She wakes up In the morning ... Held her head in her hand tried to sit on the floor ...

She looked here and there ... Everything was shattered near her just like her heart ...

But she ... She don't regrets loving him ... Love is not a thing to regret ... Not a sin to commit ... It is just the purest feeling a human heart can ever feel ...

But the pain it gives is intolerable ... Sana ... Who was always deprived of love ... From her father ... Her mother was too much into her sorrow ... But she gave her alot of love which she can give till her childhood

Her Mary aunty who loved her like her own children ...

When she adopted Sana ... Sana was very reserved ... broken and not much expressive ...  She was just openimg up with Mary aunty when she passed away ... Leaving Sana alone again...

From that incident onwards she developed in her conscious mind not to get attached with anyone ... Not to fell in love with anyone as these feelings only cause pain ...

But the moment she saw Sid ... Her conscious mind felt weak infront of her heart ...

In the first eye lock her heart accepted him with everything ... Every emotion it ever had ...

She was just too much in love with him ... When she realised ... The feeling she felt was wonderful that it  cannot be said ... But when he just broked her heart ...

The moment he just said that he don't love her ... Her heart shattered ...

But still ... There were some hopes that maybe one day he will fell in love with her but neverthelessly her destiny is just too cruel towards her ... And the thing is she knows that really well still she tried to atleast give a
Chance ... But ... Everything has ever given her pain ... Nothing else in the whole world ... 

The hopes shattered in peices when he revealed that he is going to get hitched with someone else 💔

Eyes welled up again ...

As she crawled up in a ball ... Keeping her head on the knees ...

She so wished she would have had someone in her life who would love her ... Care for her ... But neverthelessly she had no one to care for ... To wait for her ...

No one is there for her ...  she is alone ... So alone ... It's difficult for her to even breath now as she crawled towards the drawer just to get her pump she had kept for safety ...

With much difficulty she inhaled it ... Finally getting some of her senses ... Composing her self back she stood infront of the mirror ...

Forget him Sana ... Eyes welled up but she wiped them harshly adamantly kept saying ... But seems like her her heart is in so much pain that her tears didn't stopped... It felt like thousands of needles peirced her heart ...

Wo kyu nhi hai mera ... She whispered for a second again felling in her sorrow when suddenly her conscious mind mocks her ... Her anger roses for her own self ... As she yelled in frustration

Wo kisi or ka hone jaa raha hai damnit ... Just forget him .... She picked up the vase from the table and throws it towards the mirror shattering it into peices ...

Just forget him ... Wo kisi or ka ho e jaa raha hai ... Tu koi nhi hai uski ... She yelled her heart her insecurities finally end up felling on her knees with the thud ...

She was crying but had no one who can wipe her tears ... Who can console ... Never ever in her life before she had felt so vulnerable like now ... She was shattered ...

She wiped her years harshly but it was not in her control as they kept on rolling down ...

Frustrated looking here and there founded a broken glass peice ... She just picked it up and crudhed it up in her palm ... The glass was not damaged but her hand was brutally peirced with it ...

But she felt no pain ... No freaking pain but a satisfaction that now she actually had a reason to cry ... Dropped it down and silently just made her way out of the house ordering the staff to keep it clean .. 

Just like she was just driving aimlessly her state was a mess ... Hairs scattered all over ... Her hand was peirced blood kept oozing out ... But she didn't give any importance to it ... Maybe it was for the first she is experience something like this that is hurting her so freaking much ...

Stopped the car as soon as she saw an old lady crossing the road with alots of bags in her hand ...

Looked here and there ...

As she gets down .... Her car just to help her ...

The lady was trying to get all the bags in her hand when Sana called her ...

Aunty .. it was a mere whisper ... As the lady looked at her with a small smile adoring her face smiling Sana was already in awe of the lady ... She was just looking so kind and loving ... Her vibe is something different ...

Jii bache ? ... The lady whispered then looked at t her surroundings she was just in the middle of the road ... Smacking her head she said sorry and moved to side ....

Sana nodded her head silently getting back to her seat .... When she saw that lady walking ... Holding that bags with great difficulty

She moved her car stopping just infront of her she whispered

Should I drop you aunty ? ... Sana ask politely ...

Nhi bache main chali jaungi thank you ... She whispered

The lady smiled ...

Main chorh deti hu aapko aunty... Abhi shayad koi auto bhi nhi milega ... Aaiye na pls ... On her insisting the lady reluctantly agreed as Sana kept her back in the back seat and opened the car door for the lady making her smile ...

Sana sat down on the driving seat ... And started to drive ... As per as the lady told ...

Waise bache aapne apna naam nhi bataya ? ...

Aunty main shehnaaz ... Aap Sana bulaiye mujhe ... She whispered eyes stuck on the road ...

Shehnaaz ? ... Shehnaaz Kaur gill ? ... Hayeee mera beta bhi aapki company main hi kaam karta hai ? ...

Achaa ... Kon aunty ? ... Sana asked ... Smiled a little sensing the excitement in that's lady's voice ...

Sidharth ... Sidharth.... Shukla ... Rita maa whispered proud of her son ...

Sana breath stucked ... Her eyes welled up as she tightened her hold on the steering .... Her hand started to bleed making Rita maa scared ... And shocked. ..

Ye kya hai ? ... Gadi rok ... Rita maa yelled in panick as Sana stopped the car on the side ...

Blinking back her tears looked at her ...

Rita maa held her hand ... Which was bleeding badly ...

Kaise hua ye ? ... She asked ...

Chot lag gyi thi aunty bas .... Sana whispered not meeting her eyes ...

Tu chl .... Yaha paas main hi hospital hai ... Chl bache ... Dard ho raha hai ? ... She asked Sana nodded her head in no twitching her lips Rita maa heart welled up as she sensed the girl being in pain ...

Drive mat kar .... Yahi hai ...thodi der main aa jaa ... Rita maa hurriedly gets down ... And took Sana with herself ... To the nearby hospital it was just walking distance ....

The doctor checked her wound ... It was deeply cutted ... Her viewed if there is any peice pf mirror ... But thankfully there was nothing in that wound ... He applied the ointment and  gave her medicine ...

Both the ladies made there way to her car ... As she drives again ... But this time she was careful as she w
Didn't wanted to get scolded by rita maa again ...

Apna dhyaan rakah kar bache aise nhi chalta ! ... Tu na Zara baat Karan meri apni mummy se main complaint karungi teri unse ... Rita maa threatened

Sana smiled painfully while driving ...

Meri mumma nhi hai aunty ... She whispered

Mera koi nhi hai .... She chuckled painfully ... Looking sidewise. .. rita maa felt bad...

Sorry ... Rita maa whispered

Sana nodded her head in yes ...

And they started talking on random things ...

As they reached her home rita maa offered ....

Aajaa andar ...

Nhi aunty ... Sana whispered she didn't wanted to face sidharth ...

Aajaa chal drame na kar ... Main Patti bhi change kar dungi ... Jaldi aaja ... Nashta karke jaana ... Rita maa said dominating but her voice held love ... In no time she was sure that this girl is something which is too pure ... But in too much pain ....

Maybe that's what a mother's heart is ... They can depict If there child is in pain ...

Sana didn't wanted to go ... But somewhere her heart wanted to see him ... To know him ... Her freaking heart is not in her control and she knows it ...

Nodding her head she made her way in the house. ..

The house which witnessed them becoming friends ...

The same house which going to witness him marrying someone else ... Loving someone else ... Her heart shatters every freaking moment ...

Heart shuddered as she moved in the house holding the bags Rita maa was insisting to take that but she helped her ...

She entered in ... Her eyes scanned the whole house trying to find that one person ... Which soothed her heart ...

Rita maa took that bags from her hand keeping it on the side table ... She made her way towards the kitchen to get a glass of water for her ...

Where as Sana ... Stood there with her eyes looking here and there looking for him ... She can't help her heart ... Who just wanted to see ... Maybe just for once ...

Bas ek jhalak... I promise you will never see me again ...

She whispered her heart ...

As soon as her eyes fell on that one person who soothes her heart ....

He came in the living room ... Yawning ...

Whrn he opened his eyescm.. she was there right infront of him ... Her eyes held blankness ...

His face was paled ... Her lips were not curled up in a smile ... But instead they were upset ... And quivering ...

He looked at her eyes ... Her eyes welled in immense pain ... Which confused him ...

He made her way towards her but rita maa came there with a glass of water ...

She handles the water to Sana as she took with her shivering hands ...

Thank you aunty ... She whispered

I must leave now ... She said ...

Rita maa tried to say something but ... She said bye and left as soon as possible

He frowned ... As she didn't even talked with him ... And made his way back to his room silently which confused Rita maa a little ...

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He stood infront of the mirror ... All silent .... His heart was blank mind was blank ... Eyes were blank as he remembered her painful eyes ...

He smiled painfullyyy in tears ...

Bohot dard Diya na baby ... I am sorry ... Par ... Mera or tumhara milna possible nhi hai ... We are not meant for eachother ... is Janam main nhi ... But ... I wish ke agle janam ... Hum zaroor mile ...

Feelings hai ... Par main nhi chahta ke ye feelings badhe ... Because now i am going to become someone else's

Mujhe samjhana hai khud ko ... Batana hai ... In feelings ko apne dil main dabana hai ... In aankhon se wo khwahishen chupana hai ... Par kaise ... Kaise ... Jab ... Dil nhi maanta ... His eyes welled up ... He had always been a person who is like "jo hoga dekha jayega" he never thought of any freaking thing so deeply ...

But ... The girl ... He has feeling for. .. has changed him alot ... And changed him for good ...

I don't know how will i be able to deal with it.... He calmed himself down ...

Today is his roka ceremony ... Where some gifts will be exchanged and there marriage will be announced with the presence of some of the close relatives and family ....

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Sana kyu hurt Hui ? Aage kya hoga any guesses?

Acha I'll be back in 6 days ❤️

Suno ... Ek shayari .. meri nhi satinder sartaj ki ...

Kuch mohorrat toh haasil Karo mohobbat main ...
Kuch mohorrat toh haasil Karo mohobbat main ...

Kuch hidayaat kuch mashwaraat likho ...
Jitni tum jaante ho sartaj ... Jitni tum jaante ho sartaj

Utni baat likho ❤️