Author's note: I understand this chapter is a little out of context, I did that for the sole purpose of making it fit my ideas. Warning: There are some mentions of abuse in this chapter. There are also spoilers for season one.

"There's about a zero percent chance that JJ goes home." Kie replied to me as I wiped the fallen tears from my red cheeks.
That's how that dreadful day ended. With JJ walking off with stolen money from Barry, not telling anyone where he was going or when he was coming back. Those events lead me to where I am now. Standing in front of the boy I love, my whole world, as he crashes down. I catch his gaze from outside his new hot tub and almost break down from remembering this day's past events.

"That's exactly what I'm gonna do. Go off by myself," JJ stated as he pulled the bag onto his back and starting walking away.

It wasn't until I saw JJ halfway down the road until I was snapped out of my haze and took off running towards him. "JJ! Please wait!" I begged; JJ just ignored me like he didn't even hear me shouting right behind him. I thought for a second maybe he actually couldn't hear me based on how he was reacting. "JJ please!" I tried again, in arms reach behind him. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. I hated ever grabbing JJ or holding him back due to the fact that I didn't want to hurt him, and I don't want to cause any more pain for him than he is already faced with. Hell, I never even liked to playfight with him, but he needed to at least hear me out before he just runs off. I reached out and grabbed JJ's wrist from behind him as gently, yet firmly, as I could.

When he turned around I saw more rage in him that I have ever seen in anyone my entire life, but he finally stopped and turned to me. "Y/n let go," he demanded.

I loosened my grip but didn't let go, I couldn't. "My love, you need to tell me what is going on right now with you," I pleaded. "Please, don't leave us J, we need you, okay? I need you."

"Yeah, well, I don't need you," JJ replied harshly.

In that moment I felt a wide range of emotions. Heartbroken by JJ's words; saddened that he was gonna walk away from the Pouges; angry at his outlashes; confused as to why he just won't let me help him. All these emotions and thoughts and all I could get out was, "W-what? I d-don't understand I-"

"I don't need you, Y/n, never did. I don't have to explain anything to you." JJ spat.

That's when anger took over for me. "So what..this whole summer meant nothing to you?! This..this..relationship! What did that mean? Our friendship that started in the fifth grade when you and John B let me hang out with y'all.. what was that?! Or...or what about all those late nights where you would come and knock on my window begging me to let you in because you couldn't sleep at night? Huh? You said you loved me, remember? What about tha-" that's when I felt it. A sharp pain across my left cheek.                                                                                               Something I would have never in a million years have guessed JJ would have done to me. Instantly tears weld up in my eyes, and not because of the pain but because I was done. Done with this conversation and done with JJ's random outbursts. Especially done with my boyfriend shutting me out. I forced myself to look into JJ's rage filled eyes and instantly I knew he regretted it and didn't mean it. His ocean blues where now also weld up with tears and his face was full of regret and panic. 

"Y/n I- I'm so sorry! I- I don't know why I did that. I would never hurt you! Please!" JJ sobbed.

JJ took a step towards me but now it was my turn to pull away. Not because I was afraid of him, but because I was afraid of further escalating the situation. I wasn't sure how my emotions were gonna make me react either. JJ seemed to take it the first way though because his face just radiated instant sadness.

"You wanna leave? Then Leave." I replied choking back my tears turning back to the Pouges. Opposite ways from JJ. Opposite ways from my boyfriend who I still love, not knowing if I'll ever know why he turned me away in the end. *end of flashback*

"I got a hot tub! For my friends.. I got a hot tub for my friends. You know what? No, you know what? Scew friends. I got a hot tub for my family! For my f-family and for my girlfriend who I screwed it all up with! F-for her! JJ sobbed pulling me out of my memories.

Everything made so much more sense now. Looking at JJ and his bruised body and scarred face, I knew. Of course I always knew of his home life, I was the one he would come to in the middle of the night..bruised...in need of love and care. I knew in this moment why he had been acting so weird lately, it had gotten worse... much..much..worse. I shook my head and ran over to the hot tub stepping in and hugging JJ as tightly as possible, careful to not touch his bruises.

"I just couldn't do it. I can't take him anymore! I was gonna kill him... I just wanna do the right thing," JJ sobbed into my now wet shoulder. "I-I'm so.. so sorry Y/n.. I never wanted to hurt you. I'm so sorry..I-I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore. I'm just like him, I am," JJ cried.

"Shhh I've got you..I've got you," I replied staying strong for the boy I love. Again, I couldn't reply not knowing what to say. So, I held onto my whole world and said the only thing I knew for sure in that moment.

"I love you."

Author's note (again): Sorry y'all this chapter was sad. I am making a part two for this. Also, I would like to say abusive relationships are not okay and if y'all ever need to talk please let me know. I don't think JJ would ever hit his s/o but for the plot of this chapter it had to happen (sorry!). Thanks for reading y'all! Please leave comments/suggestions and ideas:)