché but the intensity of my feelings scared me shitless.

lalo akong natakot nung nakita ko kung gaano ka ka-sincere sakin, kung gaano ka ka-determined na i-express yung feelings mo for me.

if you're wondering what my pivotal point was, i'm sorry to disappoint but it's nothing specific you did. it's everything you showed and told me since the day we met. nag-accumulate lang lahat tapos ayun.

one day, napansin ko na lang na hindi na lang pala basta kilig yung nararamdaman ko tuwing naiisip kita o habang kasama kita. napansin ko na lang na nagtatanong na ako.

i realized i was becoming too curious that i couldn't resist to get to know you more.

before i knew it, wala na. gusto na kita HAHAHA. na-realize ko na lang na hulog na ako sayo to the point na gusto na kitang iwasan kasi alam kong masasaktan ako pag hindi kita nakuha, pag hindi ko nakuha tong sa atin.

ang gulo-gulo, di ba? that's how drastic your effect on me is, nowi: you make me contradict myself. dahil sayo, nagsimula akong kuwestiyunin yung mga pinanghahawakan ko about love; yet at the same time, i began believing in the sincerity of my feelings for you.

but maybe it wasn't entirely on you?

maybe it felt easy since the beginning because even though i tried to resist, deep down, i have no plans of giving up on love. maybe it was easy because from the start, deep down, i knew wanted to see how this goes.

deep down, i knew i wanted you before we even began.

di ko alam kung fate, destiny, o concept ng soulmates o red strings yung reason. i don't know who or what powerful beings conspired for us to meet but we did meet.

for that, i'm eternally grateful.

happiest birthday to you, nowi. i love you. ☺️

🥰♥️ You, Christian Clark Vergara, Nicola Sonia Chua, and 68 others

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Jai Alexander Tolentino
Naks HAHAHAHA Huma-hard launch 😮‍💨

   Lilith Katherine Rosario
   HAHAHAHAHA I was just about to say 😩

Noel Winston-Vergara
good god, i love you 🥺

Noel Winston-Vergara
i'm printing this and i'm having this framed 🥺

Noel Winston-Vergara
oh hahaha you took pictures from the albums pala

   Karyn Sonia Chua
   di mo naman ako pinagbawalan HAHAHAHA

   Noel Winston-Vergara
   it's alright hahaha i was just puzzled kasi you posted pictures that looked old

   Noel Winston-Vergara
   i'm not mad or annoyed naman haha

   Karyn Sonia Chua
   okay HAHAHA

Sonia Marie Chua
@Noel Winston-Vergara happy bday nak hehe

   Noel Winston-Vergara
   thanks, tita ☺️

Timothy James Pantoja
Happy birthday 🙂

   Karyn Sonia Chua
   thank you raw po, sir HAHA

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nowis_archives it's been an hour since we bid goodbye temporarily haha. i can still remember the way the creeping sunlight graced her beautiful face. i can still hear the waves. i can still feel the sand between my toes and her warmth enveloping me. i still can't sleep. it's already light out. my dads will call me for breakfast na anytime now. i haven't slept at all haha.

oh, fuck. i really need to sleep na but i can't pa rin. i can't get this stupid grin off my face hahaha. i feel drunk even if we didn't drink naman. ):

is it possible ba to get more drunk on karson? or to get high on her?

hahaha fuck me. i shouldn't be surprised anymore. everything she says and does just drives me crazy. and now, i can't even sleep for the life of me hahaha.

i guess i still feel excited kasi? i'm unsure of the reason, though. i just am. i'm just really excited for what's about to come pa.

but this is probably my happiest birthday yet. (:
October 28

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ksonia_chua look: i already believe in fate before i met you HAHA kaya nga takot na takot akong mapaglaruan ng universe, di ba?

actually, that's also one of the reasons why i kept pulling back HAHAHA when you kept coming back even if i tried to avoid you, ang yabang-yabang pakinggan (sure akong may kakainin akong sinabi ko before HAHA) pero alam ko nang magtatagal tayo 😩

pero ayun na nga??? the more i tried to avoid you, the more i realized i shouldn't. the more i kept you at arm's length, the more i realized i don't have any reason to avoid you. na-realize kong di ka naman nakakatakot. i don't even remember why i was so scared, why i kept pulling back.

siguro dahil nga, parang sugo ka ni universe??? ang assuming pakinggan pero para kasing pinadala ka ng kung sino mang higher being para sakin; sakin lang HAHA.

wala namang nakakatakot dun, di ba? ang reassuring at ang gaan pa nga sa pakiramdam na somewhere out there, may nag-aalala sakin. ewan ko rin talaga kung bakit kita iniwasan ng ilang buwan.

i don't remember why i was so scared when you're far from scary. you're the most gentle person i ever met, babe. gusto kong sabihin na sinwerte ako sayo pero at the same time, ayokong tanggalan ng bearing yung decisions natin na naging dahilan para umabot tayo ng new year.

if you didn't decide to wait for me to make up my mind and if i didn't decide to trust my budding feelings for you, walang tayo ngayon eh.

you would have been some random guy i see at thanks everytime na susunduin namin ni jai si mon. and i would have been the random girl you would sometimes bump into the elevators, the cafeteria, or the nap room. baka strangers lang tayo ngayon HAHA.

this is probably the holiday season talking but it just amazes me, yung mga what if na di natuloy kasi nga nag-decide tayong maging part ng buhay ng isa't isa.

i'm so happy i get to celebrate the new year with you, @nowi_vergara27. thank you so much for the past four (4) months with you.

looking forward ako sa mga susunod pa. 🥳
monn.chua always, always happy for you, cousin 🥰
   ↳ ksonia_chua 🥺🥺🥺
jericnam_official ♥️
   ↳ ksonia_chua nagparamdam din HAHAHA pahingi pics ng mt. pulag ha 🤲🏼
winner_warren Ayie HAHAHA Pero kailan nga balik niyo?
   ↳ ksonia_chua next week pa HAHA ayaw pa kasi kami paalisin ni mama, then didiretso kaming elyu kina papa clark 🥰
   ↳ lili.rosario "Papa Clark" 🥺
December 31

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nowi_vergara27 i always tell you that i'm not good with words like you are but you encourage me to speak my mind anyway so... let's consider this as my practice, yeah?

here i go, love haha.

before we met, i think i began to just let life happen to me. i think i was letting time slip away na.

that was unconscious, though, so nothing to worry about naman haha.

i didn't catch it early on so good thing you came into my life pala, babe. no, actually. you're the best thing to happen to me in a while.

miss chua, you just make me so happy that sometimes, i begin to question things na haha. i'm starting to think na of how lucky i am to be with you. of how i must have done something right in all my past lives to have met you in this one.

everything with you just feels so right that that seems to be the only possible explanation kasi. ):

you took me by surprise and you continue to do so everyday. with you, i can actually feel an important part of my life beginning. thank you for this fever dream where i'm not just an onlooker in my own life. thank you for making me realize i shouldn't change for the world.

i know we're only just beginning but right now, at the moment, or as of writing (this is how you say it, right? haha), i'm already certain that i'll be loving you for a long time — dare i say forever?

these past 4 months have just been wonderful. i love you. happy new year, my love. ☺️
December 31

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