★WARNING★: Does contain concepts of suicide and depression. I do not condone taking ones life and if any of these concepts is going to be an issue for you, I urge you not to read. Thank you. 

If you or someone you know is dealing with depression or thoughts of suicide, please reach out and help. Talk to someone. Your life is so precious, help is out there. I will also listen if you need someone to speak with. Find me on Twitter at @Zariahkiryu where you can message me. Depression and suicide are no joke, we all have to be there for each other.

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The wind was.blowing.gently, rustling my hair and blowing it into my face. The sky was dark and gray, giving the promise of rain in the near future. I could hear the cars rushing by behind mr, not giving a care to what I was doing. Not worried as to why  I was standing there in the chilly autumn air, staring out over the horizon. It wasn't that of the horizon I was actually staring at, not was it the graying clouds that would have been more interesting if they were white and the sky sunnier, bluer. No, I was standing here completely lost in my own thoughts. I can remember it as if it happened yesterday. . .

---FLASHBACK---

I was sitting in a.cafe with a couple of friends. They were talking about a random movie that had just come out, a trip they wanted to take to some fair, just a ton of non-sense. I was the quiet shy one of the group, nodding when needed. At  the time, I had been too distracted by the guy a couple tables away to even listen to what was really being said. With his papers and pencils scattered in front of him, his smile (which had so easily captivated me) was that of pure joy and happiness towards whatever he was working on. That smile, everytime I looked it forced a smile onto my lips.

 "Hey, Jungkook. . .you in there?"

 The words came from.one of my friends, Namjoon. Apparently he had caught me staring at the guy across the room. 

My head snapped back in the direction of Namjoon with a slightly wide eyed, oh shot I'm caught, kind of look. 

 "Hm?"

 I felt like an idiot the moment the sound escaped my lips. I knew then that they knew something was up. 

 "Did you even hear a word we've said?"

 My eyes by this point had wandered back towards the guy I was so mesmerized by. It definitely hadn't gone unnoticed by my other friend Jimin. He was closer in age to me then Namjoon was, but was still older by two years, and he had finally caught sight of who I was looking at. A smirk formed on Jimin's face as he turned back to Namjoon and I.

"I don't think he's heard a single word. He's been stung by the love bug." 

Jimin laughed and I swear my eyes were about to pop out of my head as I turned to face him. 

I quickly shook my head, waving my hand in front of me to disperse the comment that Jimin had made. All it did was cause Namjoon to laugh as well. Suddenly, I felt as if all eyes were on me. My face felt hot, and I knew it was due to a rising blush covering my face. For some reason, I slowly turned to look at that guy once more only to realize too late that he was looking over in our direction. I quickly looked away, glancing anywhere but at him. 

I did risk a glance anyways, right back over and he shot me with that million dollar smile that just stunned me. everytime. He waved and I have a nervous smile, slowly raising a hand and waved back. 

"Oh, did someone get caught?"

Jimin teased before bursting into another fit of laughter. I just looked at him, embarrassed beyond belief by this point, so I slid down in my chair and buried my face in my hands. This day just couldn't get any worse, but as I thought it. . .it only got better.

The guy gathered his art equipment under one arm and came over to our table. He slipped something into my pocket before looking at my friends.

 "You know, real friends wouldn't tease other friends over someone they're curious about."

I peered through my fingers when my friends had silenced and barely caught sight  of the smile given to me. I slowly lowered my hands, watching him leave before digging in my pocket for whatever he had placed there. 

pulling my hand out, I stared at the little white piece of paper. It was folded into the perfect little square, and a smiley face adorned the front. I couldn't help the smile that slowly spread across my lips as I unfolded the note. It was simple and sweet and made my heart jump as I read it. 

Meet me in front of the flower shop. 

Tomorrow, can't wait to meet you. :) Taehyung

"What's that?"

Namjoon inquired about the paper I was looking at. My head shot up and I shoved the note back into my jacket pocket. I laughed and shook my head trying to convince them it was nothing important. 

" Nothing, it's nothing. I swear. "

Despite the skeptical looks, Jimin and Namjoon dropped the subject. We finished our food and left, spending the rest of the day running around just having fun. Even so, all I could think about was Taehyung and how nervous I was for tomorrow.

Next Day (Around Noon)

The next day, I woke up later then I had wanted. I rushed to.get ready, dressing in a simple pair of black jeans, white t-shirt and a Letterman jacket adding sneakers to finish the look. I hoped I wasn't under dressed for what Taehyung had planned for us today. I began to wonder if he had planned anything at all for the day or if everything was going to be on a whim. The thought made me very curious, but it also made me nervous not knowing what could possibly go on today. 

Once I was ready, I ran out the door and ran straight for the flower shop. 

I ran most of the way there, however, as I started to round the corner I slowed my pace to a walk. I immediately spotted him. Taehyung was standing there, looking at the ground. His hands were stuffed into the pocket of blue jeans which he paired nicely with a white top and a pink over shirt he left unbuttoned. He looked perfect standing there, which didn't help my nerves. He must have sensed my presence because he looked up and around before spotting me. The smile that tugged at the corners of his lips was the same one he gave me the previous day. 

I smiled back, a bit nervous to be honest, but who wouldn't be? He seemed like.The perfect guy, good looking, sweet and unpredictable. 

"You made it!"

His voice washed over me like a warm breeze. It was captivating and deep, but not too deep that it was annoying. My cheesy smile was stuck on my face no matter what I did to try and get rid of it.

 "Yeah, it would be rude not to accept your offer. I just hope you weren't waiting long, there wasn't a time written on the paper."

I felt so nervous standing there. I shifted my weight and looked down apologetically. I really did hope he wasn't waiting long, that would have made me feel so guilty. I looked up as he began speaking once more.

"No, you're fine. That was my fault, I forgot to write one down. . .and the address too."

For once I was glad I had slept in. Feeling a bit more relaxed, I glanced at the flower shop and then back at Taehyung.

"So, what are we doing today?"

" Well, I figured we would grab some lunch and kind of wing it after that. "

I wanted to laugh, it was just as I had thought.

"That sounds fine to me. . .considering I kind of slept in late and missed breakfast."

" We should get going then, can't have you walking around starving. "

He gave a bit of a laugh at the statement, but I could only smile sheepishly. I turned my gaze downward in embarrassment, willing my feet to move as Taehyung began walking. 

"Oh, I don't think I ever got your name."

The abrupt stop had me quickly glancing up at Taehyung in slight surprise. So much so I had to force myself to actually speak. 

"Jung. . .Jungkook."

" Well Jungkook, it's a pleasure to meet you. " 

I couldn't stop the smile that was racing across his face at the moment. Taehyung was considerate and polite, it just added to how perfect he really was. 

"Come on. . ."

With those two words we were off again . 

The day couldn't have been more perfectly fun. We are lunch at a cute little restaurant talking about whatever came to mind. I have never, and I mean never, taken so long to eat before. Even as the lunch hour came to a close, we were only beginning to pay for our meal, refusing to leave our table. When we did, we store hopped for awhile, playing around and making complete folks of ourselves. It had to be one of the most treasured and best days I've ever had. We went and saw a movie and then had dinner. We walked the darken streets only out by the street lamps lining them. Taehyung dropped me off at home and we parted ways, but not before he slid a little box into my hand. I didn't get a chance to question him about it as he ran off before hand. 

The box was small and baby blue with a silver bow. I slowly opened it, revealing the heart necklace inside that said 'forever' on the front. My heart swelled and my face could have split in two by how big my smile was. I stood there wishing for many more days such as this one before heading upstairs to get ready for bed. 

it seemed my wish was heard, the next month was absolutely perfect. Taehyung and I would hang out, watch movies, go to fairs and take small trips to the beach. I wore the necklace every day, barely taking it off. We were happy and it was as if nothing could come between us. 

That was, until we got the two month Mark in our relationship.

Taehyung began to ask about Jimin and suggesting we invite him along on some of our outings. At the time, I thought nothing of it. I believed at the time he just wanted to get to know my friends. Get on their good sides so we didn't have to worry about problems between him and them. Little did I know, this was only the beginning of our problems soon to come.

In the weeks that followed, Taehyung became increasingly more busy. My calls to him didn't go through half the time and went to.voicemail the other half. When they did he was always in a hurry to get off, making excuses about work and being tired. When we did go out or hang out at my place there was very little talking and he kept his distance from me. I should have taken it as a sign something was wrong, but I was so I'm love with him I couldn't bring myself to even come to that sort of conclusion. I would come to regret that hadn't later on. 

It was sunny and warm. Taehyung had told me he was working late on a big project for a client. I decided to go for a walk and get some air, not stay cooped up at hom. Maybe I would surprise Taehyung at work later. The thought made me giggle. 

That's when I saw it. No, not it. . .I saw them.

Across the street, I saw Taehyung, and he wasn't alone. Not only had he lied about work, but he was walking with his arm around another guy. That guy just so.happened to be my best friend, Jimin. 

It was obvious to see they were happy. Taehyung would whisper something in Jimin's ear and like a flustered school girl, would giggle and try to change the subject. Taehyung was also laughing, looking at Jimin with those love filled eyes he had stared at me with not long ago. 

My heart. . .no, my world shattered right in front of my eyes in that moment. My breathing quickened, tears stung my eyes, and the feeling of betrayal swirled within me. I did the only thing I could think of and ran. I turned and fled the scene, I ran all the way home, locked my door and cried till I was nothing more than a shell of myself. Till I was just there, staring at the wall unable to do much else by this point. I was done, and the pain never went away.d

---END FLASHBACK---

That's why I'm standing here in the chilly autumn air, staring over the horizon. These are my final thoughts as the cars rushed by behind me. I tried to move on, ignore the pain and have a normal life. I couldn't do it, the pain was just too much, especially when Jimin invited Taehyung to hang out with us. I knew Namjoon could tell what was up, but I was already done by that point. Maybe if something was said, I wouldn't be here today on what would have been mine and Taehyung's four month anniversary.

I breathed a heavy sigh as I clutched the necklace Taehyung gave me tightly in my hand. I climbed up into the railing of the bridge and turned my attention to the icy waters below. I reached out and first dropped the necklace into the waters below, watching it disappear under the icy depths. Frozen tears streaked my cheeks as I turned and faced the cars going by. No one cares about a heartbroken nobody. My best friend betrayed me, my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend, and I was too stupid too see it be fire I was hurt too badly.

I won't be around anymore after this. I won't feel anything, no pain, sadness or heartache. I will be free from this forever. 

As I stretched my arms out, looking as if I was ready for a giant hug or to fly away, I let myself fall backwards. My eyes closed as the air around me wrapped me in a chilling blanket. The water converged around me like an icy cocoon just as the air was forced from my lungs. One thought lingered in my mind as life slipped away from me leaving me in eternal darkness.

"Forever is a lie. . ."