Hey guys!! Long time no see!!
It's been a whirlwind, wow— tons has happened in the last year and hasn't given me much time to write!
It's basically been 2 years since I've been able to consistently write this book!
So, about that-
I'm considering rewriting this novel
I kind of lost the hang of it once they went to Yosemite and I've never been able to get that back

Also, I'd like to write the characters in an older narrative since I started writing this when I was 15 and I'm not 15 anymore haha
So despite the hundreds of hours I've spent on this book (RIP)
My plan is to rewrite it!
It'll most likely take place in college and the smut scenes will return hah
I took them away because I wrote them when I was like 16 so I wasn't very proud of them and also I'm almost at an age where I'm older than the characters (not quite yet but almost lmao) so that just kinda makes it uncomfortable for me now hah
It would also be a bit better paced in my opinion but yeah!
I'm so sorry to those of you currently reading this who now have to reread it TwT
But!! I'll reveal what the plans were for this specific arc without revealing the ending ;)

Evan and Connor would have gotten back together, don't worry! That wouldn't have been the climax of the story necessarily but don't worry, they would have! Only when they would have realized why it didn't work last time- I think it's important to address the toxicity of some relationships and the over-romanticization of mental illness and to lead the book on a path where they would be able to help each other not in a way that would stroke either of their hero complexes but simply in a "I'm here" way.

And, while we're here, I'll speak a little bit on why I'd like to rewrite this book beyond just the fact that it isn't going anywhere-

When I started this book, I had gotten out of a very toxic relationship. On top of that, I hadn't really learned my lesson and got into a new, not so healthy relationship. I wrote about these experiences in this book as a way to vent about it. I knew these things weren't the best so I wanted my readers to be able to read first hand about different aspects of a relationship that weren't okay.
Connor's overprotection, the way both of them chose to distance each other before they chose to communicate, the over reliance on the other that felt as though their relationship was in shambles if they couldn't be together- I wanted to show my readers that despite going through all of this- it does get better and it can work. Connor and Evan would have gotten back together because they chose to communicate and work through their problems.
It's taken me years to realize what I want in a relationship and how to recognize when something is bothering me and to communicate it.
I've found a partner that treats me immensely well. She's shown me what a healthy relationship can be and truly cared for me over the time we've dated. This is the longest and most serious relationship I've been in and- I want the rewrite to reflect that. I will use my experience of toxic relationships for the parts of it that will include toxicity, but by the end of it, I want it to reflect the goodness that can come out of communication and patience. That was the plan for this book but I think what stumped me was just my inexperience with healthy relationships.

All the being said-
More to come hopefully!!
Until then,
Thank you so much for reading.
This book is one I've been working on for almost 4 years now and it means a lot to me.

It's grown with me and so have you guys.

You all mean the world to me.
If I rewrite this book, I promise to make it twice as better as this one <3

-Jay