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Mujhe kyu itna bura lag raha hai ? ... She asked her own self ... As she took the support of the table to steady herself ...
Nhi mujhe itna bura nhi lagna chahiye na ? ... Main toh sirf uski dost ... Her voice breaks ...
Her eyes welled up ... As a long tear rolled down her eyes ...
Sirf uski dost hi toh hu ... She whispered her heart breaking every second as she whispered it ...
She don't know the feelings ...
Her own self is suffocating her ... Her heart who is yearning for him ... Nad her mind who is mocking her that she is falling in love ...
The fear ... The fear of falling in love is buried deep inside her ... It is carved on her soul ... She can't take it out ...
Not so easily ... Not just in a second when it took years to her to made up her mind to never ever fall in love ...
She is feeling... That she betrayed her own self by developing the feelings in her heart for him ...
Tears fell down drop by drop from her eyes ... Her heart is scared her soul is scared ...
Sudden anger rushed in her veins as she slides her hand vigorously in the table letting all the things fell down from the table ...
A sharp thing peirced the skin of her hand making her bleed ...
Breaths higher ... Overthinking mind ... Scared heart ...
Everything soon amde her anxious ... This was something new ... Something she never faced ... Even the one little action the one little thing related to him ... Triggered her emotions ... Her mind and her body reacting to the buried emotions this made her blank ... Her heart very well know that even in a very small time she has fallen very hard for him ...
Her mind blanked out ... But her heart felt peace ...
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It's been two days ... He is on leave ... She didn't called him ... Maybe she don't know from where she should start the conversation... When she was not in the right state of mind ... The every second of the two days ... She longed to see him ...
Longed to hear him ...
Her feelings bubbled up ... Overpowering her mind as she finally decided that ...
She won't keep her feelings hidden atleast not from him ...
He has the right to know the feelings maybe he could held her to get the conclusion and got out of the mess she had created in her mind ...
She was in her own thoughts anxiously rappu gvher phone on her hand ...
For the first time in a while the shehnaaz Kaur gill is feeling nervous to make a call ...
Finally came to the end as she decided to message him ...
Hi ... Sidharth ... I want to meet you ... At xyz cafe ... Today 8 pm I'll be waiting ...
She types but feels anxious on sending it gathering herself she send it ...
After some long 15 min ... His reply came ...
Ok ..
From his reply only she could guess that he is upset ... Extremely upset about something ... But thought to meet him then ask ...
A sudden excitement rushed in her as she started giggling thinking of the evening ...maybe it's their first official date ...
She giggles twirling around her cabin ... For the first time she is so happy ...
Maybe for some seconds her feelings overpowered but a sudden fear arised ...
What if he denied her feelings ? .... What he never felt the way she feels for him .... Her heart shuddered lips quivered at the thought ....
She had wrapped her worled early ... And got him till 6pm ... Got ready in a beautiful short dress ...
She looked at her again in the mirror ... Though her heart is scared but still she was adamant to confess ... She don't want anything in between them ...
She wanted him to know what she feels and if he doesn't feels that same them she needs to control her feelings ...
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She had reached the cafe before the time ... It was small beautiful and elegant she had made some arrangements in the back garden attached with the cafe ...
The arrangements were beautiful ...
She was just adoring them ... When felt a wave of relief calmed down her senses ... As soon as his manly cologne hitted her .... She felt intoxicated ... In his presence ...
She is feeling him taking steps near her ...with each steps his heart beats were louder .... She closed her eyes letting the feeling ... The presence engulf her in every possible way ...
He was playing with his fingers ... His face had a innocent expression making her heart flutter as soon as she turned around and looked at him ...
Blood rushed towards her cheeks suddenly ... As she looked at him with the feelings ... The love that filled her eyes
His heart fluttered as it recognises the feelings in her eyes ...
The last two days without him flashed in her mind that how his absence effected her ... Maddened her ...
Made her restless like never before ...
She immediately rushed in his arms ... He was taken aback with her sudden action but slowly wrapped his hands around her ... As her smell intoxicated his senses ...he closed his eyes finally feeling her ...
Damn he missed her ... He missed her being in his arms ... He missed her so freaking much ....
After the long two days ... She is finally near him ...
Feelings overpowered as he wrapped his arms more tightly around her fragile frame ...
A long tear of longingness rolled down her eyes .... As she digged her face deep in his neck ... Making him feel butterflies in his stomach ...
Suddenly his mind came back in his senses as he opened his arms ... broke the hug taking a step back from her ... Making her feel dejected but she brushed her thoughts ...
Kaisa hai ... She reached to keep her hand on his cheek but he steps back a little ... She took her hand back ... Not showing but deep down his action hurted her ...
Main thik hu ... Tu bol kyu bulaya tune ? ... He asked looking down he was feeling guilty for feeling that emotions whole having her in his arms ...
Baith na ... She whispered ignored his question ...
He nodded ... And sat down ... The ambience was making him a little uncomfortable ...plus he was disturbed from his mind ...
Bol ? ... He asked ... He just wanted to leave from here as soon as possible
She suddenly felt nervous looked down in her lap ... Playing with her fingers ...
Tum ko paaya hai toh jaise khoya hu
Kehna chahu bhi toh tumse kya kahu ? ... ❤️
Looked up with her deep blue eyes ... And whispered ...
Mohobbat hogyi hai aapse ...
She whispered he was taken aback by her sudden confession ...
She reached to held his hand where as he was just too shocked to react ...
Pata nhi sidharth kaise ...par mujhe pyaar hogya hai tumse ...
Shayad jab pehli Nazar dekha tab se hi ... Nhi pata ...
Main nhi jaanti ... Kaise hua ... Ye bhi nhi jaanti ... Janti hi toh sirf ye ki haan .. hogya hai mujhe tumse pyaar ... Main nhi chahti thi tumhe chahu ... I didn't wanted to fall in love ever ...
Main chahti nhi thi ... Darti thi ... Pyaar se ... Par phir tum aaye ... I don't know ke tum bhi ...
Before she could continue he got up from the seat ... She felt her heart shattered the moment she looked up at his expression less face. ..
She got up from her seat ...
He didn't said anything and was about to leave when she held his hand ...
Her eyes welled up ...
Sidharth ... She whispered looking back ...
Shehnaaz leave ... He whispered it's difficult for him to control himself ...
Atleast meko ye toh bata de ki tu ... Her voice breaked
Ye galat hai. ... He finally whispered and reluctantly removed her hand from his ... her touch is suddenly making him extremely uncomfortable
She had got the idea from his action. Took her hand back ... Sniffed ... Blinked her tears back ...
Kyu galat hai ? .... She asked her voice breaked ...
Just like her heart ...
Kyuki i am going to get married ... He whispered his eyes welled up gradually ... As he saw her eyes filled up again ...
He turns his head around a lone tear escaped his eyes ... He hurriedly wiped it and left from there ...
Flashback ...
Sidharth and niya reached his home ... Both of them stood together ... On the door and were about to get inside when he listened the convo between Rita maa and niya's mother ..
Main bohot khush hu ridhi ... Ke hamari dosti rishtedari main badalne wali hai ...
Mujhe niya bohot pasand hai or main bohot khush kismat hu jo mujhe uske jaisi bahu mil Rahi hai .... Wo perfect hai sidharth ke liye ... Rita maa said ...
While niya's mom just smiled ... The smile was not generous but forced ... Niya blushed fakely whereas sidharth stood shocked ...
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After niya and her mom left he sat down near rita ma. And kept his head on her lap ... As she lovingly caressed his hairs ...
Before he could speak ... Rita maa whispered
Sidharth ... Tu khush toh hai na mere is faisle se ? ... Sorry tujhse pooche bina ...
Nhi maa ... He cuts her ...
Aapka jo bhi faisla hai ... Mujhe manzoor hai ... He closed his eyes ...
Mujhe pata tha Mera beta mujhe kabhi mana nhi karega ...
Niya bohot achi ladki hai ... Tera bohot dhyaan rakhegi ... Rita maa whispered
Tu karega na usse shadi ? ... Rita maa asked lovingly ...
Aap jo bhi chahoge ... Main karunga maa ... Sidharth whispered never ever in his life he denied his mother ...
Even if his happiness is on stake ... His mother is happy. .. he is happy ...
His mother is his only family he loves her more than anything ... He kissed his mother's hand ... And took her to the room ... He made her sleep ... And rested outside on the couch ...
Just as when he closed his eyes .... Sana's face flashed infront of his eyes ...
He immediately opened his eyes ... His heart beating vigorously ... He knows he has some sort of feelings for her ... But ... That is wrong ... He is a loyal person and now he belongs to someone else's .... He looked out of the window at the moon ...
Hume tumse pyaar Kitna
Ye hum nhi
Jaante ...
Magar jeee nhi sakte
Tumhare binaa ...
He whispered... Eyes closed as he saw her face .... She was giggling happily ...
Looking at him .... Opened her arms for him to engulf just as when he was about to hug her ... She dissappeared
He opened his eyes and hugged his own self ... A tear of longingness rolled down his eyes ... He needs to kill the feelings for sana ... Before going to become niya's ...
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He gets into the cab and headed towards his home ... His heart is so much in pain ... Her hurtful yet welled up eyes kept flashing infront of his eyes ...
Making him vulnerable ... He closed his eyes and broshed his heart he knows that today he broke her heart ... But the pain he was bearing was not at all less ...
Sana stood there shocked ... And shattered suddenly collapsed to the ground ... Her eyes welled up ...
I am going to get married
The words echoed in her ears ...
If he would have told her that he don't love her for once she could have beared the pain ... But how can she bear him getting married to someone else ?...
Her voice choked ... Tears rolled down her eyes ...
She looked down ...
Aisa bhi kya milna
Saath hoke tanha
Aise kyu saza humne hai payi
Raanjhana ve 💔
I love you Siddharth ... I just loved you ... Jaanti hu expectations rakh liye the isiliye ye sab bohot hurt ho raha hai ... Kuch toot raha hai ... Dil ke alawa ... Maybe ... Bohot ummedein jaga Li thi....
Dil ko pata toh tha ke kahi na kahi aisa kuch hoga ... Her voice choked as remembered her feelings ... Her fear ...
Par phir bhi ummedein jaga Li ... Sahi kehte ho gadhi hi hu ... Meri galti hai ... Jo ajjj maine ... Her voice choked ... she closed her eyes letting the strong Sana break down in her own self ... Tears fell ... The painful tears ...
She regretted telling him her feelings ... She felt rejected ... Dejected and broken ...
The way he removed her hand from his ... The way he moved back when she tried to touch him ...
Her heart shatters remembering that ... Is she that bad ? ... Her touch is that bad ? ...
He moved back as if her touch will burn him ... That hurted her ... Broke her expectations
Gradually. .. it's a human nature when a person started spending time with us ... We started expecting more from them ... Nad when athr expectations break that hurts alot ... That happened with Sana ... She started expecting more from him ... Somewhere expected that he too had feelings for her but ...
She was devastated ... And lost ...
She sniffed back her tears ... Gathered herself back ... Got up ... And left the cafe ....
She gets in the car and drove away ... Not to her home ... But to her safe place ...
She reache to her small yet cozy farm house away from the city ...
The farmhouse belonged to her mother ... It was maternal grandparents last thing that her mother had ...
She reached the farmhouse switched on the lights ... And looked here and there her eyes sparkled with tears ... as she remembered some of the moments she had spent with her mother ...
Tears rolled down her eyes ... Today for the first time she experienced heartbreak ...
Her heart shattered thinking what her mother had suffered is 1000 times more then her pain ... The thought made her so weak ...
She felt suffocated... Fell on her knees and cried hard ...
Mumma ... I miss you ... Aap kyu chale gye mujhe chorh kar ? ... Main buri hu na ? ... Aap bhi chale gye ... Maine sidharth ko kho Diya maa ... Wo ...Mera ... Dost tha wo ... Her breaths got higher ... She was feeling pain in her chest ...
She layed down on the floor ... Curled up .... She heart paining alot ...
Soon the darkness engulf her ...
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Maa ... Sana whispered as she saw her mother smiling looking at her ...
Sanavrab towards her mother weeping silently ...
Maa ... Aap mujhe le Jane aaye ho ? ... She whispered innocently
Main ... Mujhe nhi rehna is duniya main ... Mera koi nhi hai yaha ... Sab chod jaate hai maa ... Koi pasand nhi karta mujhe ... Koi pyaar nhi karta ... She complained to her mother ...
Her mother was just smiling making Sana frown ...
Maa maine jisse pyaar kiya .. her voice choked
Wo bhi mujhe chorh kar chala gya ... mujhe le jao maa pls ... Mujhe nhi rehna yaha ...
Her mother just tapped her cheek and whispered
Sab thik ho jayega .... Saying she disappeared
Maa ... Sana whispered
Maa ... Sana yelled getting up from her sleep ... She was sweating and crying ...
Curled up in a ball hugging her kees close to her heart ... She weeped her heart out ...
Mujhe nhi jeena maa ... Mujhe nhi jeena ...
I want to die ..... She screamed ... Panicked
I want to die ... She whispered keeping her head on her knees ...
She was in so much pain ... Her fear came true ... He broked her
Love is painful ... 💔
She finally experienced 💔
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