Tanjiro was worried sick about you and didn't want to leave your side even after you woke up. You told him how Tokito left you to fend for yourself, and you avoided him like the plague the entire time he was there. You refused to eat with him, and you went to the opposite side of the building to sleep. You never spoke to him even when he left. You didn't say goodbye.

Oddly enough, your actions spoke volumes to people, and it was starting to bother Tokito. He used you being around him and talking to him. You never stopped talking to trying to get him to say anything back. He would ignore you often and pretend he was listening to whatever it was you were talking about. He tried making it up to you, but his apologies turned into insults, which in return got him smacked across the face.

One apology that turned into an insult made you so angry you ran from him and started crying all because he said you would never be a good mother and you were a rather bad Hashira. He then tried giving you things you liked to make up for it but you threw them back in his face because he still didn't know what he did wrong. He thought he was right in leaving you to fight off a demon that you were capable of defeating, but you took a devastating hit that almost cost you your life. He flat-out told you you were stupid for taking hits for him and asked you why you did it. You never answered the why. You avoided it at all costs. You were protecting something he just wasn't sure what, but whatever it was, it meant a lot to you.

After he left, you and Tanjiro went to get him a new sword from the swordsman village. You weren't a hundred percent but good enough to travel. The other two were sent off to different missions. The way there was long and tiring, but once you were there, you ate with Tanjiro and his sister.

"Y/n, he's not that bad he just needs some time to how to express himself properly," he said as you rolled your eyes.

"Have you heard the way he talks down to me?" You asked, "I have done everything I could to make him feel like he belongs like he's a person like he has someone to come back to or to talk to but he doesn't want that at least not with me. You can be friends with him all you want but I'm done. He left me to die, and my crow will tell you for a fact he did. I'm just tired of it and not being valued as a person," you sighed as the door opened, and it was Tokito. You immediately stopped eating and quickly left without saying a word.

"Y/n? You haven't finished eating!" He said you went to your room and shut the door.

"Tokito, did you not help her when she asked for it?" Tanjiro asked.

A little while later, you decided to take a bath in the hot spring, and boy, did you need it. You were spiraling out of control. You were frustrated that you were so nice to Tokito all the time, and then he insulted you over and over again. It hurt you a lot, especially because you tried to give him the benefit of the doubt, but now you know he never really cared about you at all. It hurt a lot, especially because you put in a lot of effort in trying to help him.

You were alone in the hot spring. Your back was riddled with scars from your past battles and trauma. You had a human bite mark on your shoulder that was now a scar and burn scars as well. All the insults Tokito had given you started to weigh on you heavily, and you now wanted to go home. It hurt you more than I thought it would, but maybe he was right about everything. Tears started to go well in your eyes, and you started crying. All you seemed to do was cry now because you felt so alone all the time, and you were stressed out. All you wanted to do was to talk to someone about it, and originally, you were going to finally tell Tokito why you became a demon slayer, but now you knew what he thought of you. It hurts worse than bottling up all your negative emotions. You were going to try to talk to Tanjiro about it, but you were afraid of the judgment that was heading your way.

You tried to force yourself to stop crying because it was stupid how some people had it harder than you did, and you started to have more meltdowns because of little things that happened. You were behind a large rock because you didn't want anyone to see how bad your back was. The scars were bad even though they faded away with time and remedies.

After talking with Tanjiro for a bit, Tokito decided to apologize to you. You did help him along, and he didn't mean to say those things to you. He did, but you were already mad, and he didn't know how to make you happy.

You weren't going to be a good mother because you were a better Hashira. But he stopped halfway after seeing the rage in your eyes, resulting in you slapping him hard across the face. You weren't a good Hashira because you spent too much time worrying about him to fend for yourself. But like always, he stopped talking because the rage in your eyes was there. You were angry when he asked you questions about your past that you never gave him answers to, and when you kept pushing, you changed the subject as fast as you could. Now he made you angry at him because he left you to die more than once. He insulted you by accident, and worst of all, he proved that all the time you spent with him trying to help him was useless even though he liked spending time with you a lot.

It didn't show, and sometimes it did annoy him how much you wanted to take him places, but it was just your personality. You wanted him to feel included and cared for, and you did that even though he hated it a bit. If it wasn't for you trying so hard to be there with him every second of the day, then maybe you wouldn't have gotten hurt so much. If he cared more, maybe you wouldn't have to take unnecessary risks for him. He had looked everywhere for you but he couldn't find you so the spring was the last resort.

He saw your clothes folded by the spring, and then he heard you crying. He heard you cry several times and also tried to get you to leave because this job wasn't for you. It had been getting worse throughout the month, and he couldn't figure out why. He asked you flat out why, and you would say that you were snoring and he mistook it for you crying. He knew the difference and knew something was wrong. Maybe that was why he was being so mean deep down he was trying to get you to leave so you would be happy. He messed up a lot with you, and now there was probably no way to fix it. Even with apologies, you were going to remember what he said to you and also the times he left you to die. Some were on purpose because he didn't know you were taking hits for him, so he thought you were just being needy.

You moved a bit, and he could see a slash mark on your back that was old. Then, a partial bite mark that was clearly from a human set of teeth.

"Tomorrow, just make it until tomorrow," you said as you calmed yourself down.

"Y/n?" Tokito asked, making you scream in terror and hide from him.

"What the hell are you doing?!" You screamed, realizing you probably made all the Hashiras here panic, and now they were going to try to find you.

"The others are coming, I didn't know if you were up here, so I went to check," he said as he got your clothes, making you angry.

"You can't leave me alone, can you? We aren't friends anymore. We might have the same goals, but you have a completely messed up mindset!" You yelled as you were trying to cover up the best you could.

That's when he saw another bite mark on your shoulder that was more defined than the other one on your back.

"Where did you get that bite mark?" He asked as he tossed your clothes on the rock.

"None of your fucking business! I'm tired of you asking me questions about my past because it seems so important to you, but I know it's not! If you want to say I'm going to be a horrible mother, fine! That I'm a horrible Hashira! That I'm useless and worthless to have a round I get it! I already know all those things and you have to make it worse by reminding me! I'm so tired of you saying that crap to me after all I have been trying to do is help you get your memories back! I don't know why I even tried to be friends with you and you would know where most of my scars came from if you treated me like a person and as a friend instead of a replaceable piece of trash!" You yelled as you grabbed your clothes and went behind the rock again to change.

"Y/n," he paused.

"I don't want to hear your so-called apologies, I don't want to hear your voice or see you ever again! I hate you, and I wish I never became a Hashira! I wish I had never met you!" You screamed as you ran out of the water fully dressed and heading back to your room passing Genya and Tanjiro.

Tokito stood there shocked, but also he felt sad he never really felt sad, but you saying that stuff to him hurt him. He wanted to be your friend again. He wanted you to annoy him. He wanted to go with you to all the festivals even though he didn't like them much since you kept tying a string to him so you wouldn't lose him. He didn't mean to make you feel bad about yourself like that or to hurt you so bad you wouldn't tell him what the bite marks were about. He wished he was a better friend to you, but he didn't have any feelings, really, and he said what was on his mind even if it hurt your feelings.

That night, Tanjiro and Tokito were with each other again, talking about what happened and other things. Suddenly, the door opened, and a demon came into the room, making starestair at it shocked.

You came up from behind, and and tried to cut off its head, but it moved too fast. You were covered in blood, and it loomed like you had been fighting for a while.

"I was screaming for you idiots!" You growled as you pulled out a spike that was in your leg and passed out on the floor.