She came outside ... The wheel chair was dragged by kaushal ... As doctor had denied her to walk for a day ... Because of the stress and change of the heart beats ...

He stood there holding her reports already booked a cab for her ...

Chalein Ghar ... He came near her wearing a smile ... Hiding his emotions though already knowing her answer still asked...

Sidharth ...she whispered... Held his hand ... He looked at her ...still smiled though his eyes reflected so much pain ...

Main tumhare Ghar ni aa rahi ... Apne farm house jaa rhi hu ... Just wanting some time ... Or tum ... Meri fikr mat karo ...she stammers ...

Apna or maa ka dhyan rakho ... Good bye ...she whispered...

Kaushal ... Pls ... She whispered... Kaushal nods taking her wheelchair towards her car ...

While he stood there numb ... Not having anything left to react ... He twitched his lips trying to control his breaking heart ...

Dil mera hai na samajh kitna ?
Besabar hai bewakoof bada

Chahta hai kitna tujhe
Khud magar nahi jaan saka 💔

She turned and looked at him one last time with her welled up eyes ... Her heart screamed at him to just look back at her once ...

To just stop her ... To pull her in his arms ... Her heart wanting to cry holding him ... Letting out the pain which was making her empty

She smiles a little ... At his back before the car drives away ... Dhe sobs looking down ...
Keeping both of her palms over her face ...

Is dard-e-dil ki sifarish
Ab karde koi yaha

Ke mil jaye se wo baarish
Jo bhiga de poori tarah 💔

Nor her condition is good ... Nor his condition is stable ...

Both are broken yet finding there pain from eachother maybe because they didn't want them to know from what they are going through ...

Sana ... Who suffered her whole life ... For love ... Lost her everything in the battle of life ...she was on the edge of loosing herself when met him ...

But seems like her problems had no end on it ... Her father ... The biggest truth of her life ... The biggest stain of her whole childhood ...

Because of her father ...she lost her love also ...sidharth suffered because of her ... Every misunderstanding was created by him ...

But because of that ... Sidharth suffered ... Why didn't she died before giving him any kind of pain to suffer ...

(God my hands are shivering writing this 💔)

Sidharth ... Who has always been innocent... didn't had many people in his life his mother has always been his whole world ... For the first time in his life after his mother... He trusted someone ... Tried trusting someone ...

From the childhood everyone just took his advantage ...used him ...and thrown him from his life ... That had the biggest impact over his mental health ... He has trust issues ... But still keeping his every problem aside he still trusted Sana ... More then his compatibility but with the fear residing in his heart that she can also broke him ...

Along with the thoughts of loosing her ...

When he saw that video clip ... The fear of being betrayed overpowered his senses ..

But still he tried ...he still tried ..  but the circumstances were always like this ...

All the feelings were new ....the feeling of love was new but the feeling of being betrayed was old ...and it happens when sometimes our old fears overpowers our present .. effecting out future ... That's what happened with him ...

Even he wasn't at fault ... Even he suffered for love his whole life ...

But still hide his every pain behind his beautiful yet the most innocent smile ...

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Sidharth tere liye kuch aaya hai ... The next morning Rita maa said ...

As soon as he came outside of his room ... His hands all bruised. .. his eyes had dark circles hairs messy ... As if he didn't even slept last night...

Kya hai ... He whispered his voice reflected the exhaustion ...

Kuch papers hai ...Rita maa whispered handling him that ...

As soon as he opened the package floor slipped beneath his feets ...

His eyes welled up ...so painfully ....his hands trembled holding them ... Tears stream down...

Di..di..vorce .... He stammered ...

His heart broke more ... As he saw her signature along with some dried marks of tears ...

Kuch saalan baad Yara
Je aave yaad Yara

Ankhan ta bhar layi ve
Papa wakh ho Jana hai

Ae gal pakki hai
Bas sabar jaa kar layi ve 💔

His kept it on the table ... And immediately goes outside ... Walking taking the auto to her farm house ...

It isn't that easy to break relationship... He can't loose her ... He can't...

As soon as the rikshaw stopped ... He made his way up the stairs opening the door .. everything was dark ...

As soon the sunlight hits her face ... She keeps her palm hissing ..

His heart broke seeing her scattered self .... she was laying on the floor all in darkness her eyes staring the ceiling blankly ...

Sid...har..th ...she stammered sitting with muh difficulty... Panting ...

He moved
Towards her didn't said anything snaked his arms around her lifting her frame in his arms ...

Rehne do pls ...she whispered with much difficulty ... He nods his head in no ...

Taking her upstairs... He made her sit on the couch. ...

Naaz ... I am sorry ... He whispered deliberately asking for apology ...

He can't loose her not at any cost ...

Kaisi maafi sidharth ... Kyu aaye yaha dobara ... Mere pass tumhe Dene ke liye kuch ni hai ... Maafi bhi nahi ...

Mat karo ... Dukh hota hai mujhe ... Taklif hoti hai ... Ke ajj meri wajah se tumhe itna sab kuch sehna pada ..

She whispered painfully as the tears rolled down ... Her every patience broke along with her heart ...

Mere pass mat ao ...she whispered standing up ...

Mat ao mere pass ... Barbaad ho jaoge tum ... Or mohobbat main log aabad hote hai barbaad nahi ... She whispered chuckling painfully walking away from him ..

Saza do ... Tum jo bologi main wo karunga oar tumhe chorh nahi sakta ... Main tumse pyaar karta hu ... He whispered for the first time when in his life he fell in love then why it is so painful ... People say that love is the most beautiful

But why not in his case ? ....why he needs to suffer along with her ...

Nahi karte tum mujhse pyaar ...she whispered...

Jhoot mat bolo ... Mera dil rakhne ke liye ... Kyuki agar ab mera dil toota toh main mar jaungi ... Main tumhe deserve nahi karti ...

Main nahi karti tumhe deserve ...

Just leave me pls ...she held his hand dragging him to the door of her room ... Then closing it sliding down with it ...

Main nahi karti tumhe deserve ... Main kisi ko deserve nai karti .... she yelled .. 

Kisi ko bhi nai ... Door raho mujhse ... Mujhse door raho ... She brokedown ...crying ... And mumuring the same thing again and again ...

He sat on his knees keeping his hand on the other side of the door trying to feel her presence..

Door ho jau ... Bhi toh kisse .. apne aap se bhala koi kaise door ho sakta hai naaz ...

Bachpan se ... Bhot logo ko khoya ..log suna kar gye ... He reminces his past ...

Kabhi bataya nahi ..  kabhi jataya nahi kyuki chahta nhi tha ke tumhe koi taklif pohoche ... Bachpan se ... I was the victim of bullying kyuki kamzor tha ... Gaaliyan ... Ye sab mujhse ni hota hai .. ladki keh ke chidate the ...

Trust issues hone lage ... Dhokha khaya .. even apne dosto se bhi ... Papa ke Jane ke baad ... I had no one ..  maa thi par wo apne dukh or unko apna dard batata bhi toh kaise ... Unke dukh ko or badhana nai chahta tha ...

He whispered opening his heart ...

Kehte hai ladke nai rote ... Bachpan se yahi kaha ... Toh muskurahat ke peeche dard chupa liya ... Bohot log mile par kisi par bhi itna trust nai tha ...jitna tum par tha ..  trust tha naaz .. trust tha ...

Par pta hi nhi chala kab wo dar ..  wo phir se dhokha khane ka dar ... Choot Jane ka dar ... Mere man main ghar kar gya ...

Tum par bharosa toh Kiya par dar ke saath ...

Or jab wo dar samne aaya ... Toh main apne aapko sambhal ni paya ... He whispered sobs like a baby ... Her heart broke ... Her sidharth suffered so much ...

And she was too drowned in her pain ...failed to notice the pain behind his smile ...

Sambhal ni paya khud ko ... Tum he hurt kiya ... Tumhara Dil toda ... Saza do naaz ... Par apne sidharthh ko chodo mat ... He kept his hand on the door ...

Us dar ko sach mat hone do pls ... Main jaanta hu main tumhare dosti ke ...tumhare pyaar ke ... Yaha tak ki tumhari maafi ke layak nahi hu ... Par faisla tumhare hath main hai ..

Shayad main layak hi nahi kisi ke ...tabhi toh sab chod hi jate hai kabhi na kabhi ... Kyuki main ... Jaane anjaane sab ko hurt kar deta hu ..he whispered drowning into his past ...

He has seen many people going away ... His own father ...who left him ... Though it was not in his hands but his father was his only support system

Sana came outside opening the door ... Sitting on her knees infront of him ...while he was too numb failed to register her presence ...

Her heart broke ... How painfully she landed him here in his past ...

Si.dha..rth ... She stammered calling him ...

Naaz ... He whispered looking up at her with his welled up eyes... Held her hand ...

Agar mujhse door reh kar tum khush rahogi ... Toh main tumhe di..vo..rce de..dunga ...

He stammered at last ... And smiled ... She nods her head in no .... Maybe her impulsive reaction broke him so brutally ... she comes closer ... Keeping her head on his heart ... Holding him ..

Tears rolled down both of there eyes ... As he wrapped his hands around her ...

Tumse door kaha jaungi ? ... Her lips quivered ...

Tumhe bhi pata hai tumhare alawa koi ni hai mera ... Koi bhi nai hai mera ...

Main pyaar toh wadh tenu pyaar Kara
Tainu sajda sohne lakh war Kara

Je din noo keh de tu raat mahi
Ve main raat samajh aitbaar Kara

Tumhare alawa ajj tak kabhi kisi se pyaar nai kiya sidharth ... Par shayad jisme tadap na ho wo pyaar nahi hota ...

Meri zindagi main toh koi tha hi nahi ... Akelepan ke alawa ... Par tumne mujhe us phase se bahar nikala ... Mujhe jeena sikhaya ... Hasna sikhaya ... she whispered opening her heart ...

Ve tere layi duniya nu chadeya
tere layi door apne kare

Ve main tainu kinna chauniya
Ae gal Teri soch toh pare

In palo main tumne mujhe zindagi di ... Ummedein di ...

Or phir unhe tod diya ...he whispered remorsefully ...

Shhhh ... She keeps her finger on his lips ...

Ummed hai... Itni asani se nayi tooti ... She whispered chuckling ...

Ummed toh mujhe ye bhi thi ke tum mujhe choroge nahi ... Nai choroge na ...she whispered her voice broke ...

Kabhi nahi ... He whispered holding her more protectively in his embrace ...she leans in his arms ...

Pata hai sidharth ... Main jab choti thi na ... Toh aise hi .. apni maa ke bahon main baitha karti thi ...she giggles...

Wo bhi aise hi mujhe sehlaya karti thi ... Jab ... Jab Mr. Gill ... Mujhse n
Un nafrat bhari aankhon se dekhte the ....toh meri maa ... Mujhe aise hi ... Apni baahon main chupa leti thi ...she giggles with her welled up eyes slipping in her past ...

Thodi badi hui ... Toh apne baap ko ... Meri maa ko dhokha dete hue dekha ... Wo mar gyi thi sidharth ... Meri maa ...mar gyi thi ... Ussi pal ... Jis din usne apne pati ko kisi or ke sath dekha tha ... Her hold on sidharth tightened ...

Wo mar gyi thi ... Wo mujhe chorh kar chali gyi ... Mrko lekar ni gyi ... Chorh gyi ... Mr..gill ne kaha ke ... Mera unse koi rishta ... Rishta hai hi nai. ..she gulps ...

Main ... He thrown me out of his house ... He ...Sana stammers ...

Shhh ... Mera bacha ... He caressed her back ...

Naj ajj ... dard bahar nikal ne do ... Wo bohot dard ho ra hai ... Dil toot raha hai ... Mera ... Main ...

Saans ni aa ri ... She whispered painfully ...

Shhhh ... He caressed her ... Poured the water in glass ... He made her sip it ... She calmed down a little ... He not even for a second left her ... Locked her frame more in his embrace not wanting her to go away from him ...

Par ajj akhri baar .. iske baad tum kabhi nahi rougi ... Ye tumhare sidharth ka tumse wada hai ... He whispered kissing her knuckles touching it to his eyes ...

Unhone mujhe ... Main .. main manhoos hu kya sidharth ? ... She asked such innocently making his heart bleed more ...

Nahi ... Mera bacha ... Bilkul nahi... Mere liye tumse jyada pure ... Tumse jyada Sacha koi nai hai ... Tum trust karti ho na apne sidharth ko ? ...he asked ...

Khud se jyada ... She whispered leaning ... Keeping her head on his head ... Closed her eyes exhausted ...

Khushbuo se teri mehke har ek kamra
Dar o deewar nahi

Kaafi hai teri panah

Main ... Mujhse pyaar karna tumhari galti toh ni hai na ...she whispered all of a sudden ...

Main ... Main janti hu main ... Tumhe deserve nahi karti main ... Par ... Mujhe apni galti mat manna kabhi ... Pls ...she whispered her hold on his shirt tightened his heart scattered ...

Tum ... Mujhe deserve karti ho ... Meri taraf dekho naaz ... He made her look at him ... By lifting her face ...

Sidharth sirf naaz ka hai ... Or usse sirf naaz deserve karti hai ... Or koi nahi ... Agar tum mujhe deserve hi na karti toh shayad ajj taha hota hi nahi naaz ... Kyuki sidharth sirf naaz ka hai.... Sirf naaz ka ..

Tum mujhe choroge toh ni na ... She asked her lips quivered ...

Bhala koi apne dil ko chorh sakta hai ? ...he asked ... Ever so lovingly ... Her body language calmed down ... As she smiles a little tears stream down .. 

Sidharth ... I love you ... She whispered crying hugging him ...

Naaz ... I love you too ... Apne sidharth ko maaf kardo ... Usne tumhe itna dukh Diya ...

Nahi diya ... Koi dukh ni Diya ... Samjhee ... Mera sidharth apni naaz ko kabhi dukh ni de sakta ...

Hn wo thoda idhar udhar bhatak jata hai ... Par uski biwi hai na ... Ab usko kahi ni jaane degi ...she giggles holding his collers ...

Tumhara pati hai ... Biwi ...Jo karna hai karo ... Tumhara haq hai ...he whispered smiling hugging her closer... kissing her head ...

Pakkaa ....she giggles pulling him closer pecking his lips his eyes widen ...

She giggles hiding her face in his neck finally felt that the heavyness residing on her heart fading away ...

Biwi waise toh ajj ke baad aisi galti kabhi ni hogi ... Par agar kabhi ho bhi ... Toh pls apne pati ko datna marna ... Par chorhna mat ... He whispered

Kabhi naii patiii ... Kyuki ...

Tu ki jaane baarishan de wangu barsaan

Zindagi haseen hai je tu mere naal ve ❤️

His eyes welled up ... Her smile fades away ... As she nods her head in no ...

I love you ... He whispered smiling ... Finally having his love in his arms ...

I love you too ... She whispered... Kissing his whole face ... At last. . she ends up being his arms that's what matters to her heart ...

Both of them giggles wiping each other's face ...

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Hope you all liked ittt ... The last part ... Epilogue left 🤧❤️

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