You didn't remember what happened at first, but once you remember, you apologized even though you didn't feel the need to. You didn't want them to be scared of you because you liked them enough to keep them alive. Aizawa took you shopping for Christmas, which was something you never did. Holidays were something your parents celebrated with each other and never you. One year, you got a severed head, and that was it. You, of course, screamed in terror, and they laughed at you, so you didn't want that to happen again.

Apparently, you didn't get severed bleeding heads for Christmas; who knew? It didn't take you long to shop for everyone, and wrapping presents was easy since you had wrapped body parts in boxes before. Christmas was here before anyone knew it, and they had presents around the tree since villains had made a bomb threat and were targeting particular students, so they had to stay there for Christmas. Everyone bought small gifts for each other. But they weren't going to open them until later.

You never had a snowball fight and didn't see the point in it, but your class was trying to teach you about it. Bakugo was not going easy on anyone, of course, and you were trying, but you couldn't get the hang of it because you had no feelings. Bakugo hit you so hard with one you fell to the ground, but you weren't angry about it; you just laid there since Kirishima made you wear so many layers.

You couldn't feel cold, so you didn't understand why you needed the layers, but he didn't want you to freeze to death in front of them.

"Y/n, are you just going to lay there?" Kirishima laughed as he went to your side.

"Yes, it is cold," you said.

"Come on, you and me against Bakugo!" He said as he helped you up.

"It is a game; he didn't and hasn't killed anyone yet," you explained as Kirishima laughed at you.

"I know that! Come on, we need to see if we can get him once. He hasn't been hit once yet," he said.

"I can get him," you said as you made a snowball and approached Bakugo.

"Is this right?" You asked as Bakugo paused.

"Needs to be bigger," he said as you got more snow and packed it onto the one you already made.

"Better?" You asked.

"Yeah," he said as you hit him with it and walked away.

"What the hell was that?!" He yelled as Mezou hit him with several snowballs after you hit him with yours.

The ones who saw it laughed hard, and Kirishima was on his knees crying with laughter. You may not have had feelings, but you had used your inexperience to your advantage.

"That was amazing!" He laughed as you used your chains to save Minoru from falling out of a tree.

"It was a strategy," you said as you saw Aizawa and made your chains retract.

"Time to go inside, guys," he said as you looked at your watch and noticed it was almost time for lunch.

"Great, we can eat, and then we can open presents!" Kirishima said as you helped him up.

"Oh yeah!!!" Minoru said, hoping to see girls' underwear, but he would be disappointed.

You all ate and then went to the tree. Minoru found a present from you; he was very cautious about it, knowing your straightforward nature.

"Go first, Minoru," Denki said.

"Why does he get to go first? Yuga asked.

"Y/n got him that; her gifts are going to be awesome," Denki said with a chuckle.

"Can't argue there, they will be very blunt," Fumikage said, not sure if he was ready to get burned by you on Christmas.

Minoru wanted to put your back, but everyone wanted to see what you got him. He slowly opened it, hoping it wasn't going to be weird, but to his surprise, it was a Bible and a book on healthy relationships, making people bust up laughing.

"Here me next! Here, Y/n," Kirishima said as he gave you a small box, and you unwrapped it, revealing a cactus in a pot with hearts on it.

The others started separating their gifts, and you were holding the plant. Not confused, just content with it.

"Like it? I know it's just a plant, but it reminds me of you. It may not belong in this climate, but with enough care, it will live for a long time and become very beautiful," he said as you looked at him.

"You think I'm beautiful?" You asked, a bit confused.

"Well, yeah... I mean, you have grown a lot, and you made our lives more interesting," he said.

"I almost killed you," you said.

"Yeah, but you couldn't help it, and you didn't hurt any of us. It was an accident, that's all," Kirishima said as you looked at him.

"It was, I will water the plant," you said as you went to water it.

"Wait not to much water they don't need that much!" He said as he followed you.

You put some water in it and put it on the table. You made sure there was no water leaking from it and went to him and looked at the plant.

"It is a very nice plant. I will keep it alive as long as I can," you said as he smiled.

"I know you will; you kept us alive for a while; a plant will be easier," he chuckled as you were about to leave, but he was going to leave simultaneously.

You looked up to see the missile toe you had put up, and he looked at it.

"Oh," he said as you looked at him.

"You said people kiss under these," you said as he turned red.

"Y/n I'm not going to kiss you because you don't have feelings so to me it would be taking advantage of you plus I never kissed a girl ever," he said.

"You can kiss me if you want," you said.

"What?! Y/n, I can't!" He said mostly because it will be going against his morals.

"Why?" You asked.

"Because you are my friend! You don't have feelings and I want your first kiss to mean something to you," he said nervously.

"I don't necessarily see you as my friend. Oddly, I see you as... you know how an animal chooses a mate. I see you like a mate I think. It's hard to explain but you always spend time with me and explain things I don't understand. I don't see you how I see Aizawa or as I see Shoto, Izuku, or Bakugo. I also don't see you as a normal friend. It's just different," you explained as he looked at you shocked.

"What?!" He asked.

"It's why I won't mind you kissing me; everyone else I will say no to but you," you explained.

"When did you release this?" He asked.

"I don't know, maybe since I almost killed you," you said said as you grabbed his face and kissed him shocking him.

Aizawa dropped his mug in pure shock making it break on the floor and the other students were just as shocked. You pulled away and looked at him making his face turn beyond red. Your head started hurting and you backed away from him as you started projectial vomiting blood. It was a little it was like you were holding water in your mouth and spat it out.

"Y/n?!" Kirishima asked as you fell to your knees and started violently throwing up blood and holding your head as your skill lit on fire but also changed into the Reaper form you almost killed him with.

Your body was struggling and it was changing back and forth making Kirishima quickly use his Harding quirk ready to fight you. He held your hair back as a puddle of blood formed on the floor and everyone was panicking.

Aizawa was going to use his quirk on you but he thought this was it. You were dying and finally your body was giving up. Aizawa went next to you while Kirishima was trying to figure out what was going on.

"Y/n just breath okay!" Kirishima said not knowing what else to do.

"Kirishima, she's dying I think. Her time is up," he said as Kirishima started to tear up.

"No, no, no, Y/n you are going to be fine okay," he said as youwere changing faster and faster going between your three forms.

Blood was everywhere and if it was a normal person you were going to be dead. There was no way around it. The lights were flickering and some of the light bulbs exploded. Suddenly it all stopped and you were back to normal. Your head hurt and you couldn't hear anything. Your ears were ringing and you spat out the last bit of the blood as you held your head.

"Y/n?" Kirishima asked as the ringing in your ears stopped.

You three were covered in your blood and Shoto and Bakugo got towles to help clean it up since there wasn't anything se they could do. The rest of the class was silent waiting to see if they were going to have to fight you or not. You opened your eyes a bit and saw blood on the floor. The light was oddly bright to your eyes but once you adjusted and heard Kirishima and Aizawa trying to talk to you, you took your hands off your ears slowly.

You looked up at Kirishima and your face turned bright red which had never happened before. Then you felt something. A heart beat, your heart beat. You could hear it pounding in your chest while you were staring at Kirishima.

"Y/n what happened are you okay? Do you not remember us now?" Aizawa asked as you looked at him and looked at the blood.

You remembered the parenting books he got to try to help you. Got several psychologist to help you but they all said the same thing; you were beyond helping. He took you places you never went when you were smaller. Took you to the store to get you pads and tampons but had no idea which ones to get you and you also didn't have periods either since you were dead. Taught you how to drive even though he wasn't actively teaching you because he wanted you to have feelings first. The dinners he maid you and making sure you slept or at least here in your bed. Rethought you basic things like chores, how to use a phone even though he wasn't good at it himself, how to handle the press so they wouldn't try to go after you even though you didn't care.

Kirishima and your friends spent hours teaching you how to read body language and faces and how to cook again. Bakugo making sure you didn't come to porn sights because you were just curious. All your friends trying to make you a person again and the things you and Kirishima did without the others like reading books, shopping sometimes, watching him nap, helping him with school work, going into the boys showers to see if he needed help or the others. Him giving you things just because he felt like it. The talks you had and the memories of you almost killing him, him visiting your grave. He wasn't even angry at you for it. None of them were. They joked about it and played it off like it was nothing at all. The plant Kirishima got for you and saying you were beautiful even though you couldn't feel anything at all.

Tears started rolling down your face making Kirishima and Aizawa look at you shocked and horrified.

"What's going in is this like stomach acid or something? Did you run out of blood?!" Kirishima asked as you started crying.

It was ugly crying and Aizawa looked at you shocked.

"You have feelings now?" He asked as you were crying uncontrollably to the point you could barely breath.

"Holly shit," Bakugo said as he put some towels down and Kirishima hugged you and so did Aizawa who honestly didn't know how to react to this.

"I told you we will fix this," Kirishima said trying not to cry.

"I can feel you guys hugging me, I love you both so much," you cried as you hugged them even though you all were sitting in your blood.

You didn't want to let go of them go and you smiled knowing fully well you actually had people who cared about you and wanted to see you get better.