Direct Messages | @its.seodark
Today, 03:21 am

its.seodark
> hey
> I hope you're sleeping well, dreaming sweetly
> here I am, somehow missing you..

> I wish I could treat you better
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> the sunset was pretty today. It made me think of you.
Seen, 03:25 am

> you're awake

honey.lix
I can't sleep.. <

its.seodark
> I'm sorry for being so cruel that day
> I know how much it hurts you when I question your sincerity in your feelings for me
> I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking about what I was saying

honey.lix
I'm sorry too <
I brought it up anyway <
it's not your fault okay <

its.seodark
> Why are you taking the blame? I knew how hurtful it is yet I said it, so I'm really sorry
> it isn't you, Felix.. I promise it isn't you
> I'm the problem

honey.lix
Is it something we can't fix ..? <

its.seodark
> I don't know
> I was at the wrong place at the wrong time
> It should've been someone better

honey.lix
I'm not asking for someone better, am I? <

its.seodark
> Well.. Someone who can treat you better

honey.lix
"I hope the love that your heart calls for
could one day be me." <
You said that <
Then why..? <
When it happened, you pushed me away <

its.seodark
> I was dumb
> not that I'm not dumb anymore
> I'm not pushing you away,,

honey.lix
You are.. Otherwise you'd show me the real you <

its.seodark
> I guess that's what I don't want to do
> it's not easy, Lix

honey.lix
You can take your time right..? <
You wouldn't leave, right? <

its.seodark
> I haven't left so far, have I?
> I'm still here

honey.lix
Thanks for that <
For not just ditching me and disappearing lol <

its.seodark
> haha
> you're the one that should ditch me
> actually, I'm surprised you haven't already

honey.lix
How would I ? <
I'm sure you haven't forgotten,, how I 'feel' bit let's not talk about that <

its.seodark
> yeah
> besides all that, how have you been?

honey.lix
Mm sad <
Do you think SpearB is okay..? <

its.seodark
> What

honey.lix
You didn't know? He's on hiatus but I don't
know why <
Chris didn't write any explanation on the post <

its.seodark
> I'm pretty sure SpearB would want you to worry about yourself first, Lix

honey.lix
SpearB does not know I exist <
Oh wait, j.one did say once before that he noticed me? I'm not sure tho <
I think I've spoken to CB97 most <
I want SpearB to notice me like that T^T <

its.seodark
> well
> maybe SpearB is closer than you think

honey.lix
How so..? What does that mean? <

its.seodark
> sometimes you have to stop trying
> stop trying so hard to reach, then you'll reach it with no difficulties

honey.lix
Are you by any chance implying I should stop trying to get closer to you ... <

its.seodark
> maybe~ who knows?

honey.lix
I just can't help but wonder <
Is there anything I could do ? <
Yknow, to make things better between you and I <

its.seodark
> you don't have to, Lix
> you're not the problem, it's me and it has always been me

honey.lix
It can't be something we cannot work on together.. <

Yknow, I'll wait <
It's okay if it takes a long time <

As long as you don't leave and I'll become a
better person myself so Yknow we can <
I don't know <

its.seodark
> better? You can't be better than this because that's not possible
> You're perfect as you are
> I'm the reason we didn't work out
> so don't be so harsh on yourself, sunflower

honey.lix
S-Sunflower? <

its.seodark
> yes;; unless you don't like it?
> you're like a sunflower in a field of roses
> identical roses, all dyed the same colour but there you are, standing out amidst the sea of red

honey.lix
....But who would bother to pick a sunflower
in a field of roses? <

its.seodark
> don't be like that
> that you're different is already a good thing

honey.lix
Thank you.. <

its.seodark
> there's nothing to thank me for

honey.lix
I thought of changing my hairstyle again <

its.seodark
> nice, will I see it? 👀

honey.lix
Obviously >< I'll do it tomorrow and make
a post <

its.seodark
> I'm sure it'd look great.
> you should get some rest, catch you later?

honey.lix
Yes okay :D <
Good night <

its.seodark
> Take care of yourself, Felix
> I'm sorry about it again

honey.lix
It's okay <33 I'm fine <
Take care~ <
Seen

a;n
Yknow sometimes it feels like things are getting better but then you stop and realise no, nothing's gotten better and even after years you'd be wondering what you could've done differently to make that person open up and make things work- ok I'll stop my depressing speech 😂😂😂