"Jimin, will you help me?"

"Yes."

Yoongi looked back at Jimin who sat next to him on the bed. There were still traces of tears streaked down the elder's face, but his facial expression changed at Jimin's response. Yoongi gripped on to the comforter underneath him as he bit his bottom lip, gazing into the younger's eyes, contemplating his next move.

His eyes held interest, sadness, and a glimpse of... lust?

Jimin gulped. He has never seen this sort of expression directed at him from the older, and if he's being honest, it made his heart thump like crazy. He has no idea what has gotten into his friend, but he's starting to understand the older's insinuations.

"H-hyung..." was all the brunette was able to murmer out before Yoongi shoved his shoulders so his back hit the mattress, the older climbing on top of him, holding himself up with his hands on either side of Jimin's head. Yoongi quickly leaned down to press a chaste kiss against the younger's plump lips, pulling back again to study Jimin's face, which at the moment, has a deep blush and an expression of disbelief and confusion. He was searching for approval from Jimin. All that could be heard in the room was the sound of their heavy breathing.

For Jimin, this is the first time his crush has ever kissed him and this whole situation was sending his mind- and other things -on a frenzy.

"Please." Yoongi took a deep breath and fixated his eyes with the younger's. "Jimin, I need this. Please help me... help me get over her."

Jimin knew what the older was meant, especially when Yoongi pulled Jimin's hand down to feel his semi-hardened crotch, and at the moment he didn't care if Yoongi was wanting to use him. Yoongi was desperate for a distraction.

Jimin would always be there for the older. Jimin always caved. Jimin always gave the older what he wanted, even if he knew it would be at the expense of himself. Jimin always said yes.

At least he would be losing his virginity to someone he loved, even if his love didn't love him back. He didn't care about himself in this moment; he cared about Yoongi.

Yoongi needed a distraction desperately. That's all that Yoongi had running through his mind.

"O-okay... yes hyung" Jimin let out and gasped when the older smashed his lips onto his.

Jimin lets himself melt into the second kiss, wrapping his arms around the older's neck and lets out a contented sigh. Yoongi wasted no time in deepening the kiss, tilting his head to the side, sliding his hands down to Jimin's waist. Yoongi lightly drug his tongue across the younger's bottom lip, asking for entrance. Jimin was hesitant to comply, but when Yoongi barely slipped his fingers underneath his sweater and gripped onto the smooth skin, the younger let out a breathy moan at his touch, which gave Yoongi the advantage.

The blonde slipped his tongue inside Jimin's mouth, and massaged it against the younger's. This was so different for the both of them.

And it was a little too rushed for Jimin.

Yoongi's movements were fast, and clearly rebounded lust driven. The older grinds down against Jimin's crotch, causing Jimin to pull away from the kiss to let out a loud moan. Yoongi continued the action, kissing down the other's neck. Jimin could feel that the older was already hard as he grinded down more aggressively.

"Ahh!" Jimin moaned out as Yoongi sucked on a specific spot on his neck. Yoongi pulled Jimin up for a moment to swiftly pull off his sweater, along with his own shirt, before hovering back over him. He let his hands explore the younger's body, but there was nothing too intimate and loving about his touches. They were rough and rushed, desperate even.

Jimin let Yoongi touch him wherever he desired, but kept his own hands secure on the older's shoulders to keep himself grounded. His head was spinning at this point. When Yoongi let his hand hover over Jimin's member, the brunette couldn't help but thrust upward in dire need for some more friction. Yoongi took the hint and went to unbutton his jeans. He looked up and met the younger's gaze for verbal approval.

"Yes... It's okay, Yoongi" Jimin whispers. Of course Jimin was nervous. He's never been intimate in this way before because no one was ever good enough- because they weren't Yoongi.

But Yoongi, himself, wasn't making this experience the most comfortable one. He was missing the gentle caresses and sweet kisses scattered on different parts of his body from someone who's supposed to truly care about him. But in this exchange, he was basically soliciting himself to Yoongi and he felt a little disgusted by himself.

He needs this, Jimin. That's what he was telling himself.

Yoongi nods once and continues. He pulls down Jimin's pants and boxers in one swoop, leaving him completely exposed. The brunette's instincts were to cover himself in embarrassment and look away, his face turning a bright red.

"Don't cover yourself." Yoongi demanded, removing Jimin's hands from his lower region. Yeah, Jimin and Yoongi have been friends for a very long time. They've changed in front of each other, which as they got older would always turn the younger into a blushing mess, but this is completely different than then. Now, Yoongi could see everything.

Yoongi took a moment to remove his own pants and boxers, tossing them somewhere across the room along with Jimin's. Underneath him, Jimin couldn't help but gasp at the size difference between them. It partially had to do with the fact that Jimin is a male carrier and they tend to be on the smaller side, but still, he wasn't expecting Yoongi to be that much larger.

He could only worry that this was probably going to hurt... a lot, but he didn't care too much if it was all for Yoongi.

The blonde caught Jimin staring at his member and couldn't help but smirk. "Don't worry, I'll make sure to prep you good. I won't let it hurt," he said reassuringly. Jimin nodded and closed his eyes, relishing in the feeling of Yoongi rubbing his thighs. The older paused his actions for a moment to ask if Jimin had any lube.

"T-top drawer of my n-nightstand" he stuttered out. Jimin could feel Yoongi's weight shift on the bed as he reached for the lubricant, and heard the crack of the bottle being opened.

Yoongi poured an overly generous amount, coating three of his finger for an easier glide inside. He let himself look into the other's eyes, searching for any signs of resistance but didn't see any. "Do i-it" the doe-eyed boy below him whimpered as he spread open his legs, ready to be prepped.

Yoongi grabbed ahold of Jimin's erection and slowly began to pump him, causing Jimin to shiver at the euphoric feeling of finally being touched. Watching Jimin get so wrecked by just this made Yoongi's dick twitch. With his other hand, the older reached down, circling one of his lubricated fingers around Jimin's rim and pushed it all the way inside without warning. He carefully watched for any expression of pain, but so far so good. When he inserted a second finger, Jimin winced at the feeling of being stretched.

Yoongi halted his movements, looking at the smaller with slight concern, but Jimin didn't want him to stop. "I'm okay, hyung... Please, k-keep going." Yoongi nodded and proceeded to stretch him open to where he's able to put in a third finger. Jimin bit down on his bottom lip hard as a single tear trailed down his face. This was taking longer than Jimin had expected it to.

"I'm sorry" Yoongi muttered, "I'm really sorry". That being said, he searched for Jimin's special spot, curling his fingers up. When he finally found it, Jimin released a loud moan.

"There! Oh my god... Again!" The blonde complied, proud to receive that reaction, sending the other into further bliss.

Jimin whined when Yoongi withdrew his fingers and got off of the bed. The younger leaned up on his elbows and looked at him in confusion and disappointment. "Hyung... Why did you stop??" He whined, tears filling his eyes because he was so close to reaching his climax.

Yoongi found his pants in the pile of randomly thrown clothes, slipped his hands in one of the pockets, and pulled out a small gold packet held between two fingers. "Condom."

"Ohh... um... you don't have to. I'm on the pill," Jimin admitted. It was true he started taking birth control about a month ago to help regulate his ovulation cycle.

Yoongi nodded and tossed the package somewhere on Jimin's bedroom floor and climbed back on top of the smaller male. He spread Jimin's legs open, giving him a perfect view of his clenching entrance.

Jimin couldn't make eye contact with the older because this was all too surreal... and kinda awkward. The sound of the lube bottle opening made Jimin jolt, while Yoongi slathered his cock with more lube, pumping himself a few times before aligning himself at Jimin's entrance.

"You ready?" the older asked.

"Yes."

With that, the blonde pushed the tip inside, stretching Jimin's walls even further than his fingers could. Jimin couldn't help but wrap his legs around Yoongi's waist and cling onto his shoulders, digging his fingernails into them in the process, as Yoongi pushed himself deeper inside.

The pain was more than Jimin had imagined it would be. "H-hurts" Jimin cried, as tears streaked down his cheeks. This was probably the most painful thing he has ever felt. Was he not prepped well enough? He tried not to think too much about it, but he couldn't help it. He was gasping for breath and squinting his eyes shut.

"I'm sorry, Chim." Yoongi breathed out, relishing in how amazing the younger felt clenching around his member, but he tried to still. "L-let me know when I can move."

Something about the way Yoongi called him by his nickname made Jimin's heart sink. The way Yoongi said it so monotonously and insincere destroyed Jimin. It was like the older was purposefully trying to close himself off from Jimin emotionally.

After a couple more seconds, Jimin whispered, "Go ahead."

The older slowly pulled back all the way and pushed himself back in, starting up an achingly slow rhythm to make Jimin at least a little more comfortable. He was looking for the spot that would help send the boy underneath him over the edge. Luckily, it didn't take him too long to find it, and he knew he had when Jimin screamed out, "Yoongi! Ahh... There again. I n-need it there again!"

Yoongi wasn't going to refuse the smaller's demand, so he made sure to hit the same spot, but more intently and faster, grunting as he continued toward his own release.

"Oh my god" Jimin moaned out at a particularly hard thrust to his prostate. He loved the feeling of his crush inside of him, even if it was leaving a bit of a burning sensation.

Even in the current situation, there was something so special to him about being with his hyung in this way. Though, he knew that this was just sex to Yoongi. "I'm close." Jimin panted.

Yoongi reached down and started stroking Jimin's member at a fast pace to help him reach his high. It didn't take much for streaks of white to be painted across both of their chests, leaving Jimin an absolute panting mess.

Yoongi hadn't quite reached his peak yet, so he continued to thrust harder. His face devoid of any emotion at this point, like he was hiding it all.

Seeing this only hurt Jimin more. More tears began to fall from his eyes, not because of physical pain but emotional, but at least Yoongi couldn't tell the difference.

The blonde gave one last, hard thrust before spilling inside the younger.

Heavy breathing was the only sound to be heard in Jimin's bedroom. Yoongi slowly pulled out of the brunette with a wince and laid down beside him, trying to catch his breath. Jimin was so out of it from what had just happened that the only thing that made sense at the moment was sleep. He didn't want to comprehend what all just happened quite yet.

"Can you hold me?" Jimin nervously asked his best friend that he just had sex with. Yoongi flashed him a forced, small smile and pulled the younger into his chest in a spooning position, draping his arm over the petite man, but Yoongi knew he was only doing it because of the guilt he was feeling.

He shouldn't have done this. He knew Jimin was a virgin, and he knew he just stole it from him for his own selfish reasoning. But in the heat of the moment, he couldn't help himself. He reached over to turn off the nearby lamp.

"Goodnight, Yoongi."

"Goodnight, Chim."

Jimin fell asleep, silently crying to himself.

How can I be so stupid?

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So here you go! Over 2200words of smut, but man this hurt me to write! I have never written smut before, so sorry if it's not any good.

Just a warning, the next chapter will have some Triggering content. It is for story development.

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